dhibooks Chapter 112 Illusion and Reality
Chapter 112 Illusion and Reality
???? Hua Baihe's question was sent within half an hour. Apart from the nature of most of the repeaters and the formation on the first floor, those who wanted to listen to the content of 15r yellow mosquitoes also received sincere suggestions from some medical students. In addition, there are also many small advertisements selling health care products.
???? Fully let her see that Tieba is full of talents.
???? She puts down her phone, decides to trust science - and heads out to the hospital.
???? When she went downstairs to express her wishes in this regard, not only Xue Jiming was so frightened that he forgot his thoughts on the manuscript, but she also watched her younger brother call Yin Xiao back.
???? "Dad, sister doesn't seem to be feeling well. Say hello to the hospital, do you want to have a full body check?"
???? Hua Baihe tried to stop him: "I don't need to check, I'm just going to—"
???? Xue Jiming holding the phone: "Are you coming back now? That's fine, or I'll let the driver drive, and we'll meet you at the hospital."
???? Hua Baihe: "Don't, don't, don't mobilize the crowd like this—"
???? But Xue Jiming has completely ignored her opinion.
???? Hua Baihe thought about taking his father and younger brother to see this strange disease, and felt that he was about to be overwhelmed by shame.
???? The picture is so beautiful that she dare not think about it.
???? Uncle Bo, who was still at the side, saw that her expression was wrong and sensed her wishes, so he first said a suitable suggestion:
???? "I remember that Xiaoying also has the medical function of the family, and can perform basic physical examinations? Why don't you let her check it first?"
???? Xue Jiming, who was about to call the driver, raised his hand and patted his forehead as if he had been reminded of something, "Look at my memory, M company's latest bionic human has the most home medical equipment in the world. The advanced miniature model also saves the effort of going to the hospital."
???? Hua Baihe's complexion became subtle.
???? But she couldn't allow her to think too much at this time, because when Uncle Bo was discussing with Xue Jiming, Ying Fan who heard their discussion came to them.
???? She asked thoughtfully: "Are you feeling unwell? Because the temperature of the body surface is normal, the heart rate is also normal, including the frequency of brain waves, and there is no cold symptom, so I did not Sorry for noticing your discomfort in time."
???? Hua Baihe tugged at the corner of her lips, and said helplessly:
???? "Go back to the room and talk."
???? Xue Jiming and Uncle Bo looked at each other, they thoughtfully didn't ask any questions, let them go up the stairs and enter the room, and even closed the door.
????...
???? In the room.
???? Like a professional doctor, Ying Fan began to ask about Hua Baihe's symptoms intimately, and even sat down next to her as if to make her relax.
???? But as soon as she got so close, Hua Baihe heard a "bang" in his mind, and blush shot up from his neck to his forehead, and Hua Baihe didn't even understand what was going on.
Ying Fan seemed to have noticed her change, and leaned over to whisper in Hua Baihe's ear:
???? "What's the matter? Does my being close make you nervous?"
???? Hua Baihe just wanted to nod, but felt something was wrong.
???? Why is she nervous about such a bionic person?
????just like……
????As if she was interested in such a guy.
????are you crazy?A beautiful woman like Luo Sheng didn't care about it, but was fascinated by the love model of the bionic person at home. The more Hua Baihe thought about it, the more dangerous his thoughts became, and he stopped his association in time.
???? His gaze shifted to another place, Hua Baihe moved his body thinking that there was no trace, opened the distance between him and Ying Fan, and said in a low voice:
???? "Actually, there is no big problem... Just, that is, I always have dreams when I sleep recently."
???? Ying Fan was still serious and focused, with no trace of eroticism on his face, and asked in a businesslike manner: "Do you always dream? Do you feel that you are not in a good mood after waking up, or what else?"
???? Hua Baihe is used to talking and looking into other people's eyes. When she heard her question, he couldn't help turning his gaze back, and happened to see himself through her pupils.
???? For some reason, the other party's gaze seemed to carry warmth, the scorching heat penetrated the air, and burned all the way to the bottom of her own eyes, causing Hua Baihe to be scalded.
???? She blinked her eyes, moved her throat for a long time, and finally rolled out two words on the tip of her tongue: "No..."
???? Ying Fan asked in a gentle tone: "Huh?"
???? Hua Baihe covered her face with her hand, afraid of meeting her innocent and innocent eyes, she replied sullenly between her fingers:
???? "It's not just a dream, but the content of the dream... a bit strange."
???? Ying Fan didn't urge her, just sat quietly beside her, waiting for her to speak.
????She is a general practitioner who only belongs to Hua Baihe. Because she only has this special and honored patient, she neither urges her nor is she impatient. She just waits for Hua Baihe to speak out.
???? If Ying Fan's questions are fast and tight, Hua Baihe may think of what happened that night and be drawn out with a huge sense of shame. However, now she is very patient, and because she does not have the identity of the same kind, Hua Baihe's That awkwardness went away quickly.
It didn't take long for Hua Baihe to realize his hypocrisy, and finally let go of his hand covering his face, pretending that he was shameless, and said very calmly:
???? "What I'm doing is...a spring dream. It's been like this for a week, every night."
???? And those dreams weren't haphazard.
????Thinking carefully, Hua Baihe always felt that something was wrong——
????Because those dreams are like a TV series, every day seems to follow the rhythm of the previous day, and what happened in the new day, the tricks played... are more serious than the previous day.
???? Just thinking about it, Hua Baihe felt restless.
???? "What degree of dream? Can you tell me?" Ying Fan asked this question directly, pretending to be a professional doctor, perhaps in order to better understand the extent of Hua Baihe's condition.
???? Hua Baihe didn't have too much defense against her. She forcibly suppressed her one-sided embarrassment towards her before, and now put aside her shame. There was a slight hoarseness in her voice, and she answered honestly. road:
???? "At the beginning, on the first day, there was just a woman who couldn't see her face kissed me..."
????Because there were only kisses at the beginning, and she felt that the person in the dream was good-looking, so she didn't notice anything, and even after waking up, she used Luo Sheng's appearance as a trick.
????but……
???? "Later, the content of the dream became more and more extreme, and they were all the same person, from kissing to touching, and finally became... um..."
???? Ying Fan lowered her eyes, and her eyelids moved.
???? An impulse made her want to ask what was omitted in the "um", but in the end, she just replied calmly: "At present, it is suspected that the secretion of hormones in the body is abnormal. Do you need a blood test?"
???? Hua Baihe shook his head, and rolled up the sleeve on his right arm to her, with a somewhat absent-minded face.
????Although she stopped her words, only she knew in her heart that once the memories of those dreams were recalled, her mind would be full of those pictures——
???? Rolled by the waves, the sound of panting, groaning, and begging for mercy resounded in my ears...
???? What's even more frightening are the traces that remain clearly on her body.
???? Let her clearly remember how she was entered and how her body was filled...
???? She bit her lower lip, with a strange look in her eyes.
???? Until the blood was drawn, Ying Fan helped her press the needle wound on her arm while using the extended instrument in the body to check the hormone, and let out a sound:
???? "The test results have come out - the hormone secretion level is generally within the normal range."
???? Hua Baihe suddenly looked up at her.
????wrong……!
???? How is this possible!
???? She raised her head and pinched the bridge of her nose, and heard Ying Fan carefully say: "Perhaps...you are just a normal need?"
???? Ying Fan left a sentence in the subtext:
????Don't suppress your nature.
???? Hua Baihe pinched the bridge of her nose, pretending that she didn't understand her suggestion that she had been living too much recently, and closed her eyes and said in a low voice:
???? "Maybe I just think too much, but there is nothing wrong with it."
???? The respondent who just wanted to offer "help": "..."
???? She watched Hua Baihe calmly, and no one knew what thoughts flashed through her mind, but she replied calmly: "Let me stay with you, at least it will make you sleep more peacefully. "
???? Hua Baihe hesitated again and again, perhaps remembering her multi-functionality, reluctantly chose to forget the embarrassment of listening to her various modes of Amway that night, and nodded to her:
????"Um……"
???? At this moment, the door was knocked, and Uncle Bo's voice sounded outside:
???? "Miss, the young master is a little worried about your inspection."
???? Hua Baihe got up and went to open the door, and replied to Uncle Bo: "It's okay, it's just that I may have been too nervous about my memory recently, so I'm always a little suspicious, and I haven't slept well lately."
???? Xue Jiming downstairs heard her answer, and raised his head from the living room to ask: "Really? Sister, if you are really worried, it doesn't matter if we go to the hospital for another examination."
???? Hearing his words, Hua Baihe's heart suddenly filled with boundless warmth, and his atrium was slowly filled, and a smile appeared on his face unconsciously:
???? "It's okay, no need, really."
???? Xue Jiming frowned and thought for a while, then clapped his hands and said, "Then how about I ask Uncle Bo to cook you some soothing soup from tonight?"
???? Hearing this, Uncle Bo smiled even more: "My Miss Tang, you are the most flattering, why don't you just follow what the young master said?"
???? Hua Baihe didn't want to brush off the care of his relatives, so he could only nod: "Okay."
???? Xue Jiming grinned, and added: "Then you can also drink more hot milk, this will also help you sleep! You can also change the taste!"
???? Hua Baihe still agreed, until Uncle Bo left, she closed the door and returned to her bed.
????...
???? Ten minutes later, Ying Fan stood by the bed, looking at the person sitting on the head of the bed, holding his face with his hands, his elbows on his knees, and staring out the window in a daze.
???? Hua Baihe has been sitting in that position for 10 minutes.
???? until she suddenly asked: "Ying Fan, even if the memory of some people disappears, some instincts will remain in the body. The memory of the body will not disappear, right?"
????Ying Fan thought for a while, recalling the state she showed when she saw Hua Baihe for the first time, thought for a long time, and nodded: "Yes."
???? She only answered Hua Baihe's questions, and she didn't have too much curiosity to ask what shouldn't be asked.
???? Hua Baihe seemed very satisfied with this, and also felt comfortable with the current conversation atmosphere, his body movements relaxed a lot, only his eyes remained in the direction of the window and did not look back.
???? I saw that she changed her movements, turned her hands back to support her bed, hooked the corners of her lips, as if she was talking to herself, or as if she was sharing it with Ying Fan, with a light tone:
???? "Strange—"
???? She said: "I was born in such a good family. Although my mother is missing, all my father and younger brother can give me is their best love. Their needs will always come first, more important than themselves.”
???? "It stands to reason that I should be cultivated into an arrogant and domineering character, because of their escort, I may even grow into a fool who was pushed from behind and didn't even know how he fell. "
???? "Of course, there is another situation. I should feel confident because of my excellent family, because I grew up in a good environment, and there is no lack of material enjoyment, and I can also see from the two of them that I My genes, my education, the people I've been in contact with should make me more successful than most."
???? When she said these words, there was a faint smile in her brows and eyes, and her tone was relaxed as if she was commenting on others.
???? But no, she seemed to have withdrawn her soul, and stood calmly from the perspective of a bystander, from the strands of her hair to her toes, wishing she could cut open her body and look at the cells in her body with a microscope. Be clear.
???? Hua Baihe continued: "However, I found that I am not like this."
???? "When I find out that they are kind to me, I often feel a little uncomfortable. It feels like it's all too good...it's not real."
???? "Where did my deep doubts about myself and my flattered fear of reality come from?"
???? Hua Baihe shook her mobile phone against Fan. In the past few days, besides chatting with Luo Sheng, she has also been chatting with her friend named Sha Huanxi——
????The other party also knew her status, and out of the standpoint of being a friend since childhood, he almost answered her every question, and told her stories from childhood to adulthood, as long as they could remember, they explained clearly.
???? Hua Baihe said: "In my friend's words, I have been like the stars and moons since I was a child. I have been a bully since I was in kindergarten, because I am good-looking and fierce. I have not been bullied by boys until high school. I, even in high school, was known far and wide as a school bully."
???? "As for encountering setbacks in chasing people, that doesn't even exist..."
???? The smile on the corner of her mouth got deeper and deeper. She didn't know why she opened up the chatterbox against Fan, and poured out the doubts of so many days:
???? "So, who has cast a shadow on me and made me feel that I am not worthy of all these beauties?"
???? When she asked this question, she was obviously smiling, but Ying Fan felt that her eyes were filled with a layer of hysterical sadness.
???? She said she did not deserve such a good life.
Whether it was her self-deprecating tone when she said this, or the sad look on her face, Ying Fan felt a little pain in her heart——
???? This is very strange, obviously she is equipped with instruments all over her body, even her emotions can only achieve a low level of resonance, that is to say, she can only record them through the micro-expressions in the database Analyze whether the person in front of her is happy, sad, contemptuous, or something else, but none of these can affect her in the end.
???? She can only know that synaesthesia is a unique privilege of human beings.
???? But at this moment, Ying Fan could clearly feel heartache, heartache for what the person in front of him said and the appearance he showed.
???? She wants to say, no, all the beauty in this world should belong to you.
???? You deserve the best.
???? But Ying Fan didn't wait to figure out her emotions, and didn't let her have time to think about whether this change in herself was related to what Xi Tong did to her before, Hua Baihe's narration once again attracted her attention. attention:
???? "I try to think in the direction of my mother. After all, the book says that most of a person's personality is caused by the influence of childhood, and almost no one can escape the brand of childhood."
???? "It's amazing, Jiming has no memory of his mother, and my father thinks his wife is not worth mentioning, but I instinctively feel a little resistance. Of course, that's just resistance."
???? "After so many years, my mother and I haven't been in contact again, but the disgust is the disgust. After she is excluded, who can plant the root of this lack of self-confidence in me...?"
???? Ying Fan could not answer.
????Because Hua Baihe's question was beyond what she could answer, she could only take two steps forward in silence, raised her hand and put it in front of her face, her finger was caught, and her eyes just fell two warm tears.
???? Tears fell on her knuckles, they moved tremblingly, and then slid down from the edge.
???? Hua Baihe heard her soothing words: "Don't cry."
???? Ying Fan said: "If you decide to remember everything, I will definitely help you."
???? No matter what the final answer is, she will not be afraid of it, because the only person she needs to care about is Hua Baihe from the beginning to the end.
???? Hearing her words of unconditional support, Hua Baihe blinked his eyes, took back the mist that had overflowed at an unknown time, and smiled through his tears:
???? "Am I stupid?"
???? She asked: "Others wish they could sleep forever in a beautiful dream. How come I am the only one who has forgotten everything and still pursues pain? Why?"
???? Ying Fan shouldn't have answered the conversation, but when she heard this, she looked at Hua Baihe and asked suddenly:
???? "Maybe it's because there is someone waiting for you in the bad reality?"
She thought, if it was this person in front of her, even if she ran out of energy one day, she would definitely be by his side; even if she forgot everything one day, she would still involuntarily go to this place again. in front of people.
???? It's only been a few days since I met her, Ying Fan doesn't even know where my obsession with her comes from, so much so...
???? Want to get her by any means.
???? After hearing this, Hua Baihe tilted his head, the traces of tears on his eyelashes were not yet dry, but he asked with a smile:
????"what kind of person?"
???? "Anyone like you?"