【Cang Qiao】Bodhi

Chapter 21【Chapter 21】

After Tie Yu Qiuyi left, Qiao Rulai sat in front of the window for a long time.He spread out his hand and looked at the palm covered by the white crystal Buddha beads, with red marks pinched out by himself, his heart was mixed with all kinds of tastes, and the mixed flavors were not enough to describe his state of mind at this time.

He suddenly felt a little stuffy in the room, yes, he locked himself in the room, he didn't open the window for several days, and he never walked out of the door.He confines himself in his own small space, so that he confuses the sun, moon and time, not knowing what year and month it is today.

Feng Xiaoyao said that they are going back to the demon world.

Tie Yu Qiuyi said that Cang Yue Guming did this to save him.

Qiao Tathagata only feels that there is a mess in her mind that can't be tangled and unreasonable. All the things that should be, shouldn't be, should be figured out, and things that should not be figured out are all messed up, and they can't be dismantled.He felt extremely stuffy, and the room seemed cramped, so he simply stood up, without even caring about tidying up his robes, and opened the door after walking a few steps.

——"The method of intercourse and crossing the Qi was suggested by me, and the alchemy by fire was also given to the king by Tie Yi."

——"If there is no king, you will die on the spot."

——"As a king, he can naturally adjust himself quickly to fight against the gate of the earth, but I don't want to see the king wasting more than [-] years in the human world."

——"Pretty Tathagata, this is the end of what Tie Yu asked for clothes."

Qiao Rulai sat in the yard, bathed in the sunlight shattered by the trees, her mind was full of what Tie Yu Qiuyi had just said to herself.

Cang Yue Guming is going back to the demon world, tomorrow.But he hadn't come to see himself after that incident.

Not once.

Qiao Rulai felt angry and aggrieved, but he felt even more confused, with so many questions in his mind, he couldn't figure it out——

Did he do this to save himself?Did he do this to him just because he was dying at the time?The so many "I'm sorry" he said in his ear refer to... Did he save him?

He doesn't understand.

I really don't understand.

So many fragmented memories suddenly flashed in his mind - some of his childhood, some of his youth, some of his happiness, some of his sadness, some of those who were at a loss when he first entered Buddhism, and some of those who chanted scriptures and praised Buddha in the Buddhist hall.In the memories that flash by like a revolving lantern, the locations, characters, and situations are different, but what those memories have in common is the same Cang Yue Guming who is always by his side.

Qiao Rulai suddenly recalled that before going down the mountain, he had sworn to himself—"He is here."

He also remembered that in the face of countless crises, he stood in front of him and expressed to him in the simplest way-"don't be afraid".

At the same time, he also remembered that he used to stare deeply at himself with those blue eyes, the light in his eyes couldn't be concealed, from the corners of his eyes to the depths of his pupils, it was full of—"I will protect you." you".

He suddenly realized.

Drops of water into the lake, boulders bloom, sometimes a little away from the consonance, just a moment.

He suddenly realized where his melancholy for many days came from, and he also suddenly knew what the emptiness in his heart looked like.

Qiao Tathagata figured out those feelings that he couldn't think about and was full of sorrow almost in a flash. He clenched the bead in his hand, raised his head, and looked at the little sunlight falling from the shade of the trees. Feel the warm sun sprinkled, very dazzling.

He never harmed him.

He protects him all the time.

All he thought about in that situation was to save him first.

Although Qiao Tathagata does not understand love, he also understands that in the past, he has experienced all kinds of hardships and sufferings, savored all joys, anger, sorrows and joys.

The rosary in his hand passed one, and the spar collided, making a clear and audible sound.

He probably knows his own mind.

——After all, there are some things that should be said clearly when the person is around and can hear them.

As King Lin said, there are some things that need to be made clear.

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Qiao Rulai packed up her mood, straightened her plain white monk clothes, and walked towards the Moon Gate with the string of warm white crystal beads in her hand.

He walked to the door, but stopped his steps again, remained silent for a moment, and then suddenly spoke:

"How long are you going to hide?"

After Qiaoru finished speaking, she paused for a moment, turned her head slowly, looked directly at the blue eyes hidden in the corner, and slowly called out the other party's name:

"—the gray wolf."

The branches covered in the corner rustled, and then there was no sound.

Qiao Tathagata did not speak again, her eyes were fixed on that spot, her hands were put into her sleeves, and she stood in front of the moon gate without saying a word.

After a while, there was the sound of fur rubbing against the tile edge from the corner, and then Cang Yue Guming's figure was seen rubbing over from a distance bit by bit.

Yes, come here.

He is still in the form of a wolf beast, his silver-gray fur is still soft, but it is a little dry, not as shiny as before, his eyes are still the same color as the sea, deep and clear, and people can't take them away after one glance look.

Qiao Rulai met those eyes, and was stunned for a moment, the scene of that day suddenly came to mind - sweaty fur, scorching temperature, deep and sexy panting, and... and a self that was not like her.

Qiao Rulai blushed all of a sudden, the blush spread from the skin to the tips of the ears, it was hot, he hurriedly turned his back, his long snow-white hair turned an arc in the air, raised his hand, and covered his clamoring heart, pretending Said calmly:

"Come in."

After finishing speaking, he lifted his feet and walked away. The monk's shoes stepped on the stone road, and there was a sound of messy footsteps.

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The sun is slightly slanting, and the afterglow is light.

"I……"

"The lonely king..."

One person and one wolf looked at each other.

"You speak first."

"You speak first."

Qiao Rulai looked at Cang Yue Guming in front of him, blinked, and suddenly smiled softly.

The laughter was shallow, but pleasant to the ear.

He put his hands on the monk's robe between his legs, and stroked the golden thread on the cassock with his fingertips, but he never took his eyes off the wolf beast sitting opposite him.

His eyes like the rising sun were rippling at this time, with watery light, softness, anger and a little bit of annoyance.The smile that seemed to be put on after precise calculations suddenly disappeared. He took off his usual gentle and gentle mask, and released all his lively and true emotions.

"In the past few days...you are obviously in Zhuangzi, why don't you come to me?" Qiao Rulai asked.

"The lonely king is afraid."

"afraid of what?"

"I'm afraid you will hate the lonely king."

Expected and unexpected answers.Qiao Tathagata raised her eyebrows and placed her hands on the stone table in front of her.The banyan tree in the courtyard has begun to shed its leaves, and the yellow and slightly curly leaves also fell on the smooth marble tabletop. With a movement of Qiao Tathagata, the sleeves swiped lightly, bringing up a few banyan leaves on the table, fluttering, and fell with a fine rubbing sound. On the bluestone ground.

Qiao Rulai propped himself up, thought for a while, and sat back down again. He looked at Cang Yue Guming's eartips which were fluttering due to anxiety, and continued to ask:

"Why do you think I hate you?"

Cang Yue Guming's eyes flashed, and he replied:

"It's reasonable for the lonely king to force you to hate me."

Hearing Cang Yue Guming mention that matter, Qiao Rulai's face became hot again, he raised his hand to cover his lips, and coughed lightly: "Then...why are you afraid that I will hate you?"

"Because of the lonely king..." Cang Yue Guming raised his head and blinked vigorously, "Because the lonely king... is pleased with you."

"Because I like you, I am afraid that you will hate the lonely king."

"Because I like you, I'm afraid that when you see the lonely king, you will think of that day... what the lonely king forced you to do."

"So the lonely king is afraid."

"The lonely king is afraid of losing you, although..."

Cang Yue Guming stopped, turned his head, and said softly:

"Although the lonely king is afraid... he has already lost you."

"Why do you think that you will lose me after the incident? Or, why do you think that I will blame you and hate you because of this incident?"

"The Gu Wang forced you after all, you..." Cang Yue Gu Ming turned around, but when he saw Qiao Tathagata, he lost his voice.

Qiao Rulai smiled at him.His eyes are as bright as stars, his cheeks are as pink as the sunset, there is no trace of blame or resentment on his face, his light-colored lips are slightly raised, the corners of his eyebrows and eyes are stained with a smile, and the cinnabar marks on his forehead are all under the sun shining brightly.

For a moment, Cang Yue Guming was stunned.

"However..." Qiao Rulai blinked, looked solemn, looked at Cang Yue Guming, and said in a very serious tone, "There is something, I am very angry."

Cang Yue Guming twitched his furry pointed ears, and looked at Qiao Tathagata suspiciously.

"Qiao Tathagata thinks that you have nothing to hide from me anymore, but you still hide it from you... This kind of thinking."

The hand hidden in the sleeve of the monk's robe was tightened, and the fingers squeezed the white crystal beads wrapped around the fingertips.Qiao Rulai looked at Cang Yue Guming's extremely beautiful blue eyes, and he felt his heartbeat suddenly become a little faster, and his ears seemed to be full of rapid and regular thumping sounds.His mouth was a little dry and his face was a little hot, but he still didn't look away, but looked at Cang Yue Guming in front of him, and said slowly and firmly:

"If Qiao Tathagata never asked you, would you have to hide this kind of thinking from you forever? So what about you? So what about Qiao Tathagata? Have you ever thought about it seriously?"

Qiao Rulai softened his tone, and the raised corners of his eyes eased a lot. He still looked at Cang Yue Guming, and his voice became much softer:

"You never said it, how could I know your thoughts? If you didn't say it... how could I..."

The voice became softer as it went to the back, and the last few words were almost too soft to hear.Cang Yue Guming was a little dazed, he jumped off the stone bench, walked around the round table step by step, and walked in the direction of Qiao Tathagata.

"Pretty Tathagata..."

Qiao Rulai only heard the fine sound of fallen leaves being rubbed, and he heard Cang Yue Guming calling him, subconsciously turned his head, and bumped into a warm embrace unexpectedly.Feeling the scent of grass from the other party's clothes and the soft touch of the leather, he felt that the heat on his face was getting hotter, and his embarrassment gradually increased, and he subconsciously wanted to push away the young man who was too close to him .

But his movement was stopped by a pair of fiery big hands.Those hands supported him, so that he was just in a subtle distance that could be hugged by the other party.Cang Yue Guming squatted down slowly, landed on the ground with one knee, raised his head slightly, carefully looked for the gaze that Qiao Rulai wanted to avoid, and asked in disbelief:

"Qiao Tathagata, what did you say about you just now? The lonely king didn't hear it. You... say it again, okay?"

"If you don't tell me, I..." Qiao Rulai opened her mouth, her delicate and fair face flushed little by little, her eyes kept wandering, and finally she simply lowered her eyes, just not daring to look at Cang Yue Guming's state at this time , "...How can I respond to your thoughts...?"

A soft whisper gave Cang Yue Guming an accurate answer to his heart, which was worried about gains and losses. There was boundless joy and satisfaction in his heart, and his blue eyes almost softened into puddles of water.He looked at Qiao Tathagata happily, not knowing what to say for a moment.

Qiao Tathagata felt like her whole body was going to burn.At this moment, those rules and regulations written in black and white turned into a wisp of green smoke and went away with the wind.The hands that clamped him were hot and warm, and the smell of green grass on the other person made him feel at ease and attached to him. He only knew that youth is fleeting and sincerity is rare.There is no lie in Buddhism, he chose to face his truest emotions in exchange for the most honest confession at present.

It's good to be able to say these words.

Just when Qiao Rulai breathed a sigh of relief for saying these words, she felt one foot lifted and her center of gravity shifted slightly backwards, so she subconsciously put her elbows on the table to stabilize her body.He raised his head, and saw Cang Yue Guming holding his feet, bending down, and kissing his bare feet respectfully and reverently.

Qiao Rulai's mind suddenly became blank.

Cang Yue Guming's body temperature was on the high side, but his lips were a bit cool, and the moist two pieces were printed on the insteps, but there was no blasphemy in the slightest.His full of love and reverence penetrated along the skin, and penetrated into the flesh and blood of his body bit by bit.

Qiao Tathagata could feel Cang Yue Guming's slow and steady breath, and the breath brushed over the feet, bringing a slight itchiness that made people shiver.He only felt that the heat on his face hadn't decreased at all compared to before, on the contrary, it had increased a lot. It was so hot that his ears hurt, and his shy thoughts gradually swelled up, filling his heart to the brim.

Qiao Rulai couldn't help moving her legs back, trying to retract her feet.However, Cang Yue Guming's hand did not intend to relax at all, it seemed that it was just holding it lightly, but no matter how Qiao Rulai retracted his leg, that foot was still held by Cang Yue Guming in a good manner, without any slack. move.

I don't know how long it took before Cang Yue Guming put Qiao Rulai's feet down. His movements were gentle and careful, and at the end he gently rubbed the white skin exposed in the hollowed-out monk's shoes with his fingertips.It's just that this gesture was too intimate and ambiguous, which made Qiao Tathagata blushed and gave him an angry look. Cang Yue Guming was happy in his heart, and also saw that Qiao Tathagata was not really angry, so he also took this coquettish look into his heart as interest, The arc of the corner of the mouth could not fall down for a long time.

Cang Yue Guming brushed off his robe and stood up, stretching out his hand to support Qiao Tathagata.After both of them stood up, he reached into his bosom, took out the string of bodhi seeds that he had been fondling for several days from his close-fitting clothes, took Qiao Rulai's hand, and personally wrapped the string with only two beads remaining. Put the Buddhist beads on Qiaorulai's wrist, then took the empty beaded rope and tied a beautiful knot on the rope.

"Don't lose it again in the future." Cang Yue Guming took Qiao Rulai's hand and placed a kiss on the back of his hand, looking at the person in front of him with a serious and admiring look in his eyes.

Qiao Rulai blushed all the time, being kissed on the back of the foot and back by the hand, which made him even more ashamed.

He was originally a lay disciple of Buddhism who was not stained by the dust of the world, and only then did he understand his own thoughts, but he was knocked into a daze by Cang Yue Guming's heart full of love.Those intimacy actions that are the same as usual are just a change of state of mind, and then suddenly give birth to other different tastes.It's just that Cang Yue Guming's appearance of being cheap and good-looking made Qiao Tathagata a little annoyed, she just wanted to win back a victory, and couldn't let him lead her by the nose anymore.

He lowered his eyes, looked at the dark red knot on his wrist and the light brown bodhi seed, his brows were contemplative, which was particularly moving.

"I don't know who lost it." Qiao Rulai raised her head and looked at Cang Yue Guming, "You still blame me."

"..." Cang Yue Guming choked for a moment, then turned his head away and coughed lightly to cover up his embarrassment.

That being said... it was indeed because he hurriedly hugged Qiao Rulai to go... that's why he left the bodhi seed in that open space...

Thinking of this, Cang Yue Guming felt a little hot on his face.Qiao Rulai saw the burnt red ears through his thick hair, and laughed out loud as if triumphant.

He straightened Cang Yue's lonely face, bent the corners of his eyes, and raised his heels to a distance where his breath could be clearly heard.He felt the slightly higher body temperature of the other person with his cheeks, stared for a moment, and then said softly:

"Canglang, I'm sorry."

Qiao Rulai saw Cang Yue Guming's eyes widen in shock from his words, and the quiet and profound blue inside seemed to be broken up and shone with sparkling light.He exerted a little force with his hands, and gradually narrowed the distance between the two of them. He could see the tightening of the pupils of the other party, and he could also feel the chaotic high-heat breath of the other party.Qiao Tathagata only felt that her heart was warm and sour like never before, she opened her mouth, and said again:

"sorry."

The ending sound was contained between the lips, directly blocking Cang Yue Guming's mouth.

At this moment, the tender heart quietly bloomed.