i can't like him

Chapter 26

The rain outside the window did not know when it became smaller, and the sound became very light and far away.

Tick ​​tock.

It seems to stop.

Sheng Xinghe blinked twice, trying to hold on for a while longer, but his eyelids became more and more heavy, He Qinian whispered in his ears, chatting about interesting things that happened when he was in elementary school.

The laughter became softer, He Qinian turned to look at him, "Are you sleepy?"

Sheng Xinghe let out a "hmm".

"Then go to sleep, I won't talk."

Sheng Xinghe was half asleep and half awake, and felt the person next to him move. He wanted to open his eyes, but for some reason, he didn't open them immediately.

There was an even and gentle breathing sound in his ears, and as he got closer, his heart trembled, and he even forgot to breathe.

He Qinian reached out and tucked the quilt up to his chest for him, and then lay back.

This gentle little action made Sheng Xinghe's slightly frowning brows relax, and he was slightly relieved.

At the moment when he heard the movement just now, as if he had been struck by lightning, he instinctively thought of some pictures.

Forehead, nose tip or lips, lightly bumping...

The words He Qinian said tonight, as well as that ambiguous little look in his eyes, always made him think of things that he shouldn't think of, but fortunately nothing happened, otherwise he really didn't know how to face this emotion.

At two o'clock in the morning, the sound of rain outside the window stopped, and the person next to him fell asleep, and the sound of breathing became heavy.

Only then did He Qinian quit Weibo and put his phone on the bedside table.

Because he had pretended to sleep countless times since he was a child, so before planning to steal a kiss, he had to judge whether Sheng Xinghe was really asleep.

He used software to monitor his voice after falling asleep before, and found an interesting pattern, that is, after falling asleep, the breathing sound will become heavier and more regular than before falling asleep.

He Qinian turned over and lay flat on the bed, using the strength of his elbows to move to the edge of Sheng Xinghe little by little.

The small lamp by the bed was still on, and he could clearly observe every detail of Sheng Xinghe's face.

Because of lying on his side, his fine bangs were all drooping in a mess, but his hair looked very soft.

He Qinian couldn't help stretching out his hand to grab it lightly, the touch was really soft, like stroking the back of a kitten.

Sheng Xinghe's facial features can't pick out any flaws. It belongs to the kind of stunning that you accidentally glance at, and then turn your head back to take a closer look. Although the training was obviously tanned, it didn't affect his appearance. , but it looks more masculine.

Compared with those cuties with white skin, beautiful skin and thin legs, He Qinian prefers this kind of athletic athlete full of strength, who releases strong male hormones all the time.

He held his breath and leaned closer.

twenty centimeters.

ten centimeters.

five centimeters.

My heart was beating wildly at an unbelievable speed, almost exploding.

He closed his eyes and quickly pecked at the target. Before he could feel anything, he stepped back in fright and covered his head with the quilt.

His limbs trembled slightly from excessive tension.

So exciting.

His breathing gradually relaxed before he opened his eyes in the dark and licked his lips.

He didn't know if it was his own illusion, but he felt that the taste was a bit sweet, like walking into a candy store, even the air he breathed was sweet.

He punched his chest twice, got out of bed and took a breath of oxygen, the blanket still covering his forehead.

Kissing is addictive, he looked at Sheng Xinghe's lips and smirked for a while, then leaned over to touch them again.

A good night's dream.

The next morning, Lu Yang was woken up by his own urination, he wanted to see if Sheng Xinghe had woken up after going to the bathroom.

As soon as the door was pushed open, the eyes behind the glasses were rounded.

"Wow~" he exclaimed in surprise.

The air conditioner was turned on in the room, and there was an obvious temperature difference from the living room.

Perhaps because the temperature was too low, the two hugged each other, to be precise, it was He Qinian who wrapped him in his arms.

Half of the bed was completely empty, the quilt had slid to the floor, and only a thin blanket was covered around the waist.

Because of the angle, he could only see He Qinian's back and a calf protruding from between his thighs.

Lv Yang pushed his glasses and got closer, only to realize that the two were still sleeping face to face.

He Qinian's hands and feet rested on Sheng Xinghe's back and knees, Sheng Xinghe's arms hung down naturally, and his forehead rested on He Qinian's neck.

The sleeping posture of the two reminded him of the conjoined twins he had seen in the news before.

Lu Yang tiptoed to the edge of the bed, picked up the quilt from the floor and covered him, and turned up the temperature of the air conditioner by two degrees.

There was a sound when the remote control was pressed, which woke Sheng Xinghe up.

His whole face was buried in someone's chest, and he could only frown in the darkness.

The stiff neck moved slightly, and his consciousness and five senses gradually came to life. He felt that what was lying under his neck was not a pillow, but a slender arm.

The heart beat suddenly, and the whole person was instantly awake.

Lu Yang slipped quickly, when Sheng Xinghe opened his eyes, the first thing he saw was He Qinian's chin and Adam's apple.

He half-raised his head, and wanted to raise his hand to rub his eyes, but found that his entire arm and calf were numb, as if thousands of ants were gnawing on his muscles, he couldn't move at all, and his facial features were twisted in pain. Together.

This embracing posture made Sheng Xinghe's brain flush with hypoxia, because the position where his calf was stuck was too awkward, and he even felt that someone's little brother was full of vigor.

"Hey." Sheng Xinghe raised his knee to press He Qinian's lower abdomen.

"Oh." He Qinian woke up suddenly, opened his eyes and yelled, "What's wrong?"

"What's the matter?" Sheng Xinghe looked at him coldly, "Look at your own sleeping appearance, I was almost pushed to the ground by you."

He Qinian blinked his eyes, and his mind slowly came to his senses.

He subconsciously wiped the corner of his mouth and explained: "Last night you kept kicking the quilt. I covered you many times, but you still kicked, so I had to tie you up like this."

As he spoke, he put his hands and feet on Sheng Xinghe's body to pose for a pose. After Sheng Xinghe twisted his thigh, he raised his voice and screamed again.

"I was wrong!--"

Although he didn't know where he was wrong, he chased after Sheng Xinghe's ass all morning to apologize.

Many times, he couldn't understand Sheng Xinghe's thoughts.

He is obviously a straight man, but his nerves are more sensitive than his gay, he can't touch this, he can't touch that, and he will explode like a cat as soon as he crosses the line.

Are you afraid of being taken advantage of by a gay or being ripped off?

He Qinian looked at Sheng Xinghe who was brushing his teeth sullenly, and sighed softly.

The answer is unknown.

After Sheng Xinghe washed his face, he took a white towel to cover his face and wiped it twice, when he suddenly heard He Qinian say from the side: "That towel of yours is quite useful."

Sheng Xinghe realized something, opened his eyes suddenly and turned his head.

The two looked at each other for a second, and He Qinian ran away like a rabbit seeing a wolf.

"He Qinian! Stop!" Sheng Xinghe threw down the towel and chased after him, "What the hell have you wiped with my towel!!?"

"I won't tell you~"

"You're dead, I'll tell you!"

The two called from the apartment to the breakfast shop downstairs.

After school started, He Qinian's life suddenly became busy.

He would get up at five o'clock every morning. After a hasty wash, he would warm up and exercise for two hours before going to the eight o'clock class.

The Broadcasting and Hosting Academy and the Sports Department are quite far apart, and there is little time to go there for training during the day. Usually, I practice with everyone for two hours after all the afternoon classes are over.

Most of the night time is spent in the library and study room.

Classes, training, homework, sleep...

Busy day after day.

When the pace of life is tense and full, it is not easy to feel the passage of time. I often raise my hand to look at my watch and find that two hours have passed.

It seems that in the blink of an eye, the first weekend after school starts, and in the blink of an eye, the military training for freshmen is over.

It was at the end of September when He Qinian saw Lu Yang again.

It was Friday, and there was only one news interview class in the afternoon. He rushed to the school's indoor gymnasium early to exercise, and found someone standing beside Sheng Xinghe.

Lu Yang has been guilty for nearly a month. He has lost a lot of weight, and he has successfully sunburned into a piece of black charcoal. The most conspicuous part of his whole face is the white part of his eyes. When he turned his head, He Qinian stared at it for several times. Seconds, I almost didn't recognize it.

"Hey! Why are you so tanned?" He Qinian leaned over with a look of surprise, "The skin on your nose is still peeling off."

Lu Yang pulled up the mask hanging on his chin, "Nonsense, you can go to the sun for a whole day and try it out. I'm good enough. I've used sunscreen for the past two weeks. Our housekeeper is like a snake." Change the skin, I can see small blood beads when I tear off the skin on his neck. Let me show you the photos, I took them all..."

"Hey hey..." A picture had already appeared in He Qinian's mind, and he interrupted him with disgust, "Enough is enough, I don't want to watch it, what are you doing here?"

Lu Yang raised his eyebrows, "I'll do whatever you're here for."

He Qinian chuckled, "I'm here to practice the high jump, do you want to practice too?"

Naturally, it is impossible for Lu Yang to come to practice high jump. When he was browsing Sheng Xinghe's circle of friends a few days ago, he accidentally saw a group photo in a noodle restaurant. See real people.

Sheng Xinghe saw Liu Yuhan coming in, and bumped his arm, "The person you like is here."

"Hey, it's just very pleasing to the eye, but it hasn't risen to the level of liking." Lu Yang corrected.

Usually, young people will always show a shy expression when they talk about the word "like" and the person they like, and a thick-skinned species like Lu Yang is no exception.

He Qinian followed his line of sight and saw his "good-looking" object——Liu Yuhan.

At first glance, that magical species that doesn't know whether it's male or female, everyone calls her the sports department grass.

Usually girls are very popular, and they are also brothers and sisters with the sports students in the track and field team, so neither cat nor dog dare to provoke her easily.

He Qinian shook his head lightly, put his right hand on his shoulder, "You can't think about it, what's the difference between liking her and liking boys?"

"You don't understand." Lu Yang pushed the glasses, "Don't you think she's cool? She has many characteristics that girls don't have."

He Qinian carefully looked at Liu Yuhan who was not far away, and frowned, "What characteristic? Masculinity?"

Sheng Xinghe couldn't hold back, and burst out laughing.

Zhang Daqi floated behind them like a ghost, and asked, "What are you talking about? You laugh so happily."

"Talk about the common emotional problems in adolescence." Sheng Xinghe said calmly, crossing his arms.

"Oh?" Zhang Daqi was very interested in this kind of emotional entanglement. He raised his eyebrows and asked curiously, "Who is who? Who broke up?"

Lu Yang glanced back at him, then looked at Sheng Xinghe, "Who is this person?"

Sheng Xinghe introduced the two of them.

"Are you also interested in high jump?" Zhang Daqi looked him up and down, "Your body proportion is definitely not good for high jump, or you can practice all-around next door. There is not such a big restriction on height, about 1.8 meters is fine."

He Qinian said: "He is not interested in high jump, but interested in the female students in our high jump team."

"Who is who?"

"The most handsome one." He Qinian said.

"Our brother Han?" Zhang Daqi reacted immediately, "You are really brave."

"How old is she?" Lu Yang asked.

Zhang Daqi counted, "She's three years older than you, but it's okay, the third-year girl is holding a golden brick."

When he said this, Lu Yang did hesitate a bit. It wasn't that he couldn't accept sibling love, but that he knew that many girls didn't like girls who were younger than him, and felt childish and immature.

"Then do you know her direction in choosing a mate? Can you accept someone who is younger than you?" Lu Yang asked.

"I don't know that," Zhang Daqi said with a smile, "but I always feel that her mate choice is towards girls."

Lu Yang turned to look at Sheng Xinghe, "Can you consult me?"

"I'm going to consult?" Sheng Xinghe pointed at his nose, "It's too inappropriate."

Lu Yang was a little frustrated, and Zhang Daqi comforted him, "It's okay, I'll give you some side-talk later."

He Qinian moved to the edge of Sheng Xinghe, and asked casually: "Coach, can you accept a partner who is much older or younger than you?"

"That depends on how big or small it is."

He Qinian felt that the seven-year-old was too obvious, so he asked in a roundabout way: "Ten years older or... ten years younger?"

Sheng Xinghe looked at the ping-pong table not far away, and thought for a while, "It's not very acceptable to be ten years older, but it's okay to be about three years older, and ten years younger than me, you're not yet an adult, so it's unacceptable. "

He Qinian was a little anxious, "Then, what about that six-year-old?"

"Come on if you want to chat or not. I like rational, mature and easy-to-communicate people. Sometimes I just look at them, and the other party can understand what I mean, and they can also take care of me a little bit in life, and be considerate of me, instead of requiring me to go all the time. Take care of him."

"It's such a pick..." He Qinian muttered in a low voice.

When he thought of his childish performance in front of Sheng Xinghe, he frantically wanted to slap himself.

When talking about this kind of emotional issue about secret love and pursuit, Zhang Daqi couldn't help but think of the gentle, considerate and kind-hearted southerner his brother mentioned in KTV last time.

It's been a month since school started, and he still hasn't figured out who that person is, and there is no girl around He Qinian, so he turned his head and asked, "Brother Nian, did you say you got that girl last time?"

Lu Yang and Sheng Xinghe looked at one place at the same time.

He Qinian's face immediately turned red, and he raised his voice guiltyly: "Who the hell told you that I was chasing girls? Zhang Daqi, you are quite good at spreading rumors!"

"Hey—look at you, I'm embarrassed to admit it again." Zhang Daqi pointed to his small face with a smirk, "I heard it with my own ears in the KTV that day, you said you have a girl you like Now, everyone can testify."

He stretched his neck, and was about to call Liu Yuhan to testify for him, when He Qinian strangled his neck and threw him to the ground.

He Qinian was afraid that Sheng Xinghe might misunderstand something, so he immediately sat back and explained, "He was spreading rumors, I never said that."

"Heaven and earth conscience! I, Zhang Daqi, never lie!" Zhang Daqi got up from the ground and shouted at the top of his voice, "Brother Han, did you say that the last time he was in KTV..."

Before he finished speaking, He Qinian covered his mouth and scolded: "Do you fucking want to die? The rumors have been spread on my head."

At this moment, he suddenly understood why Sheng Xinghe liked the kind of person who could read the other person's mind with just one look, his eyes were almost squeezed, and Zhang Daqi couldn't fucking understand him.

It's almost crazy.

Sheng Xinghe got up as usual and said: "Hurry up and warm up, I still have something to do, I can't train with you today."

"Where are you going?" He Qinian dropped Zhang Daqi and asked sensitively.

"I'm going to the Central Hospital, I'm going to have a scan of my ankle." Sheng Xinghe said.

He Qinian said nervously, "Are you injured?"

"No, it's just a regular review."

"Oh..." He Qinian's face was still a little red, and he almost didn't dare to look him in the eyes, "Then be careful on the road."

"Ah."

Sheng Xinghe spent most of the afternoon indoors. When he walked out of the training ground, he was dazzled by the glare of the sun.

The two words Zhang Daqi said kept echoing in his mind.

Although Zhang Daqi is rambunctious and gossiping, he is not yet capable of lying about this kind of matter, and coupled with He Qinian's guilty reaction, he already has a judgment in his heart.

He Qinian should be bisexual, or was it just a joke when he said he likes men?

After such a long time, he can't remember exactly what He Qinian said at that time.

The news of "He Qi Nian has a girl he likes" came very suddenly, causing him to freeze for a moment, and his heart felt like it was lightly pricked by the tip of a needle, with a tingling sensation.

His emotional experience was as plain as water, and it was the first time he experienced this feeling.

He was surprised by his first reaction.

It shouldn't be.

Even if He Qinian has a girl he likes, what does it have to do with him?

From a realistic point of view, it should be a joy for He Qinian to have a girl he likes at this just the right age.

It's better than liking boys.

At least you don't have to suffer criticism and discrimination, and you can hold hands in love openly.

Pretty good isn't it?

Sheng Xinghe took a deep breath, and suddenly a voice came out of his ear, which made him shrug his shoulders in fright.

"coach."

"Ah?" Sheng Xinghe turned his head, "What are you doing?"

He Qinian put his hands in his pockets, pouted his lips, hesitated to speak, and had strangled Zhang Daqi ten thousand times in his heart.

The timing wasn't right at all, and he didn't dare to confess rashly.

The two stared at each other in silence for two seconds.

"What's wrong?" Sheng Xinghe asked again.

He Qinian raised his hand and touched the back of his neck, and explained: "Zhang Daqi is talking nonsense, I'm not chasing girls at all..."

As soon as he saw Sheng Xinghe's face, he became nervous, his brain desperately organized his words, and wanted to say that he had someone he liked, but it wasn't a girl, but Sheng Xinghe preempted him.

"College time is very short. If there is a little girl you like, hurry up and fight for it. It is even more difficult to find someone after you leave school."

Sheng Xinghe stood against the light, but He Qinian could still see the expression on his face clearly.

The calm smile, the gentle words, these things that once healed him, but in turn burned him.

In the end, he breathed a sigh of relief and asked with a smile, "Aren't you curious about who I like?"

His voice made it sound more like a question than a question.

Sheng Xinghe almost blurted out: "Why should I be curious?" Then he added generously, "As long as it doesn't affect learning and training."

"Oh." He Qinian understood something, stepped back step by step, with the same faint smile on his face, "I see, I will go after it." Because of the loss of confidence, his voice was softer than usual Much lighter.

Sheng Xinghe looked into his eyes and suddenly didn't know what to reply.

"Coach," He Qinian suddenly called out and stopped in his tracks, "It's useless if you're not curious. One day I catch up with you, and I'll definitely share it with you. Remember to give us a good wish."

"En." Although Sheng Xinghe said so in response, there was a burst of sourness in his heart for no reason.

This kid really deserves a fucking beating.