Horse riding in the snow

Chapter 14

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Dai Xu's hair was already too long.

In fact, this has little to do with aesthetics. With such a face, Dai Xu looks good no matter if he has long hair mopping the floor or an inch.Luo Shengchao proposed to cut his hair, just because it was really a burden for Dai Xu——

This long hair has already shown the appearance of lack of nutrition, the ends of the hair are very high, and the whole is yellow and dry. It is extremely inconsistent with his identity and appearance.

Dai Xu is already susceptible to the influence of confused thoughts, and he may hurt himself when he is unconscious. Such long hair is harmful but not beneficial from the perspective of nutrition and safety.However, it is not realistic to cut short hair. After all, until now, the head is still Dai Xu's restricted area. Luo Shengchao did not dare to venture into it. After winning Dai Xu's consent, he was just planning to cut off the too long tail of his hair.

Luo Shengchao is not a rich man like Dai Xu. He was born in an ordinary family and lost the care of his parents at a young age. The master has learned to cut hair with both hands, and even worked in a barber shop during the holidays.When Dai Xu was in love before, he always felt sorry for his experience, and always felt that he was pitifully lonely, but since knowing Dai Xu's family situation, Luo Shengchao felt that if that was the case... it would be better to live a little lonely.

It had been too long since he had practiced, and Luo Shengchao's technique was a little rusty, and he was even at a loss for a moment when he picked up Dai Xu's hair.Generally, one needs to wash one's hair before cutting one's hair, but as far as he knows, every time Dai Xu is taken care of by someone to wash his hair, he is in a coma or sleeping... Dai Xu, who is awake, will allow him to help wash his hair?

Luo Shengchao was silent for a moment, and finally gave up the temptation.Dai Xu is like a precious and fragile porcelain product in his heart, he has already broken one by accident, and he can't break this one rashly again.

Dai Xu's hair is really long. Although the hair color is mixed and dry, it is still beautiful when it hangs on the back of the naturally wide shoulders and narrow waist.Luo Shengchao stood behind him and gathered his long hair, so he didn't even have to worry about the broken hair falling on the chair when trimming.

"Just cut it shorter for you, okay?"

While discussing with him, Luo Shengchao continued to move his hands. The vibration spread to Dai Xu's body along his hair. He stared at the screen in front of him motionlessly, pretending to be serious. With the touch and tenderness from Luo Shengchao.

This was the first time in several years that someone was so close to his head, but Dai Xu was unexpectedly not panicked by the sense of anxiety... On the contrary, the movement behind him made him really feel Luo Shengchao's existence.

Sheng Chao really came back to him.

In just a few days after returning to China, he went from vague anticipation at the beginning to complete despair and trance. Until now, he really realized that the three years of wandering and swaying were finally coming to an end. His home was here. He can no longer wander.

Luo Shengchao was still trying to communicate with him: "Tie up your hair after you've done it, you'll look good with a ponytail." He combed the broken hair with a wooden comb, trying to ignore the haggard hair that fell into the eyes, "Why didn't you comb it before? It's inconvenient to loose hair."

He thought of Dai Xu's appearance outside two days ago. The young man put on all the layers of clothes neatly, but his long hair was scattered behind his back, but he didn't want to show it, so he just hid his hair behind his collar Inside, making the hair more messy.In fact, when Luo Shengchao saw Dai Xu for the first time three years later, he had the urge to help him pull up his hair. Unfortunately, things were wrong and people were wrong at that time, and there were many misunderstandings, so he quickly forced himself Dispelled this idea.

Hearing this, Dai Xu touched his fingertips, and his thin and sharp jaw line stretched. After a while, he lowered his eyes and said, "I don't want to look like a girl."

Luo Shengchao understood, probably because female students usually wore ponytails when they were in school, and although Dai Xu was handsome and delicate, he yearned for the masculinity aesthetics in his heart—this was when Dai Xu mentioned that he liked to join the army. He knew it at that time, so Dai Xu couldn't cut his hair short, but he didn't want to comb it up either.

At this moment, Luo Shengchao seemed to see the heroic young man who made a porcelain doll for himself in the playground again. Every time he touched Dai Xu's quiet and soft surface, he would first surrender to him. Then I thought Dai Xu was so cute.

He tidied up the end of Dai Xu's hair neatly, gestured at the newly repaired hair tip, his fingertips just across Dai Xu's shoulder blade: "It's so long, is it okay?"

Dai Xu's breathing became stagnant after being touched by him, he retracted his shoulders, and leaned back after a while, as if chasing Luo Shengchao's fingers, and let out a low "um".

Luo Shengchao was amused by his subconscious movements, his heart felt sore, and he quickly rubbed Dai Xu's protruding shoulder bones back and forth twice with the pulp of his thumb.He found an office rubber band from the table and put it on his wrist. This kind of flimsy latex band is generally not used to tie hair. However, Dai Xu's hair was very thin and thin because of his illness. Luo Sheng turned over to his wrist. Turning over, he held the long hair into a light bundle and tied it in a low bundle.

The young man in front of him became a lot more agile in an instant, Luo Shengchao took a comb and smoothed the tail of his hair, feeling a strange sense of satisfaction in his heart.

His boyfriend is really good-looking, even if he looks sick and is a little thin, it just adds a little fragile beauty to this good-looking, which makes the desire for protection suddenly increase.

But Luo Shengchao didn't dare to say that directly, he just took out his phone, turned on the selfie mode, and held the screen in front of Dai Xu: "Look, you don't look like a girl at all, you are very handsome, and you have a very temperament when you tie it up .”

Dai Xu glanced at the screen according to his words, and then quickly looked away at the next moment. Luo Shengchao seized the opportunity and quickly pressed the shutter, but it was still a step too late. In the photo, only Dai Xu's profiled face and Luo Shengchao's profile were left. He looked at his lover with his eyes.This was obviously not a successful group photo, but Luo Shengchao was still happy that the two of them were finally in the same frame again, and happily showed Dai Xu the masterpiece he had secretly photographed.

"How about it, handsome or not?"

Now it is rare for Dai Xu not to hurt himself when he feels guilty, but it would be impossible for him to boast that he is handsome.For a long time, he couldn't nod his head or make any sound of approval. He didn't even dare to stay on the group photo. He seemed a little disgusted and didn't dare to defile him. nice".

Luo Shengchao felt sad and distressed, he couldn't help retracting the fingers holding Dai Xu's shoulders, but he couldn't bear to force Dai Xu—everything is already developing in a good direction, Dai Xu is a victim, he is still willing to believe in himself, Climbing up with one's own strength is already holding extraordinary courage, Dai Xu is very strong, they just need some time.

It has been more than two hours since I hung up the drip and returned the important points of the email. The two of them got up early, and it was only in the morning at this time, and there was still a long way to go before lunch.The porridge that Dai Xu drank in the morning was as little as cat food in Luo Shengchao's eyes. Luo Shengchao deliberately let him eat two more bites at noon, worried that he would be bored sitting in the room all the time and affect his appetite, so he proposed to go downstairs together.

Before going out, Luo Shengchao dug out a soft camel-colored scarf from the closet, wrapped it around Dai Xu's neck, and found out a woolen sweater and fleece vest to wrap him layer by layer. up.The rather mature and even old-fashioned clothes on Dai Xu showed a bit of elegance and nobility. After all, Dai Xu was a young master from a rich family. With an extraordinary temperament, he stood there with his hair tied up cool and clean, like a celestial figure walking out of the moonlight.

Luo Shengchao couldn't help looking at him for a long time, just like when they were still in school many years ago.

Luo Shengchao is a real face control, otherwise he wouldn't be willing to help others at first and become a boyfriend. In addition, Dai Xu's appearance is not that gaudy and good-looking. Compared with the little milk dogs and sunny boys all over the street, his facial features are more beautiful There is a bit more dusty and sharp indifference. In ancient times, it is a bit like the hidden weapon master and the top assassin written in the martial arts novels, but what is hidden under his body is softer than anyone else. In his heart, Luo Shengchao couldn't put it down because of this contrast.

The more you love, the more you want to see him. When the two were together, Luo Shengchao would often look at Dai Xu until his face turned red, even the tips of his ears turned red. But now Dai Xu is no longer embarrassed by being stared at. He opened his eyes, but he dared not and was not willing to reject Luo Shengchao in the slightest.

Luo Shengchao looked at him for a while, then zipped up his coat, took his hand and went out the door.

After all, Dai Xu is considered a half-public figure, plus a medical team needs to enter the home from time to time, so the apartment area where he lives is very private, and all kinds of facilities are also complete. Usually, there are always children and old people in the community who come out to exercise or go shopping , but without any noise.Luo Shengchao knew that Dai Xu was in a state of confusion, and Dr. Xie also mentioned that Dai Xu had described that the voices in his head were usually unstoppable and very noisy, so he was satisfied with the tranquility and peace of the living environment, and even occasionally emotionally hoped that the wind could Dai Xu became silent.

The weather was fine that day, and it was on weekends again. A few residents downstairs were taking a quiet walk like them. The spring light fell on every corner, igniting a little warmth for the air.Luo Shengchao took Dai Xu's wrist, circling his protruding and disjointed wrist bones with his fingertips, turning sideways from time to time to pat Dai Xu's scarf tighter.

Dai Xu let him do what he did, and followed him obediently, his breathing was light and slow, making it unbearable to break.

The two have been silent most of the time since they got back together, not because of embarrassment, but because of tenderness.All the good and bad things in the past are taboo topics that cannot be touched. Luo Shengchao is not sure whether the past will involve the wounds in his lover's heart. For these temptations with great risks, Luo Shengchao is generally more inclined to give up conservatively— — Being able to get close to Dai Xu again, being able to live with Dai Xu, being able to hear Dai Xu's "I forgive you", has advanced fast enough and aggressive enough so far.

While their thoughts were racing, they walked to the green belt of the community. Luo Shengchao pulled Dai Xu and sat down on the edge of the flower bed.After the two sat down, they were still holding hands. Dai Xu's uninjured hand interlocked with Luo Shengchao's, and every inch of the knuckles fit together perfectly.

The warm spring breeze blowing on his face felt a bit like being gently caressed by someone. Dai Xu let go of his heavy defense and guilt in this rare calm and gentleness, and seemed to gain a moment of complete sobriety .His thin white lips trembled, and his jerky thoughts were running to piece together complete words.

"Sheng Chao, can I ask you a question?"

Luo Shengchao didn't expect that Dai Xu would take the initiative to raise the topic. The great surprise made him unable to help putting a lot of effort into his hands, and because he realized that Dai Xu might be scratched, he immediately relaxed his strength: "Of course, of course. You Ask Xuxu, I will tell you whatever you ask."

Dai Xu was silent for a while, and then asked after a while: "Am I... not as good as I used to be." He paused, and spoke with difficulty, "Sheng Chao, do you like the me in the past better? In fact, I like him more, so...it's okay, I just want to chat with you casually."

He spoke tactfully, and after he finished speaking, he seemed to be afraid that Luo Shengchao would be angry, and he would make amends for a long time in the end.Luo Shengchao couldn't stand him being so cautious, and suddenly felt Dai Xu's struggling thoughts in silence from his two words. For a moment, he didn't know whether it was more distressing or more joyful——

Dai Xu knew that he had some psychological obstacles now, and he didn't want this kind of shadow to haunt him.No matter what the reason is, Dai Xu himself did not indulge himself passively. Like Luo Shengchao, he felt that the past state was better, and he wanted to come out.

Luo Shengchao put his other hand on Dai Xuweiliang's, "Then...do you hate yourself now?"

Dai Xu's throat choked, his eyes became a little red, and his slender fingers pressed on the back of Luo Shengchao's hand, turning white: "Yes."

Luo Shengchao held him back, staring at the outline of his knee bones under his trousers: "But to me, you are just you, and everyone has negative emotions, let alone you who have suffered so much. You You are not two people from the past, you are still you, you just have a bad life for so long. "

Dai Xu pursed his lips, lowered his head slightly and said nothing.

Luo Shengchao continued: "But I like you, do you want to deny my aesthetics?"

Dai Xu suddenly raised his head to look at him. The handsome young man beside him was dressed in warm light just like when the teacher first met him. He was obviously just an ordinary person, but he could bring him infinite strength.

Dai Xu didn't want to deny him, and stared at him for a while, as if he had struggled enough, finally shook his head.

Luo Shengchao sighed, and raised the corners of his lips to show a warm smile: "Then let me like you together, you are fine, can you give it a try?" He patted the back of Dai Xu's hand, fingertips When I touched the infusion sticker, I changed to pat again, with gentle movements, "Take your time."

Dai Xu's hair was smoothed by these hands, and he relaxed a little without even realizing it.His gaze floated up and condensed at a certain point in the void. There was still a fog of confusion in those beautiful eyes, but there was a lot less dangling panic.

The spring breeze came back and forth, he was silent for a long time, and finally repeated softly: "Take your time."