extravagant hug

Chapter 3

The curtains in the hotel room were not open, and the elegant light yellow leaked down, blocking the sunlight and making it impossible for people to perceive the movement of time.

When Lu Jinsui woke up, his head was still a little heavy, but he was still clear-headed. He took a few glances at the place where he was, and memories that seemed like dreams and illusions began to descend into his mind one after another.

Is that face... really hers?

Shock, joy, hesitation, contradiction... And, there is also... fear from the bottom of my heart!

His reality was already in a mess, but the appearance of this face at such an embarrassing moment added a sense of uncertainty and a sense of destiny to him.

At this moment, Lu Jinsui urgently needs more arduous work to get rid of his current chaos.

He hurried into the bathroom and was about to wash up, but he was stunned by the shining thing on the countertop.

A thunder blasted above his head!

The bright-coloured roses are in full bloom on the silver-white bracelet, coquettish but with a unique pure beauty.

Lu Jinsui's hand trembled slightly, and then spread to his heart, and then, like breaking a five-flavored jar, all kinds of flavors flooded out, but it was difficult to speak.

Can't tell, don't know.

Once the feelings that have been brewing for a long time are exhausted, it is difficult to control them.

He finished tidying up quickly, grabbed the bracelet and held it in his palm, and quickly disappeared behind the door.Urgently came to the counter to inquire, but did not leave the customer's detailed information because of the lax registration of the restaurant.

If it was really her, then if she could forgive him, she would come to him again; if not, there was no need to meet him.With my current situation, why should I burden others in vain.

At noon, the autumn sun had lost its scorching heat.

He left silently, but he already had an idea in his heart.

When the lights come on, the bustling night spreads decadently.

Although Lu Jinsui was already calm and rational enough, he subconsciously refused to go home. He interpreted this tough self-control as his disgust for Lin Shu.After what happened last night, I don't even want to see him anymore.

yes!He was angry last night, angry with pain.

But Lu Jinsui thought that he was as clear as a mirror in his heart. In this life, he and Lin Shu could not get along as if nothing had happened, let alone any love factor.

However, the love for Jin Liu used to be so clear, but now...now he can't speak it out with confidence.He used to be able to understand and control himself enough, but now there is a kind of numb vagueness that makes him want to break out of self-control again and again.

It was getting dark outside, and the white BMW drove up the Huanshan Avenue.

The light blue European-style villa turns into a beautiful dark blue under the cover of night, which is unpredictable and exudes a depressing atmosphere of despair.

The car drove into the villa as usual, Lu Jinsui hesitated at the door, but took out the key and opened the door.

There was no warm dim yellow light in the room, and there was only darkness and dead silence to greet him.

Lu Jinsui just turned on the light quietly, with a calm expression on his face, he scanned the living room, and then walked into his bedroom.

Picking up the clothes and going to the bathroom, all the actions were done in one go, without any muddy water, and he didn't care whether the other person was in this empty house or not, he just wanted to be himself.

When everything was done and he was lying on the bed, Lu Jinsui didn't bother to look for Lin Shu, as if he didn't care whether Lin Shu appeared or not.

However, in this dark and silent night, the other party's tearful and despairing eyes couldn't get away again and again, the haggard face, the firm eyes...all of those had existed before.

Lu Jinsui tried his best to drive away those illusions, but he still couldn't fall asleep.

When I woke up the next morning, I felt obvious discomfort in my eyes.

When I was washing my face, I accidentally caught a glimpse of the deep panda eyes in the mirror, and my heart was empty for a moment, but Lu Jinsui was Lu Jinsui after all, and all the processes were still completed as usual.

He subconsciously resisted facing that matter.

But when he opened the door of the study to get the documents, he suddenly found a puddle of dried blood on the ground.

Those memories surged up crazily, and the panic that had been suppressed all night smashed his nerves without warning at this moment, but his face was still expressionless, deliberately ignoring the complicated emotions deep in his heart, and tidying up his briefcase, just like on the ground. Those traces don't exist at all.

That glaring piece of blood couldn't get into his eyes, but quietly penetrated into his heart.

Not far away is another mountain villa, with a few touches of ocher red in the gray tone, exuding a retro and elegant atmosphere.

Wang Zimu sighed silently toward the door, and finally closed the door helplessly.

When he arrived at Lu Jin's house that night, he was really taken aback by the sight in front of him.

Although I had made some mental preparations when I heard Lin Shu's feeble voice on the phone at first, when I saw the shy and shy man lying lifelessly on the cool floor with puddles all over his body, The bright red blood soaked half of his pants, and when it spread wantonly on the ground, his eyes hurt and he almost shed tears.

Lin Shu was on the verge of coma, his eyes tried hard to open, but there was only a slit, his lips were bleeding white, aware of his arrival, he opened his mouth with difficulty, and spit out words between opening and closing.

It wasn't until Wang Zimu picked up his body, shocked by the coolness of his body, put his ear close to him, and carefully distinguished, that he heard his murmur clearly.

"Baby, baby...he doesn't want...but...I want...please..."

There was no pain in his eyes, only pleading and despair.

Wang Zimu was so sad that he hugged Lin Shu up with all his might.

Lin Shu's hand was so stubbornly holding on to his skirt, begging and looking at him pitifully, until Wang Zimu nodded and then put it down with a smile, and passed out.

Wang Zimu took Lin Shu back to his home. His home already had some examination equipment and medicines. He called several well-known obstetricians and gynecologists in the hospital. It took him a long time to finally stabilize Lin Shu's condition. It was still safe and sound in his body.

But the main reason is that Lin Shu's emotional changes are too steep, and the mother's body will definitely affect the child's growth.

Besides, it's only been nearly three months.

From this, Lu Jinsui was naturally the root cause of the whole incident.

Although he was not very clear about the grievances between them, seeing the deep pain in Lin Shu's eyes and the treatment he received, he still couldn't help feeling a lot of sympathy and wanted to help him.And Jin Sui, who used to be so gentle and considerate, what kind of encounter turned him into the unsmiling, ruthless person he is today?

Should he let Lu Jinsui know the danger of Lin Shu's pregnancy and childbirth?During this examination, Wang Zimu discovered that although Lin Shu was bisexual, his acupoints were small, and the wall of his uterus was also thinner than normal.

However, he also knew that Lu Jinsui hated Lin Shu, to what extent he hated him, he couldn't guess, but killing this unformed child was far safer than giving birth to him while fumbling.

When dealing with the past, he can't judge who is right and who is wrong; but for the present, he can see clearly.Lin Shu's strong love that cannot be ignored has always grown selflessly under Lu Jinsui's disdainful and disgusting eyes.As an outsider, he couldn't imagine what he had endured in the past two years.

It seems that I really need to talk to Lu Jinsui.

Wang Zimu always believes that if there is no emotion, it is impossible for two people to torture each other to this point.

But for the time being, he didn't want to inform him that Lin Shu's body had to be taken care of by him. Moreover, he also wanted to see if Lu Jinsui would call him first...

For a few days, these people seemed to have nothing happened, carrying out their daily work and life.

Apart from socializing, Lu Jinsui mostly has coffee instead of dinner, but every time he returns home late at night, without lights and hot meals, he can't control the feeling of emptiness in his heart. It's not heavy, but it exists undeniably.

In the past few nights, he occasionally had a stomachache at night, so he didn't have to bear it anymore. He got out of bed to light a cigarette, and just sat in the living room until dawn.But the company's work is still heavy, he has always been rigorous and conscientious in his work, and recently he has a large cooperation project, it is a lie to say that he is not busy.

Having to spend every night in this empty big house, his sleep quality began to become very poor.I remember that when he first moved in, he resolutely hung the photo with Jin Liu in the living room. He could feel the gaze from afar at that time, and he could even hear the suppressed panting in the air, but he never looked back to search for that way. look.

The person he once loved broke his peaceful life, and a life left suddenly.Even so, she still couldn't bear to destroy him, so she left him and tortured each other until the day they were exhausted.

On this day, Wang Zimu finally lost his composure. He picked up the phone, pressed a few buttons, stopped, cursed, and continued to press.

Finally, the phone went through.He endured it for several days, but the other party never made any movement.Things can't be delayed any longer, and in desperation, he can only compromise first.

"Hello, Zimu." The voice was slightly hoarse, and Lu Jinsui rubbed his swollen head, showing his fatigue.

"Are you free today? Let's come out and talk about something." Wang Zimu was about to speak sarcasticly to him, but after hearing the tired voice, he couldn't help but soften his tone.

"What's the matter? If it's from that person, you know I don't want to talk about it for now." Lu Jinsui sat up straight, tapped the table with one hand, and his expression became stiff.

"Lu Jinsui! Don't be stubborn!" His soft tone suddenly became tough, and Wang Zimu began to regret his kindness just now.

Whenever he saw Lin Shu gently stroking his stomach, but he was reluctant to hold a bowl.His pregnancy reaction was a bit severe, and he had no appetite all the time, but he swallowed food and medicine very cooperatively, although he would vomit again after a while and couldn't breathe.

Lin Shu's eyes were still so clear and gentle, but Wang Zimu had also seen him always looking up at the sky when no one was around, and his back was very lonely.

"Wang Zimu, please make it clear that my marriage with him is legally binding. Now he is the one who has run away from home, and it is up to him to come and go." Lu Jinsui added indifferently and rationally, "Also, I hope this matter Don't meddle in the matter, our matter will be resolved by ourselves..."

Although he has never thought about the future in his heart, he clearly knows his position, so he has the strength to continue entanglement.

"Jin Sui, why do you... If you insist on going your own way again, maybe, maybe, you won't even have the chance to treat him like this in the future..." There was some grief and sigh in the voice. "At two o'clock in the afternoon, I will wait for you at the coffee shop downstairs of your company."

After speaking, Wang Zimu hung up the phone.

He did it on the balcony, while Lin Shu was fast asleep, but when he turned around again, he saw the person who should have been asleep staring at him, half leaning against the wall.

Although he can get out of bed and walk around now, his body is still weak.Lin Shu's complexion was morbidly fair, but now there was a trace of trance transparency.

He looked at Wang Zimu very quietly, until Wang Zimu hung up the phone and looked at himself in panic, then he said:

"Brother Wang, thank you. I'll go back today."

Wang Zimu looked at the persistent Lin Shu in disbelief. The anger towards Lu Jinsui just now hadn't subsided, and Lin Shu said he wanted to go back.

It's chaos on top of chaos.

Secretly sinking into the chaotic thoughts, Wang Zimu went up to support the other party, put his hands on his shoulders, and tried to keep his tone as calm as possible.

"Listen to me, Lin Shu, you are not in good health now, and no one will take care of you when you go back." Originally, I wanted to say that when you go back, do you think anyone will feel sorry for you? !But considering the mood of the other party, he changed the sentence tactfully. "You stay with me first, I have something to talk to him about with him. As for you, why don't you stay and take care of yourself first?"

Wang Zimu looked at him with sincerity. "Besides, I will take care of the baby before it is born. You should also think about me, how tired I am from running around."

Knowing that he was afraid of affecting his relationship with Lu Jinsui, and knowing that he was embarrassed to live here for a long time, he put aside his fear of the house and said that he wanted to go back.

After that incident, Wang Zimu never asked him the reason of the incident in front of Lin Shu, nor did he mention Lu Jinsui in front of him, he only told him to rest at ease.

But one time when the two were watching TV news, when the host was broadcasting about the project cooperation of Jinfu Group, the image of Lu Jinsui flashed on the screen, and Lin Shu's movements became unnatural, and then he said he was not feeling well, and went back to his room. rest.

From then on, Wang Zimu also knew that before this matter was resolved, this situation could still be avoided as long as it could be avoided.

"I can take care of myself." Lin Shu lowered his head, unable to see his expression clearly, "Brother Wang, do you think he will never forgive me for the rest of his life?"

The faint voice passed by in an instant.

He, who was always unwilling to admit defeat and tried his best to fight, panicked because of Lu Jin's cruel refusal that even his flesh and blood could give up. For the first time, he wanted to find a shoulder to lean on for a while.

Since he was a child, he was a special child. His inner inferiority complex was self-evident, but his parents' caution and avoidance of him, and even later allowed him to leave home to study alone, all these made him feel a kind of loneliness after numbness in his heart.

He has always been used to hiding his thoughts, and when he sees a person he likes, he wants to treat him carefully, until one day he can understand himself.

But in the current situation, even the children are abandoned because of me, is it... Is it... Is it the wrong choice?

What does heartache feel like? At this moment, Lin Shu's mind seems to be in a paralyzed state.He turned a blind eye to the pain again and again, and the occasional tenderness was just like a drop in the ocean, after which there was still endless darkness.

In fact, isn't my only humble wish to find someone who can accept me with an open heart and is willing to listen to me?Is there someone who can comfort me when I hit a wall, accompany me when I am happy, and hug me when I am sad?

He used to be overjoyed and surprised by Lu Jinsui's tenderness and consideration for him. He was too excited to fall asleep in the middle of the night. It was the first time he felt happy, so he fought hard for it.

He swore that he still has a lot of advantages for him to discover, but it was a fatal mistake at the beginning. When he wanted him to fall in love with him slowly, Jin Liu's death made him lose so completely.

When Lin Shu shyly plucked up the courage he had never had before to explain to her that he fell in love with Lu Jinsui, how could he have expected such a result?

It's just hurt him, come back and hurt yourself again, and the one who was looking forward to has already quietly gone away.

Lin Shu vigorously shook off Wang Zimu's arm holding him, and the accumulated tears blurred his vision. Lin Shu seemed to be in a trance, his legs began to tremble involuntarily, and his body lost support and collapsed on the ground.

"Didn't he ignore me?" My heart trembled suddenly, but there was a psychedelic smile on my face. The person who had never smiled in the past few days seemed to show some joy, "He hates me. Not showing up! It's not really that I hate children so much! I'm going to apologize to him!... Yes, I have to go and apologize to him!

"In this way, he will still recognize his child..." His empty hand caressed the abdomen that had been in pain for several days, and the tears finally burst and flowed down.

It was the first time he had lost his composure and cried in front of others.

Wang Zimu was first shaken away by his sudden strength, and wanted to help him, but saw the crazy despair in the other's eyes.

The pain in his body, coupled with his lover's indifference and even contempt, made him truly on the verge of exhaustion.

Wang Zimu watched silently, and when he finished venting, a suppressed moan attracted all his attention, and he hugged him horizontally, letting all his tears hide in his arms.

Feeling pain in my heart, looking at the tolerant and stubborn person, I can only submit gently and willingly: "Okay, I will send you there after you sleep again."

The arms slowly tightened him into his arms, he never knew that being distressed would make people lose their minds, and he would be willing to fulfill those unreasonable demands willingly.

It seems that once he left, he really missed the most beautiful time.

Lin Shu had never recuperated properly due to the last blood loss, and he was a little weak and short of breath. Before that, he was emotionally agitated, and the fetus failed to calm him down. He only suffered from bursts of pain. deep worry.

Lin Shu began to regret his recklessness, which almost endangered the child again. He lowered his eyes, and his heart was full of self-blame.The slender hands secretly supported the back of the waist, and the soreness that began to roll up was hard for him to ignore, and the slightly swollen belly made him feel the hardships of pregnancy.

Wang Zimu gave him the anti-fetal medicine, and sat by the bed for a long time, until the man was too tired to fall asleep again before leaving quietly.

Although Wang Zimu rushed all the way to the agreed coffee shop, it took more than an hour.He really didn't want Lu Jinsui to catch him in his office and talk to him about this kind of thing.

Remorsefully cursing himself for being too stupid, Lin Shu almost got pregnant again, and the rare appointment might be ruined.

Unhesitatingly slamming the car door, he decided to try his luck to see if he was there, or rather if he happened to be down for afternoon tea.In short, Wang Zimu, with a guilty look on his face, decided to go in and give it a try.

Unexpectedly, when he gathered his momentum and was about to step in, he bumped into a person with a bang, and the familiar smell came faintly, and it became real again.

Wang Zimu raised his head as if awakened, and in front of his eyes was an enlarged poker face.

Lu Jinsui turned away as if nothing had happened, his face looked a bit embarrassed, and he was about to leave immediately with his long legs.

etc!Did he wait until now?

After being surprised, Wang Zimu immediately recovered his sanity, grabbed Lu Jinsui, and stopped him from leaving. He wanted to smile but his face was still serious: "Jin Sui, since you are here, let's finish talking before leaving."

There is no doubt that Lu Jinsui was dragged in.

The two sat opposite each other, and the waiter kept a respectful distance from the aura here, silently watching the "confrontation" between the two handsome men.

Wang Zimu picked up a cup of black coffee, which was not his taste, but because he was staring at Lu Jinsui intently, when the waiter asked him if he wanted the same after the other ordered, he nodded viciously.

After barely taking a sip, looking straight at the other person, he spoke slowly and forcefully.

"Have you decided not to have that child?"

Lu Jin looked back at him with no sign of weakness in his eyes, and took a sip of the dark black liquid gracefully.

"Don't you already know this? Why bother to ask?"

Lu Jinsui ignored him and continued to taste the coffee, as if he was so devoted.

"Don't you hate him? Then you should let him keep the child, so that you don't have to be so awkward in the future, and you don't have to force yourself to face him anymore."

Following his example, Wang Zimu put down the glass casually, shook it lightly, moved his eyes upwards, met the other party's dangerously shining eyes in the air, and noticed the shaking of the liquid in the other party's cup meticulously.

"What do you mean?" There was trembling in the lowered voice, but when Lu Jinsui was startled by his tone, he still didn't forget to add: "You mean that if he gave birth to me and left me, I would Let him go?"

There was still a sliver of confidence at first, but now it was beaten back to its original shape by Lu Jinsui's cold words, and he glared at him angrily, and then returned to his usual expression.

"What I mean is, if the child is aborted, although his body will be injured, he will recover after treatment; but if he stays..." After a pause, he said again, "It is very dangerous. As you said willing."

As if he had gained the upper hand again, Wang Zimu glanced at Lu Jinsui's instantly unfathomable and gloomy face, and imitated his previous appearance and added: "This is why I came here today, Jinsui."

After returning to the office, Lu Jinsui forced himself to think about the things between them.

He never thought about Lin Shu's death!

It seems that his subconscious wants him to live more, to live under his nose.And this unexpected child came too suddenly, and my hatred for him has not yet ended, yet an extra child came out of thin air.

After getting along for more than two years, I seem to only regard him as the object of venting, and forget the special nature of his body.In other words, from the moment he knew about his physical condition, he only cared about him and wanted to protect him, and never discriminated against him.

But at this moment, some only have complete hatred, and the original emotion has long been washed away by the strong hatred.

The two were tossed and entangled in hatred, no matter how hard they struggled, they could not escape or avoid it, but Lu Jinsui seemed to have overlooked one point. Lin Shu never saw resentment in his eyes, but only love and self-love that deeply disgusted him. Responsibility and distress.Every time at this time, he would make himself extra sharp, injuring the opponent's body to the point of infinity.

Today, Zimu gave him this multiple-choice question.

A or B, one will give him a mental blow, and the other may be an irreversible physical death.

At that moment, he was confused and shocked, and gradually became clearer.

Call the secretary and give orders for the few remaining affairs.

Around five o'clock, Lu Jinsui, the president of Jinfu Group, skipped work for the first time ever.

Lu Jinsui had already thought it through in the office.

I am afraid that I will not have the strength to love others in this life, so why not let Lin Shu give birth to this child.

He has always been a person with clear grievances and grievances, and this child can be regarded as half of his own flesh and blood.Keeping the child, if, if that person is gone, his heart trembled at this thought, and he stopped thinking about it; if it ended like this, then he would send the child abroad to grow up in a place that Lin Shu could not find.

While driving the car, Lu Jinsui was thoughtful. He fumbled for a lighter in his pocket, but accidentally touched something cold and hard.That metallic texture instantly came to mind, but that face never appeared again.

But he believes that if it is God's will, they will meet again.

If it was Jin Liu, no matter if she was a human or a ghost, he would want to start over and make up for her as long as she was willing, but as for Lin Shu, maybe he would push him away and never let him be with him again. Jin Liu appeared in front of him.

When driving past the gray villa, the car slowly stopped.

Lu Jinsui got off the car gracefully, and the outline of the blue villa could be seen in this direction.I remember that at that time, Zimu and I took a fancy to the tranquility and coolness of this place, the excellent terrain, and there seemed to be an agreement when we were young that we would be neighbors.

Can't help but find it funny, time has passed, and which one of them is still the same as before?

He rang the doorbell, but there was no response for a long time. Lu Jinsui just waited quietly. Finally, the door opened.

Wang Zimu poked his face out and turned sideways to let him in.

"Have you made up your mind? Tell me when you think about it, there is still time for everything, otherwise the child will not be able to beat him when he grows up."

Wang Zimu glanced at him as he spoke. To be honest, the child really shouldn't be left behind.Born into this family with no love but only hatred, he will not enjoy happiness, and if Lin Shu is abolished, although Lin Shu will suffer and slump for a while, he will recover slowly.

Lu Jin looked at him noncommittally.

"I've made up my mind..." secretly looking at the eagerness on his face, "I want to keep the child."

"Lu Jinsui! You..."

Wang Zimu was angry and shocked. He really put Lin Shu's life and death at risk, and he was willing to let their children be sacrificed.

He became angry suddenly, and was about to grab the other party's collar and question him, when a cold voice sounded:

"Jin Sui, is what you said true?"

Lin Shu didn't know when he woke up. His body was still weak and his face was haggard, but it was obviously tidied up, and he only looked clean.

He was standing at the corner of the stairs, looking at Lu Jinsui intently, with his hands resting on the wooden spiral staircase, his lips were trembling.

Wang Zimu and Lu Jinsui were shocked by the voice at the same time, and both looked at him.

Finally, Lu Jinsui walked towards Lin Shu with his long legs.

He looked into Lin Shu's teary eyes, only to find that there were disbelief, expectation and... grievance in those eyes.

Standing still in front of him, separated by a step up and down, the two of them were looking at each other, and the distance was almost close, but Lin Shu felt as if the world was at the end of the world. The legs were a little weak, and most of the weight of the body was placed on the arms used for support.

"Yes."

A single word dragged Lin Shu from hell to heaven.

I couldn't believe that such an answer came from him. Lin Shu, who thought he was hallucinating, but still had a glimmer of hope to prove it, got such an answer!

He wanted to say something, but after all he just opened his mouth and couldn't say a word.

Physically and mentally dry, he couldn't bear the continuous stimulation, his knees bent, he staggered, his body began to fall heavily, but Lin Shu gathered his hands to protect his abdomen.This is his child, and he must not let him slip up.

However, there was no unexpected coldness, the body was softly drawn into a generous embrace, and a hand behind him passed through the waist, embracing himself in front of his chest, the liquid that he was trying to restrain was shining with eternal light at that moment, quietly dipping wet each other's front.

The depleted body and mind finally enjoyed a moment of sunshine and rain. Lin Shu only had one feeling, that is, contentment.

Lu Jinsui's embrace was not warm enough, but it refueled the faint flames of hope. He gently embraced Lin Shu's fallen body, and his heart felt unprecedentedly relaxed.

His tired body seemed to have found a corner to lean on. Lin Shu hesitantly but gently spread out the hand protecting his abdomen, stretched out from behind, and finally hugged him tremblingly.

Such a hug, the thought of it in the past two years will cut my heart like a knife.