chasing wife crematorium

Chapter 13 Free Love

Feng Qingzhou took a sip of coffee, feeling the fragrance on his lips and teeth, very comfortable.

"Isn't self-confidence something you should have? I, because I heard that Ms. Jiang was a 'good friend' of Xiaoxiang's college days, so I came here to inquire."

It was only then that Su Lang realized that the "she" they mentioned just now was not herself, but He Xiaoxiang.What are you thinking, she spat at herself.

Jiangbei's face became more and more ugly when he heard the words, and he couldn't show his usual calmness: "Miss Feng's questions about Xiaoxiang should be asked Xiaoxiang herself, not me. Besides, if Xiaoxiang knows Feng Miss asked me such a thing in private, what should I think of you?"

"Xiaoxiang said that she liked people very much when she was young and ignorant, but she refused to tell me who it was. I wanted to find out, that's all. Besides, it doesn't matter if Xiaoxiang knows. You know, she has always been good-tempered, This is especially true for those who care, even if they know, it’s fine if I act like a baby.”

After hearing these words, Jiang Bei couldn't control his composure at all. He clenched his fingers tightly on the skirt, "...Young and ignorant? He Xiaoxiang really said that?"

That's right, she knows best how good He Xiaoxiang is to the people she cares about, and it can even be said that she lowers the bottom line again and again...

Wasn't she proud of all kinds of favors in the past?

"Don't Miss Jiang think it's young and ignorant?" Feng Qingzhou was still calm, as if he didn't see Jiang Bei's gaffe.

Su Lan watched silently from the side, only feeling that Feng Qingzhou was completely different in private and at work.At work, she is gentle yet strong, rational and cunning, and her heart is invisible; in private, she is like a childish little girl, cute and cute, and even loses her temper.

But she thinks that such a person who is full of contradictions is very attractive.And such an attractive person happened to be her strong point.

Compared with Su Lang's joy and admiration, Jiang Bei who was in the center of the storm was obviously not so happy. She restrained her teeth and said as calmly as possible: "I don't think it's because I'm young and ignorant..."

"Oh? It seems that Ms. Jiang is indeed an insider. I wonder if you can tell us? Please rest assured that Su Lang is a mutual friend of mine and her. She is also a witness and won't gossip around."

Jiang Bei looked at Su Lang, his face turned pale: "What...you can do if you know? That's just... a thing of the past."

Feng Qingzhou is very open-minded, "I just want to know about this matter, there is no reason, and I don't mind. To be honest, Miss Jiang, don't think that I am the kind of person who would mind my girlfriend's love history. The reason why I tried everything possible I really want to know, because this matter is like a difficult problem in school, I don’t know the answer, and I just worry about it. As for whether the answer is correct or not, it has no effect on me and her today.”

Jiang Bei felt a pain in his heart, and lost his mind: "...Yes, it has no effect..." Her eyes were very dim, and there was no trace of the confident and mature look she had before.And behind the delicate makeup, Su Lang also saw a few fine lines.

No matter how beautiful a person is, she can't hide the traces of time, even if she puts on makeup that she once dismissed.

"Miss Feng is so smart, she must have already guessed that I am her girlfriend in college." After Jiang Bei said this, he showed a relieved smile, "You may not believe it, you and Miss Su probably heard that The fourth and fifth people in this incident. And the third and fourth are my parents..."

After Jiang Bei finished speaking, he suddenly felt very happy.No wonder Xiaoxiang used to tell her that there was nothing wrong with telling her, but she felt much more at ease.

It turns out... as long as it wasn't her parents, she would have been able to say this so happily.

When the other two heard the words, there was a stir in their hearts: Jiangbei's parents? !

Su Lan and Feng Qingzhou thought of what He Xiaoxiang had said, and they knew it.Come to think of it, their love back then... didn't end well.

Feng Qingzhou's eyes are no longer so provocative and sharp, and have returned to the usual gentleness, and now there is a lot of guilt and apology: "Miss Jiang, I need to apologize to you first. I am not Miss He's girlfriend. It's just that I had to use this identity to deceive you in order to find out this matter for He Xiaoxiang's parents. I think you are also very clear about the reason why I am like this."

Jiang Bei looked at her in shock, and it took him a while to realize: "So... You guessed it, I would never tell anyone about it? Oh, yes, if you are not her girlfriend, no matter how you ask, I can only say that I am her friend. Because I made an agreement with her at the beginning... If we can't be together in the end, we will be friends forever... She is right, it is always because I did not trust her, before, It's the same now." Jiang Bei seemed to have thought of something, and his expression became more and more sad.

Feng Qingzhou was also a little surprised when he heard this agreement, but because he didn't know the inside story, he couldn't comfort Jiang Bei casually, so he could only say: "So you still have such an agreement, no wonder Miss He refuses to explain it truthfully. I just follow your Personality learned that you might not be able to say it straight, so changed it. Anyway, I'm sorry."

"It's okay..." Jiang Bei sighed, "It's also because of the agreement that uncles and aunts are so worried about her. Is she... hasn't been married or in a relationship yet?"

Even though he asked, Jiang Bei concluded that this was the result.If He Xiaoxiang had already been in love and married, how could father and mother ask for help to inquire about his daughter's private affairs?

Su Lang suddenly asked, "Has Miss Jiang not been in touch with Miss He?"

Jiang Bei lowered his eyes: "No. Since I broke up with her, I haven't contacted her again. Although I wanted to contact her, after all... I don't have that face. "

"why?"

There was a glimmer of sparkle in the corner of Jiang Bei's eyes: "Because I betrayed my relationship with her, I broke up with her. Do you mind listening to a story about the old aunt?"

The two were silent and shook their heads at the same time.

In this line of work, listening is a habit.

Jiangbei's eyes were full of brilliance, and he slowly recalled the past: "In college, Xiaoxiang and I were classmates in the class. At first we had no intersection. Until one day, I went to Les bar to hang out and met an acquaintance ..."

Su Lan's heart skipped a beat, Les bar?

Maybe because the memory always remembers the sweet episodes deeply, Jiang Bei, who was still sad just now, now also outlines a faint smile. Compared with the delicacy and maturity when she first entered the coffee shop, now it is much more real and pure.

"That person is Xiaoxiang. It was the first time she entered Les Bar. She followed her friend and looked around, like a curious baby. Later, her friend left her to hunt for beauty, and she herself went to the bar again. I don’t understand anything, and the one who was fooled by the elder sister who was killed by thousands of people in the bar will follow. I stopped her on a whim that day and helped her save her. Later, after Xiaoxiang knew the elder sister’s record, she Said that she would treat me to dinner as a reward. I said no, guess what she said? She said, "Saving someone's life is a great kindness. It's too early to make a promise with your body. It's better to have a meal first. If you don't eat , it can only be the former.’ Didn’t expect that? I just met her, and she’s very rambunctious.”

The two listened silently.

How nostalgic must it be to be able to remember clearly what we said when we first met?

After finishing the previous sentence, Jiang Bei's tone became a bit nostalgic: "Well... After that, I started to get acquainted with her. We have the same hobbies, the same sexuality, and we are in the same class. Our relationship has warmed up very quickly. I don't know where From that day on, we went from friends to lovers."

"Since we met, Xiaoxiang has been very kind to me, so good that she wants to spoil me."

"I'm not in good health and always have dysmenorrhea. When Xiaoxiang saw me with dysmenorrhea for the first time, her face turned pale with fright, and she took me to the hospital without saying a word. I'm used to the pain, so I don't want to go to the hospital. Yeah? So I told her, I absolutely don't want to get out of bed, don't go to the hospital. Seeing that I was determined, Xiaoxiang reluctantly agreed, and then stayed with me for 1 minute. It really is 1 minute, just like the blink of an eye. I Before I said how painful it was, she seemed to be in more pain than me, and she was spinning around in a hurry. After 1 minute, I couldn't help it, picked me up and ran outside. I was so scared by her that I panicked. But she carried me back to the school gate without saying a word, and then got into the taxi. Later, I went to fetch water with her, only to find that she was so weak that she even struggled to carry a bucket. But that day, she But she carried me from the dormitory building to the school gate, like a boy. I asked her why, and she told me it might be because of my girlfriend. Look, how stupid is this person?"

Jiang Bei laughed as he spoke.

"She also likes to be serious. I once said that I wanted to go to Japan to see the cherry blossoms, but I didn't have the money, so it was just for fun. If she doesn't cooperate with me and coax me, it's fine. If she can't go, then don't." I think, since I want to go, I have to fight for it. Is there anyone who talks to the object like this? I didn’t want to talk to her at all, so I told her that I couldn’t go or think about it. What’s the matter? Later, she found a salary during the summer vacation It's very tall but hard work, and I abruptly collected the money to let me go to Japan to see the cherry blossoms."

Su Lang asked cooperatively: "Then have you gone to Japan?"

Jiang Bei smiled even more happily: "No. The money spent for a trip abroad is not a small amount. She is still a student, so how much can she earn if she works hard? So, she only earns the amount of one person. I'll go by myself. How can anyone send his girlfriend to go abroad alone? But Xiaoxiang just did it, do you think she is serious or not?"

Su Lang was about to answer, but was signaled by Feng Qingzhou's eyes not to speak, she glanced at Jiang Bei, who had gentle brows and eyes, and seemed to understand: Jiang Bei just wanted to talk, and she didn't need to answer every question she asked.

Because the answer has been deeply imprinted in Jiangbei's heart.

"Like every couple, we have done all kinds of things, including those silly ones. It may be hard for you to imagine that she and I tattoo each other's names, right? Hahaha, back then, me and her It's just being so stupid, you can get tattoos if you say so, and there is no other reason, it's just because of love."

Jiang Bei touched his wrist and smiled brighter, but when she smiled, her eye circles turned red.

"However, no matter how long the dream lasts, we will wake up. After all, we are not ordinary couples. We can't tell the world like ordinary couples. We can't easily share with friends and classmates, and we can't tell family members. Even intimacy requires Pay attention to proportion. When others say that our relationship is really good, our first thought will not be happiness and happiness, but fear and fear..."

"Finally, another boy confessed to me when he thought I was single. After Xiaoxiang bumped into me, she said, let's come out. Although it is tiring to maintain such a relationship, I still feel scared when I hear this sentence." I'm afraid that even the closest people will not agree to such a shocking relationship. But Xiaoxiang said that she doesn't ask other people to look at our relationship seriously, because she doesn't care about others, as long as the family agrees, it's fine. Even if she disagrees, she will not give up, and her parents will always soften their hearts after a day-to-day struggle. Xiaoxiang, you always believe in our relationship so firmly, but I...have not been able to persevere like her. "

Some tears that could not be hidden appeared in Jiang Bei's eyes, and both of them sank in their hearts.

"After she came out, my uncle and aunt were very surprised, but they still said that they would talk about each other when they calmed down, but my parents were different. When I came out, my mother hanged herself the same day. She said, she said, she couldn't Accept me as a pervert..."

She lowered her head and murmured in despair: "Pervert... This is what my biological mother gave me. I just fell in love with someone, how did I become a pervert? I just fell in love with a girl, Why should I be tied to the pillar of shame?"

"In the next month, no matter how I fought or argued, they didn't accept it. My dad said, either break off the father-daughter relationship, or I'll find a man to marry; Together. I was forced to be very painful. I used hunger strike and suicide, but they did not soften at all. They just silently chose to double the punishment and return it to me. I hunger strike for one day, they hunger strike for two days; I committed suicide once, they committed suicide Twice...Xiaoxiang came to my house when she realized something was wrong, but was beaten and scolded by my parents...In the end, I begged her to leave..."

Feng Qingzhou took out a few pieces of paper and handed them to Jiangbei silently.Jiang Bei took the paper, but it was useless. He just stared blankly at his wrist with a dazed expression.

"Xiaoxiang said that she would grind her uncles and aunts agreed, and she succeeded. Yes, she has always been a very firm person...but I was tortured by my parents and wanted to give up, so Xiaoxiang and I Said, let's break up... Xiaoxiang looked at me and just asked me, are you sure, do you not regret it? Even if she hit me, scolded me, she could be sad or angry, but why didn't she have any? That look in her eyes I will always remember, calm and desperate, as if I took away all her light. However, my heart was already ashamed by my parents at that time, so I gritted my teeth and said that we should break up. I was too tired. Really, too I'm tired... The closest person is forcing me to die every day, and love and family affection are always in my mind. Be firm? How can I be firm? Don't I need to be filial?" Jiang Bei almost collapsed.

"Then, then...Xiaoxiang said hello to me softly, and left. From that day on, I never saw her again. All the ways to contact her were cut off by her one-way, and she only gave me I sent a letter with a sentence..."

"From then on, we are just friends. I got my wish, but why am I not happy?"

After Jiang Bei said this with a smile, tears fell like rain.Su Lan was a little sad, as if she had witnessed such a scene with her own eyes: On a piece of pure white letter paper, there was only a brief reply of eight characters.These eight characters are not fluent at all. The letter writer seems to have exhausted all the love and pain in each stroke. The words failed to pass through the thin paper, but pierced into the reader's heart.

Perhaps there were still some dry tears on it, but they dissipated in the air like retention.

Jiang Bei wiped away his tears with a paper, and she didn't even care that the delicate makeup was a little blurry, "Actually, there is a reason why I told you so much."

Feng Qingzhou stared at her wrist for a while, then asked in a deep voice: "... put it down?"

"Yes. I didn't let go before, but now, I want to let go, I want to return to the loyalty I should have done... He is innocent. How about it, do you think I am selfish? So, let Xiaoxiang also Let it go. Also, tell my aunts and uncles that I'm sorry for them. If...if it's possible, let her let me go and be with someone else. Whether it's a man or a woman, life is short, and she deserves A better person. Isn't this a good time? Free love, free love...Although, it's too late."

After saying this, Jiang Bei bowed his head apologetically, and took the paper to leave the coffee shop.This passage contains too much information, and Su Lang, who didn't understand, was about to stop her, but Feng Qingzhou crossed the table and pressed her on the seat, "Let her go."

"But……"

Feng Qingzhou shook his head, "Let her go."

Su Lang clenched her fists and gave up trying to stop Jiang Bei, but she still couldn't help asking Jiang Bei who was about to open the door and leave, "Miss Jiang, at the end I would like to take the liberty to ask, what is the name of the bar where you first met? "

There was momentary confusion in Jiang Bei's eyes, but he quickly replied firmly, "It's like water."

The door of the cafe slowly closed.

After listening to the expected answer, Su Lan felt even more sad. Does Jiang Bei know that He Xiaoxiang is a frequent visitor to Rushui Bar? Does she know the reason why she goes there all the year round even though she obviously doesn't accept anyone?

Jiangbei... Have you been to Rushui before?

Although Feng Qingzhou has experienced much more than Su Lan, but he couldn't avoid being sad, and his voice became a little hoarse: "Do you want them to be together?"

Su Lan nodded: "Yes, after so many years, neither of them can forget each other. Such a deep relationship is still there, why aren't they together?"

Feng Qingzhou looked at Jiangbei's cup of bitter American coffee, sighed, and said quietly: "But, the two of them can't be together."

"why?"

"Didn't Jiangbei say that the two of them tattooed each other? Just now I saw a strange mark on Jiangbei's wrist."

Su Lang was startled: "You mean...to remove the tattoo scar?"

Feng Qingzhou drank the remaining cold coffee in the cup, mouth full of bitterness: "And...there is a circle of white indentations on the ring finger of that hand."

Su Lan was silent.

She thought that she finally understood how heavy the two people's hearts must be when they said the words "Long live free love".

So heavy that it seems like a lifetime away.