Dip in fire

Chapter 90 "To die alone, or to die together?"

Back home, Zhong Ning took a hot bath, his cold skin was slightly itchy from the hot water.

He didn't sleep all night, but now he is not sleepy at all.Zhong Ning wandered aimlessly around the living room, and finally went to the kitchen to open the refrigerator and take a look.

The refrigerator was almost empty, except for Beng Xing's two bottles of mineral water, there wasn't even a hair in it.Young master Zhong lived a more casual life, eating and drinking mostly outside, even if he was hungry at home, he would pick up his mobile phone and call for goods to come to the door.Over time, the family has become so shabby that even the bucket of instant noodles can't be pulled out.

Zhong Ning slapped the door of the refrigerator shut, feeling so annoyed that he had a headache.The cold dumplings from last night have long been digested by the long night.

Stomach empty to make people panic.

Zhong Ning went to the living room to rummage again, but only found an unopened bottle of honey and half a bag of fish food.

Zhong Ning sighed, he couldn't drink enough honey, so he could only take out his mobile phone to order food.He was too lazy to look for another place, so he directly chose the restaurant that Zhang Weilan ordered, and got the same porridge at random, but he still added two steamed buns for himself before paying.

After ordering breakfast, Zhong Ning threw the phone on the sofa, then picked up the fish food and weighed it.

The flannel pajamas on his body were soft and warm. Zhong Ning held the fish food in one hand and pulled off his collar with the other. He walked towards the room farther from the bedroom.

There are three bedrooms and one living room in the house, one bedroom, and the study is at the corner of the bedroom, the farthest one is the smallest, and Zhong Ning kept a tank of messy fish in it.There are no beautiful and expensive varieties, the picture is to save worry and feed, and you can survive with water and food.

This room is not just a tank of fish, but also some things.

Zhong Ning pushed open the door and saw the fish tank and a broken bicycle beside the fish tank.

It was a horizontal bar bicycle in the early days, and this style is basically extinct in today's market.That antique thing can't be ridden for a long time, it has no practical capital, let alone any artistic value, it is a veritable waste.

As for this stupid thing, no beggar would want it if he threw it into the garbage dump and sold it cheaply.

This bicycle belongs to Zhang Weilan.It was used by Zhang Weilan who bought it cheaply and rode back and forth to school and work.

Zhong Ning also pedaled on this bicycle, and they also used this bicycle to carry each other, passing the evening wind and the sun of the three streets.

Zhong Ning should have thrown this thing away.Not only bicycles, but also a stack of things in a box in the corner, including Zhang Weilan's notebooks, books, and even the exam papers left by Zhang Weilan.Back then when Zhong Ning was working hard, these were all valuable learning materials.

Zhong Ning asked himself, maybe he never kept these things on purpose, but every time he had the opportunity to throw them away, every time someone asked him "Do you want to throw them away?", he couldn't throw them away.

Especially that bicycle, the first two times when Zhong Ning moved, even the people from the moving company were stunned, and asked if he still wanted it?

Zhong Ning had to say "yes", and the extra "no" couldn't be squeezed out.Not only "necessary", but also have to carry it carefully like serving the master, otherwise Zhong Ning is worried that the antiques will fall apart halfway and be smashed by bumps.

Zhong Ning leaned against the side of the fish tank, raised his hand to lift the lid of the fish tank, grabbed the fish food casually, no matter how much it was.It is estimated that with his attitude, no matter how easy the fish is, it will die sooner or later.

Open the lid of the fish tank, you can smell a faint smell of water.Zhong Ning leaned against the fish tank, his eyes passed over those things again.

Whether it is self-deception or avoidance, it is all human nature, and it can all be included in the shameless "self-protection mechanism", but there is always a limit to this.Otherwise, you can't even afford to be a waste snack.

Zhang Weilan said "in this life, Zhong Ning must be", so can Zhong Ning find someone else in this life?

If Zhang Weilan doesn't come back, if Zhang Weilan disappears forever, there will never be any news.Then one eight years, two eight years... maybe one day, Zhong Ning will throw all these things out during a certain move, maybe one day, he will take off the Azure brand.

Perhaps, he will let go of the resentment he had when he was young, no longer hold it in his heart, and free his arms to accept another person.

Maybe.Maybe on the day when the spirits are too strong, or maybe time can twist stubborn people, at a certain age, Zhong Ning will also be lost in the fireworks, just to get by, whoever "make do", "make do with" ", it's all possible.

Or maybe, who knows what who will look like in years to come?The numb man and the enthusiastic teenager, they look similar, but completely different.Such examples abound, and you can even catch them in the torrent of time.

How many people can endure hopelessness forever?The person who accompanies me is not the one I love.Do not care.It's human nature to find a partner, so it's not hurting nature.

As long as Zhang Weilan doesn't come back.As long as Zhang Weilan is no longer in Zhong Ning's eyes.

But Zhang Weilan is back.

Zhang Weilan is back.All the above "maybe" are crushed to death.

Zhang Weilan was right in front of her, she could see the face and hear the voice.Zhang Weilan said it, and he said "it must be Zhong Ning".After being messed up like this, is there such a fart as "maybe"?There will be no more in this life.

Zhong Ning sprinkled a handful of fish food into the fish tank again. ——He suddenly thought: "To die alone, or to die together?"

The fish opened its mouth deftly, chirping and chirping, spitting bubbles while eating.

Zhong Ning knows what he hates the most.Now that things have happened, he is not afraid of dying with Zhang Weilan, he just doesn't want to hurt Zhong Pei again.Chung Pei has just...

After thinking about it, something suddenly felt wrong.

——To perish with Zhang Weilan is to hurt Zhong Pei, so if he just watched Zhang Weilan and died alone, wouldn't he hurt Zhong Pei?

Zhong Ning's heart ached violently, as if he had been pinched off alive.With a shake of his hand, another pinch of fish food was spilled out.

It has fallen into the water, and I can't get it out.

The stupid fish inside are scrambling to jump forward, I really hope they are a little hungry, otherwise a few sacrificial fish will die on the first day of the new year.

the same.The knife stabbed Zhong Pei's body, but from a different angle.Up to now, there is no longer a way for a son to protect his mother.

Zhong Ning knocked the back of his head against the wall with a muffled "bang", which made his head hurt.He let out the longest sigh in his life, and said to himself, "Mom, don't raise an unfilial son like me in the next life."

Right and wrong, go round and round, but fate. "Love" is always wild and unrestrained, and once it takes root, it can't help itself.

Xu Huai came back from home on the fifth day of the Lunar New Year, and Azure was scheduled to open on the eighth day of the Lunar New Year, and he could still relax for three days. Yan Jianghe was forced to go to the hospital to do coolies early due to his unlucky doctor, so Zhong Ning and Xu Huai were the only ones left to eat together.

The two of them found a steaming hot pot restaurant and ate it to fill up their stomachs.

After eating almost, Zhong Ning put down his chopsticks, and a text message came into his phone.It was from Zhang Weilan: "Will you come to the hospital today?"

Zhong Ning looked at this vexatious harassing text message with a blank face——Zhang Weilan was discharged from the hospital until tomorrow, and he was hospitalized for seven or eight days. Did he miss a day?

Zhong Ning sighed in his heart.

——This person has been working alone all these years, he really has not made much progress, his ability to commit hypocrisy is worth two, and he is getting more and more unfriendly.

When he was young, he was obviously too embarrassed to talk too much, but now that he has a thin skin in his age, he is shameless.

Zhong Ning tapped his phone and said to Xu Huai, "You can go back directly after eating."

"Well. What about you, what's the matter?" Xu Huai asked casually, "Where are you going?"

Zhong Ning said, "Go to that expensive porridge shop on Commercial Street."

"Ah?" Xu Huai was stunned for a moment, and asked puzzledly, "What are you doing?"

He looked at the steaming red oil hot pot under his eyelids: "Are you still full?"

"Buy porridge and deliver meals to sick patients." Zhong Ning said lightly.

"Sick number?" Xu Huai's expression became serious, "Who is sick?"

Xu Huai has been at his parents' house these days during Chinese New Year, he doesn't know about Zhang Weilan's affairs, and Zhong Ning didn't tell him about New Year's Eve, so as not to spoil his mood.

Now that this matter happened to be involved, Zhong Ning briefly explained the cause and effect, basically avoiding the seriousness and neglecting the trivial, focusing on how Zhang Weilan lay on the hospital bed, leaving behind a certain domineering and strong kiss and those weak but capable of killing a thousand knives love words.

Xu Huai's face was about to wrinkle, as if he had just been drenched in blood: "I'm really convinced..."

Xu Huai: "Zhang Weilan drank so much that his stomach bleeds, and he fell down at the gate of Azure and touched your porcelain... This really made a big fuss."

Zhong Ning picked up the napkin on the table and wiped the corner of his mouth: "It's just that sick."

Xu Huai was silent for a while, then suddenly smiled softly.

Xu Huai: "Hey, last time I said, I thought Zhang Weilan would go crazy and come to you immediately. You said that I didn't understand him. I thought about it, and you were right."

"Actually, I've always wondered why Zhang Weilan is like that?" Xu Huai couldn't help but shook his head, "It was like that before, as if he could hold back even big things, even death, it's too uncomfortable to watch, I don’t think it’s easy for him, but I want to beat him up.”

"You want to beat him up because he helped you. You treated him as a friend from the very beginning." Zhong Ning smiled, "Most people think it's pitiful. They don't hurt their backs when they stand up and talk. Isn't everyone like that? Others The more miserable you are, the more pitiful you feel, and the more you look at it intently. This is the so-called 'kindness'."

"That's how I looked at Zhang Weilan at the beginning." Zhong Ning stared at the red hot pot soup with a pair of crumpled red dates floating on the noodles.

Zhong Ning lowered his voice slightly, and only spoke to himself: "But I was too close to him, and after watching it, I suddenly understood it. I understood why he was that bear."

——Then I saw it and felt in my heart, wishing to earn back all the good things in the world and give it all to Zhang Weilan.

"So, what do you think now?" Xu Huai asked tentatively.

"Huh?" Zhong Ning raised his head, the corners of his mouth moved lightly, almost in a flash.He didn't say a word, and quickly thought of the three fishes in his fish tank, all of which were turned upside down and floating on the water.

Xu Huai didn't bother with Zhong Ning's answer, but sighed again: "Zhang Weilan made such a fuss later, it was finally a failure to hold it back, and he couldn't hold it back no matter what."

Anyone with a discerning eye could tell that Zhang Weilan was hospitalized, and Zhong Ning was sending porridge from the sky, and even picked the most expensive porridge shop.Such an excellent predecessor was either broken, or became a Buddha.

Zhong Ning is naturally an ordinary person, rolling unkempt and disheveled in the three-foot soft red dust, and has no chance to take refuge in my Buddha in this life.

"Okay." Xu Huai tapped the table with his fingers, "I've bought this hot pot meal, and I'll pay the bill later."

"Zhong Ning." Xu Huai's voice was slightly dull, and he suddenly said seriously, "It's fine. As long as you think clearly, my buddy will be happy for you."

Zhong Ning leaned against the back of the chair and sighed so much that his whole body felt relieved: "I just found that sometimes no matter how I choose, the result will not get better, so I shouldn't be afraid of getting worse."