inexhaustible

Chapter 42 Goodbye, Professor Bei

"Russell's ethics associate morality with human desires. He believes that there is a 'spirit' above instinct. The spirit makes us no longer selfish and allows us to empathize with others. Therefore, value judgments transcend individuals and belong to the entire human desire. expression, that is, the expression of 'hope'. We regard something as 'evil', but actually 'hope' that no one will encounter such a thing. There is still a lot of controversy in ethics, and his ethics is full of It’s not very tenable. He hopes to have a world full of emotions but not become violent and out of control because of emotions. Everyone discusses beauty and wisdom together, which itself is an absolute idealism..."

After the speech, the audience applauded gradually, and I went to the backstage lounge under the guidance of the staff.

"Teacher, do you want to take a rest here or go to the airport now?"

I booked a flight back to Qingwan at [-]:[-] p.m., and it's already one o'clock. Go early to wait, and wait here. It's better to go to the airport early and wait with peace of mind.

"Take me to the airport."

The staff nodded in response, and hurriedly coordinated the vehicle for me.

Two days passed in a blink of an eye, the event was successfully concluded, and I should go back to Qingwan, to my home.But to be honest, I hope that the lecture will continue for a week, half a month, a month... so that I have an excuse not to go back.

The organizer specially called a barrier-free taxi for me. It was very convenient to get up and down, and I didn't have to bother others.

An hour later, I arrived at the airport, checked the wheelchair, and replaced it with a special wheelchair for the plane. After that, I went through the security check with my ticket and went to wait near the boarding gate.

Two hours before boarding, I took out a copy of "Little Logic" from my bag, and I didn't know how many times I read it from the beginning.

As for books, people should not disregard them just because they have read them; as for words, they should not despise them just because they know them.

Every book is a learning from the past, and you can always draw some strength from it.There is no useless reading in this world.

I was so absorbed in the vast philosophical theories that I didn't even respond to someone calling my name.It wasn't until the other party gently pushed me with his hand that I came back to my senses and looked at the other party in amazement.

"He...doctor?"

"What a coincidence." A small suitcase was parked at He Weizhou's feet, and he was still holding a ticket that was the same as mine. Don't think about it, he should also be a passenger of this plane.

There is such a coincidence in the world...

"Hello." I nodded politely at him, "What a coincidence."

Although I don't know each other well, I do know each other anyway, and I took the same plane again, and the other party took the seat next to me as a matter of course.

"I'm going home for the New Year, how about you? Are you here to play?" He Weizhou asked.

"No, I'm here to attend the lecture." Turning over a page of the book, I focused on talking to him, "It's only the fourth day of junior high school, are you leaving now?"

"That's enough, the little animals won't get sick just because of the Chinese New Year, so go back early and start work early. By the way, how is the puppy? If you have time, take it to my place for a follow-up visit."

My fingertips paused, I felt a little guilty, I cleared my throat and said, "It's being raised by my friend now, it's pretty good, but... I don't like walking, I don't know if there is some psychological shadow."

I don't know if Shang Muxiao returned the dog. I knew that he would have taken the dog away at his house that day.If he refuses to return it, I really can't explain it to Yu Xixi. The little girl waited for two months and bought all the equipment...

"Don't you like walking yet?" He Weizhou said in amazement, "Then let your friend take it to see when you have time."

"...Okay." I can only nod besides nodding.

The topic came to an end for a while, and I turned my attention back to the book.

After a while, He Weizhou suddenly said, "Is it that friend from last time?"

I looked up from the book again, surprised that he would ask so directly and so abruptly.As a mature social person, I think it is a consensus that does not need to be reiterated.

"Yes, it's him."

I think the "discomfort" in my expression was a bit obvious, and he felt it.

"Sorry, did I ask something I shouldn't have asked?" He Weizhou quickly explained, "When it comes to small animals, I will become very emotionally unintelligent. Don't be angry. Just... your friend seems to have a bad temper , I'm not sure he has enough patience to deal with a car accident dog. Dogs, like people, need constant love and encouragement."

Although he was indeed a little offended, he would not be angry, and... what he said was true.

"Just let him keep it temporarily, and the puppy will be sent to its real adopter soon." I said.

He Weizhou breathed a sigh of relief: "That's good."

He Weizhou and I are both business seats, so we got priority boarding, but he sat next to me, which made me a little dumbfounded, and he exclaimed "what a coincidence" again.

This Dr. He looks intellectually indifferent, but in fact he is very good at chatting and can chat about anything.Astronomy, geography, music and religion, there is nothing he can't keep up with, and they have a good chat along the way.

He is even a fan of vinyl records. Knowing that I have a vinyl disc of Bach's Unaccompanied Cello Suite played by Fournier, I was so excited that I must lend it to him, and he can take pictures of his collection. , let me exchange.

After getting off the plane, he asked me if I had a car to pick me up, and said that he had parked his car in the airport garage. If I didn't have a car to pick me up, he could take his car, which happened to be on the way.

My first reaction was to refuse. At this point, I was afraid that he would run into Shang Muxiao like last time.But before the words came out, he swallowed them just in time.

Why am I afraid that they will not hit?This line of thinking is wrong.

I have already broken up with Shang Muxiao, is it possible that I need to get his approval to be friends with anyone?

I figured it out, and to prove that I didn't care, I generously invited He Weizhou to my house to get that plate of Fournier that he had been longing for.

What I said really reached his heart, he was overjoyed when he heard that, his cheeks flushed slightly with excitement.

"Won't it bother you?"

"will not."

He Weizhou's car is an ordinary hatchback, much lower than Shang Muxiao's Hummer, and I can get in it by myself.

He Weizhou is very proficient in storing wheelchairs. Just as I got into the car, he has already folded the wheelchair and moved it into the trunk.

The vehicle drove out of the parking garage smoothly, and the snow in Qingwan still did not stop. When the lights were turned on, the blizzard swirling in the sky could be clearly seen.

He Weizhou's own CD was playing in the car, which was Beethoven's symphony, which sounded very grand and exciting.

"If you're tired, you can sleep for a while. I'll call you when I arrive." He turned down the music a little.

I was indeed a little tired, so I was not polite to him. I folded my arms and took a nap on the seat.

I fell asleep for about a few minutes, then woke up quickly, and then just closed my eyes without falling asleep.

The car stopped at a red light, and I felt that He Weizhou beside me was looking at me, it was a strange look - he was observing my legs.

This kind of scrutiny when awake is too impolite, and you can only scrutinize it after you fall asleep. There are many people like this, so it's no big deal.

I pretended to be asleep and ignored it until the vehicle was moving again.

It was almost eleven o'clock when I arrived downstairs at my house.I asked He Weizhou to go upstairs with me and find that Fournier from the record cabinet for him.The night is too late, and I won't keep him anymore.

Shang Muxiao's things are just as they were when I left, it seems that he has never been here.

It can be considered... as expected.Perhaps to him, these are just a pile of rubbish, and they have no value other than helping him capture me better.

He Weizhou walked out with the record in his arms, and when he reached the door, he suddenly turned around and asked, "Can I ask you out?"

I froze, unsure of his intentions.

"It's rare for me to get a date with someone who goes to a concert together," he continued.

It turned out that it was this kind of "appointment". I thought Shang Muxiao was right, and he was really interested in me.

I nodded and didn't say too much: "If I'm free."

He Weizhou didn't pay much attention, waved goodbye to me, and took the elevator downstairs.

Turning around and going back to the room, just 2 minutes later, there was another knock on the door.I thought that He Weizhou had forgotten something, so I yelled "here we come" and went to open the door.

As soon as the door opened, it was Shang Muxiao who appeared in front of him.

There was snow on his head and shoulders.Wearing a black down jacket, with both hands in the pockets, the open placket reveals a soft white turtleneck sweater.

Just seeing him makes my heart ache.I reflexively wanted to close the door, but he quickly grabbed the crack of the door and opened it.

The door hit the wall and made a loud noise, and Shang Muxiao walked in with a blank expression.

"You blocked me."

I stepped back nervously, and distanced myself from him: "Didn't you say that when we break up, we should break up cleanly and never sloppily?"

He saw the cardboard box by the door, bent over to lift the lid, and took out his crystal trophy from inside.

"So you are determined to break up with me, right?" He asked while holding the trophy.

I secretly took a deep breath and said, "Yes."

He sneered, as if he had seen through my trick: "I saw that veterinarian. He lied to me about his business trip. Are you actually with him these two days?"

Throat rolled twice, holding back the explanation.

What about misunderstandings?If you care, you will hate being misunderstood. I don't care anymore. I don't need to explain to him.

"So what? We've broken up."

He held the trophy tightly, the snow on his body had melted, and fell to his face along the hair, leaving winding marks at the corners of his eyes.

He was stunned for a moment, stared at me, and murmured like a dream: "So you are really with him..."

I pressed my lips tightly together and stopped talking.

"Okay, very good." He looked towards the balcony and said, "If you don't want it, just throw it away, I don't need it anyway. As for this..." He raised his hand violently and smashed the crystal trophy to the ground.

The trophy was instantly torn apart and shattered everywhere.

"... Please help me throw the trash can."

I stared at the debris splashed to my feet, as if my heart was also shattered.

"And this..." Shang Muxiao took out his right hand that had been in his pocket all the time, only then did I realize that he was wrapped in thick bandages from knuckles to palm.

Before he had time to be surprised by his hand injury, he seemed to feel no pain, violently tore off the star studs on his earlobes, and threw them to the ground forcefully.

"Give it back to you, you can take it to someone else."

It may have been scratched by the earrings, blood oozed from his earlobe after a while, and dripped onto the velvet jacket.He touched the wound with the back of his bandaged hand, put it in front of his eyes and looked at it, his eyebrows raised irritably.

The snow-white bandage was stained bright red, I opened my mouth, and repeatedly told myself to ignore it, to act as if nothing had happened, until my body trembled slightly.

Shang Muxiao held the door handle, turned to look at me, his eyes and voice were cold to the bone, and he looked as if he hated this relationship so much that he would never mention it again.

"Indeed, you have to be decisive when you break up. It's nothing special, and you don't have to be sincere anyway." He took a deep look at me and left resolutely, "Goodbye, Professor Bei."

Shino was silent, sure that he would not come back again, I slowly vomited out the suffocation accumulated in my chest, and my whole body relaxed from the tense state.

I have always known that he is an out-and-out "villain", applying Russell's ethics, this may be a subconscious self-warning that I don't want to have too much intersection with him.But it’s useless, this kind of cognition can’t stop me from getting deeper and deeper. For some things, human beings always know that they can’t do it.

It has also been verified again that Russell's ethics are indeed not convincing.

Pick up the scattered trophy fragments on the ground and put them all back into the previous box.Picking it up next to the sofa, I found the small earring. I stroked its surface, and finally threw it into the box along with the fragments.

In the end, I failed to become Shang Muxiao's jewel, and he couldn't be my star either.

This relationship was wrong from the beginning, and now, it is finally back on track.