Disgusted

Chapter 10 Sweet and Sour

Saori liked Aozora the first time she saw her.

This is not a common thing for her - her upbringing made her not easy to show likes and dislikes, nor to judge things easily.

But she likes it.

When the man turned around following the call of the team leader Xiao Liu, and looked over with such clear and focused eyes, Saori could clearly feel something like green shoots breaking through the ground after the rain.

Such a tall and thin person looks out of place anywhere, and his expression changes over and over again under his slightly curly hair: disdain, anger, stubbornness, slight fear of strangers... She slowly stretched out her hand, in such a hot summer, fingers cold.

Xiao Liu said her name was Fang Qingkong.

As a result, during that hike, the two of them didn't have a word of conversation from beginning to end.Qingkong walked in the middle of the team silently as if he was purely walking and exhausted his energy, neither leading nor lagging behind.However, if you look closely, you can notice the changes in her expression: when she sees a mountain flower, when her teammates throw rubbish rudely, when she climbs to the top of the mountain.

Saori didn't pay attention at that time, in order to greedy to see her, she put on glasses on purpose.

But that's all.If it weren't for the accident later, this level of liking should be like the rainbow that I met accidentally, I was happy when I saw it, and when it disappeared, it disappeared.

After all, she had more pressing worries at the time.

In the past six months, her mother-in-law has been urging Saori to have a child to the extreme. Sometimes she doubts that her mother-in-law would be willing to conceive her if she could.It's just that she couldn't accept her husband's approach at that time.It was a purely physical resistance: the limbs were stiff, the body was dry, and even the mouth had an unpleasant sour taste.The husband didn't seem to want to force this point, but just put on an attitude of "this is your problem."

For this reason, Saori devoted herself to hiking activities on weekends more frequently, in order to temporarily escape from the dirty and sticky swamp.Saori thought about divorce, and after discovering her husband's secret, this idea dangled in front of her face like an attractive fruit from time to time, but it was difficult.After all, it was two people and two families who had been entangled for three or four years. Apart from other things, most of the dowry cash brought in when they started the business was invested in the husband's business.What's more, the reason for breaking up is not easy to say.

So she really didn't have other thoughts when she said that sentence.

"If you don't mind, please come and sleep with me." She said to Aozora.With a gale like a devil's roar.

At that time, Qing Kong was kneeling in front of his tent, biting a small flashlight in his mouth, trying to connect the broken tent brackets with the camp nails as supports.The single-person yurt tent itself has a large arc, and the wind blowing from behind shakes the tent, so it is not easy to operate.

It was dark all around, and not a single star could be seen in the sky. Because the weather turned bad, everyone else hid in the tents and slept early. Only the light of the flashlight cast a straight line like a hole carved in the mountain.Hearing the sound, Qingkong turned his head, and the light fell on Saori's face, then turned back to shine on the half-bound nails and brackets, fixed it, as if hesitating for a moment, and then readily let go of the tent zipper , went in.

The moment the tent let go of the blue sky, it simply collapsed halfway, like a deflated ball being slapped by the wind.After a while, she came out with her sleeping bag and entered Shazhi's tent.

Shazhi's tent is for 1.5 people. One person sleeps slightly wider, and two people have to be close together.Afraid of embarrassment for Qingkong, Shazhi moved to the side as much as possible after lying down in the sleeping bag.

"Sorry, the new tent I bought, I didn't expect it to be so useless." Qingkong unfolded his sleeping bag and lay down, turning off the flashlight.This was the first time she spoke to Saori, her voice was low, with a strange soft accent.

"It's okay," Saori said. "I didn't expect the wind to be so strong."

Aozora next to him murmured "Hmm" and didn't respond.In the silence, only the sound of the wind outside pulling the vegetation, gravel, and tents violently with the momentum of destroying everything within reach.No one expected that there would be strong winds at night. In order to watch the sunrise conveniently, the team leader chose to camp on a flat place close to the top of the mountain. In the vortex of the wind.Fortunately, it didn't rain, otherwise the situation would only be more miserable.

Saori listened to the wind quietly for a while.I always feel that the senses other than the eyes become sharper in the dark, the sound, and the breath emanating from the body next door, as if they were drawn repeatedly and vigorously in the sketchbook and then outlined from the original chaotic background Yes, an indescribably pleasant smell, coming from the body of the same sex.Saori thought.

When she came back to her senses, Sazhi realized that she was imagining the source of the smell: behind the ears, in the fossa of the neck, under the armpits, you could touch the back of the bones one by one... Sazhi blushed suddenly.And the woman next door remained motionless, as if entering another world, there was no movement, only those breaths slowly permeated.Is the husband's love for the same sex also the same, mixed with teasing?Saori thought suddenly.After a second thought, no, why did you equate the two feelings?She felt that the temperature on her face was almost hot, and she couldn't help turning over in the dark.

At this time, Qing Kong also moved to the side restrainedly, and there was a gap in the middle of the long and narrow floor mat.So Saori knew that she hadn't fallen asleep either.

"Can't sleep well? Is it too crowded?" Saori asked.

"No, the wind is too loud. And it's cold."

Cold?Before turning off the flashlight, he seemed to see that her sleeping bag was an autumn and winter style, much thicker than his own.Saori thought about it, and moved to the middle without distracting thoughts, filling the gap at once. "Then you lean closer, it's warmer next to each other."

Qing Kong responded again, but his body didn't move.

Through two layers of sleeping bags, one thick and one thin, Saori could still feel Qingkong's arm on the other end of her back.Gradually, the line between reality and non-reality is a little unclear: in the deep mountain night, outside is the strong wind blowing from the end of the world, two unfamiliar people curl up like little beasts trapped in a cave. Together, while bearing the troubles of her husband being a gay man, at the same time, she definitely felt the moving atmosphere of the same sex around her—it was like some post-modern absurd drama.

"Hey!" Saori was haunted by the sense of absurdity, and opened her eyes in the dark. "Can I ask a question?"

"...Look, what kind of question." Aozora replied. "It's too personal, I'm afraid."

"No, it's just a general, conceptual problem." Saori sighed softly, always feeling that her voice was a little strange in the darkness, so she coughed lightly. "What do you think are the necessary elements of love?"

"Isn't it 'love'?" Aozora replied without hesitation.

"That, isn't it in family affection, friendship, and even appreciation of music, calligraphy and painting? There must be something that can distinguish them, and there are elements that can only be found in "love"."

"That's naturally lust." Qing Kong said in a firm tone. "Speaking of it, it should be a kind of intense desire that is not negotiable and cannot be chosen by people. Hormone secretion, adrenal glands rise, sweating, heartbeat speed up, and even the brain produces pleasant and exciting amine polyphenols, spiritually. Attraction is connected with the inside of the body, the inescapable desire to embed the other person in one's own body, submit all offerings to worship, and at the same time win possession and acceptance. In my opinion, this desire is the ruler that separates love from other emotions. "

It was the first time I heard Aozora say so much in one breath.Her speaking speed was not rushed, her voice was low, and there was a thick and comfortable feeling in the night that people wanted to touch.Saori grabbed the edge of the sleeping bag, and for a while she only thought about what Aozora said about "the connection between the mind and the inside of the body".

"Then, if there is no "passion. Desire", it is not love in love?"

"Well. At least it's not a complete "love". "Love" and "lust", "spirit" and "body" are both indispensable." Aozora said.

After speaking, both of them fell silent.The sound of the wind outside the tent gradually weakened unconsciously, and drowsiness hit. When Saori opened her eyes again, it was already broad daylight, and the sun shone in through the tent. The wind and conversation last night seemed as if they had never happened before. can be found.But no, when Saori turned her head and looked at Qing Kong's face who was approaching for some time - a pale complexion that was almost bluish, long and thick eyebrows, a high nose, thin lips, and long eyelashes trembling like closed butterflies Wing—that wind and dialogue did exist, and left traces of one kind or another.Saori thought while watching the sun shine on that face.

Like a fruit forest after a heavy rain.Saori smelled the blue sky, and the scene naturally appeared in her mind.Fresh, sour and slightly sweet taste.

The two missed the sunrise that day, but on the way down the mountain, Saori asked Qingkong if it was convenient for them to have dinner together.