dhibooks Chapter 108 6-10
Chapter 108 6-10
the next day.
The last day of the Titanic.
As an insider, Yu Ling inevitably had some emotions, not fear or anything, but a kind of...
How should I put it, reverence for life?
Or the awe of nature?
He didn't know, but when he stood on the railing on the side of the deck and let most of his body dangle in the air and looked down at the sea below, he did have an indescribable feeling in his heart.
It seems that I have never been so small as I am now.
"Alive..." He sighed softly, staring at the sea in a daze.
Calm sea.
Some people are still alive now, but they are dead, such as some people on this ship.
Most people.
But he would be the one who survived, he would be.
Yu Ling touched his wrist subconsciously - there should be a black leather bracelet there, although no one can see it.
"It's really not easy, it's such a thing to live." He jumped off the railing and returned to the deck, feeling a little bit lost suddenly.
Rarely, Yu Ling began to think about the meaning of life.
This is something he has never thought about before, because for the former Yu Ling, "living" is a matter of course, just as it is natural for him to get what he wants—whether he has to fight for it or not .
What's the point of living?Why do people live?
Well, this kind of question never fit him.
But now, he began to think, and felt at a loss.
Why live?
Nor did he find it very pleasant to be alive.
Every day in life is actually quite boring.
Nothing new everyday.
It's completely unnerving.
Why do people live?
Probably everyone will have their own reasons!
Maybe for A Shao, being alive means being able to do what you want to do happily, fighting with people or something——
So, for him, what is the meaning of life?
Yu Ling began to look back on her life. In fact, thinking about it now, this life is not too short.
Don't think about it in his silly childhood, he was so innocent at that time that he was an idiot.But it is undeniable that this period of time is indeed one of his rare, long-term happy days.
After the age of 15, he began to compete for the family, and he must not relax every day.
How many times have you brushed shoulders with death?More than he could count, probably.
After he finally became the master of the Yu family and exiled everyone, he began to devour other families.
First, start from a low-level small family, and go up little by little...
It's like a hungry beast who doesn't know what a full stomach is.
Then came across this crossing.
The first world...
It was a rare and relaxing world for him. Although he didn't do much, and he could even be said to be mediocre, he did live a comfortable life.
After feeling tired, he chose to leave and go to the next world.
In that world, he met Akashi Seijuro.
For the first time, I understood what "like" is.
Love - if you may call it that -
What a beautiful first love... It's a pity that the ending is too sad.
Facing the fact that the person he likes will disappear forever, Yu Ling escapes.
Whether it was because of timidity or something else, he couldn't tell at this moment, he only knew that he arrived at the next world very quickly and at a hasty speed.
Become the Napoleon of crime, Jim Moriarty.
Little Jim's character undoubtedly downplayed the negative emotions caused by Akashi Seijuro's disappearance, but similarly, Little Jim's character also made Yu Ling different from before.
There is no doubt that Jim Moriarty is a man whose whole body is soaked in darkness.
He foolishly let go of his emotions and planned a series of crimes, just to make trouble for the detective.
Of course, this was not the idea of "Yu Ling" itself. At least half of it was due to Jim Moriarty's soul, but Yu Ling didn't notice it at the time.Or he noticed it, but didn't take it to heart.
After letting himself be shot, Yu Ling came to the world of Dream of Red Mansions and became Jia She, the elder of the Rongguo Mansion whom his parents did not love.Of course, the feeling of being a magic stick is quite interesting, and the final ending should be considered good, but...
The psychological problem is still not resolved.
And it broke out completely in the next world.
He should be thankful that at least these problems have erupted, otherwise he may not be able to react until a long time later—and at that time, it may not be so easy to solve.
In this world, he met a person who was a bit like A Shao.
In the Central Plains.
Although some bad things happened during the period, he eventually became friends with Zhongya Nakahara and got a symbol of friendship - a small black leather ring.
And here it is.
twentieth century.
The doomed Titanic.
"Why do I suddenly feel so old when I'm only 25 years old?" Yu Ling looked at the crystal chandelier above his head, feeling a little melancholy.
After careful calculation, in the past 25 years of his life, it seems that he has never lived a happy life after he was truly "sensible"-of course, "sensible" refers to after leaving the stage of Baby Ling.
As for the worlds that I traveled through, maybe the first world is still easy, and the second world can be called happiness until the final change, but after that...
"I'm not happy." As if he suddenly lost his strength, he lay lazily on the table, "Although it seems that I got a lot of things, but in all fairness..."
If you give him a choice, it is to return to the second world to prevent the disappearance of Akashi Seijuro—the second personality of Akashi Seijuro—and then he will never have these magical powers; he still chooses to be like this, although he lost Akashi Seijuro Juro, yet has all his current powers, and possibly even more in the future?
Yu Ling thought she would choose the latter.
Because for him, strength and interests are indeed very important and very important things.
And he has already let go of Akashi Seijuro, and he will no longer be too excited because of Akashi Seijuro, nor will he subconsciously find some similar people as substitutes because of Akashi Seijuro.
At most, when he thinks of Akashi Seijuro, he will feel a little sad and regretful.
But actually.
"The first one...?" If there is such a choice, even if you can't have these powers from now on, do you still want to be with Akashi Seijuro...?
Is he willing to give up his power "to be with Akashi Seijuro", or just to "put himself in a happy feeling"?
After struggling for a while, Yu Ling realized that it was meaningless to think about these things.
Because there is no such choice at all.
He's on board the Titanic, which is about to hit an iceberg tonight.
Well, he did call several boats around the Atlantic Ocean, anyway, even if he fell into the water, he could swim with the driftwood and climb onto the boat——Yu Ling didn’t feel like he was in the same boat after “not getting on the lifeboat”. No driftwood could be found.
So he'll survive - survive -
and then?
Then what to do?
Living the life of American high society in the early twentieth century, a life that is nothing new day after day?
Will he really not be bored to death?
Although the twentieth century was still new to him, he was indeed interested in all kinds of things that only appeared in this era.But how long can this interest last?
What to do after the interest wears off?
"Why don't you just avoid the stock market crash..." Yu Ling muttered, "Let yourself go bankrupt and commit suicide..."
This is also a reasonable ending.
"But why should I care about whether the ending is reasonable or not?" He propped his chin, his mood was like being covered with a layer of black veil, and no light could come through, "If you commit suicide for no reason..."
Wait, why did he suddenly start thinking about how to kill himself?
It really is much more dead, is it natural to get used to it?
"No, I want to live..." Yu Ling stood up, the confusion in his eyes faded, "Even if you don't know the meaning of 'living' now, as long as you live, you will have time to find it, as long as you live, you will have a chance to know .”
And death is the most meaningless.
"Only the weak will choose to die." Yu Ling murmured, "People who choose to die because they cannot bear the weight of life are all incompetent people..."
He began to pace the room, fast and long.
"I didn't 'suicide' in the previous few worlds, because I knew in my heart that it was just to leave this world and go to the next world, but just now..."
"I was actually thinking about suicide."
"Give up your life?"
"No, it's impossible..."
His voice gradually increased, and his emotions became agitated.
"All of this, all of this... how can you give up so easily?"
"Give up on yourself? Impossible, this kind of thing is absolutely impossible—"
No, it's not your life you're giving up, it's Cal Hockley's.
At this time, a voice sounded in the ear, full of bewitching.
Do it, do it, you're tired of the world, aren't you?Then kill yourself and go to the next world, there will be novel things waiting for you in the next world!
"...to the next world?" Yu Ling stopped in her tracks, "Novel things, there will be new things in the next world... Oh, of course, of course there will be..."
"That's right, let's go to the next world!" Ming Si, Mo said to Yu Ling in the mirror through a strange mirror, his expression was fanatical and his eyes were amazingly bright, "Hurry up and end this world!" , and then go to the next world!"
The voice in the ear is still going on, it seems to be there, it seems to be absent, and it is faintly visible.
Yu Ling frowned slightly, as if thinking about something.
"Hurry up and go to the next world!" Mo in front of the mirror raised his voice, a trace of impatience flashed in his eyes, impatience with Yu Ling, "In this way, I can gain strength faster..."
He lowered his head and looked at the lines on his palm.
The dark purple wish-fulfilling grass pattern has spread to the human pattern.
Wishful Grass...or it can be called Heartbroken Grass.
"Just wait until it reaches the tip of the middle finger..." Mo closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, the emotions in his eyes had calmed down, "Wait a little longer, wait a little longer..."
He looked at Yu Ling in the mirror, and found that the other party had also calmed down.
"Suicide...?"
Yu Ling opened his eyes, his eyes seemed a little empty.
"Suicide... ah."
Mo slowly evoked a smile: "Good boy."
The author has something to say:
Well, I thought I couldn't code today, but in the afternoon I was in good health, so I got up and read a chapter~ There are many small clues released in this chapter, which can be regarded as foreshadowing. Smile knowing the plot.
Well, if the little angels who follow my Weibo may find that I mentioned that the ending has already been thought out, it is true, I hope you will not be too surprised when you see the ending. 2333
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In this chapter, there is a squad leader~ Although it is just a theater in Mr. Yu's mind, it can be regarded as appearing, right?
Mr. Yu found that he was actually willing to give up his strength for the captain, and then began to wonder whether it was for the captain or to keep himself in a happy state, and finally realized that it was meaningless to think about these impossible things 2333
Well, I promise, the final ending is definitely HE, so the captain will come back, Mr. Yu need not be too pessimistic [laughs] =======
Then... about why it is traditional Chinese characters, because I have started to learn traditional Chinese characters these days, the main reason is that my "Shan Hai Jing Xiao Zhu" is in traditional Chinese characters, and I don't know many orz and I think I am learning brush calligraphy , Just learn all the traditional Chinese characters [I don’t know how many 2333 I can remember in the end] I found that the work income exceeded 400. I am so happy to say that I hugged the little angels a few times!
As for the collection of this article... I have been hovering between 1388 and 1389. I don’t know when it will exceed 1400. ＿(:з"∠)＿