Horse riding in the snow

Chapter 12

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Dai Xu couldn't eat anything in front of him, and Luo Shengchao didn't want to force him, so he could only eat up his porridge in two or three mouthfuls, and worried that Dai Xu's heart would be hurt if he ate too much salt, he quickly cleaned up the plate of food, and then picked up the porridge. The bowl chopsticks got up and went to the kitchen.

It doesn't take much time to wash a pair of dishes, but Luo Shengchao couldn't bear Dai Xu to be panicked and nervous by him, so he kept turning on the faucet and pretended to be busy talking endlessly.Under the cover of the sound of water, he turned his body slightly and glanced at the young man at the dining table in the living room. Dai Xu was drinking porridge with his back facing him, his head bowed, and his posture was as gentle as if he was a guest at home.Luo Shengchao sighed and leaned against the wall, feeling more and more blocked as he thought about it, so he took out his phone to divert his attention.

Luo Shengchao didn't have the habit of setting no reminders. At this time, the social software was already crowded with red dots. He scrolled down and picked out some important information, and saw the news of his gossip friends.This friend was the one who sent him the news of Dai Xu's return to the country that day. Luo Shengchao had been in a state of ups and downs in the past few days and was in no mood to talk to him. He didn't click on the chat box until he basically calmed down now.

The friend first asked him if he had seen any changes between Dai Xu and Dai Xu a few years ago, and then began to gossip about whether he and Dai Xu continued their relationship or fell in love and killed each other. For two days, Dai Xu rescued Luo Shengchao without even looking at his phone. When his friends couldn't reach him, he began to imagine the bloody plot of Dai Xu's robbery and Luo Shengchao's imprisonment. He, he even wanted to call the police.

Luo Shengchao was a little embarrassed and moved, so he quickly comforted his friend, briefly explained the misunderstanding between himself and Dai Xu and the current situation, then saw that it was almost time, turned off the tap, and put the bowl back in the closet.

Dai Xu really expended too much physical strength today, and after swallowing two mouthfuls of porridge, he could not wait to fall asleep. When Luo Shengchao came over to inquire lightly, he was already leaning on the back of the chair and drowsy.Seeing this scene, Luo Shengchao felt sore, squatted down and shook Dai Xu's cuff.

Dai Xu felt the movement and tried to open his eyes. His eyes were filled with a layer of confusion, and the coldness of the past faded away. This appearance made him look a little fragile for no reason, which made people tremble.Luo Shengchao couldn't help rubbing the mole on the corner of his eye with his fingertips, and before he was fully conscious, he gathered his energy and carefully hugged him.

"Sheng Chao?" Dai Xu tensed up instantly, like a cat pinched by the back of its neck, "Put me down, I'm very heavy."

Luo Sheng felt sore at the tip of his nose, he gently protected the person in his arms, and walked towards the bedroom: "You are so thin that only a handful of bones are left, how much will you weigh?" He raised the corners of his mouth pretending to be expecting as he walked, " But it’s okay, Xuxu, I will fatten you up in the future, and one day I will. You are taller than me...you must be heavier than me to be suitable."

Dai Xu is slow to react now, and when he is in a daze, he can't react to anything, so he can only let Luo Shengchao do what he wants.Luo Shengchao carried him firmly onto the bed, and took off the three inner and outer layers of clothing on his body, stripping him until only the fleece autumn clothes remained before lifting the quilt and wrapping Dai Xu inside.

After being tormented by him, Dai Xu became a little more sober, and his thin fingers softly hooked Luo Shengchao's wrist.

Luo Shengchao leaned over cooperatively, and heard Dai Xu ask him, "Did I cause you trouble?"

He didn't dare to kiss him, just patiently said over and over again: "No trouble, I love you."

Luo Shengchao repeated the three words "I love you", but he didn't know which nerve he touched while talking, and he suddenly felt sweet like joy in bitterness.How lucky he was, even though Dai Xu had fallen from a high cliff, he at least caught him; although Dai Xu was seriously injured and lived every day as if he was walking on a hanging wire in the air, at least he didn't have to deal with him. This tombstone says miss.

Even though Dai Xu got sick in the car and said he hated him, at least Dai Xu heard his apology when he was awake.

At least for this moment, they are together.

Luo Shengchao was still in his early twenties, but was tortured by this unbearable past and learned to enjoy himself in time. Dai Xu obviously couldn't handle this complicated sweetness, so he could only blink slowly and ask Luo Shengchao why he looked so happy.

Luo Shengchao spoke in his heart for a moment, straightened up slightly, stared into Dai Xu's eyes, and said seriously: "People are not all about interests, and I am not willing to approach you unless you can give me benefits. Dai Xu, I like you , so I still have the opportunity to take care of you, and I will feel happy and satisfied, just like when you liked me."

He spoke very slowly, and tried to choose simple and easy-to-understand vocabulary, trying his best to convey his love to his lover.But this is still difficult for Dai Xu to understand. He has experienced too much and is too impoverished. His father hates his love that binds too many needs. Luo Shengchao's love for him has also had cracks. He has never experienced the most holy emotion in the world, and now that his mind has been eroded by depression, how can he quickly grasp Luo Shengchao's meaning?

Such a long passage is like snowflakes that are huddled together and it is difficult to distinguish. In the end, he can only barely grasp one tail.

"……I like you."

Luo Shengchao's heart was broken, he swallowed the soreness in his throat and said: "Maybe it was just once, I like you now more than when you liked me the most."

The logic of this sentence is a bit confusing, and it is not as straightforward as the job content when it involves emotions, so it is extremely jerky to understand.He was afraid that Luo Shengchao would think that he didn't love him, and that Luo Shengchao would dislike his love, so the confused words twirled on the tip of his tongue a few times and still couldn't make a sentence, so he had to lower his long eyelashes and refuse to respond.

Luo Shengchao also understood that melting the ice around Dai Xu would not be achieved overnight, so he was not in a hurry, but kept the curve of his lips showing Dai Xu his prettiest smile, and continued: "You are willing to make up for your loss to me. Opportunity, if you are willing to go home with me, it means that you don't want to give up, you probably still have some expectations for me, right?"

"Thank you for not giving up on me."

Dai Xu may not be able to understand Luo Shengchao's joy, but he can understand the phrase "not giving up".Luo Shengchao is the thing he likes and wants the most in this life, surpassing his qualifications to serve in the army, surpassing the sunshine in the morning, he can even suppress the guilt and fear in his heart for his desire for Luo Shengchao, let alone give up lightly.

The thin young man was trapped in the soft quilt, and his sanity gradually sank with the warmth of Luo Shengchao's body.Holding on to the last trace of clarity, he touched Luo Shengchao's phalanx, and said softly: "Brother, I will never give up on you."

Even if I give up on myself, I won't give up on you.

He was so tired and sleepy that he fell into a deep sleep after saying this.Luo Shengchao was not very worried about his lethargy. Guan Chi said that sleeping in this situation was a good recovery for him. He slowly turned his wrist to hook Dai Xu's hand, and just watched quietly. The face of the lover became more and more fierce, and then the whole body fell down, and a soft kiss fell on Dai Xu's knuckles.

"I know." Luo Shengchao said warmly, "Thank you for your hard work, baby."

He sat on the edge of the bed for another 10 minutes, and after making sure that Dai Xu had really fallen asleep, he crept up and went to the living room.When he brought Dai Xu hospital supplies last time, Guan Chi told him about the location of the medicine box in this house. He found the medicine box and found the trauma medicine and gauze, and went back to the bedroom to hold Dai Xu's injured wrist.

This bite was bloody, so it shouldn't have been wrapped with a bandage, but Guan Chi and Luo Shengchao were worried that Dai Xu's emotional outburst would cause secondary damage to the wound, so they temporarily wrapped the wound.Luo Shengchao took off the gauze while he was asleep, re-applied medicine to the tooth marks, cut a new piece of gauze and put it on the bed, and then put Dai Xu's wrist on it.

Dai Xu looked thin enough when he was wearing heavy clothes, but the impact was still not real when he was touched directly. Luo Shengchao was already startled when he wiped his body in the hospital, and now touching his unbearable arm is like He was once again pierced by thousands of arrows.

It's a pity that what happened in the past cannot be changed. Luo Shengchao sat by the bed for a while, sighed silently, made the bed, and then went back to the kitchen to dispose of the porridge that Dai Xu had only had two mouthfuls of.After packing everything, he picked up the phone again and found that the friend had sent him a message back.

"Ah? There are such things in this day and age. It sounds like a feudal dynasty." My friend complained a lot, but in the end he fell back to gossip, "Then what about the prosperous dynasty? Then you prepare...you still want With him?"

Luo Shengchao's heart is blocked. Whether he can get back together or not is up to him. It's clearly up to Dai Xu whether he can accept it or not... But no matter what Dai Xu chooses, he will definitely support him.

However, he didn't want to talk about the private matter between the two of them, so he typed and replied: "I couldn't let it go at first, and I can't let it go even more after knowing this. I respect his decision."

After thanking his friend for his kindness, he switched the chat window to Guan Chi's: "Doctor Guan, I want to ask, I made some porridge for Dai Xu to drink at night, and Dai Xu felt sleepy after two sips, so I asked him to talk directly to him." I'm asleep, but he hasn't taken his medicine for the night, look..."

Guan Chi still has the professionalism of a private doctor, and quickly replied: "It's okay, Dai Shao has been in the hospital for the past two days, and he has been unconscious and waking up very irregularly, and the medicine is not very strict. You will remember it tomorrow morning." Give him medicine after meals, and I will go there tomorrow afternoon to adjust him according to the situation."

Luo Shengchao hurriedly said "Okay", and sincerely sent "Thanks for your hard work", and received "It should be" from Dr. Guan.

In fact, it is indeed "should be", but not necessarily.After all, Guan Chi is not only Dai Xu's personal doctor, but also the director of his own clinic. A talented doctor in his early thirties is not always a hero wherever he goes. It is too easy for him to change jobs. How can there be so many? "should".It's just that, just as Guan Chi himself said, he grew up watching Dai Xu, and he treated Dai Xu not only with professional ethics, but also with affection.

He really cared about Dai Xu, and so did Dr. Xie.Dai Jianwen personally destroyed this supposedly brilliant rare treasure, but even so, there are still people who love Dai Xu from the bottom of their hearts.

Dai Xu can't be regarded as "alone" in the absolute sense, but Luo Shengchao still feels that it's not enough. The care and love he receives is still too little, even if the two doctors put their best effort into him.Luo Shengchao couldn't make up for the desolation of Dai Xuqian's journey, so he could only give all of himself as soil, hoping that flowers would bloom on the way back for the two of them.

He wanted Dai Xu to miss this world.