deviant

Chapter 30

Xie Yan didn't know how long he stood there.

A blurry image flashed back quickly in my mind, starting from Xu Ziqiong pushing the door, and ending with Lin Shuyu leaving.The latter's last sentence seemed to be imprinted in his mind, and he couldn't erase it no matter what.Even though he knew that it was just the other party's words in a moment of impatience, and the original intention was to provoke Xu Ziqiong, but he still couldn't help feeling a little ulterior.

He sat on the ground along the legs of the table, the wind blowing in from outside the window blew away the heat on his body, followed by the shivering sensation in his flesh.

Xie Yan covered his mouth and coughed a few times, stiffly grabbed the water on the table and took a sip.

The moment Xu Ziqiong fell to the ground and groaned, an impulse suddenly arose in his heart, wishing he could pick up the ashtray next to him and throw it at him, but he finally endured it.

He and Xu Ziqiong have known each other for more than ten years, and to put it plainly, it is almost a friendship with crotch pants.He is not an active character, and the initiative in this relationship depends on the other party most of the time.In his heart, Xu Ziqiong was indeed a good brother, a friend worthy of his cherishment.So after learning that he and Lin Shuyu were together, he didn't blame him for his frustration.

But everything tonight made him feel more disgusted than ever.

That sentence not only insulted Lin Shuyu, but also insulted him.

Xie Yan raised his hand and pressed his heaving chest, then groped to the side of the sofa, and took out the mobile phone caught in the gap.

YIN: Where are you?

As expected, the news that was sent fell to nothing, and Xie Yan made several calls again without giving up.

The call was hung up mercilessly after a few rings, and when Xie Yan dialed the third one, there was even a prompt to shut down the phone directly from the other side.

He didn't dare to go to someone he knew to contact him, for fear that it would add fuel to the fire.

Xie Yan leaned on the armrest of the sofa in a daze, recalling that Lin Shuyu seemed to be lying here like this before, falling asleep peacefully.He slowly raised the hand holding the phone, opened the photo album, and found a video from the private folder.

The quality of the video is a bit blurry, and the camera shakes from time to time. The shooting location is like a practice room, because the front is blocked by glass, and even the silhouette of the person is not very clear.

What Lin Shuyu said that day was actually not wrong.When I saw him for the first time, I had just spilled a can of milk. Although I had done emergency treatment and couldn't see any traces, I could smell a faint milky scent.

Xu Ziqiong had just signed with Cube Entertainment not long ago. Compared with Xie Yan's clear purpose, he was more like playing casually with his own capital.

He complained to Xie Yan that trainees were very hard, dancing was very tiring, and if his family was not rich, he would have to live in a dormitory of a few square meters with a group of people he didn't know well.Xie Yan was begged several times by him, and finally took the time to go to the training room with him, which is the Lin Shuyu I saw there.

Lin Shuyu is the most brilliant one among so many trainees.The clothes on him were very simple, a white T and a pair of black trousers, and the peaked cap on his head was pressed tightly, casting a shadow on the upper half of his face, but it couldn't hide the brilliance of his eyes.His skin was not naturally cold and white, but it reflected light under the white light. Sweat dripped from his forehead, flowed over the two thick and colorful moles, and then fell to the ground along his jaw, sexy and cold.

He fell forward and made a floor movement. When he got up, he quickly got stuck and caught a wave. He didn't use excessive force, nor was he weak and stiff. In that short half minute, every movement of his was just right.

Xie Yan stopped outside the door for a long time, and when Xu Ziqiong reminded him, he turned his head and asked, "Who is he?"

"It seems to be signed shortly after me, I don't remember much, what's wrong?"

"He can make his debut." Xie Yan said slowly, the corners of his eyes dizzy with a faint smile.

Xu Ziqiong looked at him in shock, probably not expecting to hear his evaluation of a strange trainee from Xie Yan's mouth.

"Maybe not very good. I heard people say that he sings very well. He has a timbre but no skills, and he has a big white voice."

"If the company intends to praise him, it won't let it go." After Xie Yan finished speaking, he turned and left.

Xu Ziqiong trotted to keep up with his pace. The 16-year-old boy was already slender, like a tall and straight green pine tree. When he walked, his back stretched out two beautiful arcs, and the silver chains hanging around his waist collided with each other. With a crisp sound, the waist is so slender that you can hug it.

Lin Shuyu pushed the door and walked out of the practice room. Just as she took off her hat and brushed off her bangs, she was bumped into by Xie Yan who was coming towards her.

The two took a step back each, and raised their eyes to look at the "perpetrator" in front of them.

Xie Yan looked at Lin Shuyu's face. There was no makeup on his face, and his skin was so smooth that no pores could be seen. His lips had an unusual shape, the lip peaks were not obvious, and they were even parted. The upper lip was tilted, as if I just drank water, and there is still a little water on it.

"Sorry, are you okay?"

Xie Yan shook his head.

"Sorry, I'm in a hurry to rest." Lin Shuyu apologized to him again, and then walked away quickly.

Xie Yan stared at his back, until the other party disappeared around the corner, then silently looked away.

It was the first time they met, and Xie Yan easily memorized Lin Shuyu's name.

Cube Entertainment's choreography is very strong, and the dance practice room is better equipped than most companies. Jiaming occasionally comes to borrow their practice room, but Xie Yan rarely sees Lin Shuyu.

He, Lu Liang, Ning Baichuan, and Zhao Jiaqi formed a group. Within half a year, they broke through the siege with more resources than other teams and the strength of ACE per capita, and quickly became popular.It was the first time Xie Yan experienced the pros and cons of traffic. At first it was the illegitimate child who chased him to the hotel, the vicious remarks mixed in the letter, and later it was the camera installed at the entrance of the villa.

His music was criticized, his technique criticized.Just like many artists, they also received endless ridicule from Heizi. Although they were not to the extent of being hacked by the whole Internet, they were enough to make people feel depressed.

What makes him even more uncomfortable is that he can't write anything amidst the mixed voices of praise and criticism day after day.

It's not that he can't write songs, but that his inspiration is exhausted. He is afraid that what he writes will not satisfy fans, and he is even more afraid that those songs are just a flash in the pan in idol culture.The waste manuscripts in the trash can were piled up layer after layer, and he had to borrow external means to stimulate his own inspiration.

One month before RC's first tour, he was sitting outside the practice room secretly smoking a cigarette, and happened to meet Lin Shuyu who had gone downstairs to buy water.

The corridor was dimly lit. Xie Yan was wearing a hat and a mask on his chin. He couldn't even see his facial features clearly. He could only see sparks hanging in mid-air and curling smoke.He turned sideways to let Lin Shuyu go upstairs, but when the other party passed by him, he suddenly stopped and asked tentatively, "Did you get scolded by the dance teacher?"

"No." Xie Yan said hoarsely.

At that time, he was still in the period of changing his voice, half of which was immature as a boy, and half as low as that of a young man, but it was unexpectedly harmonious and not unpleasant.

"How old are you? Don't be afraid of damaging your voice. It's very unpleasant after changing your voice." Lin Shuyu sat beside him, opened the Coke in her hand, and handed it to him, "And I heard that children smoke It won't grow taller in the future."

Xie Yan thought dissatisfiedly, you are the child.

"Drinking Coke also makes you fat, aren't you afraid of being scolded?"

Lin Shuyu smiled: "Anyway, if no one sees it, it means zero calories. If you don't drink it, I'll drink it myself."

That's what he said, but he didn't mean to stop.

Xie Yan hesitated for a while, but still took the bottle of Coke.It was frozen, and the body of the bottle was cold, but the skin that his hand rubbed had a scorching heat.

"I was also scolded when I was just learning to dance. It was terrible. Not only the teacher scolded me, but my grandfather also scolded me when I went back." Lin Shuyu said softly, "After I finished my first class, I ran back and told him that I don’t want to learn anymore, it’s too difficult. Then he picked up the vine in the yard and greeted me. Have you ever seen such thick fingers, it hurts to hit me.”

Xie Yan: "I have never been beaten."

"It's very tricky for you to do this. If it were my grandfather, he would come up to me the moment he saw me smoking, and he wouldn't even listen to the explanation." Lin Shuyu glanced at Xie Yan, "And didn't your vocal teacher tell you? , The voice of a singing and dancing artist is very important, it doesn't matter if you can't sing, the original sin is the bad voice."

"Ah."

"You're too indifferent." Lin Shuyu took out her mobile phone and looked at the time, then continued, "Okay, I have to go back, otherwise I will also be scolded."

He got up, patted his pants, walked up the railing, and stopped suddenly when he reached a flight of stairs, leaning against the railing and whispered to Xie Yan: "Smoking less, it's hard to quit if you're addicted. .It’s better to be scolded by the dance teacher several times without losing a few pieces of meat, than to be ridiculed by thousands of people in the future.”

Later, the manager found an unfinished pack of cigarettes in his room, and he was kicked out of the order, and he and the other three suffered a lot together.

One day when Xie Yan was lying on the bed, recalling Lin Shuyu's eyes at that time, several melodies popped up in his mind.

He saw those phoenix eyes countless times in his dreams, appearing in the dark and narrow corridor, white mist flying in the air, entangled with the moonlight pouring all over the floor, those eyes smiled gently at him, his The master whispered in his ear through the scorching air.

Lin Shuyu didn't know that from the first time he saw him during practice, Xie Yan could no longer escape this obsession, like spring wind turning into rain, softly embedded into the skin; To pierce the bones, to penetrate the soul through the ages.

Like is like an erratic cloud, it's hard to describe what it feels like, you don't know where it comes from, where it's going, and why it stops.

It's a pity that when Xie Yan realized his teenage thoughts, he had already gone to Korea with Xu Ziqiong.When he came back, the only thing he brought Xie Yan was a hug from Xu Ziqiong who was hiding in the corner.

He should have been an erratic phantom in Xie Yan's memory forever, and he could only wait until the dead of night to remember and taste alone.

However, fate favored them and gave them a chance to meet again.

Xu Ziqiong shouldn't be the obstacle that can't be eliminated between them, only Lin Shuyu's feelings for him are.

Xie Yan drank all the water in the glass, saw the fireworks suddenly rising outside the window, and breathed a sigh of relief.