first love is not too late

Chapter 42 "You are too stupid."

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When he got home, Ji Mingyu habitually slumped on the sofa, muttering how tired he was.

Fu Shi'an washed him honey water as usual and asked him to take a bath.

Ji Mingyu dawdled for a second or two, blocked the "wash for me" that he wanted to say, and hurriedly got up to go to the bathroom. Fu Shi'an was still a little dazed, as if he didn't expect Ji Mingyu, who was in the late stage of procrastination, to be so fast this time.

Fu Shi'an had already returned to the room when he came out of the shower, and Ji Mingyu lay down on the bed and began to play back the explosive information he received today. He thought he would not be able to fall asleep, but he didn't expect to fall asleep unconsciously after touching the pillow, and he had a headache when he woke up Cracking.

Yuanyuan yelled a few times but did not respond, only to realize that Fu Shi'an had gone home. After washing, Ji Mingyu smelled the millet porridge warming in the rice cooker, and the post-it notes Fu Shi'an left behind.

Ji Ming Yushi ate breakfast without taste, and the memories of last night came back one after another. He was still shocked by Fu Shi'an's sexual orientation, and felt that his current emotions were very contradictory. While he was glad that Fu Shi'an was not around, he also felt contemptuous of this blessing.

In particular, the boiled millet porridge in front of him relieved the soreness in his stomach very well.

It's not that I haven't seen homosexuality before, Chen Mo barely counts, Sun Ran does, and Li Ming does too, but when Ji Mingyu knows the sexual orientation of these people, he is briefly surprised and then loves whoever he is.

Now this person has become Fu Shi'an who gets along with him day and night, Fu Shi'an who is different from anyone else.So apart from being surprised, he had more things to think about, and he didn't know how to face it.

Thinking about it, Fu Shi'an has never had a girlfriend for so many years. Xu Mian once joked that maybe he actually likes men, but ever since Li Mu's incident, everyone thought Fu Shi'an was homophobic.

He also remembered that he and Fu Shi'an had discussed homophobia a few days ago, so when Ji Mingyu mistook Fu Shi'an for being homophobic, Fu Shi'an also misunderstood him.Fu Shi'an kept this secret and carefully tested it just because he was afraid that he would be disgusted. Thinking of this, Ji Mingyu suddenly felt a little sour.

Fortunately, he clearly explained that he was not homophobic, nor did he hate this group. Did Fu Shian feel better then?

During the weekend when Fu Shi'an left, Ji Mingyu's emotions also changed from shock at the beginning to acceptance, and then to worry about Fu Shi'an. He didn't even know about this matter, and Fu Shi'an must have told no one.

When did he start to realize that his sexual orientation was wrong?What was your mood when you found out? Isn't it very sad that a person has buried this secret in his heart for so many years?

What should I do if I face my parents' urging marriage in the future?Can I still get married and have children?

Ji Mingyu didn't know about other doubts, and he didn't dare to ask Fu Shi'an, but he had an answer to the last question in his heart.

In the past two days, he has consciously or unconsciously learned some views on homosexuality from the Internet, and he also knows that most homosexuals will not be accepted by society and will eventually choose to marry a wife and have children.

But Ji Mingyu knew that Fu Shi'an would never do such a thing as a fraudulent marriage. With his stubborn nature, since he chose this path, he would not change it temporarily.

There is also the person he likes, he is equally curious as Li Ming, who is this person and what is he like.

Thinking of this person, Ji Mingyu felt depressed for a while, and he even wondered if it was the existence of this stinky man that caused Fu Shian to go astray.

Thinking of the end, Ji Mingyu was even a little angry, angry that Fu Shi'an was hiding from him, did he not believe in his character?

But angry at the same time can not help feeling distressed.

That night, Fu Shi'an's silent profile reappeared in Ji Mingyu's mind. The sadness at that time was not an illusion, so Fu Shi'an said the words "want to be close but stay away" to his secret love.

Ji Mingyu seemed to suddenly understand the feeling of hopeless secret love Meng Jie mentioned.

The revised outline of the story was inspired by this sentence of Fu Shi'an. Now that Ji Mingyu has a deeper understanding of this sentence, the whole plot is very smooth. After writing, he can't even get out of that sentence for a long time A sour feeling of tightness in the chest, although at the end of his story, the hero got the love he wanted.

The weekend was fleeting, and after Ji Mingyu sent the manuscript to Mengjie's mailbox, he lay down on the bed to relax his mind, unexpectedly fell asleep in a daze, and it was already eight o'clock in the evening when he woke up.

The room was dark, and Ji Mingyu was confused for a long time. When he walked to the living room, he found that Fu Shi'an had come back. The light was on in the room. When Ji Mingyu walked to the door, he heard the faint sound of water coming from inside. Fu Shi'an should be taking a bath. go in.

Turning around, he saw a few plastic packing boxes on the dining table. Ji Mingyu opened them and saw that they were dumplings made by Fu Shi'an's mother. He was lucky enough to eat them once when he was in college. Later, seeing that he liked them, Fu Shi'an would always bring a box with him when he came home. Then Ji Mingyu would take a box of raw dumplings to the window of the cafeteria and sell them for his aunt to cook for them, and then take them back to the dormitory for everyone to share.

It was true that he hadn’t eaten for a long time after graduation, and he was quite greedy. Ji Mingyu rubbed his stomach, hesitating whether to cook one box or two, when Fu Shi’an’s voice came from behind him, “If you want to eat, cook it.”

Ji Mingyu looked back and saw that Fu Shi'an was wearing that dark green nightgown, wiping his wet hair with his head tilted sideways. The silk belt around his waist was not fastened, so the V-line of the neckline opened directly to his abdominal muscles. Nearby, the small piece of white kept swaying, like a white lily in a green leaf,

"Don't you want to eat?" Catching Fu Shi'an's gaze, Ji Mingyu turned his head, said "eat" and took a box to the kitchen. After a while, he turned back and asked him, "Do you want to eat?"

Fu Shi'an was bending down to take out the hair dryer from the TV cabinet, and the front of his clothes was opened due to gravity, and Ji Mingyu even saw a little pink on top of the snow-white.

He said, "I've eaten."

Ji Mingyu withdrew his gaze, and after a while, the sound of a hair dryer came from the living room, and the buzzing made Ji Mingyu's ears warm. He watched the small bubbles gradually appearing in the pot, and suddenly understood why he firmly believed in it the day before yesterday. Fu Shi'an is a straight man, and his casual posture with his clothes open in front of him shows no sense of being gay at all.

Moreover, the two of them once splashed about naked in the same pool, but Fu Shi'an didn't mind, so why was he embarrassed to look at it.Ji Mingyu felt that his worries for the past two days were a little unnecessary. The fact that Fu Shian liked a man did not affect their relationship at all.

"The water is boiling." Fu Shi'an came in at some unknown time, and was opening the refrigerator door behind him, "Why are you in a daze."

"Oh." Ji Mingyu came back to his senses and smelled Fu Shi'an's unique fragrance again, which disturbed him so much that when he poured the dumplings into the pot, his little finger accidentally touched the edge of the iron pot, causing him to "hiss" in pain. , withdrew his hand in stress.

"What's the matter?" Hearing the sound, Fu Shi'an quickly put down the honey jar in his hand and walked to Ji Mingyu's side.

"Accidentally scalded... a little bit." Ji Mingyu looked at the small red mark that quickly appeared on the joint of his little finger, and just halfway through speaking, Fu Shian grabbed his hand and pulled him under the faucet. Ji Mingyu lowered his voice after the words Several degrees.

Fu Shi'an used his left hand, and Ji Mingyu was scalded with his left hand, so when Fu Shi'an stretched out his right hand to turn on the faucet, it was almost like an embracing movement, encircling Ji Mingyu in his arms.The sudden shortening of the distance made Ji Mingyu stunned for a second, and the woody fragrance hidden in the smell of dumplings kept piercing into Ji Mingyu's nose, making his heart beat faster for two seconds.

Are all you gays so unavoidable?

"You are too stupid." Fu Shi'an said, because he was close, his breath was almost sprayed on Ji Mingyu's ears, Ji Mingyu was itchy, but he didn't notice that Fu Shian was calling him stupid just now, he was busy Standing a little forward, he took his hand out of Fu Shi'an's hand and said, "It's nothing, I just touched it."

As if aware of Ji Mingyu's avoidance, Fu Shi'an stepped back and asked him to rush for a while until the pain was gone, and then he went to deal with the pot of dumplings by himself.

Ji Mingyu laughed dryly, waved the drops of water on his hand, "How can you be so delicate, it doesn't hurt anymore."

Fu Shi'an glanced sideways at him, took a bottle of ice water from the refrigerator and handed it to him, "Take this out and apply it for a while, and I'll cook it for you."

Ji Mingyu sat on the sofa with a bottle of ice water and calmed down. He looked at the people in the kitchen, wondering why he was the one who felt uncomfortable after knowing that this person was gay?

Is he a man?Why is Fu Shi'an so calm?Touching hands again, hugging again.

Ji Mingyu glanced at his left hand that was held just now, it seemed that Fu Shi'an's warmth still remained, he shook his head violently, and suddenly realized that something was wrong with him.

Obviously they used to get along like this before, didn't I often hook shoulders with Fu Shi'an and hug each other a lot.

.......

Damn, Ji Mingyu, what did you do before! ! !

No, they are good brothers.

Therefore, he is not an ordinary man to Fu Shi'an. Fu Shi'an is not interested in him, and he already has someone he likes, so he can be so calm.

Thinking of this, Ji Mingyu heaved a sigh of relief, but at the same time felt a little bit of discomfort. He didn't delve into the reason for this slight bit of discomfort, and he thought it was the depression caused by his charm being hit.