A and M's Daily Season 2

Chapter 38 Chapter Family

There was finally movement on the opposite side, and a muffled voice came from inside: "Brother...Brother Han Yue is gay. I ran into him two years ago and went to a room with a man."

"..."

My brain froze when I heard the news, my tongue was tied up, and I couldn't make a complete sentence for a long time: "Ah... this... he... I... no, this... are you sure?"

The younger sister let out a sigh of relief, full of sleepiness: "I'm sure, it was my friend who discovered it first, and she said hey, look at the pair of Xiao Gong and Xiao Shou eating ice cream together, it's so cute, I turned around and saw Han Yue and a boy line up for a second McDonald's half-price cone"

"...Maybe they really just want to eat ice cream together?"

"I thought so too at first." The younger sister paused for a few seconds before continuing, "I followed them all the way to make sure."

"..."

"Then I found out that they finished eating the cones and went to the Express Hotel"

"...Maybe he just sent a friend back to the hotel"

"I think so too…"

"That's right, you can't just look at things on the surface..." Before she finished speaking, she interrupted, "I waited outside for half an hour and didn't see brother Han Yue coming out. I asked him personally that night."

"..."

"And then he admitted it too"

"..."

"Brother, why don't you talk?"

I called out: "Sister"

"Hey, what's the matter?"

"Brother suddenly felt that you are simply a talent"

The younger sister laughed after listening: "You just discovered that I have always been a talent (￣▽￣")"

I really didn’t expect Han Yue to be gay. He has always attracted young girls, and his grades are good. He never caused trouble in school and was never discovered. He has a tendency to fall in love with puppies. He is also tall, and many old people in the courtyard must be boasting when they mention him.Every time my grandma saw Grandma Han, she kept saying: Your eldest grandson is really good. If my granddaughter hadn’t gone abroad, she would definitely marry the eldest of the Han family as his daughter-in-law.

Now that I think about it, it's no wonder that middle and high school don't have puppy love, people might not be interested in women at all.

I asked my sister, "Did you tell him about my uncle and I?"

The younger sister felt a little guilty when she heard this, and whispered: "Brother, don't be angry, listen to my explanation..."

"Okay, you explain. I see what you can say. You tell people that my brother is gay all day long like a loudspeaker. This problem can't be changed?"

She stopped talking, and it took a long time before she dared to mutter: "I didn't do this just to give brother Han Yue some psychological comfort..."

"What psychological comfort can this give? Do you want us to be friends together as a companion?"

"Oh, listen to my explanation." She breathed a sigh of relief, and slowly began to process: "I asked Brother Han Yue that night, and Brother Han Yue immediately admitted it. He has a very good attitude, please don't make it public, and his tone is quite humble..."

"At first he was afraid that I would speak out, so he almost begged, and then I told him that I would definitely not speak out, because my brother is also gay, and I know what you are afraid of, what you are worried about."

"Brother Han Yue and that boy met in the army. The man was a soldier in his company. He was bullied once and Brother Han saw him and went up to help him out. After that, the two became acquainted and kept going. Well, Brother Han Yue is very kind to that person, and whenever they are free, they ask for leave together to come out to play..."

As she was talking, she stopped suddenly, and it took a long time to utter a word, "That man retired from the army last year, and returned to his hometown in July to get married."

I shook my hand holding the phone and didn't say anything, feeling quite uncomfortable hearing it.China is very intolerant of homosexuality. In the eyes of the Chinese public, the love between me and my uncle is a representative of abnormal emotions. Men who have sex with men will get AIDS. Homosexuality is 419. It is immoral, has no bottom line, and messes around.In fact, many situations are forced out by rumors like China. Since the society thinks that we are cheap and homosexuals love to mess around, why should we be obedient?If they could come out hand in hand in a fair and honest way, who would want to sneak into bed with different people all day long, and go home at night to sleep in a cold bed by themselves.

My sister acted coquettishly with me in a soft voice: "Brother, don't be angry, I just wanted to comfort Brother Han Yue, so I told him about you without thinking too much. It is impossible for him to go abroad in his life, let alone being gay..."

Yes, it's not easy for everyone. It's not easy to mix in this circle and fall in love with the same sex. I don't know whether to call it evil or fate.I have thought many times, if I can fall in love with a girl and talk about a normal public heterosexual relationship, will it be much easier than what I am living now?

"I see. Go to bed early, and I'll talk to him."

The younger sister was still a little worried, and said: "Then you watch it and talk about it, don't talk about his pain."

After hanging up the phone and walking back to the store, Han Xu and Lawyer Mi had already cleaned up the floor and beer bottles, and they were happily drinking a bowl of red bean and lotus seed soup.Seeing me coming back, Han Xu glanced over and looked at me straight, his eyes moved back and forth between my uncle and me.

As soon as I sat down, Lawyer Mi immediately pushed another bowl in front of me, and said like a treasure: "Try this, it is sweet, you must like it, and there is soft dough inside, it is delicious."

I took it and took a sip: "The taste of the red bean soup cooked by Aunt Zhang has not changed, it still tastes the same, it's really fragrant."

Han Xu smiled: "You have been abroad for a long time, and you can eat anything delicious when you come back." He drank the soup in one gulp, threw the bowl on the table with a big grin, picked his teeth with a toothpick and asked, "When will you go back?" Huh? If you still have time, do you want me to drive you to play more?"

I waved my hand and declined: "Tomorrow night's flight, we have been back for two or three weeks, and I stayed with my old man and old lady in Chengdu for more than two weeks."

"Hey, I seem to have heard from my grandma that they are going to Chengdu for the winter this year, so what are they going to do in Chengdu? My grandpa complains that now that your grandpa is away, no one will play chess with him."

While we were chatting, Han Yue got up silently and quietly settled the bill.I felt embarrassed. Although a bowl of fried noodles is not expensive, it is always bad to owe someone. I took out 20 yuan and wanted to pay him back.He waved his hand: "Your sister has helped me a lot in the past few years, it's right to treat you to a meal."

I asked the proprietress for a piece of paper, left him my mobile phone number and WeChat ID, and put it in his hand: "If you have anything to do, just call me."

Han Yue was paralyzed, pinching the piece of paper: "Are you pitying me?"

I shook my head and said, "I think we are all like-minded people, and we should help each other."

He stuffed the paper into his wallet and saw Lawyer Mi stand up behind him, habitually unfolding my coat and trying to put it on me.

"Your friend treats you very well," Han Yue said in a calm tone, staring at Uncle without blinking for a long time.

"Well, he was good to me"

His eyes darkened: "Really? That's good."

The four parted at the door of the store. Han Xu asked for my mobile phone and WeChat, and yelled that he would go to the United States to play with me in the future, and asked me to take him to Las Vegas to watch sky shows and lap dances.

Han Yue patted me on the shoulder and repeated that sentence: "Let's have a good time with him, go back to America, don't come back"

Don't come back, the four words are like four knives, all pierced into my chest.This is not the first time someone has said that to me.When I returned home and came out of the closet when I graduated, my grandma held my hand in tears and said tremblingly: "Since you have a good life in the United States, don't come back...China doesn't tolerate homosexuality, and you will suffer here. "

I thought they said that because they disliked my sexuality. From then to today, I really haven't come back to visit the elderly once in so many years.It wasn't until this time that I took Lawyer Mi back to China for a visit and lived in Chengdu and Beijing for a period of time that I realized that China is so cruel to homosexuals and that the domestic homosexual circle is so difficult.No one advocates for gay rights, and no one supports homosexuality openly.

Maybe it’s because I’ve stayed in the United States for too long, maybe I haven’t adapted to the country, maybe I’m used to being unscrupulous, holding Lawyer Mi’s hand, and walking freely on the streets, forgetting the most important point, Homosexuality is not acceptable to everyone.

I was absent-minded all afternoon, thinking about what Han Yue said, go back to the United States, don't come back.My nationality and ancestry are all Chinese. My household registration booklet and native place are all written in Beijing, but I am no longer sure whether I am a Beijinger or not.Neither my hometown nor Beijing is what I remember, and my Beijing accent is almost fading away.

There is a good saying, so here you are, too foreign for home, too foreign for here, Notenough for both. It is very difficult for people who go abroad, and they are getting farther and farther away from Chinese culture, but they are not really Americans, and they are neither.

Uncle saw my solemn expression, and hugged me worriedly, "What's the matter, are you feeling unwell?"

I shook my head and took his hand: "I'll take you somewhere".

Take the No. 66 bus, get off at the terminal station, walk to a tea house on the second floor next to the street, go in and ask for a seat by the window, and order the pot Biluochun.Quietly looking at the intersection across the street.

Lawyer Mi didn't speak, and sat quietly with me while drinking tea.The tea was refilled twice, and after waiting for almost 30 minutes, a familiar figure appeared at the intersection. The man was not tall, wearing a pair of slippers, holding a cigarette in his right hand and a pigeon cage in his left hand, looking behind him as if he was waiting for someone .Not long after, a short-haired woman ran up from behind, and the woman ran forward bluffing, holding the man's hand, and the two walked away along the side of the road together.

I silently watched the figures of those two people disappear, without saying a word, paid the tea money silently, and took my uncle downstairs to take a taxi.

In the car, Lawyer Mi kept looking at me, his eyes full of worry, but he didn't dare to speak.I saw his nervous little expression, and smiled: "Why are you frowning?"

He whispered: "Asher, are you unhappy? If you are unhappy, tell me, is it because I did something wrong? I..."

I lowered my eyes and squeezed his hand tightly: "It's not you, it's my own reason..."

"The person holding the pigeon cage just now is my father"

"In my life, I may never be able to introduce you to him"

Attorney Mi put his arms around my shoulders and said comfortingly, "It's okay, I'm already very happy to be able to go back to China with you."

Looking at his face, I suddenly felt extremely selfish.Between my family and Lawyer Mi, I chose the latter without any hesitation or consideration.

Lawyer Mi saw that I was not in good condition, so he suggested going back to the hotel to rest.I happened to pass by a Daoxiang Village on the way back, and told the driver to pull over and go to Daoxiang Village to sell dim sum first.I was picking and packing things at the dim sum place, and Mi Jinmao was squatting alone at the deli, looking at the rows of marinated products on the counter.Seeing him staring at it for a long time, an aunt held a piece of chicken feet and handed it over. Attorney Mi pointed to herself, "For me?"

The aunt nodded, and stretched out the clip again. Lawyer Mi carefully reached out to take it, and finished eating it after a few bites. He ran over with the bone in his hand, pointed to the cooked food area over there and said, "The food over there is delicious, let's buy some. Let's go," and after finishing speaking, he showed me the chicken feet that he had just gnawed.

He went to the cooked food area to pick out some vermicelli sausages, pork liver, pig ears and half a catty of stewed products. Holding the bag, he was very happy, and kept 'crab crab' with the aunts, taking the opportunity to tease the aunts. Daoxiang Village, which cost more than 400 yuan, agreed to bring back a few boxes for my sister and friends. In one night, my uncle wiped out most of them by himself, and there was almost nothing left to eat.After returning to China for three weeks, Lawyer Mi's proud abdominal muscles have obviously softened a lot, and a small layer of soft flesh has grown on his stomach, which feels good to the touch.

The next day, he rarely let me sleep until I woke up naturally. It was almost one o'clock in the afternoon when I opened my eyes. I took the plane at 6 o'clock in the evening. After eating a few snacks, I ordered a car to go to the airport.On the way to the airport, I took another good look at the scenery outside the window, and bid farewell to this city shrouded in gray smog silently.After boarding the plane, Lawyer Mi looked out of the window reluctantly, turned his head and said to me: "China is so nice, let's come here when we have free time, just like I went back to France, you also go back to China a few more times."

I put my arm around him and said nothing.Although there was no medical assistance on the return flight, I fell into a coma all the way and didn't even eat the plane meal.When I opened my eyes again, I had already landed at JFK Airport in New York. I rubbed my eyes and looked out the window. It was a different scene.

Lawyer Mi stood up, stretched his legs, and said energetically, "It's been more than ten hours. No matter how comfortable the first-class cabin is, it's still tiring... Asher, you didn't... Hey... What's wrong with you, Asher? Why are you crying? "

I looked at him, touched my face, and before I knew it, tears were streaming down my face.Uncle came over nervously, "Oh, why are you crying? Are you homesick? Are you sad? If you are particularly sad, we can take a few more weeks off and go back to China to stay longer."

Wiping tears and shaking his head, "No, I'm fine"

Uncle was still nervous, and confirmed again and again: "Really? If you are sad, tell me."

I wiped away my tears and tried to restore my smile: "It's okay, really, I just feel...it's good to be back, we're going home"

He froze, touched my head, and said softly, "Yes, we are going home."

After returning to my apartment in Manhattan, New York, I still hugged my uncle and cried a lot that night. I didn’t know the reason for crying. I was inexplicably sad, but I couldn’t control it. I wanted to vent and shout out.

In a short time, I may not want to go back to China.