cover me

Chapter 31

Chen Yan delivered the fried chicken burgers to the third floor of the complex building, where the actors of the Christmas party in Class 1, Grade [-] were rehearsing there, all of them with heavy makeup so that people dare not look directly at them.

Chen Yan looked for Lin Yanxing in the crowd, but he was not dressed up, and when he got closer, he found that his face was slightly shiny, probably from loose powder or something.

Lin Yanxing said: "Damn, you're finally here, I'm so hungry that my chest is on my back!"

Chen Yan returned the wallet to him and told him that it cost more than 100. The latter bit the chips and said nonchalantly, "Yeah."

Seeing that he was still wearing a school uniform, Chen Yan asked, "You don't have a host costume?"

"Yes." Lin Yanxing stuffed the French fries into his mouth, sucked his fingers clean, and ran to change into his shirt and suit.

"I borrowed this from Brother Xu, handsome or not?"

Chen Li looked at him from bottom to top, handsome.

Compared with him ten years later, he at this time is just a little immature, and his outline is already quite majestic.

Mr. Xu's suit is a slim fit, matching his broad shoulders and tight waist, his long legs are straight, and his face is charming even with the harshest eyes.He smiled at Chen Yan, a bright smile burst out from Mingcheng's eyes, like fireworks on the beach in summer.

Chen Yan also laughed, Lin Yanxing has a spirituality that can infect others, you can't help laughing with him, annoyed with him, and caring about his every move.

Lin Yanxing grinned even wider, so big that the upper and lower rows of teeth were exposed, and even the molars were shining brightly.

Chen Yan burst into laughter, completely amused by the other party's expression, he laughed and scolded himself why he had to talk to this idiot!

The fool winked: "Isn't brother handsome?"

"Not handsome."

"I'll give you another chance to answer well, brother handsome?"

Chen Yan laughed until her shoulders shook: "..."

"talk!"

Lin Yanxing's chest was hot, because Chen Yan was not easy to be laughed at, he would only raise the corners of his mouth habitually, it was not a smile, it was just politeness, or social interaction.

Now he smiles, and the little golden sparks fall, and the little red pimple on the pointy chin is so cute.

Chen Yan smiled and asked, "Why are you laughing?"

Lin Yanxing said, "Because you laughed!"

"You made me laugh, idiot!"

"Where do I have it? You are laughing yourself, have you picked up gold ingots?"

"Stop baring your teeth," Chen Yan pushed the drink to his mouth, "Drink you!"

Lin Yanxing gulped down his hand.

Seeing the drink, Chen Yan remembered those early illegitimate meals, put down the corners of her mouth, and lowered her head at the same time.

From Lin Yanxing's perspective, all he could see were his long and narrow eye slits and thick black eyelashes, and when his eyeballs suddenly glanced from one side to the other, there was a bit of coldness.

"What's wrong?" Lin Yanxing asked.

Chen Lin didn't have time to answer, because someone from the side came over, they had just finished a dance rehearsal, and they couldn't wait to grab fried chicken burgers and eat them.

Chen Li was naturally pushed aside, and a group of people rummaged through the plastic bags.

There were at least sixteen or seventeen students participating in the performance. Lin Yanxing only asked Chen Yan to buy copies for five or six people, because he was worried that it would be difficult for him to get them on the road.

Sure enough, someone shouted: "Ah, not enough, I didn't even grab the burger!"

Someone shouted: "Do you have any chicken nuggets? Leave me two chicken nuggets, one is fine!"

Someone else asked: "No Coke? Isn't one cup enough for one person?"

Lin Yanxing reprimanded: "I want to drink and buy it myself! How can you tell others to carry more than a dozen large glasses of Coke?!"

Chen Yan licked his slightly chapped lips: That's right, he didn't have a sip of water after working so hard, the only thing he bought for himself was a cup of Coke, and Lu Xia drank it.

A girl's voice said: "Da Yanzi, you are really stingy. It's rare to treat everyone to a meal, so you can't buy more? The students rehearse very hard, so let's open up and eat!"

This time, Chen Li finally noticed Zhou Xinling, the cultural and entertainment committee member.

Lu Xia and the others are too mean. Zhou Xinling is a pretty girl, but she is not fair.But whiteness is not the only criterion for aesthetics, Chen Yan thinks she looks good.

But he has seen too many beauties, especially the Eastern European girls in the modeling industry. Due to their racial advantages, all of them look like fairies, so he can only give Zhou Xinling 80 points.

It is estimated that most people's evaluation of her is also 80 points, definitely above the level, but not much higher.

He suddenly understood why Lu Xia and the others were particularly upset with Zhou Xinling, because she was only a little bit taller than them, and even with makeup on, she still didn't look good when standing next to Lin Yanxing.

If Zhou Xinling was a stunning beauty, Lu Xia and the others probably would not dare to be so angry. A beautiful woman would make people feel ashamed, and an ordinary girl would only make people think with hatred and jealousy: Why is it her and not me?

But there was something on Zhou Xinling's face that Chen Yan admired, and that was self-confidence.

Since she was a child with literary expertise, she was favored by parents and teachers, and was also chased by boys. She is full of confidence in all aspects of herself, so she smiles brightly, and her movements and speech are wide-ranging.

Chen Yan couldn't learn that kind of self-confidence and conceit in two lifetimes. Those are people who have never suffered.

Lin Yanxing still said the same thing: If you want to eat, buy it yourself.

Zhou Xinling grabbed a cup of Coke, giggled and said, "I won't buy it. Big Yanzi, you agreed to treat me, why did you leave me a few French fries!"

Lin Yanxing bowed his head, thinking who is it?Lin Yan Xing is Lin Yan Xing, "big geese" is longer, "big geese" is shorter, what is the same?

That's all for Zhou Xinling to shout, and the others followed suit on purpose. If the Christmas party isn't over, even the basketball team will have to shout 'Brother Big Goose' at the top of their voices.

"And this Coke is too cold," Zhou Xinling said, "How can you drink iced Coke in winter? The body will not be able to bear it. When I bought it, I didn't remind you not to add ice? It's too ignorant!"

Chen Yan reminded the clerk that there is no ice in the coke, and it tastes cold because of the low temperature and because she wears less clothes.

The sentence "Don't drink it to me" was in his throat, and he finally swallowed it: The other party was stupid and sweet, so he didn't need to worry about it.

"Choose and choose, don't give it to me!" Lin Yanxing reprimanded lightly.

Zhou Xinling grinned: "I don't want to give it, I have to eat a hamburger, because I am the hostess of the party, I have worked the hardest these days, and I will be the one with the heaviest task later, your host speech is I write!"

Lin Yanxing said, "I want to eat and buy."

Zhou Xinling said angrily, "How can I buy it like this?"

She had just combed her hair and was wearing a pink floor-length gauze dress and a fur shawl, like a bride who was about to toast at the table.

In fact, this kind of small class party is just to relax and have fun. The desks are moved around the classroom, and the stage is in the middle. There is neither light nor scenery, and the microphone is still the small microphone used by the teacher to lecture.Under the simple conditions, there is no need to dress up like this. It would be nondescript to be too solemn, but the child is happy, so let her go.

Chen Yan patted Lin Yanxing on the shoulder: "I'll go buy it."

Lin Yanxing hesitated: "Would you like to run again?"

Chen Ren nodded.

Lu Xia was still guarding outside the school gate. Zhou Xinling would definitely come back with her skirt torn and her face scratched if she went out like this.

Lin Yanxing took out his wallet, and Zhou Xinling immediately said, "I want crispy chicken burger, Portuguese egg tart, potato salad, grilled chicken wings, black pepper chicken nuggets and a big cup of mocha, thank you!"

Chen Rin said, "Oh."

Lin Yanxing was upset: "Aren't you afraid of dying from bloating after eating so much?"

"No bloat, no bloat, today I want to eat poor you, a cheap and big wild goose!" Zhou Xinling said softly, "Thank you, Ma Ren!"

"Chen Yan." Lin Yanxing corrected her decisively, "It's almost half a year since school started, and you can't even remember other people's names?"

"Chen Ren, Chen Ren!" Zhou Xinling rescued, "I'm sorry! Buy me another sweet corn stick, okay?"

Chen Rin said, "Oh."

Others also opened their mouths, some wanted chicken nuggets, some beef burgers, some hot and cold drinks...

Lin Yanxing said angrily: "Don't listen to them, Chen Yan, you buy whatever you want, you're used to it!"

Zhou Xinling screamed: "Oh why? Big Yanzi said he was going to be a treat, but he's being ridiculous!"

Chen Eun said: "Buy, buy, buy..."

He walked out of the lecture theater and went down to the third floor, when he suddenly heard footsteps behind him, he turned to see Lin Yanxing following him.

"Let's go together." Lin Yanxing put on a school uniform over the suit, and still wore stiff trousers on his lower body.

The winter school uniform of Eleventh Middle School is similar to a jacket, not only thick but also waterproof, which is quite practical.It's a pity that the material is not good, and it tends to produce static electricity, which makes everyone look like Thunderbolt Beibei.

Lin Yanxing asked Chen Yan: "You are in a hurry to come out, do you think that girl is quite noisy?"

"Who?...Oh, entertainment committee." Chen Yan thought for a while and said, "A little bit."

But noisy people are happy. They don't need self-control, don't consider other people's feelings, and can be noisy.

"That's why she likes you." Chen Yan said, "Actually, she was fine when she was in class."

"Hey, insight into people's hearts?" Lin Yanxing smiled, "You think I don't know? There are too many people who like me, and everyone is like this, so I don't want to live. Hey, why are you talking about her, forcing her My treat, this month I originally wanted to save hundreds of pocket money and buy a pair of tennis rackets for the Chinese New Year!"

When Chen Yan left the school gate, he looked around with his eyes, but he didn't find Lu Xia and the others. He must have been intimidated by him and retreated temporarily.

"Who are you looking for?" Lin Yanxing asked.

"I'm not looking for anyone." Chen Yan said.

The two headed straight to the fried chicken burger shop.There were a lot of people in the store during dinner time, and they ordered a lot of things, which really delayed some time. When walking out of the store, Chen Yan asked: "Is there still time to go back to rehearse?"

Lin Yanxing looked at his watch: "It's too late, the Christmas party starts at 06:30, and there are still more than 40 minutes left. What about the rehearsal? It's just for fun. My junior high school is in a certain international school, which has classes for special students, such as vocal music classes, In the dance class, it’s called a performance when you pull it out.”

Hearing that he took the initiative to bring up junior high school, Chen Ren brought the topic to him: "You and Yu Ming are in the same junior high school, do you know that?"

"Him?" Lin Yanxing was surprised, "I don't know."

He asked again: "Isn't Yu Ming's family struggling financially? How can they be in the same junior high school as me? My junior high school is private, and the tuition fees are quite high."

Chen Yi said: "Yu Ming's mother once saved an old man when she was running a food stall. That person was hit by a car early in the morning, and the perpetrator escaped. If it weren't for Yu Ming's mother, he probably would not have survived. That person is the old man of your junior high school principal. Father, so Yu Ming was specially recruited into the school, and his tuition fees were not charged."

Lin Yanxing said "Oh".

Chen Eun said: "There is an English class representative in Yu Ming's class, who said that he once participated in an English competition with you, do you remember?"

"Who?" Lin Yanxing tried hard to recall, "What grade was the English competition? English class representatives... Boys and girls?"

It's over, this kid has no impression at all, the English class representative's slap because of him is nothing.

"Yu Ming said that you often strike up conversations with people."

"Me?" Lin Yanxing shook his head in surprise, "Impossible, I didn't like talking to people at that time, and my dad or brother Xu would get annoyed if I just said a few words!"

Chen Yan doesn't intend to continue this topic anymore, the idiot has lost his memory.

He motioned for the other party to come over, and asked, "Cultural and entertainment committee... Does Zhou Xinling have a parent to pick him up after studying at night?"

Why do you ask this?

Lin Yanxing looked at him, saw that his pretty face was serious, and he didn't seem to be joking, so he said, "I don't think so. She has a good friend in class 9, and they always ride home together. Last time she pulled I also take this good friend with me when I eat skewers."

Chen Yan said slowly: "Then you can see her after school these few days, but don't follow her too closely, just follow her from a distance."

"What?"

It was difficult for Chen Li to explain, so he had to say: "If you don't send me."

Lin Yanxing stopped in his tracks, a sour feeling rushed into his throat.

Chen Li also stopped: "What?"

Lin Yanxing stared at him fixedly, as if bewitched.

"you like her?"

Chen Li never expected that he would utter such a sentence, and immediately stared at him, his black pupils were filled with evil spirit.

"You like her?" Lin Yanxing had mixed feelings in his heart, unspoken jealousy prevailed, and he raised his voice unknowingly.

"do not like."

"Why do you send her home if you don't like it?"

"I'm afraid someone will bully her."

"Who bullied her?"

"bad girl."

"Where did the bad girl come from?"

Chen Ren said heartily: The bad girl you recruited!

"Did you make it up?" Lin Yanxing said in a cold voice, "You just want to take her home. I heard that her home is very close to the school. It takes only half an hour to ride a bicycle, and she is accompanied by a girl from class 9. Didn't you Chance."

"Am I so bored?"

"You are boring or not, I know it in my heart!" Lin Yanxing roared.

Chen Yi asked, "Have you taken gunpowder?"

Lin Yanxing said coldly: "Fuck!"

Gunpowder might taste better than the vinegar he's sipping now!

"Don't talk nonsense." Chen Lin didn't know what thinking activities were going on in his handsome head, no matter what it was, it was stupid.

"Why did you fall in love with her?" Lin Yanxing asked, "You thought she was noisy just now."

"I don't think she's noisy."

"So you just like her!"

Chen Yan was angry and funny: Lin Yanxing, Lin Yanxing, you are such a logic genius!Why did you put an impossible matter on me?You fucking dare to be safe, but I don't even dare to admit it!

"I don't like her."

Lin Yanxing didn't listen, and vaguely felt that his head was very lush and a little green. This species was known as a royal treasure in the Tang Dynasty, and its scientific name was green-haired turtle.

How did he become a bastard? ?

Why did Chen Rian only watch Zhou Xinling's chattering little sparrow? ? !

He was so angry that his whole chest was swollen and disturbed. The previous idea of ​​"not interfering with Miyuki's friendship, Miyuki has Miyuki's life" was instantly forgotten, and he began to speak indiscriminately.

"You like her? Just because of you, do you deserve it?!"

Chen Ren seemed to be pierced by a bullet suddenly, and his pupils shrank suddenly!

Lin Yanxing said: "Now you should study hard, get into a passable university, become self-reliant early, stay away from your mother and stepfather's family, and don't let them hurt you again! Rather than liking you like her, Wasting time and wasting energy, are you qualified to waste..."

Chen Li could no longer hear, his ears were buzzing, echoing over and over again:

... Are you worthy?

...you are like this...

You are not eligible……

stay away...

... are not worthy.

……

He piled several food bags in his hand at Lin Yanxing's feet, raised his dark eyes very slowly, and smiled very slowly, saying: "Well, it doesn't fit well. You can carry the things yourself, I have something to do I'm leaving."

He turned around while talking, Lin Yanxing called him behind him, but he couldn't hear him.

……

Lin Yanxing failed to catch up.

On Christmas Eve, it started to rain. The raindrops in winter are colder than snow, pattering, withered and chilling.

For about 20 minutes, Chen Li just walked around the campus aimlessly, like a beast that couldn't find its home, its fur was wet and its fur was injured.

When he came back to his senses, he found that he had climbed over the low wall and entered the experimental junior high school next door. He was standing in the boys' toilet in the teaching building, the toilet where he had sneaked over to take a shower.

There was no one in the experimental junior high school, and it was eerily quiet. There was a cold, slippery light on the clean toilet floor tiles.

Next to the sink is a mirror with a voice-activated light above it.

Chen Yan clapped her hands lightly, the light came on, and there was a pale person in the mirror.

He stared blankly at those big, dark and deep eyes, as if he was not looking at himself, but another panicked soul, perhaps a dead soul.

He began to think about one thing.

He helped Lin Yanxing do this and that with so much heart, not because of the other party's request, it didn't happen in the past, it didn't happen now, and it probably won't happen in the future.

All his efforts, life goals, and spiritual sustenance—what about becoming a superstar, what about leaning against a big tree to enjoy the shade, what about holding a golden rice bowl to survive starvation—are all out of wishful thinking.

He never thought about whether Lin Yanxing needed him, and whether he really had a chance to climb up to Lin Yanxing.

There are too many variables.

Can he guarantee that Lin Yanxing will be admitted to the same university or at least the same city?

If we don't see each other for a few years, the day lily will be cold by the time he graduates from university and visits him.

If he doesn't go to college and follow along, will Lin Yanxing accept him, a person who has no education, no ability, and can only carry bags, cook and clean?Will his team of top stars accept it?

He wove a dream for himself, and he thought that it could come true, but whether he wanted to be an emperor or make a fortune in the dream, it was all a dream, and it would be gone at dawn.

He died once, and he even forgot this truth.

His dream has only one percent, one thousandth, or even one ten thousandth possibility of realization. He was fascinated by the one ten thousandth light, so that he only heard the remaining one ten thousandth. Nine thousand nine hundred and ninety-nine hustle and bustle in the darkness, gradually converging into a roar:

You do not deserve! ! !

Lin Yanxing pointed to his nose and said, You are not worthy!

Lu Xia is not worthy, and he is even more unworthy. They are all shameful and contemptible early illegitimate fans!

He hugged his head and slowly covered his face...

He doesn't deserve it, he never did.

He is not worthy to be born, not worthy to love, not worthy to be loved by others, not worthy to live well in a place where there is light...

The strong self-destructive tendency in his character was easily brought to the light by Lin Yanxing's words. He squatted in the center of the men's toilet and trembled, his teeth chattering, as if death like a sea of ​​ice came again.

He doesn't like working around the clock, the environment of nightclubs, the teacher's tactics, and heavy housework... But he can't stop once he does it, because he has a tendency to self-destruct.

He kills himself, but not in a corrupt way, but in another way.

He subconsciously felt that he was only worthy of worrying about hard work, not worthy of rest, not worthy of enjoyment, only suffering and tiredness, pain and death!

……

He doesn't deserve to dream.

He didn't go to the Christmas party. After he calmed down a little, he returned to the dormitory, lay on the bed, and covered himself from head to toe with a heavy, musty quilt in the winter rainy season.

He wasn't sleeping, the pillowcase was so wet he knew he was wasting moisture again.

After a long time, he heard someone open the door with a key, and he sat down on the side of the bed lightly, and asked, "Why didn't you turn on the light when you were awake? Are you sick?"

It was Yu Ming, that friend who was as humble and shy as he was, but had a complete family anyway.

From this point of view, Yu Ming is more "worthy" than him.

He huddled under the quilt and asked hoarsely, "Aren't you going home today, Saturday?"

"I'll be back right away. You didn't go to the party, so I was a little worried, so I came to see you." Yu Ming heard him muttering, and asked, "Are you caught a cold?"

"...It's okay, just lie down." Chen Yan asked, "Is the party over?"

"Yeah." Yu Ming said, "It's over before eight o'clock, and we stayed to clean the classroom, so it dragged on for almost an hour. The members of the cultural and entertainment committee made the classroom too fancy, and Mrs. Zhang thought it was too fancy." Too many colors disturb everyone's learning, so we must let the shovel clean up."

Yu Ming stretched out his hand to caress the other person's forehead, it didn't feel hot, but cold.

He withdrew his hand in shock: "Did you get caught in the rain? There are cold medicines in the drawer of the desk. Take two pills!"

"No need." Chen Yan said.

Yu Ming waited for a while, then said, "Lin Yanxing didn't attend the party either."

"..." Chen Yan showed his face from under the quilt, "Isn't he the host?"

"That's right." Yu Ming said, "but he just quit and ran away. Later, only the cultural and entertainment committee member was left to host, and she was so angry that she cried. It is said that Lin Yanxing still has two shows, and they will not perform either."

Chen Rin said: "He..."

He stopped because he heard a knock on the door.

Yu Ming said: "It should be the dormitory auntie. She asked me to take the duty watch down to her. I guess I'm in a hurry right now."

As he said that, he went to open the door, but someone grabbed the back of his neck and threw him out!

Lin Yanxing leaned his back against the door, locked it, turned around and looked at Chen Ren in the dark, the air was filled with the sound of his rapid breathing.

He was caught in the rain, and the cold drops of water pressed down the ends of his hair, converging into drops on his face and neck, and wet marks appeared on his feet.

"I did not mean that!"

His chest rose and fell, and he growled: "Really!!"