don't force me

Chapter 103

At five o'clock in the afternoon on June [-]th, when Du Xuan stopped writing and pulled up the pencil case, he suddenly understood what it was like for Pao Ding to "stand with a knife in his hand, look around for it, be full of ambition for it, and hide it well" .

When he walked out of the examination room, the sunshine in June was bright and warm, and the group of parents at the school gate suddenly burst into applause.The flowers are like a tide, the colorful flags are flying, and Du Xuan's eyes are full of enthusiasm.He didn't rush out of the school gate like other candidates, nor did he throw the English vocabulary book into the trash can in the corridor like some classmates.

With his schoolbag on his back, he walked along the path through the garden full of crabapple, bypassed the screen wall covered with creepers, and walked along the campus cultural wall to the junior high school building.Standing on the third floor, he could see the entire playground. Three years ago, he watched the man wearing dazzling running shoes fly across the brown-red runway again and again.The bulletin board at the corner used to be full of his photos. Lin Tingan said that his "intensive phobia" was about to break out, but later, he came up every month to complain that there were fewer and fewer photos.Down the stairs, through the laboratory building is the complex building. The piano room on the first floor of the complex building used to be his favorite place to stay. There he picked up a tall, thin and handsome guy who was listening to recitals.He still remembered Lin Tingan's embarrassing expression when he turned his head away.

Walking past the piano room, turning a corner is the library. There is a small corner and a small window behind the innermost bookshelf. From the window, you can see the slender bamboo in the small patio.He likes this corner the most. Every Wednesday and Friday morning, Lin Tingan has physical education class in the last period. After class, he will rush to the library to help him occupy this place, and he will go to the cafeteria to help him cook.The poster at the entrance of the library is still a publicity picture for the reading month in May. The text on the picture is written by myself, which is probably the last thing I do for my alma mater.I remember that day when the student union asked him and said countless "sorry for disturbing your review", but I didn't really care about it. At that stage of review, everything was a foregone conclusion.But Lin Tingan was very upset, and gave the vice president of the student union an extremely ugly look... Well, the vice president of the student union is a sophomore girl, and it is said that she had a crush on Lin Tingan.Du Xuan looked at the poster and couldn't help laughing. He remembered that day when Lin Tingan helped Mo Mo, he first rubbed his hand, then his face, and finally ruined a T-shirt.

Coming out of the library, we walked across the entire playground, which was empty. Occasionally, a teacher hurried past. Du Xuan stood still and said "Hello, teacher" respectfully.The runway in the playground is a bit old, and it feels a bit too soft to step on. Lin Tingan complained more than once that this runway is simply "garbage", and training on this kind of track is "destroying people".But it was "ruined" all the way, this kid won the gold, silver and bronze medals of the "Ten Provinces and Cities League", and the medals for the city-level competitions can have a box.Du Xuan threw his schoolbag on the ground and squatted down on the grayed starting line. He stared firmly at the finish line 100 meters away.

Lin Tingan stood next to the finish line, sighing: "From the start to the acceleration, from the middle to the sprint, none of the links are correct, Du Xuan, you scum."

Du Xuan rolled her eyes: "You have never beat me in 100 meters."

"Nonsense! I ran 100 meters with you once, and then you stopped running."

Du Xuan smiled and rolled her eyes: "Why run away if you can't win."

"'Death to win', if we have the ability, let's compete now."

"No." Du Xuan shook his head resolutely, "I want you to always remember that you never beat me in the 100 meters."

Lin Tingan rolled his eyes: "Childish." Then, he took out his mobile phone and winked at Du Xuan: "One?"

Du Xuan hugged Lin Tingan's shoulders, and the two of them leaned head to head, taking the teaching building as the background, and took a group photo against the setting sun. They had the same youthful smiling faces and the same firm eyes.

Du Xuan looked at the screen and nodded with satisfaction: "Handsome!"

Lin Tingan: "I think he's handsome too!"

Du Xuan smiled and pointed to the other side of the playground: "Handsome guy, go and get my schoolbag back."

Lin Tingan pinched Du Xuan's neck and shook it a few times, but he went to pick up the schoolbag cowardly.

"Walk with me, my six years of youth." Du Xuan walked slowly with her hands in her trouser pockets.

Lin Tingan carried his schoolbag on his back and Du Xuan's schoolbag in his hand, obediently followed behind, but mocked with disdain: "Science students are all 'left-handed Ampere's rule, right-handed spiral rule', liberal arts students are talented" The left hand is like a song, and the right hand is like wine', Du Xuan, can you do it? My teeth have fallen out."

Du Xuan turned around, walked backwards, looked at Lin Tingan and said, "Why, can't take it anymore?"

The sun has gradually turned to the west, and all the sunlight is condensed in Du Xuan's eyes, Lin Tingan cleared his throat, his face began to flush, he muttered: "Hmph, the boyfriend I'm chasing, loves to the end even when he cries. "

Du Xuan stopped abruptly: "What did you say? Say it again."

Lin Tingan rubbed his nose, and his face became even redder: "Huh, your ears are the most thieves at this time... Well, I said 'I love you'... It's not like you don't know."

"I know," Du Xuan said softly, "but I haven't heard you say it."

The deserted playground was dyed golden red by the west slanting sun, and both of them were covered with a faint, fluffy golden border.Lin Tingan looked at Du Xuan, and said slowly and word by word: "Du Xuan, I really, really love you."

Du Xuan was silent for a while: "Complex building or activity room?"

"Which one is closer?"

"The men's toilet in the laboratory building is the closest."

Lin Tingan ran away, and Du Xuan rushed over after him. The empty laboratory building was filled with the sound of the two running.In the men's room, Du Xuan held Lin Tingan down and kissed him unceremoniously.The protruding edges and corners of the window sill hurt Lin Tingan, and he couldn't help twisting.Du Xuan hugged him, turned around and leaned against the window sill, holding him in his arms.Lin Tingan groped along Du Xuan's waistline, wrapped his arms around the other's waist, and squeezed his palms between Du Xuan's waist and the window sill to cushion, but his lips were firmly stuck to the other's lips.

The sky outside the window quickly turned dark, Du Xuan asked softly, "Going home?"

Lin Tingan shook his head.

"Then we can't just stay in the toilet all the time," Du Xuan said, but her arms tightened, "Let's go for a walk."

Lin Tingan raised his head from Du Xuan's neck, and said pitifully, "I want to graduate too."

"It's coming soon, keep it up for another year..." Du Xuan rubbed the back of Lin Tingan's neck and said, "I'll explore the way for you first, and you'll come when I get to know everything around the university. "

Lin Tingan stood up straight: "Beihang University—Actually, when I was in junior high school, I even boasted that I would go to aircraft design, but I later found out that the major was a top student among the top students, so I gave up. Who knows..."

"Who asked you to find a schoolmaster to be your boyfriend, it's too late to return the goods."

"I can't retreat." Lin Tingan pulled Du Xuan's neckline, took a bite on his collarbone, and said vaguely, "Retired...I can't find it again."

The two of them came out of the complex building slyly. The school gate was closed, but the small gate was still open. The teacher on duty in the reception room said in surprise, "Du Xuan, why haven't you left yet? Lin Tingan, what are you doing?"

Du Xuan shook her phone: "Take some photos as a souvenir, it's been six years."

"You are welcome to come back anytime." The teacher waved goodbye to Du Xuan. Du Xuan turned her head to look at the teaching building gradually disappearing in the twilight, then turned and left.Lin Tingan followed him silently, and the two of them had no purpose, just walking slowly along the road until the street lights came on.

"I'll take you back." Du Xuan said, "In the next month, I can often take you home."

Lin Ting'an: "Forget it, you go learn a car book, you have to learn it sooner or later."

Du Xuan shook her head: "I'm going to work next week, and I found a job as a teaching assistant at Huisi."

Lin Tingan asked strangely: "Why are you in such a hurry to work? It would be good to rest for two more days, you are so tired."

"Anyway, it's nothing to worry about. I'll earn some money to take you out for the summer vacation." Du Xuan said with a smile, "If you can be admitted to the top ten in the class, let's go to the beach, and the waves will bloom."

"What if you don't pass the exam?" Lin Tingan's eyes sparkled.

"Then take a three-day trip to the suburbs." Du Xuan pawed Lin Tingan's head, "From now on, my main job every day is to watch you study hard."

"Fight it!" Lin Tingan swung his fist vigorously.

Du Xuan kept his promise. In the first week, he sorted out all the notes in the third year of high school every day at home. He went out at [-] o'clock in the afternoon and arrived at school at exactly [-] o'clock. Xuan's job is to answer questions.If there is nothing to ask, Du Xuan will take out a four-level and six-level vocabulary book to recite the words. Lin Tingan is annoyed when he sees the cover of the thick book. It is wrapped in a book cover, out of sight and out of mind.

It was usually past seven o'clock when Lin Tingan returned home. Ma Jing felt sorry for her son who had dinner so late, and said, "Why don't you just go home after school? Why do you have to go to the study room?"

Lin Tingan picked up the rice in the bowl and said, "Du Xuan is here to answer my questions."

Ma Jingshengtang's hand paused: "Du Xuan?"

"Yeah." Lin Tingan picked up chopsticks and said, "Isn't it almost the end of the term? He thinks I'm a scumbag."

"He goes to give you lectures every day?" Ma Jing was a little concerned when she said the word "dislike" to Lin Tingan, and always felt that there was an inexplicable feeling in it.

"Yes." Lin Tingan admitted very simply.

Ma Jing hesitated to speak and looked at Lin Ting'an, then at Lin Yi who was gnawing on the ribs, and finally said tactfully: "Xiaoxuan just finished the college entrance examination, you should let him rest, don't bother him every day."

"It's okay, anyway, he is also memorizing vocabulary for level [-] and level [-] in the self-study room."

"I mean..." Ma Jing paused, "You are always with Du Xuan, that..."

Lin Tingan stopped the chopsticks in his hand and looked at his mother calmly.

There was an embarrassing silence at the dinner table, and Lin Yi raised his head from the rice bowl after realizing it: "What's wrong? Let's eat."

Lin Tingan took the soup bowl from Ma Jing's hand, and said flatly, "I'm used to him giving me lectures, and I don't understand what others are saying."

Lin Yi said: "Isn't this very good, it's just that Xiaoxuan is too troublesome... I have been troubled for so many years, I have to thank him."

Ma Jing glared at her husband, and before she had time to speak, Lin Tingan snatched up a sentence: "Du Xuan said that if I get into the top ten in the class at the end of the semester, we will go on a trip, okay dad?"

"No!" Ma Jing said immediately.

Lin Yi raised his head and glanced at his wife: "What's wrong with this? It's good to relax before the third year of high school and recharge your batteries. Besides, Xiao An is not young anymore, will she be eighteen in three months? Xiao Xuan is also a reassuring Boys. Don’t be too strict with boys, just let them go and exercise. Dad supports you.”

Ma Jing especially wanted to put the whole soup bowl on her husband's head.

Lin Tingan: "Thank you Dad, Mom, do you agree?"

Ma Jing threw the spoon into the soup plate with a bang, and said with a sullen face, "Eat."

Lin Tingan lowered his head to eat, and quietly wiped the cold sweat from his hands on his pants.He quietly looked at his mother's face from the edge of the bowl, but he felt relieved. Sooner or later, it would be better for his mother to prepare a little bit than a thunderbolt from the blue sky, Lin Tingan thought optimistically.

On June 24, the results of the college entrance examination came out.

The night before, Lin Tingan was bouncing up and down, holding his mobile phone and sending Du Xuan countless WeChat messages, with only one core topic - I'm nervous.

Du Xuan: I'm not nervous, why are you nervous?

Lin Tingan: Of course I am nervous, your grades are related to where I will take the exam in the future.

Du Xuan: Of course it is Beihang University. Do you still want to be lazy?

Lin Ting'an: Is it possible to be admitted to Beijing Medical University?That's Peking University, last year's clinical medicine admission line was 672!

Du Xuan: I know.

Lin Tingan dragged his hair and wandered around the room, almost wrinkled: Do you think you can get into 670?

Du Xuan: About the same.

Lin Tingan yelled at the screen: "What is 'almost'!"

Finally, Ma Jing couldn't bear her son's convulsions, and said in a low voice, "Lin Ting'an, shut up."

Lin Tingan said aggrievedly: "Mom, I'm nervous that Du Xuan will be awarded tomorrow."

Ma Jing gets a headache when she hears the word "Du Xuan", but recently Lin Ting'an is like a bewitched person. Every day when she goes home, "Du Xuan is long and Du Xuan is short". Du Xuan has a good rest and rest."

Lin Tingan looked at his mother's face, and closed his mouth just enough, sometimes too much, in the field of fighting wits and courage with his mother, Lin Tingan's experience is beyond the limit.

Lin Tingan called Du Xuan and absolutely prohibited Du Xuan from checking the score. He said, "I must be the first to know your score. I will check the score tomorrow."

Du Xuan: "Stop making trouble, you are in class, how to check? I will confiscate the phone later."

"No, I have to come. I must be the first to know your grades."

"I'll be the first to tell you, okay?"

"No." Lin Tingan said with a stern face, "You promise me that you are not allowed to check by yourself. I want to check, and I will tell you when I'm done."

Du Xuan raised her hands in surrender: "Okay, okay, whatever, you can check if you want."

Lin Tingan fidgeted and waited until noon the next day. The moment the bell rang for the last class, he pressed his mobile phone to check the expected congestion on the scoring website.Lin Ting calmed down and refreshed again, and refreshed again.

After 1 minute, the page flickered, and it actually entered.

Lin Tingan's hands were shaking when he entered Du Xuan's exam admission ticket number into the rectangular text box, but the string of numbers seemed to be extremely long.

Renovation

blank page

Refresh

blank page

Refresh

……

The screen slowly opened, and the text was squeezed out of the screen line by line.Lin Tingan closed his eyes, silently counted to ten in his heart, then opened his eyes and stared at the screen.

语文138、英语144、数学132、理综282，总分696.

Lin Tingan snapped the phone on the table and climbed up.There was a rumble in his head, and he felt almost suffocated. He pinched himself hard, and he could hardly feel the pain.

Dream it, don't wake up yet.

Lin Tingan raised his head. Everyone went to eat. There was almost no one in the classroom. The wind was blowing in through the window, making it a bit hot.Lin Tingan carefully opened the phone, as if there was a three-foot-high grasshopper under the ground.

Total score: 696

Lin Tingan didn't know if he could get the top prize in the city with a score of 696, but he knew that with this score, there was no university in China that Du Xuan could not apply for!

Peking University?Beijing Medical University clinical medicine?ha!Eight years of continuous reading of this blog is almost the same!

Lin Tingan was lying on the table again, his heart was beating fast, but tears were streaming down slowly.

Perhaps, he is the only one in the world who knows how much Du Xuan paid for this achievement and how much he lost. Thinking about his six years of middle school and the six years of elementary school that he didn't know, Lin Tingan only felt distressed.

The phone buzzed and shook. Lin Tingan rubbed his eyes and turned on the phone. Du Xuan sent a WeChat message: How many points?I think the test is not bad, it shouldn't be too bad, please tell me quickly.

Lin Tingan took a screenshot of the score check page and sent it to Du Xuan

Du Xuan was silent for a long time before replying with the word "fuck".

Lin Tingan: Fuck!

Du Xuan: Fuck!

Lin Tingan: Awesome!

Du Xuan: I didn't even know I was so awesome!

Lin Ting'an: I don't know what to say... Fuck!It's awesome!

Du Xuan: Apart from this, let's say something nice.

Lin Tingan: My boyfriend is the best!

Du Xuan sent a string of "hahaha".

Lin Tingan put away his mobile phone and stood up a little dizzy for a moment. He staggered downstairs, and when he walked past the playground, he saw the teacher in the teaching office with a face full of excitement and was swept into the teaching principal with a list. office.He knew that the list must have recorded a college entrance examination result that had never been seen in No. [-] Middle School, and the creator of that result was his boyfriend.