In the silent place

Chapter 30

Taking out a cigarette and lighting it, Zhan Huaiyi looked towards the living room through the balcony window.The sofa blocked most of his son's body, and only his black hair above the back of the chair could be vaguely seen, which was a little disheveled due to his reclined posture.

Being able to become a policeman is the pursuit of his son all his life.As a father, he is also proud and proud that his son can have such an ideal goal.But just now, he forced him to kill his ideal with his own hands.It was like letting him stab his heart with a knife. Although he didn't make a move, he handed over the knife.Thinking of this, Zhan Huaiyi's heart felt like a huge boulder had been crushed.

If there was no illness four years ago, everything would be different.

One morning four years ago, Zhan Huaiyi woke up early as usual, ready to go to work in the company.Just as I changed my shoes and was about to leave the house, the phone rang.He walked a few steps to the living room and picked up the phone.

"Huaiyi, Xiao Zhao is hospitalized."

The voice on the receiver was full of urgency, and Zhan Huaiyi heard the call from his brother-in-law Jiang Yewan, who was far away in China. He couldn't help but panic, and hurriedly asked, "What's wrong with him?"

"Don't worry, the hospital is examining him, and the disease hasn't been determined yet. We'll talk about everything when you come back. Don't worry, your sister-in-law and I are here."

"it is good."

After putting down the phone, Zhan Huaiyi's heart was pounding.My brother-in-law lived in the north, but now he took his sister-in-law and ran all the way to the school in the south to see Xiao Zhao, which means... he didn't dare to think too much, so he immediately booked the nearest flight and flew back to China .

After getting off the plane, he followed his brother-in-law to the central hospital without stopping.Looking at the lifeless face on the hospital bed, he could hardly believe that the pale and weak man in front of him could be his son. "What did the doctor say?" He asked in a low voice.

"The bone piercing done yesterday, the doctor said the results will be given today, but the report won't come out until a week later." Jiang Yewan replied behind him.

On the way to the hospital, my brother-in-law had already briefly told him about his son's condition. The hospital's initial diagnosis was a blood disease, but the specific type has not yet been finalized.Hearing the word Gu Chuan, Zhan Huaiyi felt an uncontrollable pain in his heart.At the end of the winter vacation, his son specially called him before returning to school. At that time, he also said to himself that he would graduate in only one year. The faintly happy voice seemed to be still echoing in his ears. In less than a month, how could it become like this?

The son wore an oxygen mask on his thin face, his eyes were closed tightly, and his chest rose and fell slightly.Looking at the person lying quietly on the hospital bed, Zhan Huaiyi suddenly realized that he had never looked at his son carefully for so many years.

"Huaiyi, go to the hotel to rest for a while, I'm here, when he wakes up, I'll call you." Jiang Yewan persuaded.He didn't expect his nephew to be so seriously ill. When the school contacted him, he didn't elaborate.It wasn't until his nephew suddenly vomited blood the day before yesterday that he realized the seriousness of the problem, and immediately called his brother-in-law who was far away overseas.

"Lao Jiang, how many days has he been in the hospital?" Zhan Huaiyi asked.

"It's been more than three days. After the school sent him here, they called me." Seeing that his brother-in-law didn't listen, Jiang Yewan sighed and moved a chair to the bedside.

Gathering his mind, Zhan Huaiyi took off his coat and put it on the back of the chair. Zhan Huaiyi sat down and began to look at the single ward.The rooms are small, but clean and well lit.Thinking about my brother-in-law's running back and forth for the child, I feel grateful for a while. "Old Jiang, it's really thanks to you."

"It's too outlandish to say these things," Jiang Yewan replied.He is well aware of his brother-in-law's temperament, and it is not easy to say such a thing.

The person on the hospital bed suddenly let out a slight jjj sound, and Zhan Huaiyi hurried over.The son's eyes were still closed, and his breathing was short and labored. "Xiao Zhao, it's Dad." His eyes were hot and he called out in a low voice.

The son slowly opened his eyes, his misty eyes seemed to be out of focus, he stared at him for a long time, finally a smile appeared in his eyes. "Dad." His voice was low and hoarse, so soft that it was almost inaudible.

"Sleep a little longer." Jiang Yewan walked over and said to his nephew.Zhan Huaiyi also saw that his son was not in good spirits, so he hurriedly echoed, "Go to sleep, your uncle and I will not leave." The son looked at him, then at the uncle next to him, closed his eyes obediently, and fell into a coma soon status.

After two o'clock in the afternoon, the inspection results came out.Listening to the medical terms the doctor said, Zhan Huaiyi had no idea what severe aplastic anemia was. When he heard that it wasn't leukemia, he even felt a little relieved.The doctor patiently answered various questions for him, but the more he talked, the more frightened he was. "If I sent it to the doctor a few days earlier, the current malignant lesions could have been avoided." The female doctor flipped through the case records in her hand, with a hint of deep reproach in her tone.

Looking at the doctor, Zhan Huaiyi asked inexplicably, "You mean he has been ill for a while?"

The doctor looked very surprised, and his face suddenly sank. "Don't you notice it at all?"

Thinking of the pain his son was suffering now, Zhan Huaiyi felt guilty for a while. Facing the doctor's accusation, he silently lowered his head and couldn't say a word.

The hospital told him without reservation that since his son had a severe case, it would be difficult to survive a year if only general treatment was used.Even after the acute phase of three to six months, after turning to chronic, the healing will not be delayed, and sudden changes will often occur in the later stage.

In the next few days, he watched his son go back and forth countless times on the line of life and death, and finally understood the way the doctor looked at him at that time, which was contemptuous and even disgusting.Originally, there was a lot of suffering, but my son didn't have to suffer.But now...it's too late, his future life will be changed because of these.This thought made Zhan Huaiyi feel overwhelmed with pain.

Someone from the school came to visit his son. It was a special physical training coach who sent his son to the doctor at that time.Zhan Huaiyi led him to the ward. His son was awake, and when he saw the coach coming, he raised his hand without a needle, and tremblingly wanted to take off the oxygen mask on his face.The coach shook his head at him with a smile and said, "Recover well, we'll wait for you to come back."

The corners of his son's lips were curved, and his smile was pure and warm like a spring breeze, but it made Zhan Huaiyi's eyes wet for an instant, and he turned around and walked out of the ward gently.After a while, the young physical coach pushed the door out and nodded respectfully to him in the corridor.

"I'm really sorry. If we knew that Zhan Zhao was so sick, we should have sent him to the hospital earlier." The coach couldn't help but blame himself as he recalled the scene during the training camp on the mountain.Closed physical training is intense and difficult. In the face of such an overloaded exercise, some students often fall down, but he never thought that Zhan Zhao would be one of them.In his impression, although this big boy looks gentle and elegant on the outside, he hides an extremely strong personality inside.His agility and tenacity have always been recognized as the best among the same batch of students, and he can persevere to the end of the special training every year with tenacious willpower.Seeing him, like most of his classmates, returning to training after a simple treatment by the school doctor, he silently praised him in his heart, although he had doubts, he didn't take it too seriously.A few days later, Zhan Zhao fainted again. After waking up, his nose bleeds profusely. A roll of toilet paper was used up in a blink of an eye. Several instructors saw the student's face getting paler, and sent him down the mountain overnight.When he arrived at the hospital, he was in a state of shock.

Nodding at the coach, Zhan Huaiyi didn't say anything, pushed open the door of the ward, and walked in.He couldn't face it, let alone let it go, since he heard what the doctor said to him, he couldn't forget it.He understands all the truths, but he just can't get over this hurdle.Whenever he sees his son suffering from illness, besides blaming himself, he can't help thinking, why does fate play tricks on people like this? !If the school had sent the child to the hospital earlier, the illness might not have developed to such a serious level, and the son would not have suffered so much and suffered so much.With his son's repeated illnesses, this kind of thinking slowly formed a knot in his heart, and the knot became bigger and bigger.

As the days went by, the son's waking hours each time became longer.He was not good at words, and his son didn't bother him to talk, and lay there quietly, wondering what he was thinking.Zhan Huaiyi was always thinking about how he should answer if his son asked about his illness, but until the day he left the hospital, his son never asked.After several considerations, he finally decided to take his son abroad for treatment.He often wonders if he hadn't left his son alone, if his son hadn't been training in the mountains, if the school had sent him to the hospital when he fainted for the first time, would everything be different now.He imagined his son wearing the police uniform, he was so energetic and vigorous, just like himself when he was young...

"Dad. I'll go downstairs to buy some takeaway, and I'll be right back." His son's voice came through the glass door of the balcony, interrupting Zhan Huaiyi's thoughts.He looked at the cigarette dish on the balcony, snuffed out the second cigarette that was half smoked in his hand, and then pushed open the balcony door and walked into the living room.The son is standing in the hall putting on his shoes. "Let's go together." Zhan Huaiyi left a sentence, and regardless of his son's reaction, he went back to the house, took a coat, and walked out of the house with him.

After leaving Zhan Zhao's place, Bai Yutang drove to Bai's Media.

"Xiaotong, look quickly, it looks like Bai Yutang." In the hall, a pretty girl with long hair in a shawl at the curved reception desk couldn't help but look at the colleague next to her when she saw the person walking in the door. Let out an exclamation of excitement.

"Who?" Xiaotong, who was buried in typing, didn't seem very interested, and didn't raise her head, continuing to be busy with her work.

"He's coming this way."

I have been working as a receptionist and secretary here for more than a year, and I have seen many celebrities, so I don't think there is any fuss over time.I have never seen a colleague so startled on weekdays. Xiaotong was aroused with a little curiosity, raised her neck, looked over the workbench, and looked out.The visitor was wearing a beige mid-length trench coat with a pair of jeans underneath. She had bad eyesight and squinted to look up at the man's face.Bai Yutang!It's Bai Yutang!

"Hello, I'm looking for Bai Jintang, can you please inform me?"

"Okay, please wait a moment."

Standing in front of the counter, Xiaotong's heart was pounding, she stared blankly at her colleagues calling out to her idol, but she didn't even dare to look directly at her.

"Boss Bai is in his office on the second floor, you can go up to him directly."

"Thank you." Bai Yutang thanked him, turned around and walked towards the stairs.

"Why didn't you say it was Bai Yutang?" Xiaotong complained softly, looking at the man's leaving back.

"Miss, I told you as soon as I saw him." Shaking her head, the girl curled her lips feeling quite wronged.All of a sudden, he rolled his eyes, put his cheeks on his shoulders and said to his depressed colleague with a smile, "I'll give you a chance to get along with your idol. I'll leave the job of serving tea and water to you today."

Upon hearing this, Xiaotong smiled and cast a reproachful glance at the long-haired girl, walked out of the front desk, and went upstairs with the idol.

There was a knock on the door, Bai Jintang put down the documents in his hand, and leaned back in the boss's chair. "Come in." Looking at the brother who pushed the door and entered, he grinned, tapped his fingers on the table and said half-jokingly: "What wind brought you here? Busy man."

"Don't want to see me? Well, I'm leaving." Bai Yutang said, waved his hands, and turned his head to leave.

"Okay, let's just make a joke, so serious." The person who could not be invited usually came to the door by himself today, Bai Jintang didn't want to let go of such a good opportunity to talk.

After closing the door, Bai Yutang turned around, took off his windbreaker, and sat down on the sofa. "Is sister-in-law here today?"

"What do you need to do with her?" Bai Jintang asked.

"I invite you to have lunch together."

"So kind?" Bai Jintang didn't know what his little brother was thinking of today, and he couldn't figure out why after guessing for a long time.

"Don't pull it down." Leaning back, Bai Yutang put his right arm across the back of the chair.In fact, it's no wonder that my brother thinks so. He often hides whenever he can, and avoids seeing him. The two brothers don't see each other a few times throughout the year.If it weren't for what his mother said last time when he came home, he still didn't plan to come.Who told this guy to be in collusion with the old man at home, thinking of this, Bai Yutang was furious.

"Go, of course, why not go for a big star treat. But today your sister-in-law is not here, so it's just the two of us."

While the two were talking, there was a light knock on the door. After Bai Jintang answered, the secretary walked in with tea, and it was Xiaotong who was at the front desk just now.

"Liu Tong, book a table for me at Jiuxiang Restaurant, two for lunch."

"Okay. Nothing else, I'll go down first." Liu Tong glanced at the idol Bai Yutang who was close in front of him from the corner of his eye from time to time, his heart was pounding with nervousness, but his face was still calm and calm.Seeing that the boss had no other orders, he nodded and retreated.

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