Can't get

Chapter 130

Yu Chimu felt like a fish already on a plate, and was anxiously sent to the operating table. The place carried too much gloomy atmosphere, and the shadow of death was too heavy. The anesthesia needle was injected into the body, and consciousness It also gradually became blurred, and there were still too many blurred illusions in front of my eyes.

There are Lin Xi, Qian Dehou, and all the things I don't want to see.

Xiao An...

Finally chanting his name, Yu Chimu fell into the darkness completely.

It's time to end, Yu Chimu calculated his steps and walked towards hell step by step, the tombstone was also erected prematurely, it was full of resentment, it's such a pity, the person who left first would be me.

A sigh, no one heard it except Yu Chimu himself.

Doctor, patient holding something in hand. The nurse seemed to have discovered something, and said anxiously, "What is this?"How do you hold on so tightly? "

After exhausting all her strength, the nurse still didn't open it, a little silver light leaked from the gap between her fingers, she took a second look, "Looks like a ring?"

"Okay, don't worry about the things in your hand, hurry up and prepare for the operation!"

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"How's the situation now! How's the person?" When the doctor came out of the operating room, Xiao Zhenghe was the first to ask about the result anxiously. "Where's Yu Chimu? What do you say?"

When Xiao Zhenghe was questioning, he carefully glanced at his grandson. Xiao An was sitting upright, as if he was escorted to the court, waiting for his own outcome.

"Mr. Xiao, luckily, the patient saved his life for the time being." The doctor said out of breath. In order to say this, the most famous cardiovascular experts in the country were summoned in the operating room, just for Yu Chimu to survive. The middle process was even more dangerous, Yu Chimu suffered cardiac arrest twice during the operation!During the final stitching, all the doctors at the scene couldn't help but let out a long sigh of relief, "The operation was successful."

10% possibility, fortunately not disgraceful.

He didn't die, Yu Chimu himself didn't think about such a result, stretched out his hand, Yu Chimu wanted to catch the sunlight outside the window, but he didn't catch anything.

"It's time to eat." Someone behind knocked on the bowl, making a crisp sound, it was Xiao An.

Walking slowly, Xiao An always maintained a relatively fixed arc on his face. This person has never smiled at himself like this before. I don't know when it started. Xiao An has become generous to himself and is willing to spend energy to take care of himself. .

Yu Chimu lowered his eyes, his thin eyelashes fell down, forming a shadow.

"Yu Chimu..." Xiao An called the name of the person in front of him, and said happily, "I said, you won't die."

"you are still alive."

Yes, still alive... It's ridiculous, obviously I was ready to go to hell, but I was dragged up at the last moment. "I'm not hungry."

"The doctor said that you can start eating a little liquid food today, and you don't need to hang on to glucose." As if he didn't hear Yu Chimu's words, Xiao An sat directly in front of the hospital bed, and said to himself, "In your condition, it will take about a month." You can go out for a walk in the future, it happened to be March at that time, I will take you around."

"I do not want to see."

Silently spit out such words. After recovering from a serious illness, the most obvious change in Yu Chimu's body is that he has become more silent. He used to talk less, and now he is even more unwilling to communicate with others. The most repulsive person there is Xiao An. .

All Yu Chimu's repulsion and refusal clearly expressed the news that he didn't want to get close to him anymore...

He used to be a hedgehog, and Yu Chimu was only willing to be soft to Xiao An alone, but now this last bit of softness is hidden by this person.

Xiao An suddenly felt that the atmosphere in the room became a little heavier, and he took the initiative to help Yu Chimu open the window of the ward, "Why don't you call Negligence to help you ventilate the room?"

"I feel that this room is a little damp today."

In the past, Xiao An had never talked to himself in such a pleasant manner, let alone helping him with such trivial things as opening the window.

"You don't owe me anything." Yu Chimu said suddenly, with a clear tone of alienation, "My illness has nothing to do with you. Speaking of which, I should thank you. If it weren't for you, maybe I wouldn't be well now lying here."

With a very calm tone, Xiao An turned his head, wanting to see the blazing past in Yu Chimu's eyes, but there was nothing.

Suddenly, I remembered what Yu Chimu said to himself that day, "You let me go, liking you is my own business, and it has nothing to do with you. It took me ten years to understand a joke, and now I wake up from the dream. I should go too."

"Xiao An, look, I shouldn't have liked you back then..."

Suddenly, he felt that Yu Chimu in front of him was a stranger he had never seen before. This person shouldn't be like this!He kept saying that he liked him for ten years, why did he put himself down so easily!

Xiao An suddenly couldn't help feeling a little tight in his chest. What he said just now was not wrong. From the moment he approached this room, not only was the humid air, but also a kind of obvious incompatibility. Ten unwelcome outsiders among himself, He doesn't want to see himself...

Finally unable to hold back the expression on his face, Xiao An's desperately maintained smile collapsed, "We shouldn't be like this."

"You are still alive, why..."

Yu Chimu didn't give the other party a chance to continue speaking, and interrupted directly, "It doesn't matter to us."

Xiao An didn't want to hear this, and raised his voice abruptly, "Shut up!"

"Why?" Why did you tell me to shut up?This person can easily spoil all his dissatisfaction, and can shout at himself at will?Feelings are decided by him, life and death are also decided by him...

My relationship with Xiao An has never been equal, why?

What Xiao An wanted to ask was why, and what Yu Chimu asked was why.

This chase has unknowingly changed roles...

"You like me." Xiao An said, "Yu Chimu, you told me yourself that you liked me for ten years." After such a long time, Xiao An did not believe that this person could say the words of breaking off the relationship so calmly .

Yu Chimu remained expressionless, "That's really embarrassing, it's been No. 11 years now, and I've changed my attitude."

"Yu Chimu!" ​​The person's name was suddenly called, and Yu Chimu didn't have time to react. Xiao An suddenly pressed his whole body on Yu Chimu's body, and a wet kiss came from his lips. Xiao An couldn't wait to prove something. The kiss fell on Yuchimu's face, wanting to stimulate the continuous temperature and passion.

"It was you who provoked me..." Shen Sheng said, Xiao An hated seeing Yu Chimu's overly calm eyes, and directly covered them with his hands arrogantly, without being polite at all, Xiao An seemed to want to put the person in front of him Thoroughly disassembled and eaten into the stomach, leaving traces of hot water one by one.

"Yuchimu..."

This sigh didn't get the slightest response, this person was like a piece of wood, Xiao An couldn't find the passion of the past, and couldn't collide with sparks.

He didn't know what happened at all, he was obviously still alive, and he was lying under him, but he couldn't catch anything.

"You let me go." This is what Yu Chimu said. Before the operation, this person told me to let him go. Now that the operation is successful, he still tells me to let him go!He is the one who is desperate, and now he wants to retreat completely, how is it possible!

Xiao An knew very well that the person in front of him clearly affected all his nerves. Back then, he was afraid that he would go crazy. When his grandfather burned incense and worshiped Buddha to Yuchimu, he also begged countless times in his heart, only that Yuchimu could survive...

As a result, people are still alive, and everything has changed.

"Xiao An, you have never obeyed my will." Blindfolded, Yu Chimu said leisurely, "I am different from Lin Xi, you are reluctant to hurt him, but you are willing to gamble with my life .”

"Before going to the operating table, guess what I was thinking?"

Xiao An was afraid of hearing the rest of the answer, so he freed up a hand, anxiously trying to shut Yu Chimu's mouth! "Shut up, I won't let you speak out!"

"Yu Chimu, did I tell you to shut up, did you hear me?" Xiao An seemed to be suddenly ruthless, and firmly pressed down on Yu Chimu, covering his mouth and nose, "Shut up, don't say anything!"

"Yu Chimu, I don't want to hear you say this!"

"To shut up……"

The eyes flickered clearly and became crazy, Xiao An knew what this person might say, it was definitely not what he wanted to hear, Yu Chimu would calmly negotiate the relationship with himself, this person would use those calm pupils Facing himself, without the joy of the past, he felt strange to death.

The strength in his hands was getting stronger and stronger, Xiao An didn't notice Yu Chimu's face that had already turned pale, and his breathing was slightly suppressed, and he muttered, "Don't force me, Yu Chimu."

"I let you survive, your life is mine, and people are mine."

I don't know where this idea came from. In the subconscious, Yu Chimu can only belong to himself forever. Whether he lives or dies, whether he likes it or not, this person should be his own..."It's still the same as before , you move back and live next door to me."

"Nothing happened."

How could it have never happened, Yu Chimu suddenly felt ridiculous, from life to death, from death to life, he was in pain so many times, how could he pretend that it never happened?

Yu Chimu has never had such a magnanimity.

With his eyes closed, Yuchi Muxiao thought about what Xiao An's expression should be now, maybe he would feel uncomfortable?He should be uncomfortable. The dog he has raised for so many years is disobedient now, and he always wants to bite his master.

The feeling of suffocation became stronger and stronger, Yu Chimu smiled wryly in his heart, this person has never paid attention to his own thoughts, at least, the Xiao An in his memory has never been reluctant to treat Lin Xi like this.That person is the white moonlight in Xiao An's heart, it will shatter when touched, so naturally he is reluctant to touch it... But now, Xiao An almost smothered himself to death.

Yu Chimu suddenly felt bored, closed his eyes and waited for his own ending, this kind of mood was no different from the mood of going to death at the beginning, calm as hell.

With less and less air to breathe, Yu Chimu began to feel the abnormal beating of the heart again. It was the first time since the operation that he felt this familiar experience, suffocation and depression, unable to get out.

The moment when he thought he was dead, Xiao An suddenly realized, and hurriedly withdrew his hand, only to meet Yu Chimu's pale face, "I'm sorry..."

"I did not do it on purpose."

Throwing away his hand in a daze, Xiao An apologized fearfully like a child who did something wrong, "I can't control it, are you... all right?"

Worried and frightened, Xiao An himself never thought that he could really do such a thing to Yu Chimu!What I did just now can be called murder...

"I have something to do."

After struggling to clear his breathing, Yu Chimu said, "You wanted to kill me just now." Speaking calmly, Yu Chimu seemed to be talking about a fact that had nothing to do with him, "Xiao An, I almost suffocated just now. .”

The man stepped back anxiously, "I didn't mean to!"

"Yu Chimu, how could I kill you!"

These words didn't sound pleasant at all, Yu Chimu began to carefully calculate the accounts with Xiao An, "How could it be impossible for you to kill me?"

"Xiao An, the first time you forced me to donate bone marrow to Lin Xi, you stabbed me and pushed me out of the hospital window. The second time, you took me to meet Zhang Jingyao on purpose, and he gave up Two ribs, this operation, you are also betting on my life..."

"I'm so lucky to have survived until now."

Mingming Wei Chi Mu didn't have any expression on his face, this man was just talking about the past calmly, but it was as if he had smashed a huge wound viciously on Xiao An's heart, piercing his heart.Xiao An knew very well that he had treated this person badly before, and it was precisely because he was too clear that he didn't want to think about it.

Such a past, this person will never forget, nor will he forgive himself.

Xiao An, who used to be vigorous and resolute, suddenly became weak at this moment, looked at Yu Chimu beggingly, and said shyly, "Yuchimu, I beg you, don't say it."

"Why don't you say it?" Yu Chimu slowly sat up from the hospital bed, facing the sunshine, without any warmth, "Xiao An, I'm not doing charity, I've never been a good person to talk about."

"Let me finish the sentence just now. I can tell you what I was thinking before the operation."

"I can't afford to love."

What is love!It was obviously not like this before!The former Yuchimu was so paranoid and terrifying, why did he disappear so easily?

For a moment, Xiao An wanted to argue loudly with Yu Chimu, thinking that this person would get a new life if he survived. The same position is waiting for me, and I am unwilling to give the other party enough time to catch up again...

"Yu Chimu, you can't treat me like this..."

There was no sign of sympathy, Yu Chimu was like an exquisite puppet, and the words he said were cold, "You can't treat me like this, let me go."

"It's boring. You haven't given me what I want for ten years... Now, I don't want it anymore."

Because of causality, Yu Chimu spent ten years understanding one thing. In many cases, even if he tried his best, he might not be able to get the "result" he wanted. It was too tiring.

In the afternoon, there was an extra visitor in the ward, Zhang Jingyao.

There was a period of silence between the two, Zhang Jingyao didn't speak, just stood at the door and observed Yu Chimu in front of him, unable to tell what he was thinking.

"Do you feel unhappy that I survived?" It was Yu Chimu who broke the silence. He didn't really like the feeling of being paid attention to like this, especially the one at the door that he didn't like very much. "I heard that you bought me a coffin."

This was said by a nurse in the hospital. Zhang Jingyao was stopped outside the hospital when he had an operation that day. He directly carried the coffin and waited for his operation to end. He wished he could go to hell sooner.

"I hope you are alive more than anyone else." Grinning, Zhang Jingyao's injuries are not yet fully recovered, and he struggled a little while walking, with a bleak smile, "You are still alive..."

That's really great, only Zhang Jingyao knows how many times he worshiped the Bodhisattva in order for this person to survive.

"So you still bought me a coffin..."

This person suddenly took out a report and put it in Yu Chimu's hand, "It just came out, you should read it."

"You and I, it seems that we need to change our address." There was some bitterness in the smile that was not easy to observe, and Zhang Jingyao didn't want to see such a result.

After going around and going around, it turns out that there is such a relationship with Yu Chimu, and he should have discovered it at the beginning. This person has the same heart disease as himself, and the same blood type, both of which are rare panda blood. He still has the same paranoia in his bones.

It's no secret that Zhang Jingyao was not born to the Zhang family. There were two abandoned ones, one was Zhang Jingyao and the other was Yu Chimu.

"I'll come and pick you up." Zhang Jingyao said, "You should be my brother now, and it makes sense for me to take care of you."

Holding the report in his hand, Yu Chimu didn't intend to open it at all, and threw it directly into the trash can, and said slowly, "I didn't see this kind of thing."

"I don't need your care either."

While speaking, Yu Chimu couldn't help but take another look at Zhang Jingyao. This guy who broke three of his ribs before and cursed him to death was actually his own brother... This kind of thing is ridiculous, so Yu Chimu I don't want to think about it.

The blood relationship was discovered when he was forced to donate blood to Zhang Jingyao. One second, he just found out that this person is his own brother. The next second, he broke a finger on this brother's hand...

"You don't have to be nice to me." Yu Chimu said suddenly, "You definitely don't remember what happened when you were a child. You were left behind by me."

At that time, both myself and my unfavorable brother said that I would not survive the second year, and after a month of conservative treatment in the hospital, Yu Chimu found that his biological parents had disappeared.

What can two small children do?Yu Chimu didn't want to wait to die. At that time, the orphanage expressed its willingness to accept one, and Yu Chimu left the younger brother behind.The doctor said that his younger brother's heart disease was more serious than his own, and the chance of survival was pitifully small. Yu Chimu was not willing to keep this opportunity to live in an orphanage for his younger brother.

The result was completely different from what I thought. The younger brother who was abandoned by him was unexpectedly taken in by Zhang's family, and he was served by the Zhang family. He was the ant living in the shadows, humble and weak.

Completely reversed...

For the next ten years, Yu Chimu always thought that his younger brother had already died in the hospital, what a joke...

It was probably to punish the selfishness of the past, so Zhang Jingyao was not willing to let him go for the rest, and he paid for it. I'm sorry, this brother got it back.

Subconsciously touched the scar on his finger, Yu Chimu was surprised to find that he could still remember the pain of beheading his finger. It was very clear that he remembered all the things he wanted to forget. It's not that big-hearted, everyone says that they will get revenge, and that's true.

What I broke and hurt myself at the beginning, I want to forget, but I can't forget.

With a wry smile, Yu Chimu silently looked at the sunlight in front of him, it was very bright, and he should feel warm, but what gave birth was a lot of chill.

"It turned out that you left me first." Zhang Jingyao said, he was seriously ill when he was a child, and he definitely couldn't remember those things, but the Zhang family told him that when he saw him in the hospital, he was already dying. It just so happened that the wife of the Zhang family She failed to have a miscarriage, and the time she met her was too coincidental, so she stayed at the Zhang family.In the remaining days, the adoptive mother now cursed the relatives who abandoned her more than once, and it turned out to be Yu Chimu...

From this point of view, this person has not changed since he was a child, and he has not left any conscience towards his own brother. The last bit of thought is on Xiao An, but unfortunately, no good results.

"If you don't come with me now, you can only stay here with Xiao An..."

After a pause, Zhang Jingyao said slowly, "I heard that you seem to reject Xiao An very much now."

Yu Chimu raised his eyebrows, "You arranged for someone to watch me?"

"Why, you care so much about my brother?" These words were clearly mocking, Yu Chimu always hated when someone grabbed him, Xiao An was the first one, pulled out all the sharp points on his body, dripping with blood, and couldn't move.

The younger brother in front of him is also restless. If he guessed correctly, the "Lin Xi" in the back should be arranged by this person.

It was specially used to scare himself, and the technique was very beautiful. Yu Chimu admitted that he really didn't like to see that face.

Zhang Jingyao felt Yu Chimu's guard against him in a trance, and frowned slightly, "I didn't mean to hurt you."

"Yu Chimu, treat you as the only relative I want to treat myself kindly..."

Before he finished speaking, he was interrupted by Yu Chimu, who sneered, "Are you joking with me? When did blood relationship become so precious in your eyes?"

"If the blood relationship is not precious, do you think it is more valuable for you to be with Xiao An for ten years? Didn't you lose to that person after ten years of fighting?" It was completely subconscious when Zhang Jingyao realized that he might say After saying the wrong words, Yu Chimu's face has completely changed.

"There's no need for you to remind me." With an attitude of repelling people thousands of miles away, Yu Chimu said even more indifferently, "Oh, what a pity that a dead person is being prodded by your lips all day long."

"Since Ai Lin Xi was going to die or live back then, why take me, a murderer, away now? Anyway, it's not pleasing to the eye, or do you want to make yourself unhappy?"

I have to say that Yu Chimu hasn't changed at all after the operation, he still hates Lin Xi just the same, with a clear distinction between love and hate.

Zhang Jingyao fixedly looked at the person in front of him, his whole body seemed to be covered with barbs, and he couldn't touch him. After this chase, Yu Chimu's body was no longer soft for a moment, and even his eyes were aggressive.

Opened his mouth, and wanted to speak, Yu Chimu had already issued a clear order to evict the guest, "Goodbye, Zhang Jingyao."

"I really don't want to see you..."

This person said the name Zhang Jingyao, the name of his brother, which Yu Chimu didn't want to call out.

The author has something to say: After more than ten years of different journeys, every step is a deep abyss.After writing this sentence, I feel sorry for my Yu Chimu/(ㄒoㄒ)/~~ [There will be bread, there will be love, there will be text, and I am typing. 】