Dawn is coming

Chapter 31

"And after I knew the truth, I also... I don't know how to describe that feeling."

Gao Xinye spread his hands, looked at the lines on it, and couldn't think of other words to describe his numb state during that time.He was so calm that He Boyan also ordered him to undergo psychological evaluation and counseling.He is only 17 years old. When others were 17 years old, they were still worrying about their grades and crushes at school, and had dinner with their parents at home, while Gao Xinye had already lived as a shadow.Except for He Hongshan, he didn't even have any friends for more than ten years, his emotional world was extremely lacking, and his chest was empty.

Until he met Jian Chengqi.

Jian Chengqi was right in front of him now.

"It turned out to be like this..." Jian Chengqi held Gao Xinye's face and wiped the scar on his ear. It was the only wound on Gao Xinye's body that still had traces. When he recalled the reports about the war he had read, he The tears shed are from the past.

"You must have been hurt a lot." His pretty brows were frowned, as if empathizing with him, "You must be in pain."

Gao Xinye wanted to say it didn't hurt, but the lie was too obvious, especially three years ago, when the enemy raided, he led a death squad composed of people from the West Fifth District and the remaining soldiers in the area to defend the border. , Supported by the fire reinforcements of the United States of America.It was at that time that he was infected by strong radiation. It was an incurable disease at the time. The frequent and painful chemotherapy and radiotherapy could only treat the symptoms but not the root cause. Otherwise, he would not have drank wine with He Hongshan for a whole night, and he would have given up. up.He asked He Hongshan to shoot himself. The gun that hurt his lower back a few days ago was pressed against his forehead. He would hesitate when he saw He Hongshan for the first time. She put down the gun and said Gao Xinye had to live.

"He's pregnant," He Hongshan wiped her face, "You also want to see that child, right?"

Gao Xinye looked at the tearful He Hongshan, and he thought that when he went to the battlefield on a mission, he didn't take death as home, and in that border guard battle, he even went to seek death.A month ago in such a dark place, he used the most despicable way to possess Jian Chengqi. What face did he have to stand in front of that person once again, but when he knew that Jian Chengxi was pregnant, pregnant with the two of them? Child, for the first time, he found that he was also afraid of death.

He then underwent human experimentation, which was his only option for recovery.Many soldiers suffering from radiation sickness would go to the research institute as if they were alive, but before Gao Xinye, no one could survive.After several months of experiments, the genetic variation caused by radiation finally evolved into an evolution in Gao Xinye. The researchers also extracted from his blood to develop the Uranus serum that can speed up cell healing and resist radiation. He has a Sometimes Gao Xinye would show her a photo of Jian Chengqi, who accompanied and took care of the mixed-race nurse of the Ni and sub-ethnic groups, which was cut from the title page of "It's the Moonlight and the Rose". At that time, Jian Chengqi was still wearing glasses. , Smiling shyly.

Gao Xin rarely talked wildly. He and Jian Chengqi had a child, and the nurse heard about it from his conversation with He Hongshan.The nurse finally understood why Gao Xinye had such a brutal and primitive desire to survive. The person he loved was pregnant with a common child, so of course he wanted to live.

But just after Gao Xinye recovered slowly, the child unfortunately miscarried, and Gao Xinye fell into confusion again, not knowing what identity he should take if he went to see Jian Chengqi.Returning to the battlefield was a private agreement between him and He Boyan. After the border battle, Gao Xinye's prestige in the army and among the people in the west was no different for a while. He Boyan promised that when the local war ended, Jian Chengqi, who was originally sentenced to life, would be released from prison. when.

So in those three years, in a place Jian Chengxi couldn't see, a man named Gao Xinye fought for his freedom.His emotions are not public. If Jian Chengqi hadn't abandoned himself to find MB, he might really just be like a bystander, silently watching his life get on the right track, and then leave.About those three years, he had too many pasts to tell, and he was too afraid that mentioning the estrus period in the prison and the child would stimulate Jian Chengqi's fragile nerves, so he chose to hide it again, only He talked about the war and serum, and the radiotherapy treatment in the few months after he came back. Jian Chengqi wanted to see the injury on his lower back, but Gao Xinye didn't refuse. He pulled up his clothes, and the skin on it had recovered.

That is simply not the recovery speed that ordinary people can have. If such a person is found by the government of another country abroad, he will spend the rest of his life predictably in a scientific research laboratory and be studied like a sample.But even so, he still got the passport, regardless of his own safety, he wanted to accompany Jian Chengqi to have a look outside.

"I..." Gao Xinye looked at him, with unreserved admiration and shyness in his eyes.After looking at each other for a while, Jian Chengxi lowered his head silently, and slowly opened the two passports. He looked at the photos of himself and Gao Xinye on them, he was taken aback for a moment, and then smiled with tears welling up in his eyes.

"I thought...my name would be Song Qu." He touched the black letter next to his photo, it was clearly written "Lin Yuan".

"It's your living water that flows into me." Gao Xinye pointed to the place where his heart was placed.When he vowed that Lin Yuan could save Song Qu again and again, what he implied was not just that he showed up at critical moments time and time again, bringing Jian Chengqi out of despair and out of control.He can be so sure because from the very beginning, Jian Chengxi used those stories to make him feel more clearly the joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys he should have as a human being. beating.

"I, I want to say..." Gao Xinye paused again.He is also annoyed, his feelings have been suppressed for five full years, this second is always more turbulent and eager to vent than the previous second, but when it really comes to an explosion, his longing, mishaps and requests for the past five years, when All the emotions turned and turned back and forth, and in the end, there was only one sentence remaining restrained——

"I am you here."

He said "yes" rather than "yes" carefully, because it was not a rush of love on the spur of the moment. The only light in his bleak life was meeting Jian Chengqi. Jian Chengqi's heart was still in his chest, and Jian Chengqi The whole person is the heart of Gao Xinye.

They are two people who share a heart.

"...Then let's go together." Jian Chengxi pressed his forehead against Gao Xinye's, his exhaled breath would spray on Gao Xinye's face, and he could really feel Gao Xinye's breathing.They are so small in this world and the universe, but when they get close together, they seem to elope desperately, and they seem like desperadoes who are about to disappear.

They can't control their fate, they can't decide their birth, and they can't change the past. They seem to be abandoned by the vast starry sky above their heads and the fine soil under their feet. They have nothing in such a big world, and they are alone and have no place to live.

So their fingers intertwined quietly, this is all they can grasp, this is all they want to have.