dhibooks Chapter 38 "I want to get closer but stay away."
Chapter 38 "I want to get closer but stay away."
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Although he is right to say this, isn't Fu Shi'an homophobic?Just because of this sentence, you are not afraid?
Ji Mingyu looked puzzled, and he let go of his hand suddenly after noticing the strange eyes of the passers-by.
After a while, I asked, "Aren't you homophobic?"
Fu Shi'an: "When did I say I'm homophobic?"
Ji Mingyu:? ? ?
Aren't you afraid that you might knock out a tooth for Li Mu?I'm not afraid that you would take three steps back when you saw that Sun Ran?You are not afraid of your....? ? ?
Perhaps it was because Ji Mingyu's shocked expression was funny, Fu Shi'an suddenly looked at him and smiled. If Ji Mingyu observed carefully, he would find that this smile was actually a bit forced, because the corners of Fu Shi'an's mouth were still tightly pursed.
Standing in the middle of the road like this, they really hinder passers-by. The people behind reminded them, and the two of them came back to their senses and walked forward side by side.
Ji Mingyu didn't speak any more, as if he was thinking about whether Fu Shi'an was joking.
In fact, Fu Shi'an never mentioned homophobia once, let alone his views on homosexuality in front of him. The conclusion of homophobia was the result of Ji Mingyu's own random guessing.
Although homosexuality is gradually and frequently appearing in the eyes of the public, and the social acceptance level is also gradually improving, it is still a small minority, and there are no close friends who belong to this group. Bring things up for discussion.
What Zhou Xiaoyue said as a joke actually makes some sense. No one can tell what love is, and why do they have to add gender boundaries to it?
"You said Li Ming is..." When entering the elevator, Fu Shi'an suddenly said, what he didn't say, but Ji Mingyu knew what he was talking about.
There were only the two of them in the elevator, and the sound of the rain outside felt very quiet and private. Ji Mingyu looked at Fu Shi'an and waited for his next words.
Fu Shi'an lowered his head and straightened the folding umbrella in his hand, his gaze was a little erratic, and his tone seemed casual: "Is that why you hate him?"
This 'disgusting' made Ji Mingyu frowned lightly, a little surprised that Fu Shi'an used this word.
"No."
"Huh?" Fu Shi'an tilted his head, his eyes fell on Ji Mingyu's face and then quickly drifted away.
Ji Mingyu: "It's not that I hate it, at most I don't like it very much."
Fu Shi'an settled his movements, and finally focused his gaze on Ji Mingyu's face. After hesitating for a while, he asked, "So...are you homophobic?"
"No." Ji Mingyu shook his head and retorted directly.
He did not like Li Ming a little bit, but it was definitely not because he was gay.
But to get to the bottom of the reason, Ji Mingyu couldn't explain why, so he thought for a while before saying sincerely: "Whether other people are gay or not has nothing to do with me. Up, so it’s not homophobic.”
When the word homosexual came out of Ji Mingyu's mouth, Fu Shi'an turned his head and didn't look at him again. He moved slowly around the Velcro of the folding umbrella and listened to Ji Mingyu with lowered eyes.
"It's like I don't like Chen Mo just because there is a problem with this person. What he did only exacerbated the degree of dislike for him. Li Ming's words... I haven't had much contact with him, but just now I heard that the employees of their company said that His evaluation seems to be a good person, so I don't hate him, I don't like him a little bit because he sometimes... "
Speaking of this, Ji Mingyu paused for a moment, because he suddenly realized that he didn't want to tell Fu Shi'an what he wanted to say next, even if he didn't like the way Li Ming looked at Fu Shi'an.
"Sometimes what?" Fu Shi'an looked at him sideways, the folding umbrella in his hand was rolled tightly by him, and the magic fold was more than enough to stick it on.
"Sometimes he speaks a little...greasy, tsk, just..." Ji Mingyu stammered, met Fu Shi'an's eyes, and said honestly, "I think he has thoughts about you, please pay attention. "
The elevator just arrived, and Ji Mingyu walked out with his bag in his hand. He really didn't care about other people's sexual orientation, but if that person was looking for Fu Shi'an, Ji Mingyu had no choice but to pretend that he didn't see it.
Fu Shi'an in the elevator didn't follow out, and the Velcro in his hand wasn't attached, and the neatly arranged umbrella surface instantly loosened into a flower, with water droplets splashing in all directions, and the ripples were uneven.
It wasn't until the elevator was about to close that Fu Shi'an stepped out, leaving a low laugh in the empty elevator.
This rain continued for several days, and Zewu became a bit foggy, with occasional flashes of lightning, because it was a thunderstorm in the thunderstorm season, the temperature did not drop, but became more dull.
In the next few days, Ji Mingyu didn't go to the gym after get off work, and Fu Shian didn't seem to go either. He didn't go because of Mengjie's phone call and asked him to revise the manuscript. If Fu Shian didn't go...
He was sitting on the balcony of the living room, looking at Fu Shi'an who was watching a movie on the sofa. Ji Mingyu thought, Fu Shi'an must have listened to his reminder, which made Ji Mingyu happy for a second or two, allowing him to ignore Meng Jie's love for her. His 'personality insult'.
"Have you ever been in love? The theme is 'secret love and confession'. You said that you wrote about a sour secret love, but why did I only see a crazy confession? You are called a secret love? Your son can't wait to write I like you, these four words are engraved on the forehead!!"
Ji Mingyu was stunned by the yelling, staring at the phone, thinking how he didn't know that Meng Jie had such a violent side before, he clicked to switch to text after listening to the long voice.
Then a little speechless, typing on the keyboard to reply:
"Who hasn't been in love? Who are you insulting!"
"Why is it not a secret love? I said it counts as it!"
Mengjie was probably speechless, she didn't speak any more, and began to speak earnestly.
[Ancestor, if it was before, I would definitely not let you make a big change. 】
[But the new editor-in-chief is not good at this, she likes sour crushes, preferably ones with a bit of sadness that can make people cry. 】
Ji Mingyu really wanted to complain about whether the editor-in-chief had read too much youth pain literature, and he was typing, but Meng Jie's next sentence made him suppress his complaints.
[Do you still want to win an award?Don't want to publish it? 】
Sun rain:....
【I change】
Meng Jie on the other end immediately beamed with joy, and sent a series of emoticons, spreading flowers and cheering.
Getting out of your comfort zone for your dreams is a must.Ji Mingyu cheered himself up like this, but he didn't last long because he was really not very good at this kind of pain literature. Meng Jie gave him a suggestion, asking him to consider writing about his secret love as hopeless and adding some settings. It must make this relationship more difficult and difficult to express.
This is tantamount to asking Ji Mingyu to change the tone of his full text. Although he is a bit reluctant, he cannot deny that what Meng Jie said is very reasonable. The conflict is intense enough, and the emotions produced by the collision can attract empathy.
The main line of his original story was a boy who strayed into the forest and met an elf girl in a rainy night. The boy who fell in love with the elf at first sight would go to the forest to look for it every day, a simple story similar to a fairy tale.It may be that Ji Mingyu wrote too much about Chicheng, so Mengjie would say that this story looks like a frantic love affair, and there is no secret love in it.
Ji Mingyu is not good at girls' literature, and Qin Mo is the only one in his love experience after thinking about it, which is rather lacklustre.
Ji Mingyu, who had been contemplating for a long time, returned to his bedroom and found San Yueqiu's "A Ridiculous Life" from the bookshelf. He remembered that a certain story in it was about secret love, which he could refer to.
Most of the books on the bookshelf are March Autumn's books, and they are not the same, so it is very obvious that the two copies of "A Ridiculous Life" are exactly the same. One was given by Fu Shi'an some time ago, and the other was given by Qin Mo.
Thinking of Qin Mo, in fact, Ji Mingyu no longer remembers the emotional ups and downs when getting along with her. What can be substituted most is the encounter in the forest when he was young, which is also the source of inspiration for Ji Mingyu to write this story.
He took the book and went back to the living room. Fu Shi'an didn't know where he went. Ji Mingyu sat there holding the computer for more than half an hour, read the book for a while, got up and walked for a while, and walked to Fu Shi'an's room after a stroll.
He was sitting by the bed and making a phone call, and Ji Mingyu guessed through two sentences of dialogue that the person opposite was Fu Shi'an's family.
"What's the matter?" Fu Shi'an hung up the phone, but Ji Mingyu didn't leave, and was sitting at the desk holding the Rubik's Cube that Fu Shi'an bought before, and couldn't stop turning around, looking a little depressed and bored.
"Hey—" Ji Mingyu sighed for a long time, and said with emotion: "Creating is really too difficult."
Before Fu Shi'an had time to comfort him, he heard him ask again: "Are you going home this week?"
"Yeah." Fu Shi'an said, "It's been a long time since I went back."
Zewu is not far from the city where Fu Shian's family lives, and it takes only an hour and a half to get through the high-speed rail. Fu Shian hasn't been back since he moved to Zewu, so it's time to go home and see his parents.
Ji Mingyu nodded, thinking whether he should go home or not came to his mind, but was quickly dispelled by Ming and Qing's fancy marriage urging tactics.
Probably because Ji Mingyu was obviously distressed, Fu Shi'an cared about his writing progress, and listened to his story very patiently.
Fu Shi'an's eyes were very quiet, and he would always look at Ji Mingyu when he was talking, and he was a good listener, but when he heard the story of the time when he was lost in the forest, he lowered his eyes, his expression did not have the expectation at the beginning, and he was talking But Ji Mingyu, who was talking, didn't notice, he was still talking, talking about Meng Jie's suggestion and his own thoughts.
At the end, Ji Mingyu stretched his body leaning on the chair and asked a little confused: "What does it feel like to be in love?"
He didn't expect Fu Shi'an to answer, because Fu Shi'an's feelings were even more blank than his, but to his surprise, after a brief silence, Fu Shi'an suddenly spoke.
"It's about wanting to get closer but staying away."