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Chapter 76

Shan Yufei never expected to grow old with Luo Tanshen.

Luo Tanshen asked in his sleep, will you always be nice to me?He answered softly until you no longer need me.

This is not self-deception, he has long known that there will be a day of breaking up.

Luo Tan is deeper than him, and he is a person who can't be reached.Before Luo Tanshen's gaze settled on him, he always played the role of a silent admirer.

Watching and reading from afar, but never interrupting.The most outrageous thing I have ever done was to enter the campus as a high school visitor during the Yuancheng University celebration, to watch Luo Tanshen attend the ceremony, to see Luo Tanshen receive the anniversary commemorative cap, and to watch Luo Tanshen participate in the celebration basketball game.

When I finally had to leave, I secretly took a photo in a corner not far from the basketball court.

From the beginning to the end, Luo Tanshen didn't notice him.

He developed and printed the photo and put it in a book.In many late nights, quietly staring at the people in the photos.

He can't walk into the photo, and Luo Tanshen won't come out of the photo either.Just as he knows well, he and Luo Tanshen are people in two worlds, they are close at their fingertips, but they are so far away that they can't have it for a lifetime.

The birds standing on the branches cannot touch the twinkling stars, but the brilliance of the stars has already been branded in the eyes of the birds.

I chose to work in Jianshu Hotel because it is the property of Rockwell.

When he joined the job, he thought that maybe one day, he could meet Luo Tanshen at the seafood restaurant.

Facts outweighed his expectations.

Luo Tanshen is actually a frequent visitor to the seafood restaurant, but almost every time he comes, he is accompanied by different companions.

Some are friends, some are lovers.

Luo Tanshen was personable, talking and laughing calmly.He watched carefully, not making his gaze too obvious.

Gradually, I learned that Luo Tanshen, like many rich young men in the upper class circle, finds it difficult to give sincerity to his feelings, so the people around him are constantly changing.

He wasn't sad or disappointed.

Last year, Luo Tanshen came to the restaurant several times, but he always brought the same person.

He heard that the man's name was Ping Zheng, and he was an ordinary bookstore employee.

Luo Tanshen seems to be interested in ordinary people.

One day, he was arranged to go to the box, and it was Luo Tanshen and Ping Zheng who were waiting there.

That was the closest time he got to Luo Tanshen after working in Jianshu.

He served the dishes without turning his eyes.The more joyful his heart was, the colder his face became.During the whole process, he was meticulous, his expression indifferent to the point of rigidity.

He originally thought that such a distance, such contact, was already the limit.Unexpectedly, not long after, Luo Tanshen suddenly appeared, teasing him, showing affection to him, and clearly saying that he wanted to chase him.

The staff of the restaurant said that Mr. Luo broke up again.

The person Xiao wanted for many years reached out, but he didn't dare to accept it.

How dare he accept it?

Luo Tan's deep love never made him sad and disappointed, that's because he was not the one who got hurt.

He didn't want to be hurt by Luo Tanshen, and he didn't want to affect Luo Tanshen's life—the cloud surrounding the Shan family has never dissipated in the past 20 years. If Luo Tanshen came together with him, would he also be involved in this cloud? ?

Luo Tanshen was his childhood obsession, the distant stars and the moon, such things as holding the bright moon in his arms were never within the scope of his delusions.

He resisted with indifference, but faced with Luo Tanshen's approach, there was nothing he could do.

How can he push away the person who lives on the tip of his heart?

I used to think that Luo Tanshen would leave voluntarily when his interest faded, but before his enthusiasm faded, all his efforts were reset to zero on that absurd night.

He possessed Luo Tanshen.

The persistence in the past was meaningless, and he finally resigned to his fate—if you want to play, I will accompany you, and you can take what I can give, and when you get tired of it, I will leave.

In the morning when the apricot blossoms bloomed on the top of the mountain, Luo Tanshen said that he would celebrate his birthday with him.At that time, he guessed that Luo Tanshen might get tired of waiting until his birthday.

Sure enough.

Recently, he has noticed that his care and company have become Luo Tanshen's burden.

Counting it, Luo Tanshen has already spent a lot of time with him, and it's only normal to get tired of it.There has been no mention of breaking up, probably because of the promise of "accompanying my birthday".

It's not that he hasn't thought about it, he should take the initiative and help Luo Tanshen relieve the burden.

That was the person he loved the most, and he didn't want to see the slightest bit of struggle and unhappiness appear on Luo Tanshen.

But the word "love" made him choose selfishness after all.

Even if he could have Luo Tanshen for one more day, he still wanted to linger on.

Luo Tanshen didn't contact him very much anymore, and he knew that he was powerless to solve Luo Tanshen's predicament.

The stars are dusty, no matter how anxious the bird is, it will be in vain.

The 21st birthday is the last illusion that Luo Tanshen can give him.After much deliberation, he decided to set the date at Xunshan Park—now it is Xunshan Science and Technology Park.

There, he met Luo Tanshen.

There, he will bid farewell to Luo Tanshen.

Nothing to regret.

He submitted a resignation application to the foreman and manager who had been taking care of him, and calmly waited for his birthday. Once that day came, he would simply disappear from Luo Tanshen's life.

But in the end he overestimated himself.

The closer the days came, the deeper the sadness in my heart. This kind of piercing pain even dilutes the pain of life experience by accident.

The tragedies of the three generations of the Shan family are all thanks to his biological mother;

His biological mother wanted to kill him and give his heart to An Yuxin;

He is not an ant in the dust, but a noble son of a wealthy family with the blood of the Ming family...

The most stinging truth and the most absurd reversal hit him head-on, but it seemed to be lifted high and put down gently. The sharp pain was delayed, as if it was blocked by something.

The pain of losing Luo Tanshen soon became a buffer wall against all other shocks.

He couldn't wait to rush back to Los Angeles to welcome the awakening of the sweet dream.

The phone was lost, he didn't know if Luo Tanshen had contacted him these days.

Most likely not, after all, not being in touch these days has become the norm.

This is also very good, in the last time together, he just wanted to look at Luo Tanshen and listen to Luo Tanshen talk for a while, and he didn't want to bring out those whirlpools in his family.

He remembered Luo Tanshen's number, but rather than making a phone call, he wanted to go to the Rock Group to pick up Luo Tanshen in person.

Luo Tanshen promised him that he would be with him today.

He believed that Luo Tanshen would not break his promise.

Sitting at the place where he delivered brown sugar iced rice balls last time, he counted the minutes, and when it was almost the appointed time, he called Luo Tanshen.

He called a private number with a new number he just bought, and it took a long time before he was picked up.

Luo Tanshen's voice was full of defense, probably thinking it was a harassing call.

"It's me," he said.

Luo Tan paused for a long time before saying, "Shan Yufei?"

"Um. Are you in the company?" he asked.

There was a noise from the phone, Luo Tanshen's tone was different from usual, "Are you back?"

He was stunned, "You... contacted me?"

"Ah."

He was speechless for a while, not knowing how much Luo Tanshen knew, let alone what Luo Tanshen was thinking.

"What's the matter?" Luo Tanshen's voice came together with the noise, seeming distant and indifferent.

He opened his mouth and heard himself say, "You promised to spend my birthday with me, today is it."

The other end was silent for a long time, so long that he could hardly catch the phone.

He murmured again: "I'm downstairs in your company, I'll wait for you."

"Sorry." Luo Tanshen said, "Go back."

"us……"

The mechanical sound of the hangup interrupted his unspoken words. He looked at the screen that was gradually blacking out, and felt a cold wind pass through his chest.

Luo Tan sat on the open-air wooden bench in Xunshan Science and Technology Park and shivered, his clothes soaked in cold sweat, and his back felt icy cold.

He didn't expect Ming Jingchen to let Shan Yufei back so soon, and he didn't expect that when he heard Shan Yufei's voice, he lost his proper demeanor.

Shan Yufei came back for him.Shan Yufei remembered his promise and came to ask him to fulfill it.

But he could no longer face Shan Yufei.

What should we say when we meet now?Look at Shan Yufei's deep eyes again, he is not sure to say the word of breaking up.

All the while, he'd told Prey to his face—we're done.Self-proclaimed that this is responsible, this is the style.

It is only now that I understand that it is not about responsibility and demeanor, but that he is too ruthless.

The sadness of the "prey" can't touch him, and the retention of the "prey" can't keep him. His chicness and calmness are all based on cold blood.

But this time, he knew he couldn't do it.

If Shan Yufei showed sadness, or grabbed his wrist, he might be defeated.

So he can only escape.Escape from the cage of affection, and return to your own superficial wantonness.

Sitting on the wooden bench for a long time, until the dry wind dried the cold sweat, he stood up, looking at the scene in front of him, his eyes were confused.

I went to Xunshan Science and Technology Park alone because I promised Shan Yufei.

But he also dared to come because he knew that Shan Yufei was in country T and would not be coming back for the time being.

Come and celebrate Shan Yufei's birthday quietly, say "Happy Birthday" quietly, and walk the path of two people with one person's footsteps.

That's the end of the relationship.

But Shan Yufei came back.He wasn't sure if he couldn't bear it for a while, and rushed to see Shan Yufei.

He needs someone to help him.

"I'm in Xunshan Science and Technology Park." Holding the phone, he said urgently, "Come and pick me up."

Half an hour later, He Yuelin arrived and asked worriedly, "What's wrong?"

He shook his head, his eyes flustered, as if he had made a huge mistake.

"Okay, it's okay." He Yuelin comforted, "I have received news that Shan Yufei is back. I will help you whatever you want."

"What's our relationship now?" He suddenly asked, "Are you and I already engaged?"

He Yuelin said: "Although there is no formal engagement, but..."

Before the words finished, Luo Tanshen kissed her, fiercely, frantically, giving up on herself, and venting.

It is self-evident what a hung up call means.

Even though he was mentally prepared, when he really got to this point, his heart still hurt hopelessly.

Shan Yufei thought that he could spend his birthday together, which would at least leave a memory.

But Luo Tanshen seemed to be so bored that even this wish was not willing to fulfill him.

He didn't blame Luo Tanshen, he just felt uncomfortable.

In the same position, I didn't wait for my beloved last time, and I didn't wait for this time either.He walked out and took the bus bound for Xunshan Science and Technology Park.

His heart was empty, the people who lived there wanted to leave, but he couldn't stay, his blood and flesh were cut off, leaving only an ugly hole.

The scenery outside the window kept changing, and when he arrived at the station, he got out of the car with a few children.

One of the children said that he wanted to buy sugar figurines in the Science and Technology Park.

Another child asked what a sugar man is.

He smiled bitterly.

It turns out that many of the children nowadays don’t know sugar man anymore.

Outside the science and technology park is a tourist square with a large area. The entrance is at one end, the exit is at the other end, and the ticket office is next to the entrance.

Standing at the ticket office, he hesitated for a few seconds.

Luo Tanshen is not inside, going in is like going to an appointment that is not expected, and hitting a palm with no opponent.

He still bought tickets, two.

Turning around, his footsteps seemed to be nailed to the ground.

The exit opposite the entrance, the one he desires, is kissing another man.

The scenery seems to fade in an instant, the prosperity returns to the old, the science and technology park returns to the park, people come and go, some people are holding sugar figurines, some are holding balloons, outside the park there are banners of "Congratulations on the New Year", cotton candy and popcorn stalls business is very good...

The place where they kissed was the place where he squatted and cried.

He seemed to see himself alone and helpless as a child.

Only this time, the kid couldn't wait for his younger brother in the silver cape and shining crown.

The phoenix sugar man has long since shattered.

His little brother has grown up too.