Hidden heart

Chapter 31

Shen Yao returned to his residence, nothing had been touched there, everything was still in the same place, but the person he was thinking of was long gone.

When he walked into the studio, he suddenly found a painting inside that seemed familiar. He looked carefully, only to find that it was the "Mountain Village View" that he had given him when he saw Fan Xuechen for the first time.His heart was even more painful and resentful, he never thought that Fan Xuechen would be so decisive, he would not even take away even the slightest memory about the two of them!

Unprecedented depression and frustration filled his whole body. He sat alone in the empty room. After a long time, he moved his body and took out a handkerchief from his pocket—this is Fan Xuechen. The only thing left to him, the words that Fan Xuechen said to him here that day seemed to resound in his ears.

——In your heart, will I also be a painting?

— Do you think so?

--I hope it will be.

—I hope so too.

--why?

——Because this is closer to eternity.

--eternal?

— yes, eternity.It just won't change...

Only then did Shen Yao truly understand the meaning of "eternity" he said.This should be what he most wants to pursue in the depths of his heart—the eternal love.

But after all, I let him down.

According to the address given by Bai Yuwei, he quickly found Fan Xuechen's home.It was an old-fashioned house located in a remote town.

There was a small yard in front of the house, and in the yard he finally saw the old osmanthus tree that Fan Xuechen had mentioned.But there was no one in the house, not even a trace of his return.

Shen Yao's hope was instantly dashed, and only then did he realize that Fan Xuechen really wanted to make a clean break with him and never see each other again!

He always felt that Fan Xuechen was weak, pale, and needed to cling to him like a vine, but it was only at this moment that he saw clearly that the heart he had never grasped was so tough, unfeeling, and it was forever. It won't just belong to him!

Shen Yao raised his head and looked at the gray distance, he suddenly found that his own sky had also lost its color, this feeling he had never had before.

When it snowed again in West Lake, he went to see "Remnant Snow on the Broken Bridge".The bridge there is not broken, and the snow is not broken. What is broken is his heart, and what is broken is his shadow.He lingered here alone for a long time and took many photos, but his heart was even more gloomy.

This day, he had just returned home when Xue Ze approached him.

"Brother Yao, you are back! I thought you were going to spend this year outside!"

Shen Yao ignored him, just fiddled with the camera he brought back, silent.

"Brother Yao!" Xue Ze sat beside him, and suddenly felt that he didn't recognize the person in front of him.

"Fan Xuechen has left and will not come back!"

"Will he really not come back?" Although he had been disappointed countless times, Shen Yao still didn't want to believe it.

"I think so, though I really don't see him being such a hard-hearted person. I always thought he was supposed to be dumped by you, that he was supposed to be the one dying and crying, but—ho! It's so strange, he just left without saying a word! Don't let a handsome, young, promising, and wealthy young master like you go away like that! It's a hell!"

"Brother Yao, do you think he did it on purpose? Just like those scheming whores on TV, playing hard to get..."

"Xue Ze, I don't allow you to talk about Xuechen like that!" Shen Yao interrupted him angrily. At this moment, he hated Fan Xuechen and loved Fan Xuechen.

"Okay, I won't say it! But if it were me, I would have to find him out, then slap him several times, and get rid of him in front of everyone. Only in this way can I solve my problem." Hatred in my heart!"

As he spoke, he suddenly became excited, grabbed Shen Yao's hand and said, "Yes, Brother Yao, I think you should do this! Let's find him out together, and give him some hardships, so that he knows what is wrong with Shen Da. What kind of end will the young master play tricks!"

Shen Yao gave Xue Ze a white look, but the hatred in her heart became more and more intense.For a moment, he even felt that the pain in his heart eased a little with Xue Ze's words.

"I will definitely find him!" Shen Yao said darkly.

***

Shen Yao has become very busy during this time. Apart from the company's projects, a new photography exhibition about him has also started.

This photography exhibition is more vigorous than before. He went to all the places where Fan Xuechen can appear to take pictures, such as West Lake, Yangzhou, and even Lushan Mountain. The name of this exhibition is the same as that of Fan Xuechen's painting exhibition. ".

His photography exhibition was widely reported in the media, and he has allowed the media to interview him on many occasions.Among them, the issue that the media paid the most attention to was the meaning of the photography exhibition he held this time. Shen Yao also said bluntly that he held it for a person in his heart.

The photography exhibition this time was not only exhibited in this city, but also successively held in S City and Yangzhou.He just wanted to let Fan Xuechen see his heart, let him be touched by him, and finally return to his side.

However, his photo exhibition lasted until the end of summer, and there was still no news about Fan Xuechen.During this period, he also called Fan Xuechen's cell phone many times and visited his hometown, but there was still no news.

With the end of the photography exhibition, Shen Yao's heart gradually sank. He finally realized Fan Xuechen's ruthlessness, and he even suspected that his feelings for him were not even a little bit real.

If that person really loved him, how could he have the heart to see him go crazy for him like this, but he was indifferent and didn't even give him any hope?

For the first time in his life, he experienced the taste of failure.It was a bloody scar that could not be erased by any bustling and noisy, nephrite jade and warm fragrance.

In the blink of an eye, another year was approaching, and whenever it snowed, he would feel extremely lonely.

He wandered on the street, walking aimlessly like that, sometimes he would have a thought: Maybe a person who walked by occasionally on the opposite side would be the person he missed in his heart.He never knew that he would have such wishful thinking, just like a woman hurt by love.

However, he didn't meet Fan Xuechen, but accidentally met Zhang Jingyuan, a student who had learned painting from Fan Xuechen.

At that time, he was walking in front of the art exhibition held by Fan Xuechen, which had been turned into an art gallery, and there were still some paintings exhibited by Fan Xuechen hanging in it.Zhang Jingyuan just came out of it.

Zhang Jingyuan didn't seem to expect to meet him here, and that youthful face suddenly became dazzling.

"Mr. Shen..." She plucked up the courage she had suppressed for a long time, and threw herself into Shen Yao's arms.

Shen Yao looked at her fixedly, without saying a word.Suddenly he grabbed her hand and took her to his car.

Zhang Jingyuan leaned tightly in his arms, her chest was heaving violently, but the expression on her face was calmer than ever before.

Shen Yao pushed her onto an unfamiliar bed, and then tore off the tie wrapped around her neck.

Zhang Jingyuan kept her head down, until his hands reached her shoulders, then she raised her head and looked at the man in front of her.

She found that the man in her memory who had haunted him seemed so terrifying at this moment.He stared at himself gloomyly, that sharp gaze pierced her heart like a sword, her composure was also shattered at this moment, she suddenly felt very ashamed and embarrassed.At this time, her clothes were not taken off, but she was already a naked and shameless person in front of him.

"Mr. Shen..." She grabbed his hand timidly, "I really love you! Just like Mr. Fan..."

"You mean Xuechen?" When Shen Yao heard her mention Fan Xuechen, the muscles on his face trembled.

Zhang Jingyuan nodded.

"You said he loved me?"

"Yes." Zhang Jingyuan looked at him hesitantly, and bit her lips lightly, "Otherwise, why would he not let me learn painting from him!" There was a kind of hatred in her voice, and she said, "He clearly He just knows...knows that I love you, that's why he deliberately wants me to leave you, it's really too much for him! It's too much..."

"Oh!" Shen Yao let go, the gloom in his eyes turned into disgust at this moment, he picked up the tie on the ground, and wrapped it around his neck again.

Looking at his movements, Zhang Jingyuan rushed over, hugged him tightly, and said in a trembling voice: "Mr. Shen, please don't go! You can do whatever you want me to do, please..."

Shen Yao roughly pushed her and fell on the bed, "You don't deserve him to teach you at all!" He said and opened the door without looking back.

Shen Yao returned to his residence, drank a few bottles of wine by himself, and fell asleep when he was drunk.When he woke up, the time on his phone was already pointing to ten o'clock in the evening.

He found out the photos of Fan Xuechen in the photo folder, stared at them for a while, and suddenly an impulse surged in his heart, he immediately found out the phone number and called.

He hadn't dialed this number for a long time, but to his surprise, this time the other party's mobile phone was not turned off, but a "beep" sound came.

When the call was connected, his heart beat faster than ever!

"Hey, who is it?" At this moment, his heart almost stopped.The voice on the phone was indeed the one he had never forgotten!

"Hey?"

"Xuechen..." He finally called out the name, sweating profusely all over his body.

"Xuechen!" There was no sound from the other party, he hurriedly called: "Don't hang up the phone! Please, Xuechen! Don't be so cruel to me!"

The phone was not hung up, but there was no voice from the other side.

"Xuechen! You shouldn't be so cruel to me! Do you know? I have never forgotten you! I have been looking forward to your return!"

"Xuechen! Do you know how much I miss you? I can't live without you!"

"Xuechen! I love you! Please come back to me!"

……

Shen Yao frantically poured out all his thoughts, hoping to touch that heartless heart!But after a long time, Fan Xuechen's weak voice was heard: "Everything is over, forget about it, Shen Yao..."

"I can't forget you!" Shen Yao stood up and roared angrily, but there was only a "beep" sound from the phone, and Fan Xuechen had already hung up the phone.

Trembling, Shen Yao dialed the phone again, it only rang a few times before it was shut off.Shen Yao threw the phone on the ground, and sat down on the sofa with his head in his hands. He found that his face was full of tears.