in the center of the universe

Chapter 55

He went to see Ma Qian's family once.Guan Zang was not there, so he came in as usual and found something to eat by himself.Ma Qian's family is now able to stroll around in a wheelchair, so they watch him eat with their hands.

"Hey, tell me about Guan Zang's childhood." He stuffed a strawberry into his mouth and asked.

"It's terrible if you ask him directly, he won't hide anything from you." Ma Qianjia said angrily.

"Can it be the same? What he said is what he thinks. It's not as objective as you. Besides, you are not his half father."

The corners of Ma Qianjia's mouth raised slightly, feeling complacent with embarrassment.

"What kind of... very obedient, very obedient, good at studying, exercising, living a regular life, and likes small animals. After his father's incident, his grandfather didn't let him keep cats, and he didn't let him raise anything. Read books by himself. Influenced by his mother's daily words and deeds, he is particularly interested in religious beliefs, mysticism, folklore and so on."

He nodded: "If he can go abroad, do you plan to continue studying?"

"If it's according to his idea, it must be read-why are you asking this?"

"Just ask."

Ma Qianjia saw that he had eaten more than a dozen strawberries, turned the direction of the wheelchair, and asked, "Can I ask you a question? Where do you like to hide?" He was about to open his mouth when Ma Qianjia interrupted: " Except money and sex."

He giggled: "Knows me quite well." After eating the last bite of strawberries, he wiped his fingers with a wet towel and said, "Be honest, no matter who you are. I have been cheated, so I like Honest man. I don’t really care if he lied. What I care about is whether he lied to me. Guan Zang has never, either he doesn’t tell, or he tells the truth.

"I actually admire him a lot. He can live like this on a steel wire-at least I can't do it."

Ma Qianjia pondered for a long time, and said slowly: "But, you don't like Guan Zang as much as you like you, do you?" Seeing his unkind eyes glance over, he shook his head again: "Don't get me wrong, I'm not I'm blaming you, I know that the feelings between people will never be completely equal. I'm just worried-his enthusiasm for you may have cooled down a bit, but his emotions are stronger than before and cannot be shaken.

"Although I don't want to admit it, your influence on Guan Zang is greater and more positive than I imagined. I don't know how the relationship between the two of you will develop. Even though I still don't like you that much, I don't want Guan Zang to be affected harm."

"So it's the best time for us to separate now." He said suddenly.

Ma Qianjia doubted his ears, turned sideways and asked, "What did you say?"

"I heard that you used to be a psychiatrist, so why not give me some psychological counseling?" He smiled and asked an irrelevant question.

"I'm not a psychological counselor, so I can't help you—" Ma Qianjia complained, "Besides, the fees are very expensive!" He immediately responded: "It hurts our relationship to mention money between us! "

When the trouble was over, he grabbed a small red grapefruit and began to peel it.

"You know what happened to our troupe, right?" Ma Qianjia was silent, and he went on to say, "I went to another place and managed to climb up to the roof of a high-rise office building—don't worry, I didn't want to jump. Never wanted to dance."

He is not afraid of heights, but the wind is very strong.You can see the skyline from above.He looked downstairs again, people were like ants.He stretched out his arms, and the wind passed through his armpits, agitating his clothes, as if reminding him that he had no wings.

After struggling to peel the whole grapefruit, he broke open a flap, revealing the fibrous pulp inside. "You have checked my information, you should know that I have good grades before."

Ma Qianjia raised his eyebrows, "It's okay."

He heyed unconvinced, "It's okay? What's okay? It's very good, you know?" He held up the peeled fruit and said seriously to Ma Qianjia, "It's like I stand on the roof and watch people. Looking down at these idiots, small, and mediocre, only I am a Superstar, and sooner or later I will be able to soar into the sky and become King of the world!"

Ma Qianjia refused to eat the grapefruit he used as a metaphor for "stupid/forceful", and hummed through his nostrils, "I can see that, so you fell hard enough."

He smiled, "Is it miserable? It's not miserable. If you think about it, you can fall down. Heaven has a roof, but hell has no bottom. What's more, I haven't become a Superstar yet. What qualifications do I have to say that I fell miserably?" "

"So you're going to be a Superstar, so you don't need to be locked up?"

"Don't make me 'need' Guan Zang." He said word by word, "I won't have a relationship with someone just because I need someone, only because I like it."

Ma Qianjia was silent. He stood up, stretched his waist, and put on his baseball cap: "I don't know if I can be a Superstar, but I don't allow myself to stand up once I fall. Yan Keji doesn't want to go down in history, But I want to harm the world, harm whomever I want to harm!"

"Let me tell the truth—" Ma Qianjia frowned, "In my perception, you have long been a disaster for the world."

He laughed out loud and said, "I'll let Guan Zang go abroad, but you can take good care of him and send him back to me in a decent way, which is a disaster!"

Guan Zang said: "Keji, you have to give me a reason that can convince me." Putting his hands on his face, he was very calm, but he was a little puzzled, "I know you need to sort out your emotions, but I don't."

Touching his cheek with his thumb, Guan Zang held him in his arms, smelled his scent, and sighed as if he was intoxicated by the fragrance: "If you can't convince me, I will do something to make you unhappy, although I don't want to."

He put his chin on Guan Zang's shoulder and kept laughing.

"Guan Zang, I told you I like you."

"Ah."

"Do you like yourself?"

Guan Zang thought for a while: "It's okay. I don't think there's anything wrong with it."

He kissed Guan Zang's ear: "That's what I like about you—you perverted and honest cultural person." He put Guan Zang's hand on his heart, "But I don't like myself that much, at least not Look so like it.

"Meimei doesn't want to mention Yan Keji, and Yan Keji never thought that he would become Meimei one day—I don't know how to get them to shake hands and make peace."

He looked into Guan Zang's eyes and saw himself inside. "You're being honest with yourself, but I'm not, I'm running away. You're right, I need to tidy up, you don't, you just need to give me time to tidy up. If you're calm enough, you should know it's time for us to leave each other The best time, and the only time."

Guan Zang tilted his head and thought for a long time before answering: "I can promise you, but you have to understand that I am very reluctant. Even if I am very good at endurance, I still need you to give me a little reward."

He left after Xiaohao came out of the first trial, secretly left some money for Sister Xiangxiang, and thanked him for taking care of him for more than a year.

Zhuang Baixin came to him several times for writing reports, one time because of Lingling’s suicide, and one time because of the disbandment of Guomei Tianxiang——Xiaohao’s murder case did not belong to her, Liu Yang criticized and said, “You are not Full of sympathy for the murderer?" Even so, the last of her reports never aired.The leaders feel that "the angle is inappropriate, and the content does not conform to the mainstream socialist concept of marriage and love."

Zhuang Baixin resigned in the end, and did not make any "big news".She also seemed to be ready, and she was not too disappointed, saying, "A fly is still a fly, if you smell it, you will eat it."

When I went home once before I left, my father raised his hand and wanted to beat him, but he didn't beat him for a long time. My mother hugged him and cried, and beat him after crying.After staying at home for half a month, he packed his luggage, took the overnight train, and went to the senior's studio introduced by his new sister.

The new sister said: "Don't embarrass me, I've boasted to others."

He said: "You don't even think about who I am, I am Yan Keji."

The studio of the senior is a real work "room": just one room, four people, sleeping and working, the [-]-square-meter small room is filled with smoke.On the day he dragged his luggage, the senior had just got up from the camp bed with an unshaven beard and messy hair. After reading his works, he said, "Honestly speaking, your works may have been good three years ago, and they were also good in student works. Now I can’t keep up with it. But I believe that people recommended by Qingxin, we don’t look at academic qualifications, as long as they have the ability to learn.”

He nodded and said, "I understand." That work was his redesigned publicity and poster for Guomei Tianxiang.

"Also, we are just starting out here, and to be honest, we don't pay much. Basically, from branding to packaging, interactive, film and television, digital media, you can take on everything that is trivial. You have to be mentally prepared."

He still nodded, "Understood."

I rented a small single room near the studio, and the monthly rent was more than the half-year cost of the Guose Tianxiang dormitory.In the first half of the month, he helped the seniors do some odd jobs, searched for information and materials, and made some simple adjustments; when he was not working, he read the sharing library to learn, and read the major websites recommended by the seniors and the cases and art works of other companies. Exhibition: "It's not just design and creative cases, film and TV, art, installation, drama, food, travel, watch more, walk more, feel more, what design sells is not technology, but your own aesthetic reserves."

He studied day and night, look, one day is used as two days, making up for the year he missed studying.Walk around and look around when you have time.This city, that city, if time is enough, I will go abroad with my backpack, and I will make gestures without knowing the language, and I will also gesture to several countries by gestures.

In the third year when he was able to make plans independently, the studio wanted to expand, and the senior asked him if he wanted to invest as a partner, and he agreed.One more condition: "If I want to wear a skirt, I'll wear a skirt."

The senior was taken aback for a moment, but he didn't make any trouble. He just said, "We didn't have any requirements on the attire. Be careful when you meet clients. Just don't come naked during working hours." On the second day after officially becoming a partner, he She wore a black dress with long sleeves that covered her ankles and flat strappy sandals.No bra, no makeup, nail polish.A colleague asked him: "Boss, are you wearing women's clothes?" He said, "Yes, whatever it is, I think it looks good."

Once or twice, people discussed it, and they got used to it in a month or two, as if their boss was born to wear it.Later, at a dinner party, a straight female colleague who drank alcohol asked him: "Boss, do I have no chance to pick you up?"

"No chance," he pointed at his neck, "someone has made a reservation."

He still likes to collect chockers, but the one he wears the most is still the little gold heart with a leather strap.Behind the golden heart, on his neck, the once cut throat scar was lengthened, or re-covered.A full circle around his neck, with a heart at the interface.

This is his reward to Guan Zang, a chocker that never fades away.And the person who carved it with his own hands is already far away in the United States.

He went back to see Miss Xiangxiang several times.Sister Xiangxiang sold the real estate left by Xiaohao's parents, transferred the rented Tongzilou, and borrowed another [-] yuan to make up for the compensation.I opened a canteen near the original dormitory, and I went to see Xiaohao once a month, saying that it was okay there and he was not bullied.

Lele worked in Ye Paris for less than half a year before leaving. He made a boyfriend and performed in several nightclubs. Later, he didn't know why he went there. Some people said that they saw him go to Park Station Street again.Jin Xiang stayed in his hometown for a few days, and couldn't get along with his parents and children. He couldn't bear the loneliness and went to work in other places, and he didn't come back for more than half a year.

Ye Ping is still performing, and when the live broadcast was just started, he opened a live broadcast room and named it Ye Ping Show.Bringing those costumes and a few sisters to do the scene together, the rented small venue has no heating or fans, and gradually gained some fame.However, when the Internet cracked down hard, the first batch was blocked.

Sister Xiangxiang still went to watch the scene at first, but then she stopped going.The small shop is open late at night, and the lights are still on at night. Occasionally, there is music coming out, and people can be seen dancing inside through the glass windows.

Sister Xiangxiang asked him, "Meimei, how is it outside?"

He said: "Sister, it's not good anywhere, we can only treat ourselves well."

When I was free, I went to a women's clothing forum to read posts, and met the sister "Gentle Scenery" there.The scenery is really gentle, never swears or gets angry, and can seriously reply thousands of words even for trivial matters.If this was Miss Xiangxiang, Moji would slap him away with a few words.

His ID is different. He is notorious for his bad mouth and mean people.When I made people cry, I asked Jingjing to comfort each other, and privately discussed with him in a friendly voice, "It's all sisters who are more gentle with each other."

At the offline party, I saw Jingjing himself, slightly fat, speaking in a soft voice, holding his hand and boasting "you are so pretty".Opening a small bar is mostly filled with forum activities.When someone has a difficult problem, I can cry and worry for a long time, and when someone asks for help, I don’t complain when I run and break my leg.He just talked about the scenery: "You are not a big sister, you are their mother! Eat, drink, and mess all by yourself? Can such a grown-up person not solve his own problems? You are used to it!"

Jingjing always smiled and said: "Oh, it's not easy for everyone, if you can help a little, please help. The most beautiful you said, no, it still helped a lot."

"I'm afraid you'll die from exhaustion. Where can these crying chickens and birds howling find another mother!"

Not long after, a person named Hongyin was added to the forum, and he posted a help post "What to do if someone finds out the secret", telling how he met that man, how he interacted, and how he was discovered.It's okay if he doesn't look at it, but when he looks at it, he gets angry. There is still such a way to show affection.If you fart big, you will die or live, and you will be full if you are full.

He asked others for the man's phone number, but he got blocked as expected.During the party, I heard that Hong Yin was also coming, so he drove there immediately after work, and wanted to see what Xiao Lin Daiyu looked like with his own eyes.

He is quite tall and good-looking, with a cold face of "I don't like you".He Yan Keji has never been used to the petty hypocrisy in his life. You are hypocritical, I specialize in treating hypocrisy, and I will give you some things if you have nothing to do.

A bucket of ice water, a bottle of beer, and a few words for the Hulk-like veteran who is more than 1.9 meters long.Afterwards, he was taught a lesson by Feng Jing: "Why don't you stop talking, if you don't understand it, you can't understand it, how can everyone be like you? We understand each other!"

"I don't understand. I earned my fortune today! If he dares to die, he will die. If he doesn't dare to die, he will live with his mother's chest up. Who are you going to show me crying? I don't even look down on myself, and I still count on it." Who is pitiful?!" Furious, he went back to buy gifts for Ye Ping's live broadcast room, and left a message saying: "Nice and beautiful Xiaoye B, I really miss you and want to fight with you."

Meimei no longer wears short skirts, no thighs, no heavy makeup, no wigs.

Meimei walks in and out of the office on high heels, wears blouses to meet clients, and when she sees a dress she likes, she goes in and tries it on, and walks out when she wears it.

Men's and women's clothing is informal, it all depends on your mood.

Meimei is now called "I am the most beautiful".

"Laozi is the most beautiful" is that he is strict with himself.

After Red Seal reconciled with their family's Hulk, he became a regular at the Scenic Bar.I don't like each other with him, and I can quarrel for a long time as soon as I meet the last look.He ran his genitals all over the room with his mouth open, Hong Yin was so angry that he couldn't speak, his face flushed, and he called him "vulgar".He just laughed and said, "What's wrong, who doesn't have it, why don't you take off your pants and Bibi."

"Yeah, can you really take it off?"

He heard someone behind him ask.Jingjing gasped, shaking his hands wildly with him, afraid that he would throw the wine bottle at him when he turned around.

He smiled and knocked the bottle lightly on the bar. "Can you take it off and touch it, can you afford it?"

"how much is it?"

He turned around slowly and looked at the other party from top to bottom.The shirt was neat, the shoes were clean, and he was handsome and gentle. Wearing thin-rimmed glasses, he looked like a decent person.

"What for?" he asked.

"University lecturer."

He nodded: "Educated people, I like educated people--I will give you a teacher's price."

The cultured man stared at him with naked desire in his eyes.

"Long time no see, my little bitch."

Mankind will know after a long time that the center of the universe is not the Milky Way, the center of the Milky Way is not the solar system, and the center of the solar system is not the earth.The world is so vast, no one is the center, and who is not the center?

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