after the canary rebellion

Chapter 18 Punishing the Heart

"Understood." The man responded, and he simply started talking to Xie Zaiyuan from the beginning, "The girl next door has moved in for more than 20 years, and she has been taking drugs for many years since she moved in. At the beginning, she beat the child if she couldn't take it."

"beat child?"

"Yes, I have no money and I feel angry, so I have to vent my anger on the child. She was pregnant out of wedlock. She was unhappy with her natal family, but she was taken back for the sake of the child. They found out that she was taking drugs. How can I tolerate it?" Get off her." The man smoked a cigarette, "I remember she used to say that luckily she brought the child out, otherwise this life would be difficult."

"Bringing it out will make her life more stressful, and it won't do any good." Xie Zaiyuan said.

"Song Lin thinks that children who come out as soon as they come out, who usually do things without thinking about the consequences, and live carelessly as soon as they are given food, are actually okay. She said that her teacher thinks that the child is talented and is willing to teach others for free. Dancing, chatting with us for a while."

The man clicked his tongue, and suddenly remembered some details, and patted the table: "Song Lin's addiction is getting bigger and bigger, and she always needs to borrow money, so we will give her five yuan and ten yuan, and it is right to send the plague god away." I didn't know much about it later, the kid dropped out of school to work for a few years and then came back, saying he wanted to pay us back."

"Whoever owes five yuan, who owes ten yuan, the child still remembers clearly after so many years, five yuan becomes five hundred, ten yuan becomes one thousand, I'm afraid we owe us. Then he put Song Lin was sent to a nursing home, and there was no news for a long time after that."

Xie Zaiyuan pinched the photo in his pocket, restrained his trembling voice, and asked, "Then why did Song Lin leave the hospital this year?"

"She seems to have lied to Lin. After she was discharged from the hospital..." The man pointed at his temple and shook his head, "The brain problem became more serious, and the nanny was scared away, and then her child came back. The clothes are the same as those shown on TV. Celebrities look the same, they look so fucking womanly."

Dissatisfied with the man's wording, Xie Zaiyuan frowned slightly, and finally took a serious look at the man. His brows had been through vicissitudes, and Lin Bufei and Ying should be from two different worlds.

Not only him, but the whole place should have nothing to do with Lin.Lin Mei should be pampered and not subject to any wind and rain. If he knew Lin Mei earlier, he would not let him suffer at all. If he likes to dance, he will learn it. It's my hobby.

The man recounted to Xie Zaiyuan all the gossip he had seen from other people's houses, and then he talked about what happened on the seventh day of the Lunar New Year.

"It was agreed that she would be sent back to the nursing home the next day, but in the middle of the night, Song Lin became addicted and went crazy, so I heard the sound of something being thrown inside the door."

"Looking at a skinny person, the whole alley could hear her swearing, I don't know if Lin had any conflict with her, we saw that something was wrong, so we opened the door directly, here, it's the same as what you saw At that time, I was scared to death, Lin Bu was strangled by her, and there were red marks all over her neck, so scared that we wanted to call the police."

"I almost forgot what Song Lin yelled. I didn't take it to heart at the time, and thought she was noisy." The man threw the cigarette on the ground, rubbed it repeatedly with his shoes, and said, "You're sure you won't listen to it. swear words, and...how much is the password to ask Xie..."

"Thank you?" Xie Zaiyuan was stunned for a moment, why this matter is still related to him, and then confirmed: "Is it Xie Zaiyuan?"

"Yes, yes, yes, the accent is almost the same. She sometimes asks the access code, and sometimes scolds Lin, but Lin has a bad temper and is a little bit along with her. She refuses to tell her life or death, and she refuses to tell a lie. Our neighbors I have persuaded him several times outside the door." The man said.

Xie Zaiyuan was incredulous: "Access code?"

"Hey! Song Lin is out of her mind. She may have heard about it somewhere, or she may have hallucinations." The man scratched his chin. He hadn't shaved his beard for a long time and looked very sloppy. I didn’t say anything at the end, I can’t remember clearly, you should ask other people, someone should remember.”

Xie Zaiyuan left the family, and the child was still squatting in the corridor, looking at him with wide eyes, seeing his doubts, and took the initiative to explain to him why he didn't go to school: "My family doesn't pay for meals! The teacher must Ask me to have lunch at school."

Xie Zaiyuan didn't know if Lin Mo was like this before, maybe he was a little more downcast.The child bravely looked up at him with timid eyes.

"Are you a star too?" the child asked.

Xie Zaiyuan said, "No, how did you guess?"

"You are good-looking, and you are rich." Pointing to his clothes, the child replied earnestly, "All rich people wear suits, leather shoes, and ties."

"That's not necessarily the case. Be careful of being deceived." Xie Zaiyuan said.

The child looked at the restraint, and when he mentioned Song Lin, he called her by her first name: "Why is my brother, like Song Lin, worried that the child will be cheated every day."

"Song Lin?" Xie Zaiyuan caught the key word and asked, "Then do you know what Song Lin didn't talk to Lin at the end?"

Afraid that he would ask too abruptly and eagerly, he added dryly: "Brother will buy you candy."

"It's clear, she speaks loudly!" Hearing that there will be sweets to eat, the child imitated Song Lin's voice and shouted, "Xiao Mo, don't be deceived, I'm so scared."

She thought that what she said was exaggerated, it should be funny, but the blood on Xie Zaiyuan's face faded, this fragile expression looked strange on a flawless face.The child frowned: "Brother, are you going to cry?"

Xie Zaiyuan forced words out of his throat to deny: "Of course not, I'm fine."

Immediately, he fell into silence. He thought, he seemed to be struck by lightning at this moment, but when Lin didn't find out about Lin Mo, he was definitely as shocked as he was.

He took out a cash check from his wallet, filled it out and handed it to the child, saying: "For your parents, remember to make an appointment in advance, after paying the meal expenses for the next few years, you can also buy a lot of candy."

The child held the check and looked left and right. It was the first time he saw this kind of thing, and he replied: "It's okay if you don't go to class. I'm like Lin, and my brother is going to work as a big star. You can make a lot of money by taking pictures. , can earn a big house in a year.”

"Nothing is easy." Xie Zaiyuan looked at her.

The child didn't understand what Xie Zaiyuan said, and he didn't know where to put the check. He held the check and said goodbye to him politely.

Xie Zaiyuan left this messy narrow alley and walked all the way to the parking lot.Because of his wandering mind, he almost collided with the battery car, and the commuters who were driving to clock in on the battery car narrowly missed him and said, "Young man doesn't look at the road when crossing traffic lights."

Then an old man in volunteer clothes rushed over and directed: "Don't block, don't block, the vehicles move."

Xie Zaiyuan and the old man looked at each other and were stunned in unison.The old man pulled him to the side of the road and said, "Are you Xiao Lin's ex-boyfriend? Do you work near here?"

"No, I'll come and see where he used to live." Xie Zaiyuan explained.

The old man said: "Xiao Lin's mentality is very bad. Sometimes I can't talk about him."

Xie Zaiyuan smiled forcedly: "I can't tell, and it's easy to be led astray by him."

"That's right, what can you say about him? Fortunately, it's not my child. My loved ones are so distressed. He encountered some difficulties and committed suicide when he said he committed suicide. You have a good temper and are willing to fight with him. But you must not argue with him for this moment Right or wrong, if he is more vulnerable, his body will not be able to take it anymore."

This is probably the first time Xie Zaiyuan heard someone say that he has a good temper. He wanted to deny it but thought it was unnecessary, so he just said: "To tell you the truth, he is not a glass that breaks when it is dropped, and these are not things that can be overstated lightly with a few words. of."

He sensed Xie Zaiyuan's attitude towards this matter, and casually said another thing: "I talked to Xiao Lin about some antiques, and he is quite knowledgeable about these things, but he refuses to admit that he has learned it on purpose. I guess it's because you like it." , he just went to do his homework, and now you two are in a stalemate, and he can't bear to admit it, is this a reliable guess? Since you want to save him, let him do it more, this person's temper will not change for a while of."

Xie Zaiyuan asked respectfully: "In your opinion, is he wrong?"

"Of course there is. The older you are, the more you can't see these things. For those who care about him, suicide is so innocent to be forced to endure so much pain. But for him, it is right that he is willing, and he may still bear grudges." The person who saved him can only see if he is ungrateful, he has broken the pot and fell to this point, can the worldly reason still be trapped?"

Xie Zaiyuan knew it well, but what he saw in the alley just now was still too much of a blow, and he urgently needed to listen to other people's thinking to take a breath of relief.

On the way to work, he suddenly remembered the antiques mentioned by the other party. He didn't respond to whether the guess was correct, but it was obviously wrong.

With how well Xie Zaiyuan knew Lin Mei, he could easily figure out Lin Mei's true thoughts. The reason why Lin Mei refused to admit it had nothing to do with him, but because Lin Mei was inferior.

After delivering the vase, someone in Xie's family felt that Lin Wu didn't know the goods, and said something eccentrically. Lin Wu didn't care on the surface, but in fact he still hasn't forgotten those contemptuous eyes. Even though he later learned about this knowledge, he still couldn't bear it That hurdle, I subconsciously thought that I didn't understand it.

Xie Zaiyuan couldn't help asking himself, what did he bring to Lin Mu, facing his family's panic and loss, the loss of his favorite items that were not recognized after being given away, the seven years of joy, anger, sorrow, joy, joy and joy are just a bubble , while the other two are all true.Lin didn't try his best to chase his own back, hoping that one day he could walk side by side, but found that looking at the beginning of that back was a mistake.

His actions were enough to make Lin not trust him at all when he exposed the lies.It's not Lin's fault, it's his fault. He didn't give Lin a sense of insecurity, and made Lin Wuhao decisively believe in a relationship that didn't respond when he collapsed.

Song Lin's words when she was about to die were the greatest irony. Xie Zaiyuan went into Lin Mei's room without knowing anything on the day when Lin Mei was transferred to the ward.

No, the stupidest one is myself.

Xie Zaiyuan lowered his eyes and touched his sore shoulder, where there were still tooth marks left by Lin Bu.The pain last night was nothing compared to one ten-millionth of the pain I was feeling right now.

Only then did he truly understand what it means to punish the heart.