i see your calling

Chapter 91

"Date: January NO.18

weather sleet

I don't like sleet.This kind of weather has no meaning of existence. The snowflakes are hard to see with the naked eye. When they fall to the ground and melt together with the rain, they become a puddle of muddy water. You don’t need an umbrella in snowy weather, but you need an umbrella in sleet.

The final exam is over today, and I feel like I didn't do well again. "

Close the notebook.

"If you want me to tell you, the final exam is not important! You just need to pass the senior high school entrance exam later on. Why do you care about this exam?" Pang Nian packed his schoolbag and said he didn't care, but there were a lot of books in the schoolbag, "You Do you still want to stay here and continue studying? It’s the end of the exam, why don’t you go home quickly?”

Lian Yan nodded, "Yes", Pang Nian said a few more words, followed the noisy voices of the classroom, and went out. After all the people in the class had left, Lian Yan took out the test paper and revised it in the gloomy sky. wrong question.My hands were very cold, and I had to take a deep breath before continuing to do the questions.

This is his daily routine for this month. He studied in the classroom until the school was cleared. If the weather is good, he can see the sky full of crimson rays. If the weather is bad, such as today, he can only wait for the sky to darken and the surroundings will be gray Hold him close.The school bell rang for a long time, and Lian Yan stepped on the stairs slowly and jumped down.

Taking a long detour, bypassing the frozen lake of the school, stepping on the withered and yellow weeds protruding from the lake, in the white rain and fog, you can see the brick-red high school building.The final exam of high school was a few days later than them, Lian Yan looked up at the window on the third floor, and saw Shen Pingge as expected.

Shen Pingge was wearing a school uniform, leaning against the window, with his hands in the pockets of his jacket, while chatting with the classmate beside him, he looked at each other casually, with a slight smile at the end of his eyes. Stagger - that's their secret.

Lian Yan and Shen Pingge had very few opportunities to meet each other recently.We can't see each other in the morning, we can only be together at lunch, and we can't see each other at night. Shen Pingge finished his evening self-study late, and even Yan almost fell asleep when he came back——since Shen Pingge acquiesced to his behavior last time, Lian Yan became more and more reckless, wearing his clothes unscrupulously and sleeping on his bed.

Shen Pingge didn't show any displeasure, and he lay down on the other side when he came back, his body was still cold, Lian Yan woke up in a daze, Shen Pingge stroked his back, the numbness made Lian Yan stretch out comfortably Eyebrows, soon fell asleep again.

Two days before the end of the semester, Lian Yan didn't go to Shen Pingge's room, and secretly drove the night train in her own room, with a small lamp on the bedside, reciting books while lying on the bed, reading so intently that she didn't pay attention to the sound of the door opening, brown The shadow cast down covered his sight, Lian Yan was startled, and turned to meet Shen Pingge's eyes.

"What are you doing?" Shen Pingge sat by the bed, took out the book in his hand, and glanced down, "It's eleven o'clock, and you have to go to school tomorrow, don't you want to sleep?"

Lian Yan sat up and bit her lip.

There are quite a lot of books piled on the bed, covering various subjects. It seems that there is a posture of accurately dividing an hour into hundreds of copies. Shen Pingge sighed, closed the book involuntarily, and rubbed Lianyan's hair: "Should I asleep."

Lian Yan pursed her lips, Shen Pingge glanced at her eyes, and suddenly said, "What are you afraid of?"

Lian Yan gestured: I am afraid that my brother and I will not be able to go to the same school.

Shen Pingge chuckled, suddenly put down the exercise book in his hand, and slowly signed sign language with him, a very simple paragraph.

-I am waiting for you.

"Date: February [-]st

weather: cloudy

Well, that's how the winter vacation started.

Summer holidays are teal, dried soda froth.

I have always defined winter vacation as silvery white, similar to the moon, with a cloudless half moon around.But this year is different, this year is a wet red.I dreamed about the red moon last night. The moon said it would devour the sun and cool down the universe.I told my brother, and my brother laughed.I think my brother is like a red moon, I... I am not the universe.if!I mean if!If I were the universe, I would give him all the stars and planets, even if he didn’t want them and threw them away, I could use an explosion to reshape all of them—it’s a pity that I’m an ordinary person.But I still want to give him everything. "

I bought Spring Festival couplets and blessing characters, and pasted them on the door in bright red. The Spring Festival has come so far. Lian Yan really celebrated the Spring Festival for the first time. He also wrote in his diary, "Fortunately, I am a trash that was thrown away", otherwise what would happen? will there be now?

Shen Yiming also spends more time at home. During the Spring Festival, he bought a lot of wine and took them to drink spicy wine while eating dumplings. Shen Pingge didn't persuade him to drink less. Shen Yiming drank too much and said: "Xiaoyan , look back and take the high school entrance examination well, let me tell you, you can do it for sure! It is said that silence is golden, look at you are covered in gold, if you can't, then who can do it!"

It was snowing this day, but the room was scorchingly hot, Lian Yan's ears were hot, Shen Pingge had no choice but to: "Drink less."

It's not realistic to drink less. Shen Yiming got very drunk and fell asleep on the sofa. Lian Yan also drank some wine. He didn't go crazy with alcohol, but he started to cry. He insisted on going to the snow, holding his fingers Xue, Shen Pingge didn't even reason with the alcoholic, and directly recited it back.

He walked around the villa with his back on his back, and only put him down when Lian Yan's crying subsided. Lian Yan's eyes were reddened, and she stared at him in a daze as if she was wronged. cry."

Lian Yan nodded obediently, and took Shen Pingge's hand with downcast eyes.

-I'm afraid my brother will be disappointed.

He didn't seem to need comfort either, he kissed Shen Pingge's sticky fingers, his brows and eyes stretched, and he smiled drunkenly, lying on his lap.Shen Yiming was still sleeping beside him, but they were aboveboard, Shen Pingge didn't speak, looked sideways, and kissed Lian Yan's forehead lightly.

·

Lian Yan spent her 16th birthday in the ward.

He fell ill and had a high fever repeatedly, probably due to the change of seasons or staying up too late.He was growing fast, but his weight didn't increase. He was curled up on a white hospital bed, playing a bottle, his back arched into a beautiful crescent shape, his thick eyelashes drooped, his skin was pale, and his lower eyelids were blue, making him look extremely fragile and thin.

Shen Pingge inexplicably felt that Lian Yan at that time was like a butterfly with rain falling from its wings.

The birthday was not too formal, there were many rules in the hospital, a cake was barely arranged in the frame, the candles were arranged in the shape of "16", Shen Yiming also boiled bone broth and noodles for him, the candles flickered, His skin was also flushed.

"You came to our house to celebrate your first birthday. I didn't expect to spend it in the hospital." Shen Yiming arranged the cake. The hospital is over."

Lian Yan smiled lightly, replied, and stared at the cake.

After making a wish, blowing out the candles, and sharing the cake, Shen Pingge asked him softly, "How many wishes have you made?"

Since Shen Yiming couldn't see it, he wrote it in the palm of Shen Pingge's hand.

-3 pcs.

- solicited three kisses.

- Brother, do you want to give it?

Shen Pingge laughed softly and scratched his chin.

Wishes are not so casual, but most of them are also related to love. Lian Yan often feels that he is vulgar, especially when it comes to Shen Pingge, he forgets how many times he has put his whole life on it.

Shen Yiming was still a luxury item, but what Shen Pingge gave was simple, a notebook and a pen - Lian Yan didn't know the price of this notebook until a long time later, and she had been angry with Shen Pingge for a long time.

The birthday is over, and the sense of ritual is just like that. Lian Yan doesn't feel that he has really grown up. He is still in the hospital, and the school is preparing for the exam. Calculation questions were written crookedly.

Shen Pingge came to accompany him when he was free, and gave him lectures. The hospital was deserted, the smell of alcohol overwhelmed people, his nerves seemed to be anesthetized, Lian Yan was still running a fever, his brain was burning dull, a mess, and his breath was burning hot , his lips were biting white, listening to Shen Pingge giving him a lecture, but his stomach felt sick, his head was dizzy, and he rarely lost his temper. The exercise book was swept to the ground, making a clear sound.

It was afternoon, the light was dazzling, Shen Pingge looked at him quietly, even the tails of his eyes were red, turned his head away, and didn't say a word.

Picking up the exercise book and putting it on the cabinet next to it, the door slammed and Shen Pingge left. Lian Yan felt a strong sense of frustration. I even wanted to pull out the needle directly and let the blood flow all over the ground.

Lian Yan stared at the flowing liquid medicine and the dim light reflected by the liquid medicine, staring sorely at her eyes, she sat up suddenly, took the hanging bottle, just about to get out of bed, when she heard the sound of the door opening suddenly, she turned her head and looked over , Shen Pingge walked in.He was wearing a gray turtleneck sweater, as if he was going to blend into the pale wall behind him, but it occupied all his sights extremely indifferently.

"What are you doing?" Shen Pingge frowned, took the hanging bottle, and hung it up again, Lian Yan sat up nervously, looked at Shen Pingge anxiously, and lowered her head in frustration.

Shen Pingge reached out to touch his forehead, but he was still having a fever. Lian Yan moved her hands slowly, grabbed Shen Pingge's wrist, pressed her face to it, and kissed it too. The temperature of the wrist was low, and the lips were chapped, which was a good match. .

Lian Yan wrote in the palm of his hand.

- I want to find my brother.

-Brother, don't you dislike me.

Shen Pingge sat on the edge of the bed, and said softly, "Actually, I just went out and walked around, and suddenly remembered that I treated you like this before, flirted with you, and even bullied you. In this way, it is also considered clear. "

Lian Yan was in a hurry and wrote: That is what I am willing to do.

"I'm willing too," Shen Pingge said no more, rubbed his hair and sighed, "Get better soon."

Lian Yan pursed her lips and said "um".

"Date: April 27th

sunny

I really want to leave the hospital, it's so annoying.

I want to burn the whole world down, take a fire, or a meteorite will fall, from the tropics, the earth will stare at me, watch the lake boil, the tree split, the steam and the burning ash rumble, At that time, I will also be burned, I will be suspended, float on the gray-white clouds, and become a corpse together with the swollen clouds.

But when I thought that my brother was still in this world, I was reluctant to burn it. "

It was written in a new notebook, and Lian Yan handed it to him, and Shen Pingge wrote on the back: It can be burned, you start from the northern hemisphere, and I start from the southern hemisphere.

Lian Yan answered silently in her heart: Then she died in love at the equator.

After losing her temper once, Lian Yan became obedient. Shen Yiming didn't often have time to visit them. When he wasn't on a bottle, they would mess around in the ward. Kissing in the sweltering heat, lack of oxygen, suffocation is also a crimson shell, she is obviously sick, but Lian Yan feels that she is too energetic, halfway through the kiss, she always pushes him away, she is so ashamed, and listens to Shen Pingge being lazy ridicule.

"It's very spiritual."

Lian Yan slapped Shen Pingge's arm as if venting her anger, it didn't hurt or itch, just like being coquettish, Shen Pingge wrapped his arms around his waist, Lian Yan staggered and fell into his arms, listening to him whispering in his ear.

"Want me to help you?"

There was a sudden knock on the door, and Shen Yiming shouted outside: "Hey, why is the door locked?"

Lian Yan felt that she was getting sicker. He curled up in Shen Pingge's arms, his face was flushed, his eyelashes were trembling, and he could see Shen Pingge's half-covered hands moving. Biting his lip, his throat seemed to be whimpering, he was panting heavily, and his whole body trembled from the strange feeling.

When Shen Yiming knocked on the door for the fifth time, Shen Pingge got up, wiped his hands slowly, and opened the door. Shen Yiming walked in: "What door are you locking, I almost asked a nurse to open the door."

"Lian Yan wanted to sleep, so I closed the door to avoid being disturbed." Shen Pingge looked calm, "I fell asleep just now, so I didn't hear it."

Shen Yiming didn't delve into it, even Yan was covered with a white quilt, covering half of his face, looking at them with wet eyes, Shen Yiming felt relieved, "Look, her complexion is getting better soon, okay, so I won't have to worry about it."

Lian Yan was terrified, and refused to show her head. As soon as Shen Yiming left, Lian Yan still didn't come out of the bed, Shen Pingge smiled: "Why didn't she come out?"

Lian Yan: "..."

"Are you afraid of being discovered?"

Lian Yan wrote in his hand.

- I'm not afraid when I'm with you.

The weather was getting hotter and there were a few spring rains. The black scarf was no longer needed. She washed it, folded it, and stuffed it in the closet. The closer the exam was, Lian Yan felt a sense of relief.

He was discharged from the hospital in early May, and there was more than a month left before the exam. He had done a lot of papers and wrote a lot in his notebook. Lian Yan felt that he didn't seem to care about privacy. He was willing to give Shen Pingge the diary. See, let him evaluate his life.

During the examination in June, it was almost summer, the weather was hot, and the cicadas were singing loudly. Lian Yan sat in the examination room by the window. From the window, she could see patches of green outside, like a contrasting oil painting. Pang Nian The examination room was close to him, so I came to him specially, and patted him on the shoulder: "Great talent, come on!"

Lian Yan smiled.

The white test papers were handed out, and the typefaces were neatly printed. When Lian Yan picked up the pen, she suddenly looked at the school gate.

Lian Yan thought.

Brother, wait for me to come to you.

At this moment, he suddenly realized that his 16-year-old had really arrived, and all traces would turn the page and usher in a new light.

The bell rang, and the cicadas were silent. Lian Yan imagined Shen Pingge's face, he must be smiling, and said casually.

"it is good."

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