He doesn't know today

Chapter 45 Meeting

The paper is light beige and feels a little rough to the touch.I recognize where this piece of paper belonged, just as I recognize the handwriting on it.

I slowly sat back on the chair, staring at the sketch paper in my hand without blinking, trying to trace all the lines on it carefully, and at the same time, what appeared in my mind was the scene of the other party's painting.

In a library full of seats, by the sunny window, the two are separated by a square wooden table.I will be sleeping soundly, and Lu Guican will sit across from him, and the sunlight will paint a layer of gold on his drooping eyelashes.On the open sketchbook, there is the sound of rustling pens.

I have read Lu Guican's sketchbook twice. There are many kinds of scenery on it, but there are no portraits.

He said that he doesn't like drawing people, because the paintings are fake.

I didn't understand it at the time, but now I seem to understand it.

Just like the word "thank you" in the lower right corner, if I put it before, I must be the monk Zhang Er who can't figure it out.

It was by the sea when he gave me this book, and he let me read it.

I would see the picture, and I would see this passage, which at first glance makes no sense.

thanks?

what do you want to thank

I thought about it, and I couldn't help but increase the strength of the paper in my hand.

Guan Jia said that he really didn't say anything.

My brain, which doesn't turn around a few times throughout the year, will come up with a conjecture with hindsight.

Did Lu Guican want to confess his affairs to me at that time?

He wanted to talk to me, but what did I say?

I told him what I liked was his character.

I refolded the paper and it was neatly folded.

A thought was gradually taking shape, growing stronger and stronger.

I'm going to see him.

......

"You asked me where he is? How do I know." Guan Jia put the book in the bag, looked at me suspiciously at the door, "Why do you ask this?"

I glanced at the back door, and after making sure that Chen Yu and the others hadn't come out, my tone slowed down, "I have something to say to him."

Guan Jia still looked at me without speaking, and looked a little impatient.

I said in a serious tone, "It's very important, you must say it face to face."

After a while, she sighed, "He's not at school."

This is consistent with what Wang Ze said, but it's almost a month since school started, and Lu Guican hasn't come back yet?

"Where is he then?"

"If I said he was at home, would you fly to him?"

Without even thinking about it, I said, "Yes."

Guan Jia was stunned, and then clicked his tongue, "You are really..."

I stopped Guan Jia when the class was over. For some reason, after I finished speaking about my visit, she frowned and showed displeasure.After leaving this sentence, she left with her companion without waiting for my response.

Seeing Chen Yu and the others coming out, I didn't follow.

But a few days before the National Day, Guan Jia took the initiative to come to me.She put the book on the seat next to me, and ignored the curious eyes of my roommates and those around me, and spoke in a very polite tone.

"Liu Yuyuan, are you free on National Day?"

Before I had time to speak, she said, "Forget it if you don't have time."

"available......"

She was silent for a while, "WeChat to me."

After adding friends, she sent an address.

"Buy a ticket for the high-speed train on the morning of the 10rd, the 30:[-] train." She said, "I'll take you to him."

I told my grandma that I would stay at school for a few days before going back, and she asked me if I was with my girlfriend.

I was a little speechless and explained that it was not.

She said again: "Then why don't you come back earlier? And the male classmate you brought home last Chinese New Year, is it called Xiao Lu? If the classmate doesn't go home, you can ask him to come to play at home."

How long has passed, the old man still remembers, it seems that he really likes each other.

I couldn't help smiling, "Grandma, I just want to go to his house."

When grandma heard this, she hurriedly said: "You must be polite when you go to other people's houses, and don't cause trouble for parents."

Indeed, I have to make a good impression on Lu Guican's parents.

It was not until the third day that I realized that my worries were completely unnecessary.

On the way there, I carefully asked Guan Jia about the other person's family. When I asked about Lu Guican's parents, she was speechless, "Don't worry, his parents are not at home."

Guan Jia always had an impatient face, almost writing dissatisfaction on his face.

I could see that she was extremely dissatisfied with my going to see Lu Guican, but I couldn't think of the reason why she agreed to me.

I thought for a while and asked, "Is Lu Guican okay these days?"

She pouted, "What do you think?"

"I... I heard that he was not injured, so he should be fine, right?"

"Liu Yuyuan," Guan Jia sat up straight suddenly, with a serious expression on his face, "It's all here, have you really thought it through?"

I nodded, "I like him."

She looked at me for a long time, then fell back in the chair.

When she spoke again, her tone softened a lot, "Actually, I don't want to bring you here."

I nodded, "I know."

"I don't want you to see him because I think he's very pitiful." Guan Jia frowned in distress, "I've known him for almost ten years, and it's the first time I saw him interested in someone. He put his side It is hidden very deeply, and he never hides it from us. I was lucky before, but I found out later that this does not mean that he regards you as very important, he just doesn't bother to hide it."

"But you are different. You can see that he hates seeing me, right? Because he is afraid that I will talk too much."

"He's afraid that if I tell his true face, he's afraid that you won't be able to accept it." Speaking of this, she suddenly smiled, "I know him too well."

I have a vague guess in my heart that Guan Jia should have liked Lu Guican before.

But I didn't ask this, I just said sincerely: "Thank you."

"What are you thanking me for?" She glared at me.

I smiled at her, and she lowered her eyes, "It's the first time we've seen him like this, and Auntie can't help it. If you can, if he is willing to listen, you can talk to him."

……

Guan Jia told me that as soon as Lu Guican was notified of his demerit and punishment, he packed up his things and went home.

In fact, even without this incident, Lu Guican would almost leave school to go to the Baoyan summer camp during this period of time.

It's just that this side just received the notice of the summer camp, and the other end also received the decision to demerit.

I was full of worry when I heard, "He won't be autistic, will he?"

Guan Jia gave me a white look, and continued: "It's not possible to shut yourself up, but it's still possible to blew yourself up."

I:"?"

Guan Jia: "He has a bad temper, so be careful not to get beaten."

I:"......"

Although I knew she was scaring me, I couldn't help swallowing.

I heard from Guan Jia that the Lu Guican high school incident was settled with money, but standing in the villa area, I once again deeply felt the power of capital.

She took me around the community, and when I saw that she was still holding a big suitcase, I offered to help her carry it.She was not polite, and handed it over directly.

The box is heavy and the road is long. I was out of breath when I arrived at the destination.

In front of Lu Guican's house, like other villas, there is a large courtyard, but different from the scene of other houses full of flowers, this place is deserted.

Guan Jia skillfully opened the iron gate, stepped briskly up the steps and came to the gate.

I saw her hesitate and asked what was wrong.

She shook her head, then rang the doorbell.

The doorbell rang for 5 minutes with no answer.

Just as I was guessing whether there was anyone at home, I heard the buzzing sound from the intercom, and the very familiar voice came out the next second.

"Who?"

Guan Jia said, "It's me."

"Is something wrong?"

Even through the electric frequency, you can feel the other party's impatience.

Guan Jia clicked his tongue, "It's okay, can't I come?"

Lu Guican's voice was irritated, "I have something to say."

I was taken aback, feeling that the boy might pop up a scroll next second.

Guan Jia kicked the door as if venting her anger, and said, "Why are you being so cruel to me? Do you have the ability to be so cruel to him?"

The dialogue screen suddenly fell silent, and after a while, Lu Guican said, "Who are you talking about?"

"Who else can it be?" Guan Jia glanced at me.

I hesitated for a moment, and stepped forward, "...Lu Guican."

The boy didn't speak, as if he dropped the line suddenly.

I knew he was listening, so I continued, "Lu Guican, I have something to tell you."

After a long, long time, I waited patiently, and suddenly heard a click, which was the sound of the door lock opening.

"Come in."

His voice was mixed with the subtle electric sound, but I still heard a trace of tension.

"it is good."

When I responded to him, I found that my voice was trembling too.

......

Guan Jia took her own box and motioned for me to go in by myself.

I wondered, "Aren't you going in?"

"My house is next door." She pointed to the house next door.

I understood, and I breathed a sigh of relief.

Looking at her box, I thought she was going to live at Lu Guican's house.

But I went in alone, and I was nervous again.

Very nervous, so nervous that the heart would jump out of the throat.

Xu Shi's uneasiness was written on his face, Guan Jia said in an encouraging tone for the first time: "Don't be cowardly, you are all here."

I glanced through the door, the curtains probably hadn't been drawn, the light in the room was dim, and there was even a hint of coldness.

It's so spooky...

I retracted my head silently and looked at Guan Jia, "Which floor is he on?"

Guan Jia blinked, "Behind you."

I turned around subconsciously, and there was someone more at the entrance at some point, which startled me, "Damn it!"

Lu Guican: "..."

......

Lu Guican closed the door expressionlessly, blocking Guan Jia's laughter from the door.

I stood behind him and watched him pestle for a long time.

Why stand for so long? ?

Is he still?Won't you get sick?

With that in mind, I reached out and poked him on the back.

Lu Guican moved, turned around, and looked puzzled.

I breathed a sigh of relief, "I thought you'd become dull after being stuck in the house for several months."

Lu Guican's expression was complicated, "I have to go out."

I:"......"

Sorry, I was stupid.

With this crop, the atmosphere in the room seemed to be a little more relaxed.Lu Guican passed me into the living room and asked, "Have you eaten yet?"

I said, "I ate in the car."

He hummed, didn't speak again, and walked slowly to the sofa and sat down.

I stood still and didn't dare to move, and I didn't know what to do. When facing him, my brain would always freeze.

There was a desk calendar on the shoe cabinet beside me, and I suddenly remembered that I had lost contact with Lu Guican for four months.

Before I came here, I imagined countless times the scene where the two of them would meet. The helplessness, anger, and incomprehension I experienced when I was imagining it would all turn into sadness.

To be honest, it's really sad, especially when I see him now, my heart seems to be grabbed by force.

I calmed myself down over and over in my heart, approached him actively, and sat on the side of him.

"Lu Guican..."

"that......"

The two spoke at the same time and stopped at the same time.

"Go ahead." He poured me a glass of water.

I took it, chewed several questions in my mouth, and finally said in a muffled voice: "Didn't you call me by my name?"

He probably didn't expect me to say this, so he froze for a while.

I know that he is Lu Guican, and he is not like the Lu Guican I used to know, he is different, and he may be the most authentic him.

I obviously know it all.

I took a sip of water and put down the cup before I managed to suppress the emotions in my heart.

"Lu Guican, I came to you to make things clear." I mustered up the courage to look into his eyes, saw him frown slightly, and then pretended to be calm and said, "Yes, although we broke up. , but I also have a right to know why?"

"You should tell me something." I sighed. "Something that makes me let go, like, what the hell is going on with you."

He withdrew his gaze and said in a deep voice, "Didn't you see it all? What kind of person am I?"

I looked at him silently, but he never met my eyes and didn't add anything.

"Yes, I found out, you are this kind of person." I paused word by word.

Lu Guican raised his eyes abruptly, hesitant to speak, and his expression was a little gloomy.

When Guan Jia told me about Lu Guican, he mentioned three words, irritable disorder.

I also saw it on the post bar. I thought it was ironic at the time, but now I feel so distressed.

I know he is enduring, but I don't know how far he is.I checked, and the descriptions on the Internet in this regard cannot be separated from the word violence.For this sake, I am not afraid of being beaten, I am only afraid that my achievements will fall short.

"Because of you in the past, at this time...it should be said that you are always smiling." I said slowly, "Instead of being sullen and pursing your lips like now."

He lowered his eyes, "You're right, I'm actually like this..."

"However," I emphasized my tone, "I also found that I was actually thinking too much."

"You are obviously Lu Guican, and I also like Lu Guican, is there a difference?"

He frowned deeper, but his voice was hoarse, "What?"

"No matter what you are, I like you." I sniffed, and when I said this, I actually wanted to cry.

Gee.

I finally know what I'm depressed and angry about during this time, and it's because I like him in the final analysis.

After a long time, Lu Guican's expression softened slightly, and he shook his head.

"Yu Yuan," I heard him call my name as I wished, but I also felt the helplessness of the other party.

"I'll say it again, this person you like, everything you like is pretended by him."

He spoke slowly, but firmly, and even gritted his teeth, revealing a feeling of disgust, whether it was towards me or himself.

"You hate violence, you hate drinking, you hate liars, I have all of these." He closed his eyes, "I'm not that good-tempered, and I'm not that good. ...."

"Lu Guican." I interrupted suddenly.

"Can you stop lying?"

He froze and looked up at me.

"How can you not be outstanding, you are great, okay! Xueba doesn't say that his grades are poor! And..."

"And I didn't come to you to listen to what you said..." I said, "Since you can't say it, let me say it first."

"I know you have a bad temper. You can lose your temper with me, and we will definitely quarrel in the future. I also have many shortcomings. Sometimes I am noisy and unreasonable, and I also procrastinate..."

"I have a lot of shortcomings, and you will definitely get angry one day. But it's okay, I understand you. Similarly, you can be self-willed with me. Well... If you can't help but want to fight, well, Chen Yu Just want to beat me every day."

Lu Guican's eyes darkened, "Yu Yuan..."

"Don't interrupt!" I glared at him and continued.

"If, I mean if, one day you really want to beat someone, that's okay! I can learn Taekwondo, and I'll block you as soon as you make a move! Even if I can't stop it, I can still hide."

He didn't know what he was thinking, his eyes were complicated, and I noticed that his hand holding the cup had a bulging vein.

I sighed and sat next to him, cupping his face.

"With me, you can be your Lu Guican back. You don't even have confidence in yourself, so how can you believe that I really like you?"

Lu Guican's complexion has returned to normal, and he is looking at me quietly without saying a word.

"It's your turn," I pinched his face mischievously, "tell the truth."

After a long time, he sighed with relief.

"I like you."

"This sentence is not false."

"really like."