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Chapter 5 3. Existence

Two, Xia Yang

3. Existence (Puzzle ENE)

Be smart enough not to be self-defeating.

Be kind enough not to be jealous.

Be naive enough not to be hypocritical and indifferent.

Always smile, not downcast.

And I will always love you the most, and I will always love you.

He who was drowsy was finally awakened by a brand new method and returned to his childhood.

Haruhiko, is opening his arms to make himself walk more stably. Children who are just learning to walk are like this, but it is not because of his young body, but because when he opens his arms, he seems to be able to embrace his whole world and be hugged gently .The balance beam under his feet, he can walk steadily since he was born, so he tried to understand the instability, and then let himself understand how safe it is to step on the ground with one foot. Steady, falling headlong, but he is more afraid that one day the reality will suddenly disappear, and he will be alone again.

He glanced at his companions in Area 55. They were all newborns just like him, and they were deliberately customized to look like nine-year-olds.Haruhiko was on the balance beam in the setting sun. When he opened his arms, the shadow cast on the warm orange wall was like a bird fluttering about to take off, but Haruhiko was still on his perch with his hands wide open. , but his eyes stopped to look at the crowds in the pastures in Area 55 that were gradually thinning out.Each of them seems to have their own home, lined up in a line and don't know which safe haven to swim to.

His companions were picked up by his prisoner one by one, and Qingyan smiled and waved his hands and said in a low voice: "Goodbye, everyone." Then in the silence and shadows, he stopped looking at others blankly, raised his The feet under his robe and the brocade boots he was wearing were a bit dirty, probably because he was running around on the pasture today.Haruhiko put down his feet and the robe he had lifted, and began to walk back and forth on the balance beam. In fact, there are a lot of play equipment in the special training room for children like Area 55 in the pasture, but Haruhiko prefers to stay here on the balance beam, perhaps because he is not popular. Maybe it's because the balance beam is too boring, there are few people coming, and I am not suitable for being lively.Haruhiko stayed on the balance beam, he walked faster and faster, started to run vigorously, slightly tiptoed and half-hopped to chase his own shadow under the orange-red sunlight, but he stopped chasing after running, he returned to the On the ground, seeing that the pasture was empty, he sat on the balance beam, retracted his straight legs, and gently hugged him when he bent down. He buried his face in his knees, and then waited for the sunset to fall into the dark field .

"Haruhiko, Haruhiko, come here!"

"... Ah Cheng?"

Haruhiko suddenly felt "overjoyed" in a daze. He saw an orange light flickering in the darkness. He rubbed his sleepy eyes, and after sniffing, he felt a pair of generous hands holding his shoulders. He couldn't see the other person's eyes when he looked up, but could only see the upper half of his face covered by black silk strips and bangs on his forehead.

The scent of the medicine wafted into his nostrils, Xicheng squatted down and said to Haruhiko with a smile;

"It's been a long wait, Duyu and I have a lot of tasks today, so obediently waited for so long, Qingbao is so obedient!"

"Ah...Ah, you have worked hard!"

Haruhiko scrambled to finish his words, and finally smiled.His shoulders being rubbed by Xicheng seemed to raise his body temperature from the cold here, he looked at Xicheng, and Xicheng was also facing him with a smile, just when he was about to say something to Xicheng, his stomach cried out inappropriately.After cooing a few times, Xicheng's smile grew stronger, he moved closer to Haruhiko, and scratched his nose.

"hungry?"

Haruhiko patted his stomach and thought about it, he said he was not hungry.

"Little liar, you'll be hungry when you're hungry, let's go, let's go home and eat!"

Being hugged by Xicheng with one hand and sitting in his arms, Haruhiko's perspective suddenly increased, and he felt it, only then did he realize that it was already dark, and he woke up from a drowsiness in loneliness with a headache and a little nausea, but He didn't say anything.It's just that a fleshy hand grasped the long dark green hair that hangs down, watching the orange-red line of the sky turn into a lonely light blue in the dark blue.

Like the sky, turned into a fish, swimming into its deep sea alone.

"Qingbao, what do you want to eat?"

"...um...what would you like to eat, Ah Cheng?"

"I've eaten it a long time ago, don't worry about me, tell me what you want to eat."

At a very close distance, Xichao smiled lightly, Haruhiko pinched Xichao's hair tightly, but it didn't make him feel the slightest pain, as if he was clearly grasping but never exerting force... soft enough but soft enough Haruhiko rubbed his fingertips with a touch completely different from the soft flesh in his palm, he was still smiling, the lonely moon left and the line of the sky faded away, while he was thinking.

"Well... then meat, and spiritual fruit."

Haruhiko laughed for some reason.

"Okay, no problem, our Qingbao is so good! Make more meat rewards today!"

After Xicheng responded with a smile, a few strands of slender branches with leaves sprouted from his fingertips on his free arm. When Xicheng clenched his palm, he magically gathered a punch of spinning leaves. After the leaves drifted away, he revealed He injected "spirit" into a small mirror, and the mirror surface began to reflect a person's appearance. Haruhiko turned his head and moved closer, and Du Yu's face suddenly appeared in the mirror.

"...Xiaodu!"

Haruhiko called with a childlike voice, and Du Yusha in the mirror nodded solemnly.

"Duyu, Qingbao is hungry, cook more meat and add a bowl of Sulin fruit soup, he's catching a cold."

Duyu was not in a hurry to answer, he glanced at Haruhiko who was being held in his arms by Qichao, and gave a hmm to someone, and the mirror went dark, without any extra words or thoughts, and what was illuminated was only the dark sky , Occasionally, the stars in the sky shone a few times, Haruhiko maintained the smile on his face, and he asked Qicheng in a low voice.

"... Is Xiaodu busy today?"

"...um... When is he not busy?"

Xicheng asked back, Qingyan stretched his legs and thought for a while, cheered himself up with Qicheng and Duyu full of vitality, and praised them for being too powerful, they are needed because they are so good, and they are very busy because of being needed .Xichao patted the top of Haruhiko's head with the other hand, and faced him with a smile. The corners of his eyes were covered by a cloth, so Qingyan couldn't find Xichao's thoughts through the eyes that showed his heart, so he thought for himself, and then started as if nothing had happened. Happy, said that he was miserable, turned his face away and fell asleep on Xicheng's shoulder again.

"That's right..."

Haruhiko made up for the words that came late, and whispered so quietly that Xicheng, who was thinking about something alone, didn't hear anything, and Haruhiko was bored in his warm arms, letting go of his words, letting every word follow The wind trace drifts into the river of stars that slowly emerges, the color is very beautiful, the night begins to be beautiful, Haruhiko smiles, the sky is the same as his mood, always beautiful.

Unknowingly at home, Xicheng still woke up Haruhiko, although he had already slept soundly, but Xicheng felt that he should finish his dinner first, so Qingyan half took off his brocade boots, Putting on soft fur shoes, he went to the kitchen to wash his hands, just happened to meet Du Yu who brought out the soup, he called his name, Du Yu nodded and left, Haruhiko followed to the living room, and sat on the chair by himself Pick up the rice bowl.

"Did you put Sulinguo together?"

"Ah."

Du Yu wiped his hands with a towel again, looked at the black soup that he had just placed in front of Haruhiko, took off his apron, and went to the laboratory next door without looking back.Xicheng raised his eyebrows, opened the table and sat opposite Haruhiko, Haruhiko hadn't started eating yet, so he put down the bowl and chopsticks, and waited quietly for Xicheng with a correct posture.

"Qingbao, you don't have to wait for us tomorrow, can you find the way? Can you do it yourself?"

"Don't worry, Ah Cheng, I'm fine! After all, I'm also very good!"

Haruhiko laughed and nodded to reply to Xicheng, looking very excited, and even made body movements to make Xicheng believe him even more.Xicheng really smiled, and after praising Haruhiko for being well-behaved and sensible, he touched the soft hair on the top of Haruhiko's head and went to the laboratory.Haruhiko kept his smile, looked at the empty seat opposite and the dish that was only for himself, and began to dig the food into his mouth mouthful.

The laboratory is a bit noisy.

And the vegetables... are a bit salty and bitter...

"Qingbao! Drink up the medicine."

"Ok!"

Qi Cheng suddenly opened the door and shouted at the side of the laboratory, Haruhiko nodded, the black concoction had no ripples or vibrations on the table, it was very much like something inside.According to his habit, he ate all his meals without a drop of rice left, even though he had a poor appetite in the first place.The toys and the long-tailed spirit mouse that Xicheng bought for him were placed in the other corner of the living room, so after glancing at the bitter medicine, he got off the wooden chair that looked a bit tall and big to him, and trotted to the spirit mouse's cage , hands through the protective cover to slowly drop the sunflower seeds and grass seeds, let them lie in a pile of wood chips.The spirit mouse picked it up to eat, and Qingyan took the opportunity to stroke its back, and it sent itself into Qingyan's palm, and the back was straightened, and Qingyan laughed foolishly, and he poked the spirit mouse's head.

"It's fine if you've always been obedient, and you'll run away as soon as I take you out."

The spirit mouse tilted its head creakingly, it seemed that it didn't understand Haruhiko's meaning.

Haruhiko's eyes were deep and affectionate, slightly narrowed, and after smiling, he looked back at his bitter medicine again, it was still so dark, and the taste must not be good, just like the bitterness and pungentness that had been drilled into his throat many times.He stretched out the hand that had been put into the protective cover, and walked slowly to the table. He didn't sit down anymore, but stood up, took the medicine and drank it down.He thought that it was more sour and sweeter than before, probably because Du Yulian stewed the Sulin fruit together. He looked at the bottom of the bowl where the black medicine residue remained, and shook the soup that was no longer there. A bowl of bitter and spicy mixed with sour and sweet became weird, and I don't know what kind of overturned and mixed taste, it was uncomfortable, but it still stayed on the tip of the tongue and refused to be swallowed.Haruhiko didn't want to drink any more, regardless of the leftovers, hid the bitter taste in his mouth, swallowed his saliva to try to dilute it.He picked up the bowl and walked solemnly towards the laboratory.

He originally wanted to show Qicheng Duyu that he drank very cleanly, but he saw both of them were busy through the half-open door.Qi Cheng was talking to Du Yu, his tone was a little aggressive, Du Yu also frowned, unwilling to say more, just tore apart the black and white objects under his hand, and continued to work in an orderly manner.Haruhiko closed the door for them, and retreated to the hall by himself. He wanted to lie on the soft seat for a while and read some novel stories to pass the time, but when he saw the dishes on the table, he thought that he didn't have anything to read, and his mind flashed. After reading the latest storybook that others have said, but I am not interested in the content. In the empty room full of various furniture and toys, I took the controller of the teleporter that told the story and smiled silently, and put it beside me. There was no listening to the sounds from the instruments to make it all seem lively.

Then he walked in front of the dining table, wrapped the dirty dishes with his "Soul of Water", let the condensed water polo wash them, and wiped the table with a new water polo.He stretched his hand forward, controlled the water polo, took a bunch of water balloons, went to the kitchen to open the cupboard, and sent the bowls and chopsticks with water.He put down the water polo towards the leak, and it drooped down like ordinary water, they still looked as clean as when they just condensed, but Haruhiko knew they were different... He looked at his boots again, He squatted down and stared at it for a while, and finally stopped disturbing Qicheng Duyu. Instead, after washing himself in the same way, he stretched out his hands and pushed the dirty water polo into the bathroom to let it go, while bathing and brushing his teeth.After taking a shower, he found that he forgot to take his pajamas, so he wiped it off with a private towel embroidered with a small blue flower, ran to the room and quickly changed his clothes, and went back to the bathroom to wash today's dirty clothes. Control the water and pull yourself.

After hanging up the clothes, he looked at the dirty ground, and he lost a few hairs on the ground, so he stood outside the bathroom, calmly pushing water from all around, letting the water flow away, so that it would be clean stand up.He went to his room and lay down on his own bed, which was a big one, because he was going to sleep here for the next few years.Haruhiko tossed and turned, he couldn't sleep, he felt that the bed was empty, he wanted to listen to the story, but after flipping through a few pages of the thick book, he was still tired, and found the black and red reflection on the wall, he slapped the light off, hugged The thick and soft quilt hid his face and body, nestled in the very center of the bed, good night, sweet dreams, he said to himself.

"Qingbao, you should also get along with your companions today."

Xichao always looked so happy, Haruhiko raised the corner of his mouth and smiled expectantly in response to him. After he closed his eyes, the world was filled with darkness and colorful light spots that slowly surged and hid in his eyes, so Haruhiko didn't want to open his eyes He was afraid that he would reveal some emotions when he opened his eyes.But precisely in order not to be exposed, he chooses to open his eyes, try his best to look energetic, and the light shines in his eyes, but the eyes do not reveal the traces of his heart.

In the storybook, "he read the emotion of ... from his eyes" is actually not accurate.

The eyes will indeed be flustered for a moment like the fluctuations of the lake, but after the weather is calm, what is left in the pair of blue eyes?

Xicheng could only see the shiny blue, and only his own figure which became funny in his eyes.

He didn't look or ask, he just put his hands on Qingyan's head.

"good."

As soon as he said that, Haruhiko laughed, and he carried his bag on his back and walked through the blue sky alone, as always, he was pinching the shoulder straps of his backpack tightly, making his palms flushed with emotion.He spread his hands, and the clouds were slowly pushed away by the wind and exiled, and after seeing the changes in the wind and clouds, he still smiled and learned how to fly a bird, stepping on a row of green bricks on the edge of the garden.The bricks are very small and narrow... But fortunately, Haruhiko was young, and there were so many bricks, extending in an endless line to the end of his world. He stepped on it, turned it occasionally, and became light in the air.He has wings, but he does not fly, because the sky does not have his nostalgia, he just feels the feeling of flying and the feeling of a moment of relaxation.

He doesn't go to the real high altitude, because he is afraid that once he goes, he won't want to come back.

The sky is quiet, but still lonely...

With his excellent hearing, he could hear the sound of playfulness coming from a distance, so he put down his hands spread out on both sides, and his ears, which had been transformed into human ears, moved imperceptibly. He thought about the distance and speed of the other party, and when the other party would come .When the voices gradually approached him, he looked to the right, and suddenly realized that he was still walking under the green bricks, so he brought himself down, and walked straight as if nothing had happened, while the children of his age were talking and laughing. Walking past him, his greeting hand was still in the air, and the words "Good morning!" were still in his mouth, but he chose to remain silent in the end, taking a small step for some reason, and then looked at the back of others.

As if cut off from what he expected, he once again chose to observe the vast field, and now the clouds were all driven away by the wind, leaving the solitary sun, shining as best it could.What he looked at was the iridescent circle in the light, and he thought, if there was a distance between him and the world, if there was a wall between him and the world.

That wall must be...

definitely is……

After laughing and entertaining himself, he entered Zedui Academy in Area 55.

"Xiao Du, can I go directly to District One?"

"No."

"……why?"

Du Yu stopped the action of concocting the potion in his hands, thoughtfully in the gray field full of books, shook his hand, and the purple potion burst into the red color of the molten liquid in the dim light, gurgling, scalding, bubbles churning, he mirrored There was always a calm and cold look in the silver-gray eyes.

他 说:

"You have to learn to deal with it, because you can't escape."

With his hands behind his back, Haruhiko looked down at his feet, at the blue edge of his white-soled brocade boots, his left foot stretched out of the vertical sleeve of his clothes, wrinkled the clothes, and then drew a line on the ground. A circle with no end.

"Xiaodu...do I still want to do it even if I don't like it?"

"Haruhiko, everyone has to do it, but you have to go through more."

"……I see."

Haruhiko was about to go happily to get the schoolbag he left in the room, he opened the door, but Du Yu added.

"Haruhiko, I'm doing it for your own good."

"Well, I know... Duyu, the best!"

Haruhiko smiled until his eyes narrowed, and his eight teeth were exposed where the light did not shine.

Haruhiko smiled and appeared in front of the gate of the third class of the academy. He waited for the expected silence and probing eyes.When Haruhiko lowered his eyebrows slightly, his white eyelashes trembled, the sunlight slipped away in the arc of the eyelashes, the corners of his mouth were still stiff, and he twisted the doorknob with hands that were sweating, but fortunately, his palms did not slip. Someone bumped into his shoulder with a smile, then glanced at him and chuckled, that person was still whispering something to his companion, Haruhiko suddenly felt that the third class was very noisy, he looked into the room, only to find that everyone was discussing with each other With that, but did not tell him.

He smiled awkwardly for a while, then raised his hand after thinking about it and said:

"good morning everyone!"

He used his signature smile, but no one responded.

He blinked, sat back to his seat without a sound, and began to take out the books one by one, obviously reducing the weight, but the schoolbag was getting bigger and heavier in his eyes.He seems to be thinking, seems to be wondering, he pulls out something, puts something back in, and always makes some noise on purpose, but in fact he is only bluffing and pretending not to care.The ears are annoying, and the conversation of classmates is still sent into a smile that Haruhiko's stagnant eyes can't keep up with.

"A district tester, a doctor, and the monster brought out by the joint..."

"...how is he in Area 55?"

"He also killed Wang Miaoer's spirit rabbit!"

"Scary! He must have done it on purpose!"

"When Wang Miaoer was showing off that day, he took a look!"

"Didn't he also mentor..."

"I really don't know what the purpose of the first district is! Do you want to destroy someone among us?"

"A district is a district..."

"...different from us."

With a dull smile, Haruhiko pinched the schoolbag strap behind the drawer that was covered by the shadow, just like he was pinching Xichao's hair last night. He didn't let go, but the strength became much harder, and the two fingertips kept rubbing through the thick cloth , He thought of the long-tailed spirit mouse at home, remembered that he liked stuffed animals but no longer loved rabbits, remembered Duyu's words, and smiled, sniffed his nose, trembled his throat, and thought about his own fault, and then He let go of the belt, tidied the table neatly, hugged his schoolbag and smiled in the shadowy classroom where people shuttled back and forth, almost unable to stop laughing.

"Yo! The person who tortured and killed the rabbit! The twisted monster of the third class, what is your expression? Do you want to kill us?"

His right shoulder was slapped abruptly and suddenly became heavy. Qingyan turned his gaze away, and Lai Shanghe laughed wantonly. His crooked smile that almost reached the ear was ironic. Hearing the sound of bones breaking in a delusion, it was useless for him to inject "soul", just like a drop of water dropped into the sea and disappeared without a trace.

"I won't kill you, I won't."

Haruhiko promised with red eyes.

Lai Shanghe stopped for a second and laughed even more exaggeratedly. He slapped Haruhiko on the shoulder fiercely and said with a sneer that this was a hypocritical lie from the people in the first district.As for Qingyan being slapped, it only reflected in his eyes the complexity of going against his age for a moment, he didn't use his "Soul of Water", and wanted to brush Lai Shanghe's hand aside, but he didn't.

He just sighed.

"What a cruel joke..."

Haruhiko's eyes didn't look at him, but at the book utensils he had put on the corner of the table --- a corner of the table that was stained with morning light.

Lai Shanghe slapped Haruhiko's desktop fiercely, attracting people to look at him. He yelled loudly, but Haruhiko didn't care, but his shadow didn't obey, and formed a figure similar to Haruhiko in a field where no one could see.In his vermilion deep-sea-like eyes, there was always the danger of seemingly calm but full of hidden reefs, he hit Haruhiko directly.

"you are not happy."

"Ah."

Haruhiko knew him.

Xicheng and Duyu also knew about him, but they only said they saw a cloud of red and black mist, and asked Haruhiko to ignore him.It was as if only Haruhiko could see his true figure clearly. Haruhiko could clearly see the tear mole at the corner of his eye, his black dragon horn, and the secrets in his long and narrow eyes. The voice murmured.

"……It is you……"

"It's me...your opposite."

"Are you saying that I am really a monster, or am I crazy? Only then can I see you so clearly?"

"People always know themselves better, and that's not a problem."

"...but I feel weird."

"Compared to this...you should be more worried about the things in front of you."

Following the opponent's sharp nails that looked like monsters, Haruhiko saw the questioning coming to his face.

"Why did you kill the spirit rabbit!"

"Monster! Tell me what kind of mood you are in!"

"He must have wanted to kill us too."

"People in District [-] never look down on us..."

"You didn't kill it, did you?"

The black will chuckled in his ear and stretched out his sharp claws to cover Haruhiko's hand. When Haruhiko saw that his white was covered by thick black, he suddenly lost consciousness and couldn't tell which one was the original self, the black one. Yu Bai, who knows...

"You want them gone...you want so much."

"……do not talk."

"Afraid to admit it?"

"No... no, it's just... I don't think it's necessary..."

"You always..."

"It's too... I just want to..."

Don't be hated more...

He gritted his teeth, closed his eyes and shook, the distant sun became more and more dazzling, the hollow whiteness accelerated in the erosion of light and sound, it seemed that he was still standing on the gray stone ground, and the frail rabbit kicked its legs in front of him and kept twitching , Its yellow sticky soles seem to be about to rub something on the edge of Haruhiko's shoes with a kick.

With him as the isolation zone, the invisible wall spread out to a distance of ten people, and only the crows were clamoring, and only the barbed wire was dripping with water... He saw people avoiding him, he was at a loss, he just came here by instinct , and then saw the dying rabbit.

it's calling for help...

Haruhiko looked left and right, he wanted to leave, but he saw the crowd... Silence and silence, the light at noon, and the cicadas began to sing, no one heard his plea, let alone his voice, people walked through, didn't care Looking back, some are watching, but not approaching.He felt a little cold, and chose to hold the rabbit up under the silent gaze from the sea of ​​people. He realized that the rhythm of life was separated by a layer of fur, so he was more gentle, more attentive, and less likely to hurt anything. ...

"Wang Miaoer, look! I said Qingyan killed your rabbit!"

The object in his hand was suddenly snatched, Qingyan didn't dare to grab it forcefully, he saw the rabbit trembling weakly for a moment, he wanted to stop it, but he knew that his brute force snatching in a hurry would only hurt the rabbit even more.He saw that Lai Shanghe was still smiling evilly, he saw the blue light flashing between Lai Shanghe's hands, he saw that Lai Shanghe carried the rabbit in front of everyone, and then said with a smile:

"Look at the water attribute wound, Qingyan did it! Wang Miaoer! He killed your rabbit."

At that moment, his lips were hot and his mouth was dry, his throat was dry and bitter, and the crowd was talking a lot. He suddenly had nothing to say, and slowly put down his hand that wanted to argue.

"Look, they're all rejecting you."

The voice of the black will is always particularly loud in the noise, and his words are right next to his ears.

"Quiet, all sit back!"

The door seemed to be pushed open by the "soul", and hit the white wall behind with a "bang", the air wave was still slowly drifting past him, detecting the restlessness in the air like a gossamer, Haruhiko's cold sweat ran down the back of his neck, he saw someone coming, I also saw the bandages on his hands and feet... The third-class tester slowly moved to his desk with a cane. His eyes passed by Haruhiko. Don't laugh, but he doesn't know how to pretend to be strong besides laughing.So he cried with a habitual smile, and the hot tears kept falling, wetting the pages of the book he had pretended to read, and he cried out sobbingly:

"sorry Sorry……"

When entering school, the "Soul of Water" was mobilized for the college test. The third class of testers told him to pour the "Soul" into the glass ball in front of him. He didn't think much about it, and let the "Soul" pour into the sphere like a dragon, transparent and gradually dyed Becoming the blue of Haiyang, during this period, there are two strands of air floating, one black and one white.When the ball was filled with his blue, Haruhiko smiled relaxedly. The moment his fingertips were pulled away from the ball, the black and white gas threads suddenly rioted, no longer the peaceful mutual generation and restraint as in the beginning, but pure fighting.

Cracks appeared on the surface of the glass ball, Haruhiko heard the sound of boiling water, he anxiously wanted to put his hands on it, trying to calm down the restlessness of the water, but he was not as fast as the confrontation between black and white forces, and he was stunned to find that the glass ball was splashing endless water Come.He was late, even if he suppressed the black and white air silk, his hands were scalded to the point of blistering by the scalding water, but what he cared about was his mentor, the third class tester, who subconsciously opened the protective cover and couldn't catch the water in an instant. Haruhiko always felt that it was particularly harsh...

Within the cube-like glass wall, his hand was healing itself at a speed visible to the naked eye, and the unfurling of the back feathers did not hurt him too much. Haruhiko couldn't blink his eyes in shock and astonishment. After weakly trembling and struggling, the room full of people He took back the boiling water, and what he saw was the wounded tester.

Later, he watched the test subject being lifted up in the air by the doctors with the "soul", and rushed to the medical room in a hurry.Qicheng and Duyu also came, Haruhiko wanted to explain something, but he found it hard to tell.

In the panic, Xicheng smiled at him, and his usual teasing eyes flew indifferently. He said it was okay, but Haruhiko was afraid of the injury on the tester, just like when he looked down at his palm that had covered the glazed ball, he suddenly doubted from your own strength.

It seems to come straight on the waves, only knowing how to rush.

Haruhiko saw the test subject who had been on business leave for several months. Under the special "healing spirit" of the doctor, most of the wounds that he could not treat or would take years to heal in bed were healed, at least from the skin point of view. It's the same as before.But Haruhiko's tears kept flowing, he was apologizing, he was remembering, he couldn't forget, how painful the smoking wound, the unrecognizable face, it must have been, just like how he was injured and healed very quickly but he was still able to The pain from the fingertips pierced the heart like a needle prick.

"sorry Sorry……"

He folded his waist severely, and pinched the fabric in front of his knees with both hands. Tears soaked into ugly ripples on the pages of the book, and there were no waves at all. The repeated apologies echoed in the suddenly quiet classroom.

"You know it's useless..."

Haruhiko ignored him.

"...Is this okay? You're starting to blame yourself..."

"...It was originally my fault..."

"Something is inevitable, and you're just stuck in it."

"But if I found out first, if I noticed first... I wouldn't..."

"Not so much first."

In Haruhiko's sobs, the black will stared at his back from behind him, watching Haruhiko's distance from him, or the slow disappearance of himself, being transparent, and sleeping in the darkness again, he only used a soft voice that was much lower than Haruhiko's. Nostalgia said.

"It doesn't matter if... it becomes me?"

Haruhiko didn't hear it.

Haruhiko didn't answer either.

Haruhiko spends a difficult day with the tutor's silence and Lai Shanghe's mockery.

In the afternoon, there was still a line of red around his eye sockets, reminiscent of the beautiful red maple in autumn, in stark contrast to the blue, but Haruhiko never said anything, he was still relaxed, after sniffing, he seemed to forget, After learning other people's games, he jumped a few steps and started to walk seriously. In order not to disturb others' travel, he ran along the wall, avoided people, returned to the pasture where he stopped many times, and quietly hid in the place where he was not disturbed like him. In my favorite corner, the balance beam waits quietly in the half sunlight.He sat and hugged his knees, watching some of them discuss with his testees where to go to play on the next day's vacation, Haruhiko raised his head to listen to their conversation after muffled, bent over, covered his sleeves with his sleeves and stopped smiling Listening to other people's words, seeing their smiles, observing their excitement for tomorrow's plan, Haruhiko also laughed, he didn't know what he was laughing at, he just felt so happy at that moment.

Full of expectations.

Suddenly someone hurriedly ran in front of him, far away, but Haruhiko was sure that the other person was looking at him, so he raised his head higher, wanting to meet the other person's eyes squarely and smile kindly.But coming and going is always in a hurry, and the stay is always short. The other party ran past, but he didn't follow. He closed his mouth trying to call out the other party's name, then lowered his head to his knees, and covered his unsmiling lips under his clothes. sleeve.

He remembered her, Molly, the girl who was always watching.

She stood in one place, not disturbing, not participating.

Haruhiko laughed again. He remembered that he still remembered everyone he met, their habits, things they loved to do, and what they loved to say. He also remembered that today neither Xicheng nor Duyu would come. They have a routine meeting today.

"Qingbao, be good."

"You have to learn to deal with it, because you can't escape."

He said silently in his heart, and smiled knowingly, it's great, he can't see the black sky, and he can't feel the coldness of the night wind.

He smiled and walked slowly back to Duyu's central test area with his heavy bag on his back.

When he got home, he finished what he did every day.

Then, he sank himself into his own deep sea, the sea blue, the sky blue, the lake blue, even the dreamland was blue, he was in deep and shallow blue resentment.The air in the water was thin for him who covered his thin cheeks behind his ears, and he covered his ears as well, as if to block out the constant noisy busy voice.It was impossible to breathe. He was in the anoxic environment like a fish being washed to the shore. He raised his head and squeezed out the surface of the water, which was actually only a tub. , His skin was steamed to a bright red.But Haruhiko beat the water surface, sparking a painless spray, on the soft pink skin of the vine, the fine and shallow white dragon scales showed its white edges like patterns.

Can't empathize, can't feel...

He couldn't reproduce the pain suffered by his mentor, and grew thin and pale white dragon scales. His body consciousness protected him, covering his eyes and sinking to the bottom of the water again, crying bitterly.

If you have the power, go...

then go...

Then protect those who should be protected!

Haruhiko laughed at himself who was crying ugly in the mirror after getting out of the bath.

Then wait for the sixth day of the week with teary eyes closed.

Xi Cheng didn't know where he went, and he couldn't be found early in the morning.Haruhiko put on his shoes in the entrance, and carried his bag on his back. The sixth day was the day he used to buy some fruit snacks. It wasn't that he wanted to eat them, but to settle his inner guilt. To cope with everything, so he worked hard in his own way.I don't know if the tutor will take it or not, and I dare not know.Fortunately, because he is always good and does a lot of things, both Duyu and Qicheng gave him a lot of change, allowing him to buy some items freely.He thought that summer was coming, and the mulberries were dark and sweet, so he planned to buy some mulberries and stuff them secretly into the tutor's receiving box.

After all, eating sweets makes people happy.

"Haruhiko, come with me to the laboratory in the third district."

"...Huh? Why?"

"Their test products are in turmoil, and your blood components need to be adjusted."

"Ah... ok."

The coins in Haruhiko's cloth pocket jingled when he got up, and Haruhiko held them down, making them as quiet as himself.Du Yu walked very fast, so fast that Haruhiko had to trot all the way to catch up with him, but Du Yu didn't slow down and wait. It seemed that the matter was urgent or Du Yu was used to swift and decisive action?Haruhiko hugged his bag to keep it from rattling and shaking, making himself uneasy.He called Du Yu in a low voice, and when Du Yu turned around and looked indifferently in his eyes, Haruhiko suddenly stopped and turned away his originally firm vision.

"What's the matter?"

"It's nothing...Xiaodu."

"Let's go then."

"Ok!"

Haruhiko hugged the bag and smiled, and ran quickly, deliberately running briskly as if he usually played games by himself, and kept making noises if the coins were not loaded.