gender doesn't matter

Chapter 121 Shrunk

Going out, he let out a long breath, raised his face to let the tears swirling in his eyes return to the bottom of his eyes, raised his face, but the tears flowed down like a broken thread, and ran across his cheeks Finally poured it into the neck, accompanied by the cold winter wind, it was bitingly cold.

I stretched out my hand and patted my cheek, let out a long breath, moved my finger up to the corner of my eye, wiped away the frozen tears from the corner of my eye, and then patted my cheek: "Xiaozhi, you will be strong, right? "

Smile, the smile pulled from the corner of his mouth froze on his face, weird and ugly, this kind of smile lasted until Assistant Liu chased after him in a car.

Seeing me, he quickly rolled down the car window, stuck his head out of the car window, and shouted loudly: "Ean, I'll take you home."

I don't know if it's because I'm used to being called Ean, or because I recognized Assistant Liu's voice.The moment I heard his voice, I stopped unconsciously.

Turning around, I saw Assistant Liu who was waving at me by the side of the road. His expression remained the same: calm and elegant, he didn't look down on me at all because of my loneliness, and even got out of the car very politely to help me open the door.

He said: "You are not familiar with this place, I will take you back." His voice was faint, although he was not enthusiastic, but I knew he didn't mean to ridicule me.

"Thank you!" He lifted his foot and stepped into the car.

I have always known that I am not a person with backbone, let alone the current situation where I am unfamiliar with the language and the language, and even taking a taxi is a problem.

The car is speeding, and thoughts are flying.

I emptied myself to my heart's content, so that I would not be so sad.

Dreams are always beautiful when they are in the sky, but once they fall into reality, they become horrible. What I think I think is always different from the actual situation, and there are many gaps.

I finally understood what it means to be sad without tears. At this time, I couldn't even shed tears, and I just stared blankly at the sky.

In the blue sky, occasionally one or two white clouds drift by, changing instantly.

Like fact, impermanence.

One moment he was still laughing and talking sweetly, but the next moment he was hiding in a corner and weeping and licking his wound alone.

Our beginning is a mistake, no matter how perfect the process is, but what is wrong at the end is wrong.

Sometimes, when we are young and frivolous, we stubbornly think that if we make mistakes, we can also miss a period of beauty, but we will only understand after experiencing it.

Wrong is wrong.

Some people use time to prove that each other is right, but we... use time to prove each other is wrong, at least at this moment, we are wrong at this moment.

I was inferior, not brave enough and not strong enough, and he didn't give me the sense of security I should have.

He is undoubtedly gentle, but his gentleness is not always for me alone.

His tenderness is like rootless water, as long as there is sky, you can see it everywhere; his smile is always so indulgent, his voice is always soft; his words and deeds are always so gentlemanly.

To everyone, I was never one in particular.

Sometimes I feel that I am very hypocritical. According to our beginning, the result is already very good, isn't it?

But the human heart is greedy, and I am no exception, always wanting more.Got a hug and wanted a kiss, got a kiss and wanted his person, got his person and wanted his heart, got his heart and wanted his heart only for me .

But we were wrong at the beginning. He has already installed a person in his heart. No matter how hard I try, that person is in his heart and has never gone away. staggering.

In the hotel's luxurious room, Assistant Liu said he would let me live in it, and I could stay there for as long as I wanted.

I smiled and said "OK."

But after he left, I also packed my bags and left.It's not because of how strong I am, but because it's unnecessary. I've been living here because I think Lin Yue might come back, and I'm waiting for him to come back.

We were a couple at that time, and I took it for granted that he paid for the room; but now we are nothing, and there is no need to live here to add to the sadness.

From the age of 15 to 23, in eight years, although I didn’t make much money, I still had money to stay in the hotel. Now that I’m separated, there’s no need to spend on him anymore. I didn’t spend much on him when we were together. If the money is separated, why leave someone to talk about it.

Besides, I'm an actor.

When I was with Lin Yue before, many people said that I was a sugar daddy, but now that we are separated, I don't know what they say?It can't be worse than when I was a child.

At the entrance of the hotel, I stood blankly by the side of the road with my suitcase in my hand. In fact, I didn’t know what to do and was even a little bit at a loss. The language barrier was the biggest difficulty I faced now.

Some people, although they are friends, can always appear in front of you when you need them most, such as Zhou Yanan.

When I stood at a loss by the side of the road, he called me suddenly, with a little excitement and excitement in his tone, he said: "Hello, Ean, what are you doing? Are you free tonight?" , shall I take you to a place?"

I envy his enthusiasm.

I lowered my head, lowered my voice, and said, "Zhou Yanan, are you free now?" I used a very low voice, and I thought it would be fine if he couldn't hear.

But Zhou Yanan on the phone was just stunned for a moment, and then said, "I'm fine now after class, what's the matter?" His voice was still so clear, just like the blue sky at this time.

I said cheekily, "Can you come pick me up now?"

He didn't ask me what happened or why, but said directly: "Okay, I'll be right over, just wait for me." He hung up the phone.

The cold wind howled, and the mobile phone in my hand seemed to be holding a piece of iron, which was icy cold.I put my mobile phone into the pocket of my cotton coat, put on my gloves, and stood in the cold wind waiting for Zhou Yanan to come over.

Speaking of which, I have only known Zhou Yanan for a few days, but I have troubled him many times, and I feel very embarrassed.But now I only know him here...

I can only continue to trouble him.

Fortunately, Zhou Yanan's speed was fast enough, and I didn't have to wait long for him to come.Seeing me standing in the cold wind with my suitcase, he was taken aback for a moment, and then shouted, "Put your luggage in the trunk and get in the car."

"Okay." I walked to the car with the suitcase, and he had already got out of the car and opened the suitcase.

I put the suitcase in the trunk, thanked him, and got into the car at his urging.

The air conditioner in the car was turned on and it was very warm, but I had stood outside for a long time, and my hands were so cold that I lost consciousness. I didn’t feel it when I was outside, but it hurt a little when I got in the car.

I quickly took off my gloves and saw that my fingers, which hadn't been swollen from frostbite for many years, were swollen again. Although they were not as big as steamed buns, they were still hard and uncomfortable.