Encyclopedia love letter

Chapter 30 The Invisible Ear

Xia Jianjing looked up at Lu Zai. At that moment, the rain curtain of the fountain rose from the ground, and the water mist splashed all over the sky, like a wall, surrounding them densely.

"Of course," Xia Jianjing laughed, and he nodded solemnly, "We are good friends!"

Xia saw that there was water on the whale's eyelashes, he blinked, and the water droplets gathered together and slid down his eyelashes.

In the haze, he couldn't see Lu Zai's expression clearly, he could only feel that Lu Zai's hand exerted some force again.

The distance between them became smaller, as if they were hugging.

Lu Zai suddenly understood why so many people like extreme sports and some crazy behaviors. When the water mist poured down from his head, his mind was completely empty. At that moment, he felt an unspeakable relief. He even felt All the baggage has been washed away.

It seems that he only needs to hug Xia Jianjing, and he can easily have the possibility of being comforted and cherished by others.

Lu Zai said: "...Xia Jianjing."

The sound of the fountain was too loud. They stood in the middle of the water, as if it was deafening. Before the land-borne sound reached Xia Jianjing's ears, it was dispelled by the water mist.

Xia Jianjing simply moved his hand forward and hugged Lu Zai directly, "What did you say?"

Through the cold wet clothes, Lu Zai felt Xia Jianjing's heartbeat and the weak body temperature in the dampness.He suddenly lost his strength and let go of his hand.

Xia Jianjing felt that Lu Zai suddenly relaxed, and there was a tendency to slide down, so he hurriedly supported Lu Zai's body.

Lu Zai was half a head taller than him. He stretched out his hand and let Lu Zai rest his head on his shoulder. Then he wrapped his arms around Lu Zai's waist and hugged him even tighter.

Xia Jianjing asked: "At the same table, are you okay?"

Lu Zai sighed, put his forehead against Xia Jianjing's side neck, and rubbed against Xia Jianjing's shoulder.

Lu Zai said in a very soft voice, "Do you still remember the name Lu Yuanming?"

How could Xia Jianjing not remember, including the ugly words Qin Hongyang said at that time, he did not forget.It was also from that day that the relationship between him and Lu Zai changed, and a "good friend trial agreement" was signed.

Xia Jianjing couldn't see Lu Zai's face, but he could smell it. Lu Zai was so sad that he was about to mold.

Xia Jianjing smiled, tilted his head, and put his face close to Lu Zai's.

Xia Jianjing said: "I don't remember, I don't remember at all, how can my good friend remember these three words?"

Lu Zai smiled lightly, raised his arms, and hugged Xia Jianjing back.

Lu Zai said: "Now the rules have changed, good friends need to remember."

"Ah? Really?" Xia Jianjing didn't hesitate, and immediately changed his rhetoric, "Isn't it Lu Yuanming, a good friend has a very good memory, of course a good friend remembers!"

Lu Zai took a deep breath and forced himself to stand up straight.But Xia Jianjing still hadn't let go, so the two of them faced each other, breathing almost entangled.

Lu Zai lowered his head and looked into Xia Jianjing's eyes.

"Lu Yuanming..." Lu Zai said, "He is my father."

Xia Jianjing looked at Lu Zai's expression with inexplicable panic.

He blinked, pretending to be indifferent, and continued to smile at Lu Zai, and even rolled his eyes, "Got it! Lu Yuanming is your father!"

"Then let me tell you one more thing." Lu Zai stared straight at Xia Jianjing's face, not letting go of any slight changes in Xia Jianjing's expression, then he raised his head and looked at the sky, which was dark and completely Can't see the stars, "The night sky was almost like this that day."

The atmosphere was too dignified, Xia Jianjing became more and more panicked, he hugged Lu Zai and swayed left and right, as if coaxing a child.

"Let me ask first," Xia Jianjing took the opportunity to intervene, "Do you need to remember what you want to say?"

Lu Zai pursed his lips and didn't answer, his eyes became cold, as if the boat was burning on the Ji River.

"Two years ago today," Lu Zai said, "I almost killed him, Lu Yuanming, my father."

Xia Jianjing's heart skipped a beat, and even his breathing became chaotic.

Lu Zai's expression was indifferent, as if a paralyzed patient had been knocked off his knee. When it was time to cry out for pain, he couldn't feel it anymore.

Xia Jianjing looked at Lu Zai, feeling extremely sour.He bit the flesh inside his mouth tightly, trying his best to maintain a smile on his face, but there was no trace of timidity or curiosity in his eyes.

Xia Jianjing shook his head, controlled his emotions, tried his best to smile, and then shook his head again.

"What did you say just now?" Xia Jianjing said, "I don't remember."

After Xia Jianjing finished speaking, he jumped forward, put his head on Lu Zai's shoulder, sucked his nose, and could no longer maintain a smile.

Lu Zai was originally full of hope, but the moment he spoke, he became hopeless, and he abandoned all hope.Because hope is reserved for those who can see the light, and for him, it's not a good thing.

It was as if he was walking in a fog that covered the sky, and the people around him gradually abandoned him. He gradually stopped pushing and learned to walk in the dark by himself.

But Xia Jianjing's reaction was completely different from what he had expected. He had thought of thousands of things, but what Xia Jianjing gave him was warmer than all his thoughts combined.

Lu Zai couldn't describe this feeling, like Xia Jianjing had already run out of the fog, but turned back without hesitation, then took his hand and said to him: "There is light ahead, come with me! "

Lu Zai's eyes were like spring water, slowly regaining some vitality.He felt the tide spreading from his shoulders, it wasn't cold mist, but warm, with Xia Jianjing's body temperature.

Lu Zai's heart softened, he gently pinched the layer of flesh behind Xia Jianjing's neck, and lifted Xia Jianjing up.

"Are you stupid?" Lu Zai asked, "Why are you crying?"

Xia Jianjing also felt ashamed, he pursed his mouth, and wiped his face indiscriminately, "It's just a physical reaction, it's all because your shoulders are too hard and hit my nose."

Lu Zai suddenly felt relieved, he could feel the panting of the monster inside him, but he didn't seem so scared anymore.

Lu Zai grabbed Xia Jianjing's hand and asked him, "Then do you want to hear a story? It's about me."

Xia Jianjing said, "It's okay to be an audience, but I'm hungry and cold. If you invite me to eat, I'll listen to the story obediently. What do you think?"

Lu Zai said, "OK."

"Let's go." Xia Jianjing shivered, and dragged Lu Zai forward against the wind, "I'm so hungry."

Lu Zai ordered a table full of dishes, but did not move his chopsticks.He rested his chin and quietly watched Xia Jianjing eat, and tapped his fingers on the table from time to time, as if he was beating a manuscript.

Emotions can be contagious, especially negative emotions, like the flu, once it breaks out, it can infect everyone.Xia Jianjing instinctively doesn't like to accept negative energy, even if he listens to others, it will affect his mood.

But people are the most emotional animals, and they will inevitably have a preference. If the other party is replaced by Lu Zai, Xia Jianjing not only doesn't hate it, but even wishes to become a sponge to absorb all the bad emotions in Lu Zai. After all, his digestion ability is much better than that of Lu Zai, so leave all bad emotions to him.

Xia Jianjing couldn't eat half of it. He felt that Lu Zai could no longer hold back, so he put down his chopsticks resignedly, and patted the seat beside him, "At the same table, do you want to sit next to me? ?”

Lu Zai raised his eyebrows, nodded, got up and moved his position.

Lu Zai asked, "Have you finished eating?"

"Not yet," Xia Jianjing said, "but I want to hear your story."

Lu Zai took a deep breath, folded his hands, put them on his thighs, and unconsciously clasped his nails.

Seeing this, Xia Jianjing stretched out a hand, "Let's hold hands and tell, I'm afraid you'll scare me with ghost stories again."

Lu Zai paused, but did not move.

"Do you understand, this is necessary for listening to stories," Xia Jianjing put his five fingers together, poked it down, and inserted it directly between Lu Zai's hands, "Hold it."

Lu Zai said, "You are really difficult to serve."

Xia Jianjing stuck out her tongue at him, raised her chin arrogantly, "I won't listen until you hold me."

Lu Zai frowned, bent his fingertips slowly, and held Xia Jianjing's hand with his backhand.

Lu Zai's story gradually kicked off, and Xia Jianjing's heart sank a little bit. He felt lucky again that he held Lu Zai's hand.

The story of Lu Zai is very simple. The little boy originally had a happy family, and his parents loved him. Although they lived in a very small house, there were always warm yellow lights on, which was very warm.

But just like many middle-aged couples, they can share hardships, but they cannot share joys and sorrows. Their lives are getting better and better, but like blowing up a bad-quality balloon, the moment it inflates, the family explodes.

The little boy is very sensible, even though his parents are separated, he still loves them, especially his father.He moved to sleep in the same room with his father and became mutual reliance.

A few years later, the little boy's father changed jobs, so the little boy had his own study and game room. They lived in a beautiful big house. It was supposed to be a happy thing, but his father became more and more busy, and even often Get drunk.

When the father was drunk, he became a different person. He beat the little boy like crazy, and everything he could touch became his murder weapon. But after he sobered up, he began to repent and beg the little boy for forgiveness.

"When you asked me if I knew Kang Qi before, I lied to you," Lu Zai said, "Actually, I know him. He lives next door to my house."

Xia Jianjing nodded, and stretched out his other hand to hold Lu Zai's hand.

"Lu Yuanming was drunk again that day, and I was only a few steps away from the gate, but he came back." Lu Zai lowered his eyes and looked at the hands they shook, "I don't remember anything. When I dropped the brick in my hand, Lu Yuanming had already fallen to the ground."

Lu Yuanming fell into a pool of blood, and a beautiful birthday cake rolled down beside his feet. This scene became Lu Zai's nightmare.

The greatest pain in Lu Zai's heart stems from his contradictions. On the one hand, he knows that he and Lu Yuanming depend on each other for life. He loves his father and understands the difficulty of the other party. But on the other hand, he cannot forgive Lu Yuanming. , even hated to the point of wishing the other party to die.

His reason and his emotions were not on the same front, and this became the source of his torment.

"I'm like a monster." Lu Zai pointed to his chest, "That monster is in my heart."

Xia Jianjing let out a sigh of relief after listening, and lowered his head to think for a long time.

Then he raised his head, looked at Lu Zai seriously, and said, "It's not a monster, it's just an animal."

Lu Zai's eyes flickered when he heard this, and he looked at Xia Jianjing as if asking for help.

"It's true, you believe me," Xia Jianjing laughed and nodded vigorously, "Each of us has an animal in our hearts."

Xia Jianjing spent three-quarters of his childhood in the Galengeti grasslands, which is the kingdom of wild animals, and there are often herds of elephants wandering around the base.Wan Zhen told him that there is a saying that Yankees like to say, "Elephants never forget".

The elephant's brain is the heaviest among terrestrial mammals, and the number of neurons distributed in the hippocampus of elephants is 1.4 times that of humans. The hippocampus is closely related to memory, which explains why elephants do not forget.

They can remember every elephant they have encountered in their lives and what has happened, and they can even remember the escape route that they followed the mother elephant when they were still an ignorant baby elephant four or fifty years ago.

But also because of their superior memory, elephants who have been killed by poachers or persecuted by circus performers generally suffer from post-traumatic stress disorder, and they will never forget the trauma.

At that time, the scientific expedition team rescued a baby elephant whose mother was killed by poachers. Although it survived by chance, it lost an ear.He began to be afraid of all the noises around him, even the sound of food being poured into the bucket would make him tremble, and he often made some strange behaviors, full of aggression.

In Xia Jianjing's view, Lu Zai is like that little elephant, because the wound in his heart has not healed for many years, so he appears to be out of group.

But don't forget their genius memory. The baby elephant not only remembers the pain, but also remembers the humans who helped it and the joy of getting along with them.Later, the baby elephant was released into the nature. Its pain taught him to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages, but those joys would become his invisible ears.

"Do you know that what you hide in your heart is nothing more than an African elephant?" Xia Jianjing pinched the tip of Lu Zai's nose, pulled it hard, and then asked with a smile, "Where's your long nose?"

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Inspired by Remy's "The Martyr"

The original sentence "everyone has a monster in his heart, there are bad people, and there are good people."