after the canary rebellion

Chapter 25 Iceberg

The two stopped talking, Xie Zaiyuan looked at Lin Mei who was squatting outside the door.His body shape has become too thin, and the one-size sweater looks loose on him. Today's temperature is high, and he pulls his sleeves to his elbows, revealing his slender arms, which are as white as fresh snow on the street in the sun.

A few steps away, Xie Zaiyuan felt that he was not very far away from the forest, and he couldn't reach it even though he tried his best. He couldn't find the lost things, and he still had to go over mountains and mountains for it.

Dr. He interrupted his trance and said: "Lin has never once asked me if it is not good to bring the child with me, but I think you are doing the right thing, no matter whether it is because of your other children or not. I plan, at least Lin doesn't really need spiritual comfort, but it's hard to find, Xie You can be regarded as a shot in the arm."

Sending Xie You to Lin Mei, who was emotionally unstable, Xie Zaiyuan, as Xie You's nominal father, no one knew how much risk he took and how much pressure he took.

Except for the child who misses Lin Mei, this move has more advantages than disadvantages for the nostalgic Lin Mei. If one day he suddenly collapses, Xie You, who has been raised by himself, will not be completely settled.

If it hadn't been for this consideration, Xie Zaiyuan wouldn't have resorted to all means to get to this point. Who wouldn't want to escape from this vortex-like situation, but instead of escaping, he even put himself in such an ugly and embarrassing situation.

"I asked his attending doctor about this, and I know it well." Xie Zaiyuan didn't make any excuses. He likes to be stuffy about things, and he has become more and more reticent over the years, and he is still unwilling to say more.

It's all nonsense to say anything. Under Lin Wu's pain, no one can call it pain or suffering, it's all suffering.

"I used to have small plans, thinking about how to please him and how to get him back, but after seeing him having a headache during a business trip that day, I had nothing left." Xie Zaiyuan said, "I advise you not to have any."

He thought about Lin Wu day and night, and made many kinds of assumptions, none of which could guarantee that Lin Wu would become healthy again. Of course, he left him and accepted a new person by his side, but the other party could not care how moody Lin Wu was. Worrying about gains and losses, are you all by his side?

People's hearts are changeable, Xie Zaiyuan is not at ease.

"You didn't want him to come back, so what is this?" He Xiuze asked.

Xie Zaiyuan didn't answer him. He put the account book that he had compiled in detail in the cashier's cabinet, locked it and weighed the key in his hand. Instead of handing it to Lin Mei, he put it gently on the table, and Lin did not have the house keys together.

There is a note where the keys are often placed, saying "Remember to take the keys when you go out". At first glance, He Xiuze thought it was written by Lin Mo, but it took a while to realize that it was not Lin Mo's handwriting, which was much stronger and sharper than Lin Mo's handwriting. It's more like Xie Zaiyuan's intentional imitation of the characters.

He has seen Xie Zaiyuan's signature many times. On Lin Mei's hospitalization certificate or critical illness notice, there are those who are trembling, those who are steady, and those who are impatient. timid.

"Do you think Lin is not like this, is it a new life? If Xie You and I leave in front of him."

He Xiuze said: "There is a new job and a new residence, and a new network of contacts will be established soon. The latter may take some time. He is still very repulsive to strangers, so I said he needs Xie You's company. His attention can be divided, and the response he gets is kind."

"No." Xie Zaiyuan's voice seemed to negate He Xiuze's whole being, denying He Xiuze's observation of Lin Mei, and the emotion he poured into had nothing to do with love.

However, Xie Zaiyuan's expression did not look relaxed, but even more serious: "You don't know how he lived in the hotel for two months. I asked him, either he was bored in the room for a week, or he went out once in a while." For two days, guess how much he ate every day?"

He Xiuze really didn't know about these things, he had never searched for them, and the person in front of him had inquired about them thoroughly.

"For more than a day, it's a bowl of porridge with two eggs, occasionally a bag of potato chips, and sometimes he doesn't eat all day. I can't see how he eats today. You should understand, right?"

After he reminded, He Xiuze remembered: "I ate very little, I hardly moved my chopsticks, I bought two puffs just now, I ate one and threw the other away."

This is the end of the story, and it would be superfluous to continue, the new life is like this, not to mention that Lin Mei's sensitive and fragile spirit will collapse again, and sooner or later something will happen to his stomach.

After eating two meals a day with Xie You, Lin didn't say anything, but stayed at the table for a while, and ate something.Xie Zaiyuan didn't know what his lunch was like at first, but now he knew, a puff, so exaggeratedly few.

"I originally planned to let him take a breath before thinking about how to let him receive treatment." He Xiuze said.

"You haven't been with him long enough."

He Xiuze was very helpless to Xie Zaiyuan's undisguised words, but still nodded: "Yes, I have dispelled this idea in the past two days. I found that I couldn't speak at all. I was afraid that he would be stubborn and see me, and I would become a bad person instead."

It seems that he doesn't have to be a villain anymore, the villain already has a perfect candidate, and he has his own sense of propriety.

Speaking of this, He Xiuze sighed, and said, "But you are too hasty, so I have to feel that you are selfish and purposeful."

Xie Zaiyuan had been busy here for a whole day, and there were still matters waiting to be resolved in the company. He didn't stay long, and when he went out, Lin didn't turn his back to him, and deliberately missed his gaze. He turned his gaze back and went straight to the car. After he left, Lin didn't straighten up, and slowly went back to the flower shop.

He knew best that he shouldn't show up, but he couldn't help it.This is the punishment of lying and deceiving, and he has tasted all the bitterness.

During the two months when Lin Wu disappeared, Xie Zaiyuan couldn't sleep at all. He dreamed of the torrential rain that day, and Lin Wu walked aimlessly on the street alone, disappearing into the water vapor.He shouted Lin Mei's name loudly, and even dragged Lin Mei recklessly, chasing after his voice, but in the end, Lin Mei left him without looking back.

do not go.

do not die.

Waking up from a nightmare is a kind of fluke. Every time Xie Zaiyuan was frightened into a cold sweat, he had to wait for at least 5 minutes before he could wake up. He told himself repeatedly that Lin was fine, but he was just hiding in the crowd. Opportunities to look for.

He was shrouded in unprecedented fear, not being able to see a single minute of Lin Mei, to others it was a gap in daze, a pause in drinking water, but to Xie Zaiyuan it was tantamount to Ling Chi.

He was afraid, afraid that Lin Wu would not think about it anymore, that Lin Wu would not be wronged, that Lin Wu would die quietly, he was only 26 years old, he should stand up and open his eyes to see the world, and get all the good things.

It's not that he can't wait, it's not that he can't leave, who can guarantee that Lin will not have an accident?

Before that, Xie Zaiyuan admitted that he was a very purposeful person, and he was the main one in everything. This time when facing Lin Mei, everything about him spontaneously ranked at the bottom.

After finishing the company's affairs, it was about to dawn outside the window. Xie Zaiyuan received a call from the driver, saying that it was already the scheduled time.So Xie Zaiyuan tidied up the scattered papers on the table, placed them on the assistant's seat, and went straight to the garage.

The light in the early morning was not strong, and mist could be seen in the mountains. Xie Zaiyuan took a car to the temple, and the monks inside were already reciting scriptures in a low voice, and a monk welcomed him in.

Went to offer incense at six o'clock sharp, the driver followed Xie Zaiyuan, stood still outside the treasure hall, and watched Xie Zaiyuan kneel down in front of the Buddha statue upright.

The driver thought to himself, as expected, the boss was praying for Lin Bu. Here in Lin Bu, all the previous rules have been completely broken. The boss is not superstitious and will never show weakness. He only believes in himself.

Seeing Xie Zaiyuan bow down piously, the strong contrast gave the driver a feeling that Xie Zaiyuan was very helpless and dazed at this moment, but he quickly put it behind him.

As long as Xie Zaiyuan stands up again, in front of him and in front of everyone, he will always remain calm and self-possessed. No one can crush him, no one can defeat him, and what he does is right.He cannot be crushed, nor can he be defeated, the cost of his wrongdoing is too great, and he cannot and will not allow vulnerability.

Xie Zaiyuan left here amidst the sound of wooden fish, the smoke of incense bypassed him, and the faint sparks reminded him of the cigarette Lin did not light, held between his slender fingers, and would stifle it out when he saw him.

He never went to the temple to eat vegetarian food before Chinese New Year, and now he started to offer oil for Lin Mo's lamps, and he didn't know how much his wish would come true. Such a thing as a lifetime of worry-free life is a dream, but Xie Zaiyuan still wants Lin to not be like this through the next few decades.

He was restless when Xie You sent a message and said: Dad, I always feel that there is a strange smell in the house after I wake up.

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Because of Xie Zaiyuan's words, he fell asleep two hours late at night. He Xiuze woke up the next day with dark circles under his eyes. When he saw Xie Zaiyuan in the elevator, he thought he was dreaming. Wouldn't it be hard to push Lin so hard?"

Xie Zaiyuan pushed him away, and hurried into the elevator. He Xiuze saw that his face was not right, and subconsciously thought that Xie Zaiyuan was impulsive, and was going to tie Lin up and ask for medical treatment, so he immediately chased after him: "Don't be self-righteous, what you see often It's the tip of the iceberg! Think about it!"

"These words are also for you." Xie Zaiyuan said.

Xie You opened the door for Xie Zaiyuan. He would not turn off the gas stove, but he had already opened all the windows.Xie Zaiyuan walked into the closed kitchen in three steps and two steps, and turned off the gas.He Xiuze, who came in from behind, also smelled the smell of gas, but luckily it wasn't very strong, otherwise it would be dangerous.

Xie Zaiyuan covered his mouth and nose, came out of the kitchen with a cold face, and then walked to the door of Lin Mei's room.

Is it a hard knock?or what?

He Xiuze was terrified, seeing Xie Zaiyuan lowering his head at the door, slowly opening Lin Mei's door with trembling hands, and then closing it quietly.

Xie Zaiyuan didn't panic because of this, in He Xiuze's view, his expression just became more stern, and he suppressed his voice so as not to wake up the sleeping people in the room.He asked Xie You to send a message to Lin Wei: "Just say that you have to go to class first, and the air in the house is not very good, so you need to ventilate."

How did Xie Zaiyuan come here for more than two months?

I have thought about it thousands of times for Lin, and this is just one corner of it.

The author has something to say: I’m sorry that I’ve been around recently and didn’t update yesterday. Today is a little late. I’m sorry again. I’ll fix the sentence later.