bad derailment

Chapter 87

This appears to have been a complete misunderstanding.

Across a crack in the door, Chen Feng's eyes sparkled again, "Xiao Yao, can I go in and talk about it?"

"No."

I was wary of his blatant plot, even though the hand against the door frame was so sore that I lost consciousness, I kept a straight face, "Just say it here."

Chen Feng looked at me stubbornly, "If you don't let me in, I'll just wait here."

I didn't dare to meet his gaze, I bit my lip and said, "It's up to you."

Chen Feng pursed his blunt lips, and after a few seconds, he let go of the hand pressing on the door, acting as a silent determination.I squeezed the handle and moved in my direction, trying to isolate the two spaces. After a dull sound, I fell into silence.

Turned on warm lights filled the room, but only skipped over the body.I put down the keys, lay on the sofa and wiped my face with the tiredness on my shoulders, and wiped it off in a hurry when it got a little wet.

The clock hanging on the wall ticked softly, and the slight cat meowing came from the inner room, becoming the only movement in the silence.

"Yes, come here."

I cheered up a little to call him, the kitten seemed to feel the low atmosphere, jumped onto the sofa and lay beside me, brushing its fluffy tail over my legs, as if comforting something.

After petting the kitten lightly for a while, I really couldn't bring myself to tease him, so I went to the bathroom to wash my face with water.The cold temperature penetrated through the pores, and the water droplets wet the collar along the face and hair. I propped up the sink and stared at the black mesh hole that sucked the water down, feeling absent-minded for a while.

It turned out that I had misunderstood what Chen Feng meant all along, and he also misunderstood my mood, so it was so funny to make mistakes again and again, and no one opened his mouth to explain.It wasn't until now that he realized that there was absolutely no way out in front of him.

Got into a dead end.

There were only two options left before him, one was to completely ignore Chen Feng and break with him.This is the most normal way, no one will hurt the former for the sake of the latter.Especially when I like Jiang Qiu, but when facing Chen Feng, it is always more complicated than everything else, there is almost no need for hesitation, it is clear at a glance.

The water has flowed into the bottomless filter tank, and there is a buzzing in my ears, like a tight string.

Another option is to let Chen Feng in.

I kept thinking about the former, as a warning hanging over my head.However, after the numbness of his legs, he slowly walked out of the bathroom and stopped in front of the door.

Through the cat's eyes, there was only darkness left, and the silhouette belonging to Chen Feng could not be seen at all.With my heart pounding, I pushed the door open, the lock clicked, and the corridor lit up again, blending with the warm light from the room.

Chen Feng, who was sitting in the same position, raised his head, as if frozen.There was a rare fluctuation in the dark pupils, staring at my face, time stopped at this moment.

My Adam's apple tightened and rolled up and down.

"come in."

A few months later, as one of the former owners of the house, Chen Feng stepped here again as a guest.

In the face of the invasion of strange smells, be fully prepared.Staring at Chen Feng, he let out an unruly cry, and the hair on his back exploded.

Chen Feng lowered his head and noticed the kitten, and frowned, revealing a bit of repulsion that I was familiar with, but in the end he didn't say anything, and sat on the sofa.

"Do you want water or a drink?" I was not used to such silence, so I broke the deadlock.

"No need." After Chen Feng finished speaking, he suddenly paused and said, "Water is fine."

I looked at him for a few seconds, "Do you want it or not?"

"want."

This time there was no hesitation.

A glass of water was quickly placed in front of Chen Feng, and he only took a sip, then held the glass in his hand and refused to put it down for a long time.I wanted to say something, but the words drifted from my mouth and then gradually stopped, changing to: "Did you really send me a text message?"

"How could I lie to you?" Chen Feng lowered his brows, as if expressing his displeasure at my suspicion.

I pursed my lower lip, "But when I went to find you, Tang Manyao said that she sent the wrong message, so she withdrew it."

Chen Feng said: "After I sent the message that day, she asked me to check something on my mobile phone. She said that my mobile phone was out of battery, and it would not take much time to check something, so I lent her the mobile phone."

Hearing this, I almost guessed what was going on, and Chen Feng continued: "When she returned the phone, she said she saw you send me a message, and she accidentally clicked it in, but the phone froze. When I wanted to log out, I pressed the wrong place and deleted all the chat history. I can only ask her what you replied, and she said that you replied 'don't contact me again'."

My heart beat a few more beats, and I met Chen Feng's depressed eyes.

"It's not that I didn't suspect that she did it on purpose, but since the news has been sent out, deleting the chat records will not change the result, so I didn't continue to ask."

"But what I received was a retraction, and I didn't see what you posted at all," I couldn't help but said, "I went to the hospital to look for you, but was stopped by Tang Manyao, plus the previous retraction, I thought That's what you mean."

Chen Feng held the cup tightly and looked at me firmly, "I will never let outsiders tell you."

The atmosphere was silent for a few seconds, I hastily avoided my sight, and avoided the topic again: "No matter why she did this, this matter is over, and there is no point in asking her again."

Chen Feng seemed to want to say something, his dark eyes flashed a dark light, and he said in a deep voice, "Xiao Yao, what did you want to do when you went to the hospital?"

"I......"

My mind was blank for a long time, and I got stuck there after making a sound, and changed my words in a bit of embarrassment: "It's been so long, I don't remember it long ago. Now that I have explained it clearly, you should go too."

"You remember everything," he looked at me motionlessly, with a powerful voice, "Xiao Yao, you've actually softened your heart, haven't you?"

I didn't make a sound, Chen Feng seemed to read a deeper meaning from this silence, and asked with red eyes: "You actually don't want to break up, do you?"

"It's late, you should go."

I abruptly changed the subject and got up to go back to the bedroom.Chen Feng actually understands my weaknesses very well, as well as those deeply hidden thoughts.He just didn't like to talk about it, maybe he was really afraid that if he said it, it would mean the real end. It was the first time he was so aggressive and forced me to make a choice.

I can't do it.

"Lin Yao, I won't leave."

There was a rustling and the meowing of a kitten behind him.I turned around and saw Feng Chen got up and was about to walk, but the hem of his trousers was caught off guard and was about to be bitten, and he was stuck in place.He lowered his head and looked at the vigilant kitten, one person and one cat stood there in a stalemate, neither of them was the first to move.

Chen Feng opened his mouth to say something, but maybe he realized that the opposite was a cat, so he pursed the corners of his cold and hard lips, and hesitantly held back his words.

There was some inexplicable joy in this scene, I called out the name I wanted, and after two calls, the kitten hesitantly let go of Chen Feng's trouser legs, and walked towards me with strides.

"His name is Yaoyao too?" Chen Feng's gaze shifted to me.

I gave a 'huh', bent down and picked up the kitten, without looking up at him, "It's for 'no', not my Yao. Remember to close the door when you leave, I'll go back to the room first."

"I said, I won't go," Chen Feng repeated, as if these few words couldn't be said enough, "I will always wait for you."

He is always stubborn and unreasonable in some aspects, completely deaf to the dissuasion of others, only himself.

I had some headaches, but it was strange that I didn't feel the same boredom as before, and I couldn't say anything cruel.After a long silence, he left behind a soft sigh that could almost be regarded as connivance.

"up to you."

Maybe on the way to the hospital, I really thought about it, although it was only for a short moment——I thought about getting back together with Chen Feng.

When he was drunk and hugged me from behind, when he called out my name again, ignoring everything but me, I finally understood what the feeling of being empty was.

He has become my habit.It's not love, but it surrounds you like a shadow like air.I always ignore him subconsciously, and only see his bad things subconsciously. It wasn't until after I left that the air was pulled away for a moment, and the pain of suffocation made me wake up and breed all regrets.

The price of this has far outweighed the pleasure of cheating, the regret came a little too late, and Chen Feng's words came a little too late.I was lying on the bed, clearly exhausted to the extreme but extremely sober, wondering if Chen Feng outside had left, how to face him tomorrow, and how to face Jiang Qiushi.

I thought I was out of this messed up relationship, but I never was.I'm still stuck in this filthy swamp that's getting deeper and deeper.

Chen Feng did not leave, but slept on the sofa in the living room all night.

You have to lie on the table not far away, like the little tail that supervises Chen Feng, staring at this external force, refusing to relax.

I walked out of the bedroom after waking up, and saw Chen Feng's tired sleeping face for a moment, and couldn't help being in a daze for a moment.As if back when we hadn't broken up yet, every night when I came home, he would habitually leave a light on and lie on the sofa.

Even if I have said it countless times, I never correct it.

At first I thought he was deliberately trying to oppose me, but it was not until later that I gradually realized that Chen Feng was just waiting for me to go home.

Even though the distance was getting farther and farther away, things changed and people changed, and even mistakenly thought that there would be no chance to meet again, Chen Feng always stood where I could see when I turned around, and never left.

"...Xiao Yao?"

His hoarse voice pulled me away from the memory, and I realized that I had stood in front of the sofa for a long time.Chen Feng woke up, his eyes were still a little tired, he didn't seem to have slept very well, but the moment he opened his eyes, he subconsciously grabbed my hand hanging by his side, an instinctive move.

The familiar temperature and strength were like a cluster of electric current passing through my whole body along my fingertips. I was blank for a few seconds before remembering to pull my hand out.

There was a moment of loneliness in his opened eyes, and he said in a low voice: "...Morning."

I didn't answer, there was silence for a few seconds.

"Chen Feng, do you really want to keep doing this?"

This sentence was accompanied by a low, inaudible tremor, and I was speaking to him as well as myself.

All night, I couldn't think of anything.I should ruthlessly reject Chen Feng, or drive him out of here directly, but all these good plans disappeared the moment I saw him.

I didn't like Chen Feng very much, and I didn't have the so-called love as deep as the sea. Instead, I was always dominated by the guilt and regret that I didn't repay.He is like a thorn in the heart, which cannot be removed or touched.

Chen Feng woke up as fast as he could, sat up and looked up at me, as if he understood what I meant, his dark pupils were filled with undeniable oppression and fragility, "Xiao Yao, I already made the next night. Decide, I can wait whatever you want."

"How do you want to wait?" I twitched the corner of my mouth, "Every day is the same as last night, stop me at the door?"

The light in Chen Feng's eyes flickered on and off until he fell silent.The ticking sound of the wall clock went regularly in the living room in the early morning. He looked at me with serious eyes, and said every word firmly from the bottom of his heart.

"I'll wait for you to break up."