After I was reborn, I acted like a spoiled brat

Chapter 218 Don't Be Selfish, Don't Go Crazy

Sheng Yixiao was startled, he didn't bring antidepressant medicine, so it's okay not to take medicine today, right?

Looking at the receding scenery outside the car window, he was getting farther and farther away from the Emperor's Garden. He had already boarded the viaduct and headed towards the direction of the crew.

I can't go back to get medicine.

If you go back and come out again, you will be late.

You can go to a nearby pharmacy to buy it, but Sheng Yixiao doesn't have this idea, and doesn't want to be photographed by the paparazzi buying antidepressants.

Sheng Yixiao fumbled with his hands in his pockets, wanting to find out the medicine bottle, but there was no medicine bottle, his hands were empty, and he clenched his fists, looking very anxious and uneasy.

These emotions are not shown on the face, calm and indifferent.

The more he felt like this, the more expressionless his face became.

No problem, brother Ci is very happy, let this body be happy, and he will also feel happy, very relaxed, and feel that his depression has been cured.

Sheng Yixiao thought so self-deceivingly, the corners of his lips curled up slightly, and there was a relaxed smile, but he seemed very forced.

Sheng Yixiao closed his eyes, and the things that he didn't take the medicine before suddenly flashed through his mind.

I remember forgetting to take medicine once, because I was too busy and had no time.

While busy, the body has withdrawal reaction, first of all, the body feels heavy.

It seemed that the cement floor suddenly turned into a quagmire, and my feet gradually sank into it, unable to move forward.

At that time, the tense nerves were in a state of being broken at any time.

At that time, my heart was full of despair.

When it was time to rest, he stayed in the lounge. When he was alone, he looked at the decoration of the lounge, sat still, and looked at a place with a dull expression.

At that time, the state was that the thinking was rigid and unable to think.

No matter what the agent called him, he didn't respond.

The agent had been with him for so many years, and knew that he was suffering from depression. Seeing him like that, he was already frightened and overwhelmed, so he quickly acted calmly.

Hit him, woke him up.

The manager's slap was so strong that Sheng Yixiao felt pain and stimulated his numb nerves, and when he reacted, he realized that he was ill.

After taking medicine, it returned to normal after a long time, showing a serious exhaustion.

There was another time when I ran out of medicine. I was filming in the mountains and went down to the village but I couldn’t find a place to buy medicine. I had a severe withdrawal reaction.

Nausea after eating, general weakness, dizziness, confused thinking, unable to sleep, eyes staring blankly at the darkness for a long time.

During that period, Brother Ci didn't come out and was sleeping all the time.

During that period, he struggled alone and worked hard to become the gentle actor that everyone likes.

Once I couldn't hold on any longer, and when I saw a knife, I wanted to pick it up.

The medicine cannot be stopped, and if you stop, you will return to hell, and life is worse than death.

After taking the medicine, he adjusted the nerves, passed the lightness, relieved the heaviness and numbness, made him more comfortable, and had the energy to think.

Since then, he has to take medicine on time and take it with him.

Take medicine packaged with vitamins with you.

I didn't bring any medicine today, I went to filming today...

Sheng Yixiao rubbed his eyebrows, covered most of his face with his big hands, concealing his anxiety.

If there is no medicine, then restrain yourself and prevent yourself from getting into trouble.

If Brother Ci came out, he would feel something strange in his body and suffer pain.

He didn't want Brother Ci to bear those pains.

I don't want Brother Ci to find out that this body has depression.

This body not only has depression, but also mental illness.

Brother Ci, as the main personality, if he suffers from depression, the mental illness will relapse and the situation will become very serious.

Like the period before the birth of the secondary personality many years ago.

The most desperate and painful period.

Can't let Brother Ci repeat the past!

Sheng Yixiao had this idea, but also had bad thoughts, which was very painful and crazy: "Why am I the only one who suffers from this pain?"

[I want Brother Ci to share the pain, let him struggle with me in hell, and never get out! 】

Sheng Yixiao soon realized that he had a crazy idea, and was so frightened that he immediately stopped thinking.

This is an extreme idea that I don't have a good life, I can't see you having a good life, and I insist on making your life worse than mine.

He couldn't think like this, suggesting to himself over and over again.

Can't be selfish, can't be crazy!

Sheng Yixiao's breathing became unsteady, showing depression and restraint.

The manager asked, "Brother Xiao, what's wrong with you?"

"It's nothing."

Sheng Yixiao instantly entered the acting state, smiling softly, like a spring breeze.

My heart is full of sorrow. From now on, do I have to act 24 hours a day?

"It's already here." The manager parked the car, parked in the parking lot near the crew, and got down to open the door for Sheng Yixiao.

Sheng Yixiao got out of the car and stood under the sun, feeling the warmth brought by the sun.

Looking at the sun shining around, it's very bright, very... dazzling!

Sheng Yixiao squinted subconsciously, his body was in the sun, his heart was in the dark, and he was suffering from pain.

Sheng Yixiao tugged on his tie. He obviously felt that it was normal to tie it. He didn't strangle his neck, but he felt that his neck was strangled and he couldn't breathe. He wanted to tear off the tie.

Walking into the crew, he walked very slowly along the way. He felt that his steps became heavy. He raised his eyes and saw a director and a group of people in front of him. The distance was very short, which made him feel very long, as if it would take a lifetime to walk across.

Along the way, when the crew saw him, they showed expressions of respect and admiration, and greeted him: "Hello Sheng Yingdi!"

Sheng Yixiao responded with a smile, but did not speak.

The smile became different from before, full of hypocrisy.

I have been acting in a state of acting, adjusting my acting skills at any time so that everyone can't see it.

If someone appeared and saw that he was acting, who would that person be?

Sheng Yixiao thought of Zhi Xiao, would he see it?

In my heart, I started to look forward to it, hoping that Zhi Xiao would see through his acting and see through his pain.

No, this cannot be expected.

The child belongs to Brother Ci, not to him, so he can't have any extravagant expectations.

Sheng Yixiao felt even more depressed, almost feeling out of breath.

It feels like walking, the road under your feet is no longer a quagmire, but an extremely thin steel wire.

Surrounded by an abyss, the cold wind howled.

It kept blowing, blowing on his shaking body.

Sheng Yixiao felt that his vision was beginning to be covered with black spots, and he felt dizzy in his head.

He hasn't started filming yet!

Keep going, keep going!

Don't let the people around you notice his strangeness.

Sheng Yixiao took a deep breath and came to the director, "Director Yu, long time no see."

Director Yu greeted Sheng Yixiao happily, "Long time no see, when was the last time we cooperated?"

Sheng Yixiao smiled and said, "Last year..."

Director Yu is over 50, with a fat body and a kind smile, he can't be seen as a strict director.

Director Yu had a conversation with Sheng Yixiao, and they talked about the newcomer playing the young male lead.

Director Yu looked at the white-haired boy in the distance, with an excited expression, and said to Sheng Yixiao, "The newcomer fits the image of the young hero too well. I heard that he is in the same company as you. Do you know him?"

Sheng Yixiao smiled slightly, "Understood, he is the key person to be trained by the company, and Boss Lu asked me to guide him."

Director Yu was surprised, "Is he a key artist?"

"Yes, he is very talented." Sheng Yixiao said, "You will understand after watching him act."

Director Yu looked forward to it, "Okay, let me see how talented he is."

Sheng Yixiao went to the rest room to change into costumes. The makeup artist came in to do his styling, while the assistant was busy with other things.

Sheng Yixiao looked at himself in the villain shape, with a dark and charming style, and there was a wave of fluctuation in his heart.

To play a villain, you have to show a dark aura.

dark……

Sheng Yixiao felt that an idea appeared uncontrollably in his heart. Playing a villain can release his heart and make him feel more relaxed.

No, this cannot be done.

He rationally felt that if he did this, his sub-personality would collapse.