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Chapter 43 P2-chapter 43

"I have insomnia, I dare not sleep." I lay on the sofa in a daze.

"why?"

"Someone wants me dead."

Persecution paranoia?Hallucination?Schizophrenia?Gong Yao tapped the pen in his hand: "Why do you want to die?"

"I don't know. I seem to have done something very bad. He said that as long as I die, he will forgive me."

"Who is this guy?"

"do not know."

Gong Yao was thoughtful: "When did such an idea start to appear?"

"Lolo asked me to play games, he said, I've killed people before."

Lolo, it's this Lolo again: "Then have you ever killed?"

"No!" After a pause, "I don't know."

"You know, these are just hallucinations in your mind, and you're going to try to get over them. I've been listening to your story for weeks, now shall we wrap it up?"

"it is good."

"You stopped playing games after your confession was rejected. Where and what did you do afterwards? Is there anything impressive."

I was thinking, thinking hard: "After that, I will go to class as usual, practice and look for a job in my senior year. Friends who used to have a good time are getting more and more distant. There was a class meeting in my senior year, but the whole class seemed to be unhappy. Wanting to talk to me so much, I don't know what I've done to them, they seem to...hate me."

"Everyone hates you?"

"No, Qin Hao didn't, but he always looked at me strangely, so we also distanced ourselves later."

"How many people are there in your dormitory?"

"Three, no, four, no, three..."

"How many?"

"There's a bed that's always been vacant."

"What about the junior year? What happened, I remember you didn't play games in the sophomore year."

......

long silence.

"What did you do when you were a junior? At that time, you just stopped playing games, and you should be very sad. You care about that relationship, don't you?"

Junior, where am I?I should be at school, what did I do?what did you do...

The pen in Gong Yao's hand stopped, and he asked carefully: "Can't remember?"

"It's been so long since I forgot."

"But you still remember things in your senior year very clearly. Have you ever asked why they alienated you?"

"Ask, but they ignore me."

"You mentioned a man named Wu Ling to me."

I thought about it and nodded: "But I don't know him."

"Could you know it, but forget it?"

"How did you forget that?" I smiled.

"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember what happened in your junior year?"

"Who cares about that."

"Perhaps you subconsciously avoided this question on purpose." Gong Yao found that he seemed to have found the key point, yes, it was the lost time during his junior year.

Gong Yao tried to ask: "Bai Yanjun, I can try to hypnotize..."

"What time is it?" I asked suddenly.

"Four o'clock..."

"See you next week."

"Master Gong, you need immediate treatment." The doctor looked at him solemnly.

Gong Haiyi smiled: "I still have important things to do, I will come to receive treatment after I finish."

"What is more important than life? You can take a break with the company's affairs, money can't exchange life."

Sighing: "It's not about the company, but it's more important than life." Regardless of the doctor's advice, Gong Haiyi strode out, "I'll contact you as soon as possible. Also, don't tell anyone else about this. I don't want to announce it yet."

"Young Master Gong!"

"Gong Yao, how are you?" Gong Haiyi stirred the coffee in the cup.

"Depression, irritability, auditory hallucinations... more serious than I thought."

"What do you mean?"

"He may have forgotten his memory for a whole year. I think this whole year is the key. When a person receives a huge stimulus, he will reflexively choose to escape. At this time, he will hint to himself to forget that event, and then completely erase it In the memory. But although I don’t remember it, there are still some reactions in the subconscious, as long as they are stimulated by the outside world, they will slowly surface.” After a pause, Gong Yao looked at him seriously, “I think Hypnotize him."

Gong Haiyi frowned: "Let me think about it."

"Also, it's not just the memory of the whole year that he has forgotten, there is also a person who is the key to his illness."

"Who?"

"Unfortunately, it's not you, but you know that person, they met in the game."

"Josie Yang?"

I went to Luoluo's house, however, everyone went to the empty building, Luoluo moved away, without saying anything, just disappeared.Looking at the closed door, there was a burst of loss in my heart.

"Meow~~"

Candy squatted at the door, her chubby body lost a lot of weight.Seeing Bai Yanjun, she shouted excitedly, stood up and rubbed against his feet.Luo Luo left, but left candy behind.

"Hey, we are two outcasts." I picked up Candy, two homeless people snuggled up, funny and sad, "Little boy, let's go, I will take you to meet a new friend, his name is Charles."

"Meow~~~"

I adopted Candy, and now Charles is here with me. When I first saw him, it wasn't very good. To be precise, it was tragic. Charles was very curious and friendly to candies, and in the end he got bloodstains from being scratched by fried candies. Charles didn't dare go near candy for weeks.

Candy: Huh, stupid dog

Charles: QAQ is very wronged

I played the game again, the round game egg, the crowded royal city.I don't know when the arrest warrant about me on the reward list has been withdrawn.Time changes everything.

"rabbit."

The Great God is still dressed in white.Maybe it's just such a coincidence that when you were looking for me, I wasn't there, and you gave up on me, even if there is a vast sea of ​​people, you can meet each other.

"Yo, long time no see, Great God." I gave a playful military salute.

"I've been looking for you for a long time."

"Oh, really? I haven't been online for a long time. I don't know. You know, after all, this is just a game, and I have too much shit in reality."

"Rabbit, I won't look for you now. I probably won't come back to this game either."

"Oh." I just looked at him in a daze.

"I fell in love with someone who doesn't play games." Qiao Siyang smiled.

"Who?" When you mentioned someone else with a doting smile on your face, how jealous I am.

"A very cute boy, it shouldn't be too late for me to find myself liking him."

"Oh."

"I raised a golden retriever, named after you."

"Fuck, you treat me like a dog."

It's been a long time since I saw him blowing hair, I miss it very much.Qiao Siyang smiled and said: "I'm leaving, goodbye. By the way, Henry stole my account two years ago. I don't know what he told you, but I won't accept weapons and money. I will send them to your mailbox inside."

"Goodbye." I stood there sadly, in front of me was the stone road where the great god disappeared.I really didn't pay attention to the mailbox. It really contained red and blue two-month-old Gouyu and 100 million gold coins.It turned out that it wasn't you at that time.It's just that you will still answer that I don't like you, right?

Just like it was Henry who stood in front of me two years ago, and another person who stood in front of me two years later.

Time can change everything, the same thing is, I like you, you don't like me.

Turning off the game egg, I stared blankly at the ceiling, the sky of city B, the land of city B, and the people of city B, none of which belonged to me.

I want to leave and go back to City C, anywhere is fine, as long as it is not City B.

"Charles!"

"Gong Haiyi, what are you doing here?"

"Why can't I come." Gong Haiyi walked over, Charles followed behind him, "Want to play games again?"

"I don't know, I just want to go online and have a look."

"I..."

"I'm dying." Gong Haiyi looked at Bai Yanjun softly.

I gave him a blank look: "Who are you lying to, you won't die even if I die."

"Lung cancer, and it's serious."

I was dubious: "Are you kidding me?" Gong Haiyi's appearance didn't seem real.

Gong Haiyi shook his head, although he seemed to be joking, but he was telling the truth: "It may be a few months, no matter how much money you spend, the chance of recovery is not [-]%. Spend the last few months with me, okay? Okay?" Eyes full of tenderness, looking at Bai Yanjun, as if begging.

I didn't say my original words and swallowed them back.I shrugged indifferently: "Okok, I'll leave when you survive the operation."

"it is good."

"Fuck, you can't just tell me at the funeral after you die like in the TV series, and you also said that you liked me, and you came to tell me as soon as you found out that you were going to die." I will not sympathize with you.

Gong Haiyi smiled: "I like you so I want to tie you up with my life. Apart from you and the doctor, no one else knows about this."

"You mean I'm honored?"

"I think it is."

"King's contempt."

Gong Haiyi sighed: "I just want you to be with me in the last time."

"Tell it as if you really only have a few months, and the operation will be successful."

"Ah."

"Gong Haiyi, I've always been unable to figure out why you like me. I'm such a scum. I really can't figure it out."

"Qiao Siyang and me, why didn't you choose me?"

"I should be stupid." I pursed my mouth.

"Well, I'm stupid, let me be so good, rich and handsome." Gong Haiyi nodded in agreement, "I'm stupid too."

News: Gong Haiyi came out to the world, her true love turned out to be a man!

This news has been going viral for several months, and it is still on fire.I think Gong Haiyi is really crazy, does he really think that he must die?Don't leave yourself a way out at all, come out in front of the whole of China, you can do it.

"Don't worry, your photos will not be released in the media, and it will not affect you."

"I don't care, I'm dark enough anyway."

"Why didn't you go to Gong Yao's place?"

"I'm not sick. I was in a bad mood a while ago. Do you think I'm fine now? Seeing a psychiatrist doesn't necessarily mean I'm mentally ill. It's normal to see a psychiatrist now, so just chat with them or something."

"..."

"No, how do you know I'm seeing a psychiatrist!?"

"Gong Yao is my friend."

"Damn it ==!"

Both Candy and Charles gained weight several times. I wanted Charles to stimulate Candy to lose weight. Unexpectedly, Charles learned Candy’s obesity experience. Now both of them look like balls.

The world can no longer stop lazy and fat cats.

"You really think he's all right?" Gong Yao said.

Gong Haiyi didn't speak.

"The surface is calm, as long as it erupts, it's over. Gong Shao, I'm not kidding you, he is avoiding the problem, and avoiding is the biggest problem."

"I know." Gong Yao sighed, Bai Yanjun often had nightmares at night and suffered from insomnia, "I'm a little selfish."

Gong Yao looked at him bitterly, "So do you, you two are almost hopeless."

Gong Haiyi squinted his eyes and smiled: "You go first, there are some paparazzi over there, be careful that you will become my boyfriend the next day."

"..."

Now the whole world is looking for Gong Haiyi's boyfriend, but that person who is being looked for by the whole world is now walking his dog and cat.Yes, there is also a cat, put a cat rope on Candy, and let's go for a walk together.

"Why is it you, Uncle Qiao?" I looked at Qiao Siyang who was holding the golden retriever.

"I'm walking the dog today." Qiao Siyang sat down.

Rabbit: Charles! ! !who is the little guy next to you whoa woof

Wang! !Meow! ! ! ! ! ! #! @#! @#

Candy: Huh, another stupid dog

The blood-stained rabbit squatted there dumbfounded.The baby is suffering but the baby doesn't say

Charles: Woo~ the rabbit doesn't hurt, just lick it

I looked at the king's cat and the two follower dogs, and burst out laughing, these three good friends.

"Gong Haiyi came out to you?" Qiao Siyang asked.

"You want to sell the news to the media?" I looked at him and smiled.

Qiao Siyang also smiled, and his cold face softened a lot: "He always likes to argue with me, whether it's business or people."

I was a little uncomfortable being watched by him: "And then?"

"do you like him?"

I looked at the two dogs and one cat playing together, and answered absent-mindedly: "I like it." I like a lot of people.

"Is he nice to you?"

"not bad."

"En." Qiao Siyang rubbed his head, "If one day you don't want to stay with Gong Haiyi, come find me."

I looked at him suspiciously.

"Dabai, I like you."

"So you want to fight with him now?"

"No, when I say that I like you, I just like you. Gong Haiyi sometimes knows me better than myself, for example, in the matter that I like you."

"I want to be with Gong Haiyi well, and I have already separated from others. Although I am a very unscrupulous person, I want to be a little bit more moral now. Even if you want to say that Gong Haiyi wants to compete with you I won't change if I'm with you. Joe, you are not such a despicable person. "

Qiao Siyang closed his eyes in pain: "I'm sorry." I just regret it, if I realized it earlier, the situation would be completely different.So does the rabbit, and so do you, before it's too late.After Bai Yanjun left that day, Qiao Siyang thought for a long time. He should like Bai Yanjun, otherwise he wouldn't lose control.

But that person won't stay where you are, he's gone, he's with someone else.

When he realized this, Gong Haiyi came out, Dabai, Dabai said he likes him.

"Dabai, have you ever liked me?"

"Young Master Qiao, you have to ask your dear cousin Henry what the rabbit told him two years ago. That's my answer too."

"Rabbit? You know him."

"I know him, I know him better than anyone else." I stood up, "I'm leaving first, Young Master Gong is still waiting for me at home, goodbye."

Maybe I went back crying, crying all the way to the door of the villa.It's so fucking fucked up, isn't it.It's all neurosis!I like you, and you like me too, such a simple thing, why must it evolve into such a messy situation?There are many people in the world who get sick and die, if you let me know earlier, who would care if Gong Haiyi is dying soon.

But I can't let go of him now.Whether it is sympathy or being moved, no matter how cold the ice is, it will be melted by the warmth of the equator.Some love, you can't ask for it, put it in the highest place, look at it from a distance, after a long time, even if it is placed in front of me, I still get used to looking up.

Two months later, Gong Haiyi couldn't leave the hospital completely.The best doctors, the best medical equipment, and the most private protection.The outside world had some speculations about Gong Haiyi's illness, maybe it happened by chance, but in the end, Gong Haiyi's people suppressed the news.

"When will it be announced?"

"When I die."

I gave him a blank look: "Then there is no chance, probably decades."

Gong Haiyi smiled wearily: "The fact that I came out has already had a great impact on the company's stock, and now it cannot withstand the second impact."

"Who told you to use the life-saving talisman that can only be used once on me."

"Rabbit, Yanjun, there is one thing I want to confess to you." Gong Haiyi suddenly grabbed Bai Yanjun's hand, and he was lying on the bed. The pain and various treatments had made his strong body thin and fragile, "I know you It's the rabbit in the game, and I know you like Qiao Siyang. I first pursued you, but I just wanted to compete with Qiao Siyang. On Henry, I won him, and I thought I could win again."

"Didn't you win? I rejected him for you."

Gong Haiyi slightly groaned: "You know?"

"Ah."

"I'm sorry, I didn't expect that I would really fall in love with you, so I became selfish later, I don't want to argue, but I still want you."

"This is bullshit, stop it." I never doubted or blamed you.

"Yan Jun, I don't want you to see me like this. Compared with the pain, it is more painful for me to have you by my side now."

"Do you think my husband will despise you as ugly?"

In the end, I agreed to him and left.Gong Haiyi is a proud person, I respect him.

"Charles likes you, take care of him. Yanjun, if I didn't get sick, would you like me?"

"meeting."

"Although I know you are lying to me, I am very happy."

"I did not lie to you."

"If you say that, I will die of heartache." I finally waited for you to turn around, but I didn't have a chance.

can you?I really will.I know that I like the desolation where a person has been waiting for him, so I don't want him to stay in a desolate place.It's not bad to like Gong Haiyi, at least I can find peace.

I'm scared, I like Qiao Siyang.

I am a person who is afraid of pain.

"Yan Jun, go see Gong Yao."

"I'm not sick."

"I just want you to promise me this, and go see Gong Yao."

"I've promised you to take care of Charles."

"Even if I don't ask you, you will take care of Charles, Yanjun, and Gong Yao will help you."

Gong Haiyi lay on the hospital bed, looked at the lilies on the table, after a long time, dialed the phone: "Contact Qiao Siyang, I want to meet him. Just tell him, it's about Bai Yanjun."