Kuai Chuan Zhi Won't Love You Again

Chapter 39

The decision to have surgery is actually the result of careful consideration.

The Grim Reaper carries a black sickle every day, and he can't see anyone in his eyes, as if he just needs you.You can't avoid it, you can't escape, you don't dare to blink your eyes, for fear that the knife will fall on your head at some point.

No one wants to die.

But no one can control their own death.If we can choose, we must be willing to live a long, safe, happy and happy life.What's more, we always have something to look forward to.After finally feeling such a little bit of warmth, who is willing to take the initiative to let go?

If there is really no other way, you might as well fight against death.Maybe lucky enough to survive in this world for a while.If you're not so lucky, it's God's will.It's better to just work hard for yourself than to choose to bow your head and give in so hopelessly.

Su Nianen turned on the computer and put the disc in it. The old disc was running into the computer, making an unpleasant sound.A half hour video.It was about ten years ago, that girl named Jiang Li taught others how to make up on the screen.She is not a particularly beautiful girl, but she is genuine and natural and very popular with everyone.Su Nianen didn't know how many times she had repeated this matter.Maybe more than ten times, maybe more than twenty times, or even more.In the Internet age, everything is updated so quickly, the former Jiang Li has long since faded from the public's sight, and the crueler fact is that she can be loved, but cannot be remembered.The only person who cared about her the most, habitually looked at these discs every time before making an important decision, and watched the girl who was already a stranger at the other end with high spirits.

She often said to herself, okay, Nian En, if you die, you can probably find her in another world.If she relented, you can still be together.No matter what your identity is, it doesn't matter.Sometimes there is a little bit of fear, fear of dying so silently, without any memory of the past after death, so I become as lonely as before.So always tell yourself to live.After all, when he was alive, he still had her memories as companions, even if he was dying, but once he died, would he lose all those original things?

In fact, I am fortunate that after ten long years, I finally waited for her return.I got her gratitude and enjoyed her warmth, watched her be cautious in front of me like a child, and watched her run to the bathroom crying very carefully in the middle of the night, suddenly felt that it was still meaningful.No one is willing to refuse the love of others. If they really refuse, it means that there is a more important reason than this.She struggled on the line of life and death for ten years, suffered for ten years, recalled for ten years, and fell for ten years. It was really worthwhile to hear her love from the bottom of her heart before she died.Maybe this worthiness is mixed with her slight sadness and pleasure like revenge, but in the end, it makes her feel warm.It's just such a pity that what they missed was not only this ten years?Maybe there are many more.

Su Nianen pulled out the disc, put it in the drawer, and locked it with a small golden lock.With a slight voice, it seemed as if the dust had settled in my heart suddenly, and those floating thoughts also settled down, falling into the bottom of the unfathomable valley.

As soon as his hand left the table, Zheng Feng opened the door and walked in.

"All arranged?" Su Nianen spoke first.

"Well, let's go now?"

Su Nianen nodded, pushing the wheelchair with some difficulty.Zheng Feng came over, pushed the wheelchair lightly and it started to move.

"Zheng Feng."

"what happened?"

"...It's okay, I just want to call you all of a sudden."

Su Nianen remained silent after speaking.

Close the door and lock it, and those memories are quietly placed in the dust.

Nesting in Zheng Feng's arms, he glanced at the house where he had lived for many years, then lowered his head.Su Nianen closed her eyes, as if going back many years ago, Zheng Feng was also holding her.

From now on, this is your home.He told her.

Hope to come back in the future.Su Nian'en thought.

Su Nianen received preliminary treatment in the hospital for nearly half a month.As if nothing happened, An Li came to take care of her when she had time, and later became a professional nurse. Ning Chenzhou was still very busy, but she would often come to see her.The busiest person was probably Zheng Feng. Apart from observing Su Nianen's condition from time to time, he also had to work out an operation plan with several doctors in the hospital.

Time passed faster than imagined.Perhaps it is a psychological effect, the more afraid it will slip away, the harder it is to keep it, which intensifies a certain fear.After Su Nianen went to the bathroom to wash her hands, she looked at herself in the mirror in a daze.Thinking about it carefully, she has been here for more than ten years, really ten years.Every minute, every second, every choice is spent by oneself.Although there was Zheng Feng, An Li, and Xiao Rong, but when they really wanted to leave, there was a hint of relief.

"Nianen?" An Li stood outside and knocked heavily on the glass door.

"I'm here." Su Nianen opened the door and let out a long breath when she saw the other party.

"what time is it now?"

"It's past six o'clock."

"Oh." Su Nianen rubbed her temples, "I want to lie down for a while."

Su Nianen lay on the bed for a while.An Li sat on a chair and watched her.She was probably more nervous than the other party, and the unspeakable urgency made An Li feel that something was stuffed in her throat.

"Little Li, are you nervous?"

"No!" An Li was taken aback, "Zheng Feng is the main knife, why should I worry if he's already out?"

"Well, that's good..." Su Nianen smiled sweetly, "Don't be afraid, I'll be fine tomorrow."

"I know, I will take you on a trip when you feel better."

"That..." An Li hesitated, "Nian En..."

"what happened?"

"I want to give you a present."

"What gift?"

Just as he was talking, Zheng Feng opened the door and came in.Glancing at An Li next to her, she asked two nurses to go over, "The surgery is about to start, you guys should start preparing."

Surgery starts at eight o'clock.

When being pushed into the operating room, Su Nianen looked up at An Li, "Xiao Li, can you give me a gift after I come out?"

"...Okay..." An Li held her hand, "You must come out."

"Will do."

"Shen Zhou." Su Nianen called Shen Zhou's name again.

Shen Zhou also walked by, looking travel-stained, with a bit of fatigue on his face.

"Please." Su Nianen said softly.

Ning Chenzhou was taken aback.He unconsciously looked at An Li on the side, breathing heavily, "I..."

"Please." Su Nianen said again.

If I really can't stay with her, please take good care of her.

Maybe I can't do it.

It's a request...but yes, please.

Su Nianen was pushed into the operating room.

An Li has been following Su Nianen.She felt that the road to the operating room was very long, and she was unwilling to stop for the rest of her life.

"Little Li, are you afraid?"

"I'm not afraid." An Li grabbed her hand and said suddenly, "I will wait for you, for the rest of my life."

An Li couldn't see Su Nianen's expression, she could only watch Zheng Feng and a few doctors walk in, the only sound in the corridor was the footsteps of a few people.The empty and silent corridor was filled with the smell of disinfectant, everything was like a dream.

There had never been such a panic, not even that fire, and no one felt so hopeless.An Li sat on a chair outside.

"Drink some water." Ning Chenzhou handed her the water.

An Li took the water, raised her head and poured it down.The cool water made her wake up a little bit.

"The operation will take six hours."

"Correct."

An Li raised her throat, "Shen Zhou, I'm suddenly scared."

"Afraid God was just playing with me. Like playing with a clown."

She watched a movie when she was young.In the movie, the heroine said to her first love, how can there be so many good things, you will leave, and I can't stay here and wait for you.That should be a very long memory, but it spanned the lives of two people, as if some kind of omen suddenly appeared in the brain.

Never felt that waiting is such a tiring thing.An Li leaned against the wall, slowly closed her eyes, and heard someone talking in a daze.She wanted to open her eyes, but couldn't.

The footsteps gradually faded away, and through the tiny gap, she saw Su Nianen wearing a white skirt, walking briskly in the corridor.She couldn't see herself, she just walked forward, leaving a white and thin back.The whole world was silent, and the only sober self wanted to bid her farewell.

"She seems to be able to see you." The system landed on her shoulders, and the silver-gray body looked terrifying under the light.

"Didn't you stop the world, how could she still see me?" Su Nian asked a little strangely.

"I have no idea!"

"Have all the data been saved?"

"Well, it's all done."

Su Nian patted it, "Then let's go home."

"But...but what about her?"

"What should I do?" Su Nian directly skipped the system's question, "I've done everything I should do, and it has nothing to do with you and me."

"Okay then..." The system was a little frustrated, "Let's not stay in the modern world in the next world, okay...it's so boring..."

"Where to go then?"

"Ancient times!" The system looked at her with great interest, "How about the fantasy world?"

"It's not that good." Su Nian pouted.

"Martial arts are always okay, right?"

"Even worse."

"Then which world are you going to?"

"...Uh...let's stay in modern times."

"No, yes, yes!" The angry system jumped up, "We've been here for too long..."

"..."

"sleepy……"

"Su Nian...Su Nian!! Wake up!"

………………

An Li watched her disappear around the corner.She wanted to call her, but couldn't make a sound.I don't know who took a picture of her.She opened her eyes abruptly, and saw Ning Chenzhou sitting beside her.At some point, she leaned on Ning Chenzhou's shoulder.

"You slept so deeply that you can't wake up no matter how you scream." Shen Zhou frowned and said, "The time is coming soon."

An Li looked at the watch on her phone, looked around, and felt a "thump" in her heart.

The door of the operating room also opened at this time, and Zheng Feng's white coat was particularly conspicuous.Shen Zhou helped the pale-faced An Li to walk in front of him, and asked what he wanted to say the most.

"How about surgery?"

Zheng Feng looked at An Li, and the words seemed to be squeezed out one by one, "She's fine."

Shen Zhou breathed a sigh of relief, but An Li grabbed his arm at that moment.

"she's fine?"

"...Yes, she walked very quietly."

After Zheng Feng finished speaking, he fell to the ground.

At the moment when he fell into the darkness, he seemed to hear the sharp howling of the machine again, and he saw the line representing Su Nianen's life ups and downs, fell into a trough in the chaos, and then fell into a peaceful silence.Eyes full of blood, only to see them unscrupulously shed down the operating table.Su Nianen, who was supposed to be asleep, suddenly woke up and held his hand tightly.That was the last word he heard about her.

She said, "Zheng Feng, I'm fine. Thank you."

Then he smiled and let go of his hand.

She may have had no time to talk about An Li, Shen Zhou, and the details of these years, or she may have finished everything and prepared everything before leaving.But when she was dying, the person in her eyes was finally him.

We all try our best, I know that.Zheng Feng put down the scalpel and walked out with flamboyant steps.

A new start.Su Nianen never started again.